Last year...rae's birthday...
yd, ck, me, sze and of cos the birthday boy...


This year....me, ck , sze, vic and birthday gal, elyse (rae's sis!)
yd...stuck in thailand le...

Conclusion...next year.....family pic...me, ck, sze, vic, yd, yilong, choon yew, rae , elyse and if possible...auggy too! muah haha...wat am i thinking ~ generation of uncles and aunties with their nieces and nephews! fun!

p/s: yd and ck : i'm no drunk aunt okie....cant help it if yd's mom offered sze beer but passed it to me instead...=p

And so...it's my mama's birthday today...

dunno wat to buy for her...so gotten her a cake instead...i havent wished her happy birthday the whole morning...used to sms her via chinese text...but knowing my mom is a o-my-phone-will-go-cuckoo-after-i-anyhow-press-the-button auntie....i reckon she wont even read the text unless i open the msg for her...anyway i juz went down to get her a cake after i knocked off...

guessed she tot that i've forgotten about it...actually i think i'm the only one in the family that rem all the birthdays...=) it's always nice to celebrate birthday...hehe...if i dun get mine then i make sure others have theirs...

some how i know if i buy her cake...she'll wanna take photos together with auggy...muah haha..and that's exactly wat happened...see clinical reasoning comes into pic...u plan and u make it happened...muah haha...anyway it's real fun...we juz took turns to take photos...end up it seemed as though auggy is the one whose celebrating his birthday...gee...he's only 3 months old lah...

my baby boy drooled okie...dunno is it the cake or he's simply hungry...he's so cute!!!

mom scared that the candles will fill up the whole cake so she forbid me to put all despite me getting so many candles from the cake shop auntie...muah haha...


hehe....cut the cake cut the cake or i'll stick my foot in!


once again...the yeong women and our baby boy

been busy with training and clinical... for most of the days by the time i've reached home...i'm already half dead...

will be travelling around much more often for the whole of next week...doing house visit is fun...and now i'm pretty good with map reading...haha...

each individual patient is unique...their extreme living conditions sadden and amaze me at the same time...i cant deny that i was indeed a little affected by wat i've seen and encountered...

sigh...they are all so resilient and hardy in terms of the way they live their lives...yes they may be mentally ill...yet they survive no matter how difficult the situation is presented...if we were placed in their shoes...i think none of us can survive thru...some of their living condition is really something that is not within our context...and very unlikely that u will come across...

sometimes i wish i can do more to help them...i wish they can have at least the slightest bit of sanity to know wat's going on around them...i cant imagine going thru my life without knowing who i'm connected with or wat is the purpose of all the things around me....

anyway...yd is back to thailand...havent talked to him much since he went back...so sorry...often i'm too tired to go online...handsome...hope u've recovered...sigh...miss u le...

tired...i'm gonna go bathe then rest abit before doing my work...

i miss being drunk..haha...though i nearly did last nite...=p

yippee...had dinner at yd's place...fun fun...as usual we talked...joked...ate lotsa stuff...damn my tummy is back...ugrh...

after dinner we're lazing around...then started watching final fantast dvd...damn freaking cool!!!! graphics is darn good...plus the story line is interesting..dunno much about final fantasy...but it juz reminds me of akira...i miss that animation so much...grew up watching it...nice nice...

ate ice cream...ate tibits...played with little fur ball that juz had her fur cut...haha...now she really look like a little lamb...so cute!

went drinking with ck, yd, ad, and yd's sis at happy daz...wanted to go wala...but too late le..so juz go somewhere near to drink and chat...felt so good! havent had a good chat with yd and ck for so long...i mean the 3 of us can simply talk non stop...on anything...esp kinky stuff...muah haha....and guys...we havent quite finished with our topic....=p

anyway...5 of us juz sat thru the nite...drinking....talking about religion....crazy things we do when we're drunk...gross things that ever happened blah blah blah....

i miss the company...and last nite was the best nite ever...i cant wait to go wala with u guys....3 months is abit too long to wait...sigh...i miss going wala with u guys...miss it so so much...

i have so much things to say!

First thing first....beloved handsome is back from thailand for a few days to renew his visa! so happy to see him!! keke...felt so good when i finally gave him the 'welcome home' hug at the airport....haha...he was so smiley! like little kid like that! o and he didnt change much except for his thick and somewhat retro-like hairstyle...actually i was expecting a slightly pudgy yd...cos he hasnt exercise for months...muah haha....o but he did turn yellow...

So funny...yd planned this return trip without letting his mom know...
his sis and bro had gotten his mother to go airport for dinner...bluffing her that they had won some lucky draw prize at one of the restaurants...so when his sis presented her the actual 'prize'...you can imagine how happy she was....her whole face juz lit up and she was beaming ever so cheerfully!

yippee...we'll be having steamboat again for dinner tonite! but this time round with yd here...haha now he wont be able to complain being left out...

okie and secondly...attended my best friend's wedding...was running around with her the whole day, helping her to make sure that things run smoothly on this special occassion...

me and the beautiful bride...very pretty hor...


bridesmaids!


u know...this reminded me of prom...haha...

In morning~ the groom and his bestmen schemingly alias with groom's sister to budged into the house even before we could start sabo~ing them...

yar we're newbies in terms of being the sisters...but still we're witty enough to plant one of the bridesmaids in the bride's room....muah haha...u think receiving the bride so easy meh...

first, we made him sing the love song that they shared...BUT the groom dunno the lyrics so they ended up singing ' twinkle little stars' -_- ...never mind....then we made him do poledance...groom was too shy to do it (which i doubt so...haha...)did a less-than-semi-sexy chairdance instead...

provided the groom with lipstick (which he broke it! and it's mind! urgh..) to apply and made him kiss his men on both cheeks...made him say vows on how he has to take care of his lovely wife...made them all do push-ups...had him stand in front of the door...shouting ' I Love You' in 10 different language....

it was quite fun...sabo~ing them and not to mention getting ang baos....boy is the groom smart...first ang bao was filled with rupiah -_-' ....chey...for 1 sec i tot i saw 10000 sing dollar note...second ang bao was 4 dollars-_-'' ...when i took the 4 bucks out...i juz look into the video camera with this -_-''' look and told gina: biang ur hubby very kiam siap le...anyway we did get our fair share in the end...and let the groom receive his beautiful bride...keke

so off the coupld go...from places to places for the entire morning...with us buzzing behind them helping out here and there...i was feakingly tired by dinner time...

fun fun fun...first time attending friend's wedding and helping out...it's as though i'm marrying my daughter off...muah haha...felt really happy for this gal...

o forgot to mention...the dinner was good...food is yummy and it turned out somewhat like our jc prom nite...simply becos it's been awhile since all my classmates get together with the teachers after so long...lots of catching up and it's really fun!

right now...the couple are in europe having their honeymoon...hope they'll have fun thru out!

alright...i wasnt quite in the right mind for the past few days due to my own stupidity....always get myself upset though i know the outcome...but now...i'm more or less alright...cos IMH makes me appreciate sanity...and i am glad my mind is still sound...=)

anyway i simply love this picture...cos it cheers me up...

my little angel is soooooo adorable...he smiles alot lately and is extremely excited when u talk to him...

i love him...i love him...i love him sooooo much! always like to kiss his cheeks!

hehe i'm the marshmellow man...

finally...my exams are over...pract exam today...i did my best...stayed calm and all...but still i dun think i've fared well...missed out certain stuff...not to mention hb nearly flopped on me...urgh...i should have dug my nails into his fat tummy...sigh...juz hope my grades are alright...

i'm so tired...mentally...havent gotten the chance to rest and monday have to go for clinical...am i prepared?? i'm trying to...read up on stuff...i juz hope that i wont end up being a patient of IMH...i cannot and i will not....ARGH!!!

had a weird dream last nite...dreamt that i went for belly button piercing...haha but then that guy who did it for me pierce it in a weird way...sorta like pull it rather that pierce it...mm...i tot my belly is gonna tore...haha...didnt feel any pain...i mean yah lah dreaming mah...but it was quite gross...didnt look as nice cos of the way he did it...weird weird...anyway am getting it no matter wat...haha...

sigh...my head is filled with lots of stuff( things i have to do, things i need to do, things i shouldnt give a damn, things i should have done long ago)...i dunno how to clear it...it's all jumbled up into this huge lump that is snowballing into a bigger size each day...and it's over loading...causing me pain...creating this utmost emptiness within me...

i know i have lots of ppl around me who love and care for me...they are within my reach and touch...but at this point of time i'm starting to feel lost and scared...i dunno why...seriously...i dunno....

i wished i'm angry with something....or even hate someone...at least i know i'm still human...but at the moment i juz feel nothing! nothing at all! instead i only feel fear...of wat...i dunnoe! and it's getting stronger each day...

two words....

fucking sian...

really...

Fri...sent a fren off to airport...he's flying to japan for a year...cool eh...

but actually my purpose is to acc someone else...sigh...always sad to send ppl off...esp those who have to be away for more than a month....

Sat...went for squash training...then off to yilong's house for dinner...didnt know wat to eat...plus ck was sick and sze had diarrhea so the guys suggested we buy food and eat steamboat...

we bought a hell lot of food...4 packs of hotdogs, 2 packs of fishballs, tou fu, veggy, pork, prawn, dao gua and alot more...plus one tub of ice cream...total worth 32 bucks...for 6 persons...not bad le quite cheap...

at the end of the day we are so bloated...esp with hot dogs...haha...cos 4 packets of hotdogs..80 of them...cut into halves means there were 160 hot dogs...haha...eat till we siao...darn full lo...

preparation was quite fun lah...as usual we gals were the ones cutting and washing the food...okie guys did help abit lah...haha ended up eating from 9 till 10 plus...then ice creams...yup yup...had alot of fun crapping and catching up...haha...keep laughing cos of some the jokes that we're talking about...we ended up talking about politics too...haha cos vic asked if i can foresee a female PM emerging in say 5 years time...mm...better not comment here...if not i kena caught by police how? haha

Sun...went to my cousin's son's man yue...alot of kids lo...biang...government's strategy worked...cos really alot of ppl i've seen are either pregnant or giving birth...or have i stepped into the time where frens around me and cousins my age start getting married and giving birth...o man...

haha...anyway food was good! and my baby boy ended up being the star...cos he was so chubby and likable that he snatched all the attention from the actual baby...haha...

Today...argh...play and school...sigh...pek chek....dunno wat i'm writing...not enough time...very upset after the paper...so went jogging...drain my energy...now am feeling much better...actually i felt better once i reached home and play with auggy...hee...but jogging helps alot too...

women of the Yeong family! see baby boy likes to dangle his head this way...


sigh...i'm the shortest among them le...both gals are like half a head taller than me man...hehe...my aunt on the right...


mom, dad, bro and baby boy

she remembers....

of the colourful thin slices of waffles that she didnt allow me to eat when i was young....

something i've always complained about...claiming that she had deprived me from all the childhood snacks...which also include those cheap colourful ice-sticks that kids like to buy and suck...

she bought a packet of that colourful waffles for me today....

simple act...but it means alot...simply becos she still remembers...

she's someone who knows me so well...always able to read my mood...like a book that she had written and given the nickname piggy( why u think i like the name piggy so much...duh..)

she's someone who caned me ever so hard....cried to me and with me....complaint to me and always saying one thing but meant the other (yes...i've picked this up from her...)

thank you for remebering....

love you...

Sorry if u've gotten bored of my blog...cannot help it lah...been staying at home to study these few days...so am seeing auggy more often than usual...

feel so much closer to my baby boy as i get to spend a little more time with him...BUT i have yet to try changing his diapers...cos not my job haha...=p

my job is to entertain this little fellow and talk to him when everyone else is busy...plus carry and soothe him when he cries...uh lately he cries real loud..my right ear is hurting man...

he likes ppl to talk to him during his awake hours...if not he'll start making noises and cry even to get ur attention...then he'll smile at you...melt melt melt...so sweet right...

juz the other day, bro was standing beside auggy and looking at him...without talking...i commented that he should at least baby talk to his son rather than stand there and stare at him...cos no stimulation mah...so u know wat he did....he started saying in chinese '1, 2, 3, 4, 5' plus fingers counting in front auggy...funnily auggy looked away unitnerested....

then he took my hp, put it in front of auggy and said 'dian hua', took my flower hairclip and said ' hua', lastly the remote control on the table and said ' yao kong qi'...then...auggy smiled!! wah he must be thinking ' hey my dad is weird'

i'm like -_- both son and father are weird...that scene was quite hilarious....haha


my baby boy is smiling! so cute!


yup...auggy dozing off again in his favourite chair


ever heard of this saying...like father like son?
perhaps one day auggy will ride on a vmax too...

these days auggy has been crying quite abit...chubby fat angel's cry is getting on my nerve...hai yo...u know wat he wants? he wants to be probbed over your shoulder and be patted on the back. It always works cos it sure quiet him down when i do that...problem is...it is very tiring for my arm leh....plus i cant sit...once i sit..he will whine...so i have to stand...to move about...-_-

and this fellow always like to dangle his head backwards with his 'woo~' very comfortable face...he can actually sleep like that...very very weird position...weird baby also...next time i'll take photo and let u see...

his face is getting chubbier each day...haha...balloning like two huge air bags...haha...

always like to kiss his cheeks...very therapeutic le....keke...hey...at least i get some incentives for carrying him all the while till he sleeps...tiring one le...


haha...stunned look...currently his cheeks are chubbier than wat u see in the pic...really...


huh...go away...i'm sleepy....

okie...if u saw me in my uniform last sat...appearing at tampines....i havent gone cuckoo due exams okie...

it's the surprise party that nikki's bf secretly arranged for her! keke..very fun! cos we get to wear our old schl uniform! haha my nyjc schl uniform finally comes in handy this time round!

have to say chris and her bf look the cutest among us all...haha...really like sec schl couple!
most of the ppl at party are nikki's sec schl frens...so while she attended to them...we entertained ourselves with polariod phototaking and mahjong sessions...the gals were crazy over the polariod photos and took alot man...haha quite funny...

i dunno how i can tahan schl uniform for 12 years of my life...it's bloody hot and uncomfortable...and u know wat...the skirt rest on my waist not hip!!! biang...it's darn weird...can u imagine...wearing a low waist panty but ur skirt is up to ur waist...~puke blood~

All hail hipster skirts!!! boy do i sound bimbotic...alright shall put on my thinking cap and bia my bio mech...


uniform rulezzzzzzzzz


looks like photos taken in the 70s hor...


chris is the cutest among us! agree?

i'm so sorry if i ever snapped at anyone these days...i'm really short fused lately...workload is up to my head...

squash, fyp proposal, meetup with clinician, wedding dinner, presentations, assignment, reports, exams...i havent even gotten the time to really settle down to study...next wed is bio mech...damn it...this semester is freaking short...

am asked to push for average B for my academic grade....to maintain if not push my clinical grades to a higher level...was told by my manager that i seem to be more of a 'doing' student which is why my clinical grades are better than my academic ones...hmm...didnt realise that myself...

argh...lots of things to do...so little time...

i'm beginning to loath staying home not that i'm home often...am like a tool being used...to be vent upon....treated like an idiot sometimes...i really cant stand it...did i in any way portray such an incapable image that i need to be told of the simplest things...wat i should do, wat i should not...for god sake i'm already 23...perhaps no one in the family has ever treated me seriously...

sigh...told u i'm short fused...fucking tired already yet my mom like to bombard me with complaints...

cant she see how tired i am...how stretched i am...to her me being tired is juz be cos i stayed up late....

Happy advance birthday Geraldine! yeah 21 yo liao...can watch RA show le...muah haha...

Btw...had dinner with bday gal and my fellow classmates...had so much fun! let's juz wait and see how we all will turn out in 8 years time k...keke...not forgetting our annual reunion dinner...woo! fun!!

though we have not graduate yet...we're already talking about work and stuff...perhaps it's due to the talk that we each individually had with HB... =)

sigh...i need to work harder...jia you everyone!


Geri, the bday gal


my dear classmates...we had so much fun tonite!


Going-to-be mr and mrs lim =)


Geri , me , kay sing and nikki


hehe...look at my eye bag...can see how tired i am...

fen and me

hehe...yeah...i'm a nutcase....juz feeling glad...

fen is not going away afterall...yeah...

i'm not being mean hor...i am glad that she's gotten the job offer...i'm supportive of her taking it up...it's juz the idea of her being away for like a year or 2....it saddens me...really...cos i already felt she bu de when she told me about it...afterall...we've grew up together and never quite been apart for that long except for her 3 wk nz trip...

gal arh...i hope u find a job soon!!

feel like crying...as usual...no tears come out...yet...

wat is worst? to cry cos u feel sad...to cry when someone hurt or disappoint u...to cry for someone or to cry for urself...

there were only those few times when i cried uncontrollably...

over the phone...choking on my tears...telling fen how lost and scared i was...dreading upon the humiliation i have to face upon going back to schl to retake my A level...helplessness...i cried...

hiding my face in my fren's chest...standing at the corner of raffles city after several 'wat happened' that she asked...i just couldnt hold the tears which i held from home all the way to city hall...rejection letter on national day....disappointment...i cried...

words that come out from his mouth...like sharp knives stabbing me one at a time...letting me bleed to death...desperate to seek approval and recognition when in the end all that i get are nasty comments....hurt...i cried...

lying in bed...faking a headache...dreading to go schl...u asked me wat is the matter with me... you said it hurts to see me in this state...i didnt know...how much u love me till the moment u cried with me...depressed....i cried....

excited to meet him for dinner after clinical...one phone call and he brushed me aside with his work...somehow i know i'm not as important anymore...upset....i cried....

tonnes of work...lack of sleep...feeling numbed....tired....tears are rolling down...

btw...latest update bout me...

posted to imh instead...will be with a mobile team where i'll go to patients' house together with a team of doctors and nurses...how cool is that~~ looking forward to it!!!

row row row your boat, gently down the stream..

it rained today...cloudy noon...not much sun...despite all these...we went ahead with the sun tanning session...it was fun...we juz laze around...chit chat and play frisbee...sze threw it and hit my head!! can u imagine that...wah kaoz...i didnt see properly lah cos wasnt wearing glasses..still it hurts man...

today there's only me, vic, sze and choon yew...miss ck...miss yd...both are out of town...plus yilong went for soccer...so my 'family outing' downsized to juz the four of us...

really didnt do much...didnt even put sun tan lotion cos the sun aint hot enough...haha...didnt go into the sea...cos didnt feel like swimming...juz lie on the sand and chat with vic while the two bros entertain themselves...haha...talked about the past...friendship, relationship, feminism, all sort of things...i love the company i'm with today...

sigh...o man...i miss ck and yd...terribly...i dunno why...it's like suddenly my two biatch buddies aint by my side...feel abit weird le...heng ck will be back from vietnam on tue...if he's gone for attachment too...i dunno wat i'll do...sigh sigh sigh....i hope he had fun for his trip...wonder how's handsome's weekend been...sorry have yet to reply ur letter cos been tied up with work lately...hehe am already thinking wat to seal the letter with this time round...hm...

leopoard doesnt change its spot...sigh...how sad for it to be used on a person...

wat a day...

woke up early in the morning to print out proposal...rushed to schl to do bio mech testing...have to thank nikki for her run

then we rushed off for jo's class...

haha...gotten jo pissed off cos few of us werent watching the video which we should be doing when she's not around...instead we're busy chatting about degree conversion and other stuffs...she was so mad that she came in...and walked out of our class...later on demanded an apology letter from those who arent watching the clips...

oops...okie lo...we wrote apology letter...went in to apologise to her...whole lot of us man...haha almost half the class...haha...the moment we entered her room...she broke into smile and gave us a tiny lecture...=p

hehe moral of the story...do apologise to lecturer if u have to...esp when u havent sat thru exams that she'll be marking and always go together in a huge grp...cos it shows sincerity...keke...

anyway lesson ended at 4...bum in lib till 5 plus then head down to bishan to meet ck for dinner...havent seen him for a week...hehe...evening time his parent took his niece down to bishan too...cute gal...took her quite awhile to warm up to me...very fun to play with...and she likes my bag! haha...great minds think alike hor...haha

after that i head down to raffles place to meet my cousin for a drink...poor gal havent had her dinner due to hectic work schdule...we ate and drank red wine at this small cosy eating place...nice music and good service...plus the wine taste good too...

talked alot with my cousin...so nice~ havent done that for a long time cos we've been busy with our lives...hehe...feels so good to juz sit and chat...esp after such a packed day..hehe contended enough...

Happy Birthday my dear vic =) may happiness to be with u all the time and may all ur wish come true!

been feeling weird since last sat...yesterday was even worst...dunno wat's wrong...like system shutting down...feeling weak and all...plus my unknown backache...argh...freaking irritating...i cant even bend down...if i need to get things from floor i need to do knee flexion lift...trunk flexion is totally out of the pic...i think my classmates will get wat i mean... sigh...eh am i getting old or wat...agrh..i'm only 23 le...

woo~ think i dun need to sleep liao...lotsa things to do...

yippee...going drinking with my cousin this fri! haha...yeah!

yeah!

gotten an A minus for my previous clinical placement and a B plus for the clinical presentation...i'm not boasting...juz wanna share my happiness...cos at least it tells me that my effort and resilience paid off...yeah!

hehe...things may not have gone as smoothly for me for the past few months...but at least i've managed to pull thru it as best as i can...and i can proudly say i've survived it all!!!

coming clinical will be even more challenging...mm...hopefully i can learn more...it'll be something different...cos i'll need to assess disabled clients and allocate suitable jobs for them...think it'll mean assessments after one another and reports after reports....plus squash training after work...challenging enough?sigh...the only thing is...how to get from one place to another...

give me a pair of wings...or pls teach me how to teleport myself...of cos without the risk of turning into a fly....haha

~ALL HAIL~ Starbucks at Raffles City

yesh...as u can see...i have found my phone...i dun have to re-key my contacts! wah haha...am i lucky or wat...

o well...really have to thank the staffs over at Raffles City Starbucks....such nice and honest ppl who kept the phone for me!! haha...happy happy...good thing about my 'public handphone'...its simple function has put others off...so unattractive that no one wants to take it...haha...

wanted to buy coffee from the starbucks there to show my appreciation...but silly me forgotten to bring wallet today...haha so i can only give them my praises here...

lesson learnt: pls back up ur contacts in hardcopy format...cos i realise in the case of losing hanphone...all ur frens' no. will be lost...really tedious to trace back leh...so...olden days of owning a small A-Z-obiang phonebook is actually useful!

i'm lucky afterall...keke...

yippee...juz gotten yd's letter! happy happy...

my mum is carrying auggy and singing to him now...so sweet...

he's such a lucky baby...to have a granny who adores him and loves him so much...willing to carry him in weird position that he finds comfortable and sing him to sleep...

i once craved for such attention from my late grandma but it had never occur...