i'm constantly surrounded by gorgeous ppl...no doubt bout that...keke....
and i seemed to have this special attachment with the no. 3!
hmm...maybe the 3rd guy that i'm gonna know will be my husband...muah haha...

haha my sup said i'm abit of a exercise freak...eh...to a certain extend yar...but if i dun exerise i'll juz feel lethargic...

no one was home today when i knocked off...went jogging then had a nice warm bath and settle down to have my dinner by 9...ate a little while watching tv....and as usual i dozed off by 10...vaguely rem mumbling to bro not to switch off my light in the room so that i can wake up and do my work later...think i was bargaining with him in my sleepy mode cos he wants me to rest with the lights off...quite funny cos i think i sound irrelevant...too sleepy...

sigh gotten a C+ for my pract exam which i took before the attachment start....i mean okie lah...am always an average student...but was hoping can score bit better...eh on the other hand...heard that there were 8 Fs in our two classes...so guess i should be glad i didnt fall into that category considering i was quite nervous when demonstrating on my lecturer and course manager...and for ur infor..they were very good actress and actor in terms of being floppy patients

results will be out on fri? heard from classmate about that...gee...

meeting my gals on fri nite for dinner and chilling out...yippee....looking forward to that...

bout 1 week++ left for my attachment...am gonna miss my sup and patients....they are really fun and nice ppl....sigh...good things dun last eh...but that's the reason why one should treasure what they are having at the moment...

feeling abit sleepy now ~yawn~

wanna go suntanning...make muffins and bake cookies...so many things to do! muah haha

guess where this was taken at?

they stood by me for 10++ years...nearly wanna bash up those who hurt or upset me...so tell me...how can i not love them???

damn it..i have never been this suey in my life...

made a HUGE mistake during clinical...utterly no idea why i'm so freaking blur as to make such big mistake...sigh...stupid stupid stupid....

mood was utterly dampened for the whole freaking noon...so i seek refuge in my jogging regime again...yeah...i ran and i ran...from punggol to sengkang to serangoon park connector which lead me to somewhere around hougang/kovan area....then from the park connector to sengkang then back to punggol again...ran for an hour...bout 6-7 km i think...wasnt exactly tired...in fact i felt so much better after that...though at some point i really did wanna give up...cos knees abit cant take it...but somehow the further i go...tiredness juz go away and i'll just get used to the momentum...

and with my music...i juz keep running...actually i'm very tired today...cos last nite didnt sleep well...cant sleep actually..so got up to do work...sigh...

i kinda miss yk...havent talked to him for months...briefly talked to him days ago...man he used to acc me when i rush my reports...sigh...hope to meet up with him soon...

went jogging just now...gotten caught in heavy rain...so i seek shelter at the void deck of some sengkang's flat...

was waiting for the rain to stop when i see ppl brisk walking, running, trying to minnimise the chance of getting drenched...

saw children laughing and screaming cos they get to walk in the rain which i think most children will grab every chance they have to do it...i used to like walking in the rain...but there i was seeking refuge at the void deck...

first i didnt wanna fall sick...not when i already have a slight sore throat...secondly i didnt wanna spoil my receiver...a very useful gagdet that i cant do without when i jog...

so i waited...looking up at the sky wondering when it will stop crying...

tired of waiting...slowly having the feel to walk in the rain...i step out to head home...happy that perhaps walking in the rain will make me feel better

nothing...rain stopped...juz alittle drizzle and massive wind....sigh...

o well...at least i feel better now...been slacking at home the whole day...nursing my slight hangover...hehe...went coco latte last nite...wasnt as nice as i tot it will be...it's small with nice seats and piercing music...so piercing that we have to get out of the place...and hop to another place...sat outdoor in cosy sofas...keke...smooched jessie on her cheek while hopping to the outdoor bar...sorry woman...always 'attack' u when i'm tipsy...=p

bought gwen stephanni's cd...really cool!!! love it!!! Luxrious! nice nice!

the day i decided to take a shot at...the day i gamble my feelings with...the day which i dun wanna be reminded of but it still did...

need booze...really really really badly....

cheers to my stupidity...cheers to ur happiness...cheers to my numbness...cheers....

how blur can one be...I utterly can't stand myself tonite!!! wah biang...i tot my basic theory is today...but no...it was yesterday...damn it...waste my money...i totally screwed up on the dates!!!

kaoz...so darn blur...

wanted to go ck's house to give him cake after my test...end up i dun have test to take today and ck wasnt at home then...wat to do...go walk around at bishan alone...then bought cakes for peifen and ck...then head down to serangoon to wait for the two of them at dou hua shop...me and my stupid brain...argh...how come so blur...think i too tired...that's why...haha..hopeless....

anyway dunno wat to get for ck so gotten him a cake first....babe...Happy Birthday!!! muack muack...may all ur wish come true...

yeah tomolo fri...see if can catch movie with fen or not...think harry potter too hot to get any tics....saving face maybe...hoho...we shall see how....

havent jogged for the whole week...damn...feeling uneasy....die die have to jog on sat....=p

wat a fulfilling day...hee...

i did 7 house visits with my sup!! wah haha...from morning 8am all the way to 6 pm...from one end of singapore to the other!!! fun le!!! tiring though...two of us were sweating so madly under the blazing sun and we dozed off on the long bus journey too...haha fun o...

so wat did we do today...tried unsuccessfully to fix pt's tap in the bathroom in the morning...and cos the the toilet was wet...i rolled up my pants...and forgotten to roll it down all the way till i reach the next pt's house...wah liao darn mah lu...and neither me nor my sup noticed that...-_- was laughing our heads off...sigh...so blur...

kena chased after by pt's bro in the noon...though our pt is compliant...her bro who is also alittle unsound kept stopping us from seeing her...tried to meet the pt at the voiddeck of her house...her bro ended up chasing after us and pulled pt back...for one moment i tot he was going to drag either my sup or me man...wah biang...one day we'll admit him in imh instead...he should really get some treatment...

wanted to go jogging but was raining then...and the moment i finished my dinner at around 8..i concussed at about 9...with auggy crying non-stop at the home...i can still fall asleep on the sofa...power right...

so glad i'm in the mobile team...i really cant see myself doing any...ANY deskbound job...but the more house visit i do the more paper work i need to finish too...will be stuck in office to do all the documentation for the whole day later...argh...

anyway been awake since 3 to do documentation...

i need to jog...but raining again...hai yo....

wah liao...stupid bro...pass auggy to me cos he's tired of carrying the crying baby....the moment i carry him...he puked all over my shoulder like no one's business....best....so darn gross....

yippee!!

i survived thru the day with juz one hour of sleep...wah haha....was rushing thru my presentation last nite...

went house visits early in the morning and then went back to schl for my case presentation..yeah...think i score not bad...cos my lecturer and classmates seemed pretty interested in what i've presented! cool! i've always like discussion with them...

nearly become a plumber today...think tomolo have to go pt's house to fix tap...eh...have no idea how to go about doing it...juz wack lo...see how my sup and i can do with our limited 'plumbing' experience....

now i'm darn sleepy and tired...juz ate kfc...haha...fattening le...but contended...wanted to go jogging in the evening but after playing and looking after auggy for an hour ++ i juz fell asleep on the sofa till dinner time....

haha dun u think his head is like a huge peach!!! so round hor!!!

morning my little chubby angel...

love this pic...to be continued...

Guess wat....We girls won 2nd place for the squash competition!!!! haha out of the 4 poly...we are the second....eh not easy hor though only 4 schls...we fought so darn hard k...and now our effort paid off!! i'm juz so so so so glad!!!!

2 thumbs up for the my girls and boys!!! i'm really proud of every single one of them...most of us picked up squash during yr 1....from zero experience to wat we have achieved now...i can proudly say we deserve the medals today!!!

so happy!!! haha....like i said...i treasure the process more than the result...of cos now that we won 2nd...it's a bonus to us! i will never forget time spent with my dear squashies (ray, jessie and angie included!!) in all the trainings and runnings! those times when we suffer and pant together....i'll really miss that! really really glad to know my team mates...their never-say-die attitude is always something that i'm proud of!

squash is an individual game...yet it's a team sport as well...the bond that we girls share is really something that i can never ever forget...will treasure it in my heart!

okie need to go and bathe...tonite dun need to sleep liao cos got case study to finish...so dead man...argh!!!

anxious...been running alot...been playing alot of squash...been talking to ppl...trying to calm and soothe them...

went drinking last nite...as usual...but happy daz was closed and the new one has yet to open...so went to another place for a drink...first time ever i drank tiger beer outside...dun like tiger beer...but last nite it tasted alright...perhaps i couldnt care less...cos i wasnt quite in the mood...

had dinner with ck and his frens at bugis...then we head down to suntec...it was alright...until i had to make my way down to serangoon garden...the bus journey juz dampened my mood...it always does...i dunno why...or maybe becos it's nov that's why...

sigh...could have hung out with the gals longer...but am too sleepy...first time i felt sad after drinking...first time....

i hope the next time we go drinking...it'll be for celebration and that the old smiley drunkard will be back...

wont be playing tomolo...but if i had to scream my head off for my gals...i bloody will!

am a bad bad girl...i threw temper at my mom juz now...cant help it...getting on my nerve...

seems like all my mom can talk to me about is auggy...sigh...i'm not jealous about this little angel of mine...juz tired and turn off that while reaching home at 12am after my squash match....all my mom can ask is...'eh is that auggy's pic?' when i switched on my com...

i'm like the lowest ranked citizen at home...freaking sian man....

anyway more things to blog...but no energy...

will update more during weekends...

okie i juz got back from my calming jog....haha was pacing with a fellow jogger and he commented that my pacing is good for a girl! wah haha...happy....very nice of him to pace me for whole 6 rounds...though i'm half dead after that...

bathe and dinner...then get down to work...

wish my luck for tomolo!

restless restless.....argh....tomolo is the start of the big day...damn i'm starting to feel nervous...

went to see a financial planner yesterday...pretty interesting...apologies to ppl whom i gave the planner some of ur no.

if u're not interested in it juz reject her if she called u up k...she wont bug u after the first rejection...not sabo~ing u...juz tot if u're interested u can go ahead and meet up with her...anyway free of charge...hehe...

went arab street last nite...and went to this cafe that is soo darn cool! very nice place to hang out...am gonna bring my buds there next time...woo~ and i bought this really nice authentic PURPLE earrings!!! cheap somemore...happy happy...haha...

went alley bar after sending jessie home...it's gonna be our new hang out place man...cos its interior is soooo soothing!

really had a great time last nite...it's been awhile since 4 of us last hang out together...not to mention the white butt incident...gee...

anyway gonna go for a jog...i'm feeling very restless now...must be cos of tomolo...argh!!!

i miss the beach...i cant wait to go thailand...

i wanna go sentosa...but my pals are having exams...sigh...the weather has been so great lately...too good to miss it eh...sigh sigh...

shall go to sleep...need to go for my solitary jog soon...i hope one day i can go for marathon run...eh really le...but have yet to try running 8 km...will do it progressively...hopefully can run 10 km then...

okie need to sleep...happy deepavali and selamat hari raya!

Went shopping with ck and fen on sunday...

read his blog and u'll know he's gotten praised by a pretty gal who commented that he is good looking...haha...so flattering hor...wah haha....

i've gotten praised too...but by another girl fren who joined us for the KL trip previously...okie lah...as much as i hope it's a guy who said i'm pretty...i'm equally contended to be prasied...muah haha...thick skin yes...but who cares...i need such ego boosting comment occasionally too....i'm only human hor....

haha...anyway bummed into her along raffels city and came to realise that the trip to malaysia was actaully a retreat for her to nurse her broken heart...eew...juz like me...

guess i shine better when i'm alone...more like the old me doing the things i should be doing for myself...

i dunno why but i'm always the fattest and plainest when i'm in a relationship...perhaps when i'm with someone i'm all lazy and comforty to doll myself up...took it for granted that i'm taken...haha =p

since now i'm alone i might as well dress to make myself happy...muah haha..and hopefully the next time someone comment that i'm pretty...it'll be a guy...~wink wink~

yd,ck...i know wat u'll be mouthing now when u read this...starting with the letter 's' ....haha

What have i been up to lately? Havent gotten the time to update my blog...cos most of the time i fell asleep in front of the computer or on my bedroom floor while doing my stuff...haha...power sia...

attachment at IMH is fun...interesting and yet challenging...in terms of talking the right way to different type of patients...each of them has their own style and pattern in mannerism and character...it's really an art to know how to connect and click with them on the spot and build the rapport from there...my interviewing skills sux big time for this placement...i dunnoe why...perhaps i'm not fast enough to respond..have to buck up man...

squash...competition is coming...feeling abit weird...maybe nervous arh...i dunnoe...i juz hope we can achieve wat we've all aimed for...at this point of time...i really really love my squashies...time spent with them training and doing all the tough drills seems more bearable and fun with them going thru together with me...u should see how we all go jelly-legged after all the sprintings that coach made us do....

gonna miss them alot after the competition...the gal team especially...i am so proud of each of them...making every ounce of their effort to come for training apart from their attachment...it's really tough for them and i really appreciate it...

okie of cos apart from all these....i have my personal time with my lovely friends too...

back track a little...to the week where handsome came back from thailand...
went happy daz with him, his sis, adrian and ck....no big band or rowdy crowds but it was a hell enjoyable time spent....

been awhile since we all went chilingl out together...i'm still waiting to go wala with them all...cos i juz went last sat and shiryln was GOOD!!! i mean the band really rocks! they've changed their style quite abit but i love it! am sure yd and yk will like it!

had my fair share of drink that nite...=p as usual...keke...cant help it...how can a chill out nite be fun without some booze and music right...anyway aint gonna touch alcohol till after competition...

here's some pic...


taken at airport...went to fetch handsome who came back for a short retreat before going back to be a thai worker again...muah haha


my lips are the sexiest among them right...hahaha...


haha i think this pic is quite cute le...yd ur smile abit weird...i look like i'm going to sleep...which was true...cos i zonk out in adrian's car that nite...


snuggling up with my babe!


the trios! yes yd, we are each other's worst enemies...but we've been each other's darlings too havent we?keke...


i love the two of u so so much!

Last year...rae's birthday...
yd, ck, me, sze and of cos the birthday boy...


This year....me, ck , sze, vic and birthday gal, elyse (rae's sis!)
yd...stuck in thailand le...

Conclusion...next year.....family pic...me, ck, sze, vic, yd, yilong, choon yew, rae , elyse and if possible...auggy too! muah haha...wat am i thinking ~ generation of uncles and aunties with their nieces and nephews! fun!

p/s: yd and ck : i'm no drunk aunt okie....cant help it if yd's mom offered sze beer but passed it to me instead...=p

And so...it's my mama's birthday today...

dunno wat to buy for her...so gotten her a cake instead...i havent wished her happy birthday the whole morning...used to sms her via chinese text...but knowing my mom is a o-my-phone-will-go-cuckoo-after-i-anyhow-press-the-button auntie....i reckon she wont even read the text unless i open the msg for her...anyway i juz went down to get her a cake after i knocked off...

guessed she tot that i've forgotten about it...actually i think i'm the only one in the family that rem all the birthdays...=) it's always nice to celebrate birthday...hehe...if i dun get mine then i make sure others have theirs...

some how i know if i buy her cake...she'll wanna take photos together with auggy...muah haha..and that's exactly wat happened...see clinical reasoning comes into pic...u plan and u make it happened...muah haha...anyway it's real fun...we juz took turns to take photos...end up it seemed as though auggy is the one whose celebrating his birthday...gee...he's only 3 months old lah...

my baby boy drooled okie...dunno is it the cake or he's simply hungry...he's so cute!!!

mom scared that the candles will fill up the whole cake so she forbid me to put all despite me getting so many candles from the cake shop auntie...muah haha...


hehe....cut the cake cut the cake or i'll stick my foot in!


once again...the yeong women and our baby boy

been busy with training and clinical... for most of the days by the time i've reached home...i'm already half dead...

will be travelling around much more often for the whole of next week...doing house visit is fun...and now i'm pretty good with map reading...haha...

each individual patient is unique...their extreme living conditions sadden and amaze me at the same time...i cant deny that i was indeed a little affected by wat i've seen and encountered...

sigh...they are all so resilient and hardy in terms of the way they live their lives...yes they may be mentally ill...yet they survive no matter how difficult the situation is presented...if we were placed in their shoes...i think none of us can survive thru...some of their living condition is really something that is not within our context...and very unlikely that u will come across...

sometimes i wish i can do more to help them...i wish they can have at least the slightest bit of sanity to know wat's going on around them...i cant imagine going thru my life without knowing who i'm connected with or wat is the purpose of all the things around me....

anyway...yd is back to thailand...havent talked to him much since he went back...so sorry...often i'm too tired to go online...handsome...hope u've recovered...sigh...miss u le...

tired...i'm gonna go bathe then rest abit before doing my work...

i miss being drunk..haha...though i nearly did last nite...=p

yippee...had dinner at yd's place...fun fun...as usual we talked...joked...ate lotsa stuff...damn my tummy is back...ugrh...

after dinner we're lazing around...then started watching final fantast dvd...damn freaking cool!!!! graphics is darn good...plus the story line is interesting..dunno much about final fantasy...but it juz reminds me of akira...i miss that animation so much...grew up watching it...nice nice...

ate ice cream...ate tibits...played with little fur ball that juz had her fur cut...haha...now she really look like a little lamb...so cute!

went drinking with ck, yd, ad, and yd's sis at happy daz...wanted to go wala...but too late le..so juz go somewhere near to drink and chat...felt so good! havent had a good chat with yd and ck for so long...i mean the 3 of us can simply talk non stop...on anything...esp kinky stuff...muah haha....and guys...we havent quite finished with our topic....=p

anyway...5 of us juz sat thru the nite...drinking....talking about religion....crazy things we do when we're drunk...gross things that ever happened blah blah blah....

i miss the company...and last nite was the best nite ever...i cant wait to go wala with u guys....3 months is abit too long to wait...sigh...i miss going wala with u guys...miss it so so much...

i have so much things to say!

First thing first....beloved handsome is back from thailand for a few days to renew his visa! so happy to see him!! keke...felt so good when i finally gave him the 'welcome home' hug at the airport....haha...he was so smiley! like little kid like that! o and he didnt change much except for his thick and somewhat retro-like hairstyle...actually i was expecting a slightly pudgy yd...cos he hasnt exercise for months...muah haha....o but he did turn yellow...

So funny...yd planned this return trip without letting his mom know...
his sis and bro had gotten his mother to go airport for dinner...bluffing her that they had won some lucky draw prize at one of the restaurants...so when his sis presented her the actual 'prize'...you can imagine how happy she was....her whole face juz lit up and she was beaming ever so cheerfully!

yippee...we'll be having steamboat again for dinner tonite! but this time round with yd here...haha now he wont be able to complain being left out...

okie and secondly...attended my best friend's wedding...was running around with her the whole day, helping her to make sure that things run smoothly on this special occassion...

me and the beautiful bride...very pretty hor...


bridesmaids!


u know...this reminded me of prom...haha...

In morning~ the groom and his bestmen schemingly alias with groom's sister to budged into the house even before we could start sabo~ing them...

yar we're newbies in terms of being the sisters...but still we're witty enough to plant one of the bridesmaids in the bride's room....muah haha...u think receiving the bride so easy meh...

first, we made him sing the love song that they shared...BUT the groom dunno the lyrics so they ended up singing ' twinkle little stars' -_- ...never mind....then we made him do poledance...groom was too shy to do it (which i doubt so...haha...)did a less-than-semi-sexy chairdance instead...

provided the groom with lipstick (which he broke it! and it's mind! urgh..) to apply and made him kiss his men on both cheeks...made him say vows on how he has to take care of his lovely wife...made them all do push-ups...had him stand in front of the door...shouting ' I Love You' in 10 different language....

it was quite fun...sabo~ing them and not to mention getting ang baos....boy is the groom smart...first ang bao was filled with rupiah -_-' ....chey...for 1 sec i tot i saw 10000 sing dollar note...second ang bao was 4 dollars-_-'' ...when i took the 4 bucks out...i juz look into the video camera with this -_-''' look and told gina: biang ur hubby very kiam siap le...anyway we did get our fair share in the end...and let the groom receive his beautiful bride...keke

so off the coupld go...from places to places for the entire morning...with us buzzing behind them helping out here and there...i was feakingly tired by dinner time...

fun fun fun...first time attending friend's wedding and helping out...it's as though i'm marrying my daughter off...muah haha...felt really happy for this gal...

o forgot to mention...the dinner was good...food is yummy and it turned out somewhat like our jc prom nite...simply becos it's been awhile since all my classmates get together with the teachers after so long...lots of catching up and it's really fun!

right now...the couple are in europe having their honeymoon...hope they'll have fun thru out!

alright...i wasnt quite in the right mind for the past few days due to my own stupidity....always get myself upset though i know the outcome...but now...i'm more or less alright...cos IMH makes me appreciate sanity...and i am glad my mind is still sound...=)

anyway i simply love this picture...cos it cheers me up...

my little angel is soooooo adorable...he smiles alot lately and is extremely excited when u talk to him...

i love him...i love him...i love him sooooo much! always like to kiss his cheeks!

hehe i'm the marshmellow man...

finally...my exams are over...pract exam today...i did my best...stayed calm and all...but still i dun think i've fared well...missed out certain stuff...not to mention hb nearly flopped on me...urgh...i should have dug my nails into his fat tummy...sigh...juz hope my grades are alright...

i'm so tired...mentally...havent gotten the chance to rest and monday have to go for clinical...am i prepared?? i'm trying to...read up on stuff...i juz hope that i wont end up being a patient of IMH...i cannot and i will not....ARGH!!!

had a weird dream last nite...dreamt that i went for belly button piercing...haha but then that guy who did it for me pierce it in a weird way...sorta like pull it rather that pierce it...mm...i tot my belly is gonna tore...haha...didnt feel any pain...i mean yah lah dreaming mah...but it was quite gross...didnt look as nice cos of the way he did it...weird weird...anyway am getting it no matter wat...haha...

sigh...my head is filled with lots of stuff( things i have to do, things i need to do, things i shouldnt give a damn, things i should have done long ago)...i dunno how to clear it...it's all jumbled up into this huge lump that is snowballing into a bigger size each day...and it's over loading...causing me pain...creating this utmost emptiness within me...

i know i have lots of ppl around me who love and care for me...they are within my reach and touch...but at this point of time i'm starting to feel lost and scared...i dunno why...seriously...i dunno....

i wished i'm angry with something....or even hate someone...at least i know i'm still human...but at the moment i juz feel nothing! nothing at all! instead i only feel fear...of wat...i dunnoe! and it's getting stronger each day...

two words....

fucking sian...

really...

Fri...sent a fren off to airport...he's flying to japan for a year...cool eh...

but actually my purpose is to acc someone else...sigh...always sad to send ppl off...esp those who have to be away for more than a month....

Sat...went for squash training...then off to yilong's house for dinner...didnt know wat to eat...plus ck was sick and sze had diarrhea so the guys suggested we buy food and eat steamboat...

we bought a hell lot of food...4 packs of hotdogs, 2 packs of fishballs, tou fu, veggy, pork, prawn, dao gua and alot more...plus one tub of ice cream...total worth 32 bucks...for 6 persons...not bad le quite cheap...

at the end of the day we are so bloated...esp with hot dogs...haha...cos 4 packets of hotdogs..80 of them...cut into halves means there were 160 hot dogs...haha...eat till we siao...darn full lo...

preparation was quite fun lah...as usual we gals were the ones cutting and washing the food...okie guys did help abit lah...haha ended up eating from 9 till 10 plus...then ice creams...yup yup...had alot of fun crapping and catching up...haha...keep laughing cos of some the jokes that we're talking about...we ended up talking about politics too...haha cos vic asked if i can foresee a female PM emerging in say 5 years time...mm...better not comment here...if not i kena caught by police how? haha

Sun...went to my cousin's son's man yue...alot of kids lo...biang...government's strategy worked...cos really alot of ppl i've seen are either pregnant or giving birth...or have i stepped into the time where frens around me and cousins my age start getting married and giving birth...o man...

haha...anyway food was good! and my baby boy ended up being the star...cos he was so chubby and likable that he snatched all the attention from the actual baby...haha...

Today...argh...play and school...sigh...pek chek....dunno wat i'm writing...not enough time...very upset after the paper...so went jogging...drain my energy...now am feeling much better...actually i felt better once i reached home and play with auggy...hee...but jogging helps alot too...

women of the Yeong family! see baby boy likes to dangle his head this way...


sigh...i'm the shortest among them le...both gals are like half a head taller than me man...hehe...my aunt on the right...


mom, dad, bro and baby boy