Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

Monday, September 12, 2005

first of all...sigh...

i lost my hp...carelessly misplaced it...think i left it at the cityhall starbucks...didnt realise it till i get to boon keng train station...too late to go back to retrieve cos it was already 11pm...so shall try my luck tomolo...

didnt feel much of a pinch except for the contacts that i've lost...so ppl...forgive me if i reply ur msg with ' sorry may i know who u are??' cos i really dun have all your no. with me....

apart from this little boo boo...i'm actually quite happy today...went out with my gals...shopped around...and min managed to get her gown...bought myself a straw bag...very nice...like it alot...and it's cheap somemore...haha...okie i need to stop buying stuff...at the rate i'm going think mom is going to kill me...

here are some updated photos of my baby boy...super duper chubby baby...plus my own pic...

actually i juz wanna show yd and ck my latest style...hehe... handsome, i hope u had a great time with ur family!

abit blur cos auggy keeps moving...dun u think he looks like piyo piyo??

hehe my handsome boy...

yippe...cheap skirt i got from bugis village

pretty near to bohemian style lah hor...quite like it...

Saturday, September 10, 2005

okie...it's from jessie's and aud's blog...doing it for fun...haha...

seven things that scare me:
1. lizards
2. depression
3. losing my parents
4. being out of control with my life
5. loving someone and commit myself to that person
6. friends leaving me
7. labour pain

seven things i like most:
1. jogging,squash
2. suntanning with my pals
3. chilling out with my friends at Wala Wala or any coffee place or pubs
4. spending time with my family esp baby boy auggy
5. meeting up with my friends, giving them big hugs occassionally and letting them know that i really love them
6. cream brulee
7. ice vanilla latte from starbucks

seven important things in my room:
1. my small pillow, my big pillow
2. my handphone
3. my computer
4. my bed
5. air con
6. my computer chair
7. tissue papers

seven random facts about me:
1. stubborn...will never give in upon things that are totally against my principles
2. quite blur at times...
3. real bitchy at times...or most of the time when i'm with my pals...haha
4. love dogs!!!
5. need lots of assurance from ppl around me and i mind what they think of me
6. adore and love to attend drama productions
7. am quite a messy gal...come look at my room and u'll know...keke

seven things i plan to do before i die:
1. go Tibet and Salem, basically backpacking but those are the two places i die die wanna go
2. get belly button ring
3. be a successful OT and show my relatives that i'm the only one who made it to the medical line...who say we need doc in the family to do that...
4. work and study oversea
5. sing in a pub with yk as the base, yd as the pianist(organ), vicky as the guitarist...haha
6. own a bull terrier, a car
7. move out and live with my friends

seven things i can do:
1. burp real loud
2. long distance running
3. sleep less than 5 hours for approx. a week
4. play squash, badminton and attract shuttlecocks with my head
5. drink 10 shots before being a merlion and falling asleep like a dead log
6. go extra miles for friends who need me and who mean alot to me
7. smile at the simplest thing that is done for me

seven things i cant do:
1. to confront or quarrel with ppl
2. sewing
3. cook a full meal for my family
4. express myself well to others(except for those who really really understand me)
5. eat in a buffet that is worth the amount of money paid
6. cry in front of ppl
7. tell ppl something that is true but know it will hurt them ultimately( pehaps that's why i hold back quite alot sometimes...)

seven things that i say most:
1. wah biang
2. shit you
3. chi da bian
4. damn it
5. pui ( only used in squashcourts when i miss the balls)
6. anything
7. never mind lo

am one happy gal today!!! as always...reatail therapy worked!!

bought a long skirt from bugis village...quite cheap...at least within my affordable range...muah haha...got a plain top to match it too...yippee~~

tried levis jeans with fen too...eh like wat ck said...not outstanding leh...hmm...tried 593...but it juz doesnt seem as appealing...good...then i'll save 139 bucks...too bad for fen...cos hers fit perfectly...haha...she'll be broke....i'll juz stick to my skirts...keke...will continue to hunt for more...

to think that i used to own less than 5 skirts (mind u...it's inclusive of schl uniform skirts...haha) and now i quite like to wear them...am i a late bloomer or wat...feminity juz gotten into me like few years back only...haha...

yippee...i cant wait to meet up with min and apple on sun! miss them so much...sigh...too bad i aint a teacher like them...if not we'll be the 3 musket~chers...haha...having more and more frens into the teaching line...kinda made up to my inability to be one...so cool eh...i'm surrounded by teachers basically...cos my bro is a teacher...sis in law used to be one too...min and apple are teaching now...so is vic who is studying in nie...and jie going to be a pe teacher...wow....alot eh...haha...cant wait to hear them talking about their students...trust me the stories about them are funny...cos bro always narrate things that happened in schl...can be quite hilarious...haha

sometimes i ask myself if i regret not going into teaching chinese...i do miss chinese seriously...while others are struggling or avioding to learn it...i took higher chinese at A level and actually enjoyed it despite not having O level higher chinese as my foundation...haha....daring hor...

i mean my whole life revolves around chinese till i was 21...how can i not miss something that i truly enjoy and excel in...=) but sometimes things juz dun work out despite me being stubborn and fighting really hard for it...so letting go is something i have to do in order to move on...

=) no regrets...juz that i'm damn pai seh about my chinese standard now...cos i think it's really bad...haha....juz like wat i told yd previously...i wanted to write my first letter to him in chinese...but i realise my thoughts cant be processed thru my existing chinese system!!! argh..i think mine need to be upgraded soon....haha

Friday, September 09, 2005

listening to radio...current song played ~ Stop, look, listen (to your heart) by Michael Macdonald & Toni Braxton

yippe...friday is here...tiring week...really tiring week...but i'm not sleeping yet...

2 am in the morning...aint sleepy...perhaps cos i juz drank 2 cups of coffee...hehe...

'wat are the happy things that happened to you lately apart from auggy being born?'

yk always like to ask me questions like this...make me run thru things that have happened lately and sift out the ones that are worth remebering and feel happy about...=)

i miss hanging out with him and yd...juz the 3 of us...although i always have to bear with the bullying...i dun mind...kinda miss that actually...better not let yk know...if not he'll hit/push me doubly hard next time...haha

happy for yd...cos his family flying over to see him tomolo...bet he misses them lots...treasure the time u spend with them o...and dun forget my beach bag!! haha

hehe burped my baby boy juz now...sigh he kept puking milk...must have drank too much man...juz this morning i was playing with him...i kept poking his cheeks...cos they are REALLY chubby...i think he got irritated by me poking...ended up crying...=p haha...sorry...cant help it...

keke...kissed him on his forehead too before putting him to sleep...to compensate for the irritating himin the morning...muah haha...

Thursday, September 08, 2005

werid dreams...disrrupt my sleep when i'm so deprieved of it...sigh...

sore throat...abit feverish...

i'm so happy for my two frens...seeing them so happily together...keke...tells me i did the right thing...haha...

wow...for the whole of today...i didnt have any coffee till now...those who know me well...will know that i usually take more than 2 cups a day..haha..

i really have to thank geri...for she's been so patient with me all these while...since sat...i've been bugging her with tonnes of qn regarding my report...she ans all of my really stupid and ridiculous qn...and she taught me how to do the stupid irritating biomech tut today too...thank you so much gal....i truly appreciate it...and really sorry for bugging u ever so often...

and jessie babe...thanx for always taking my crap....i know sometimes i keep repeating the same thing...issues that i should not dwell on....thanx for listening and talking to me...=)
the entry u wrote...it's interesting...haha...meatballs aint necessary the thing that make spagetti taste good...there's always other better ingredients to make it taste even better...~wink~

am done with my coffee soon..which means working time is about to start...

at the moment...i'm abit scared....cos i realise i may be faced with emptiness in about 3 months time...once competition is over...training wont be so intense...i may work out less...i may not be so busy....and i'll get fat again....argh...dun wan le...i wanna be busy....like drama nite last time...i always feel alittle lost and sad after the whole thing is staged successfully....

like everything else...i have to learn to let go somehow....

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

before i start my biomech...did some tests that i found on handsome's website...haha...i need some fun after a tiring day...like today...

why do i feel that i'm always the bad guy...although i try to make the best out of the bad situation...if they're in my shoes how would they feel if i said the same thing to them...

Your Seduction Style: The Coquette

You are a pro at playing the age old game of hard to get.
Your flirting style runs hot and cold, giving just enough to keep them chasing you.
Independent and self-sufficient, you don't need any one person to make you compelte.
And that independence is exactly what makes people pursue you.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

Your Love Style is Eros

For you, love is all about the passion!

And chances are, you're currently in love.

You have a strong physical response to love...

And you are great at committing

(As long as the person makes your toes curl!)

What's Your Love Style?

You're an Passionate Kisser

For you, kissing is about all about following your urges
If someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of story
You can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kisses
A total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble

You're a Romantic Kisser

For you, kissing is all about feeling the romance
You love to kiss under the stars or by the sea
The perfect kiss involves the perfect mood
It's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

Monday, September 05, 2005

when are we having chalet again???

i juz find this pic so darn funny...i look such a glutton right...

wala nite!

in total i only slept 2 hours since this morning till now...still gotta do biomech later...it's starting again...the vicious cycle...

o btw did i mention...today there was no lesson at all for the whole damn day...juz rushed down to schl to hand in the assignment and have to wait till 3.30pm to go visit Oasis Day Centre....instead of going home to sleep during the empty slot...i went to toa payoh and orchard with the gals for shoping instead....juz dun feel like going home to sleep...dunnoe why...

fen said my lifestyle got problem...cos so little sleep and never have proper meals...

i think i'm on the run again...to where...i dunno...i juz wanna keep running...when will i stop? till my energy run dry...

maybe that's why i like long distant running...cos at one point u may be so tired that u juz wanna give up...but as u hang on and push urself alittle further...u'll realise u wont feel the tiredness anymore and u can acutally run more than u're expected to...

it's always a mind game...set ur end point alittle further each time and at the end of the day...u'll realise the extra miles that u've managed to cover....

into my hectic life...

half of my classmates are online thru the nite...somehow i find it quite fun...to have ppl rushing assignment together with me.. hehe cos i tot i'm the only one who is rushing...

now is 5.42 am...didnt sleep the whole nite..been typing since morning...actually is from saturday till now! printing my papers out...haha finally...i hope it's alright...may not be as detailed but i've tried my best le...24 pages long le...okie lah cos it's double spacing...still there's quite alot of words there....

baby boy not at home...keep thinking i heard his cry...haha...eh dun think about the eerie part lah...juz that i've gotten accustomed to his presence...

soothed him to sleep twice today...he's so cheeky...keep wanting us to carry him to sleep...

he is so darn cute and so darn chubby that i cannot help but keep poking at his cheeks and kissing them...muah haha...

i love to see him fall asleep on my chest...little fat angel...haha...i shall go get him a pair of wings! sure look cute on him!

come to think of it i have yet to get him toys except for the photo frames that i intend to display his pic in.

i juz like to spend more time carrying him and talking to him at this point of time...i mean, some how he'll out grow the toys that he has but at least i know i have spent time with my baby boy, putting him to sleep and burping him...muack muack....

Saturday, September 03, 2005

grovvy nite....

where is it?

wala wala of cos...haha....what can i say...i'm a boring person...so i always stick to the place that i love unless i manage to find replacement...which so far has yet to surface...

anyway last nite was fun...though it's not my unexpected band performing...EIC aint that bad either...and they actually sang damien rice's song juz before i left...cool~~...too bad they sang cannon ball...if they were to sing amie...i think i'll melt...haha...

didnt drink alot last nite...but enough to get myself high...keke...and i'm so sorry babe that u have to take my nonsense...i always like to bug u when i'm getting high or drunk =p but thanx for replying me...

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received a card from handsome in the noon when i got back from schl.

when i open the card...i see myself in it...keke...only u and i will know wat i meant by 'seeing myself in the card'...haha...

tears swell up as i read wat u've wrote and i read it like 3 times...things that u pointed out, i didnt quite realise it myself...

there are times i thought wat i've said is something that i believe in when in actual fact i myself dun even seem to be convienced....i'm trying...really...have always been a constant struggle for me...i dunno why some ppl can lead their life in such a simple way whereas mine seem to be complex...or is it the way i perceive it?

handsome thanx for going the extra mile...

and yah i felt the hug when i open the card...keke...muack!

Friday, September 02, 2005

yippee...new look for my pencil case...the blok on the top left hand corner is the failed attempt when i first try it...haha...the rest i did it all at one shot...if u can make out wat i've design there...drinks on me!