Say what??? 2017 is coming to an end?!

Where has the time gone? I have officially been unemployed for two years (would have lost track of it except that my renewal of license to practice sent a letter promptly to ask me for more $$$).

Do I miss clinical work? Of course. I miss the kiddos and the parents (not the crazy ones). I even dreamt about conducting sessions with the kids from time to time. I still keep in touch with some of my ex-clients and their parents. Some are coping well, some are not. Some mummies still messaged me occasionally when they needed help. Humbled that they still keep me in the loop and seek my advice from time to time. Come to think of it, it does mean something that they still trust me on my opinions when it comes to their kids. 

Do I regret putting my career on hold for the cheeky monkey of mine? To be honest, no. True that I earn alot lesser and I am still adapting to being dependent on my husband for financial support, I am just glad that I have the chance to witness every milestone that this baby of mine has and is still going through. No doubt it is very mundane and a 24/7 kind of job; no doubt that I will lose it sometimes and go into the crazy mother/wife mode; no doubt that I complained alot....I still think it is worth it to be able to go through this process without having to split myself between work and home. 

I love it when I get to wake up with my koala every morning. We often like to laze around in bed, partly because I refused to wake up. Although this boy is a very cheeky, rough and limit testing little person, I still love seeing him chuckle when we do rough play together. Now that he can speak simple words, I love it that he often calls for me - be it to irritate me with the non stop 'mama...mama...mama...' or to share/show me something that he found. I love it that he still hugs me as a bolster to sleep at night and always lifts up my shirt to touch my tummy/ belly button (yes that's how he falls asleep each night. He loves my fat tummy hahaha). Not too sure how we are going to get him to sleep on his own when the new house is here, we shall see how it goes. 

I guess the best feeling in the world is when I see how much koala loves playing/irritating his papa. It's like watching two kids playing together. Both are equally cheeky, noisy and crazy when they play with each other. It just warms my heart to see Puppy being silly when he's around koala. Perhaps now I should slowly let go and let them have father-son alone time, so that mummy can have 'me time' hahaha....o well...we shall see!

It's been a year!

O how time flies! It's been a year since I have last penned down my thoughts. It has been a steep-learning-curve; patience-testing; tear-rearing; know-your-spouse-better (the good and the bad) kind of year. 

Gave birth to Koala last year in April and now he is already a year old. Not a baby but not yet a toddler. Now he's all cheeky and ready to explore everything around him! He's picking things up so fast that sometimes I wish time can stand still for just that moment so that I can forever remember his actions, smiles and antics at that specific point of time. 

It was not easy taking care of an infant and sharing the load with the other half. There were quarrels (quarrels that we have never ever engaged in); there were anger (we have never been that angry with each other ever before); there were tonnes and tonnes of frustrations at times. But having stated those down side, there were also many laughter; many silly moments; many loving words and encouragement that both of us exchanged during the past year.  I can not imagine going through parenthood with anyone else but Pupz. It's the similar experience of climbing Mt K together. I do not think I can do that with anyone else other than him. We survived the climbing, we survived the first tedious year of taking care of Koala. Yeah!

Onwards, perhaps it's time to set more goals for myself to take care of my body and mind alittle more. I do not want to be the crazy mum and yellow face wife =(

Till the next update....

Yeah... I am finally done with the reports! No more reports! No more feeling guilty for not being able to send the reports! Yeah!! I can finally return all the files!

Anyway, have to step up on my exercises. After the Bangkok trip this weekends, I think I need to go for regular prenatal yoga classes to tone up and build the stamina...

On a side note, koala has been kicking so much more lately. His kicks are getting so much stronger and sometimes he seemed to be aiming at my bladder and that makes me wanna pee with each punch he did! Just yesterday, we could even see him pushing my tummy and making mini 'Kallang Waves'...so funny to see my tummy blobbing up and down...Hope he's doing well inside my tum tum...I can't wait to see him this Thursday when we go for the gynae...He's always hiding his face and back facing us when we did the ultrasound. Hopefully he'll let mummy and daddy see his face on Thursday!

Day 1- 4 of not working...

Alright...I have always been very slow in my responses and reactions towards situations. So this stay-at-home-till-delivery arrangement has not really sunk in much since the start of 2016. Partly also because Pupz took leave on the first 3 days to keep me company, which was very sweet of him.

Yesterday was technically the first day of me being home alone and not stepping out of the house. Cooked myself lunch, cooked dinner for the both of us. Not that bad except that lazy me did not go swimming nor exercise. My cooking skills sucks. I think I can survive on the food that I cooked for myself but to accommodate for Pupz's taste bud, I think it's still a long way to go. Porridge was cooked too early and hence turned out like baby porridge..nua nua one...tomato egg, turned out funny, xiao bai cai turned out alittle hard, though my explanation was it'll be too soft if I cooked it any longer. O well...at least we had a good laugh at it and he still finished his food..hahahahhaa....

As for today, went out to meet an ex-colleague for lunch. Then went home. Started to do abit of chores - vacuuming and mopping the floor, washing and drying the clothes...Felt so much like an aunty...but what to do, since I have the time on hand, might as well slowly pack and clean the house. I dread packing my room...There's so many things to pack away and prepare for Alexander's arrival! Plus I am not the most organized person to begin with. I need to start getting things ready for the little koala...so many things to follow up...and this Sat we have the pre-natal course to attend. Hopefully we'll have fun and not get too traumatized with the visual stuffs on deliver =p

 Gonna go swimming now!

Happy 2016!!!

Have not been writing since August as I was either too busy, too lazy or too tired to do so.

It's bittersweet, crossing from 2015 to 2016.

Bitter because I bid farewell to the kiddos that I have been seeing and my lovely colleagues, making the decision to quit  after 7-8 years of working in the same company. I finally managed to put the guilt aside (as in the responsibility towards my kiddos) and make plan for my family and I. I think I have reached a point where I am done with how the company's management has evolved and I know I can leave the company as I do not want to take any more crap. As much as I used to think I could grow with the company, I realize it is such a naive thought on my part. It is a great environment to be in, with lovely colleagues who are opened minded and supportive. But with employers who are not appreciative of the employees' effort and constantly passing false judgement, it is just disheartening to stay on.  I have finally come to conclusion that it is better that I leave than to stay on, making myself unhappy with things that are not within my control.

Sweet because I have a baby nephew, Andrew, he is sooooo adorable and chubby! His smiles can absolutely melt your heart. Another sweet thing is that I am expecting! Gonna be due in late March/ early April. I cannot wait to see little koala. Now that I can feel him moving and squirming inside me, it is really an amazing feeling! I am glad that hubby is supportive of me taking a break from work. I know it is quite stressful on his part especially financially, I am really grateful to have his support in my decision to quit working for awhile.

Anyhow, I will try to blog more especially on my pregnancy and my random thoughts.

1) Have not been feeling well :( It's either I'm feeling giddy or nausea...worse is when I caught the freaking coughing bug and I have been coughing my lungs out plus having a sore throat...Very irritable lately and I'm glad that puppy has been very understanding and patient with me...

2) I didn't go back to punggol today as I do not want to pass the bug to my dad. The last thing he should get is to fall sick, let alone having coughin which he always takes super long to recover plus I think it will probably hurt his wound. Felt so guilty that mama had prepared chicken wings for us but we were not able to make it home as I was feeling terrible the whole day. We pretty much just stay indoor, watch tv, sleep and rest...

3) Mother-in-law cooked bird nest for us all! Though puppy didn't take it as he didn't like it...his portion is in my tummy now...ha ha ha...very touched to have my mother-in-law doting on us and cooking for us. I'm so lucky to have her as my mummy.

I hope I have enough energy to go work tomorrow!!!

1) Not feeling well today and had to take MC for the day.

2) Glad that I get to rest. Didn't sleep much though. Just not feeling well all over esp in the day...

3) Glad that I feel better towards the end of the day...hope tomorrow I'll feel better!