happy birthday ray...haha...dunno wish u how many times le...haha had so much fun on sat nite...but still didnt managed to bring u down with two waterfall...next time perhaps...graveyard will be the next one for u (i'm not cursing her hor...it's juz the name of a drink) =p
had so many surprises for my captain last nite...past two weeks were really tough on her and she really deserve a treat...so this surprise bday celebration come juz in time...hehe like to see ppl happy and see their surprised cum touched expressions...always makes me smile...
angie, jessie and me bought different presents for her...hehe hopefully she'll be happily using that disco ball, money clip and eating those delicious chocolate! o man so fun to hang out with u gals...too bad i cant join u all next sat...mm but it'll be good to take a break too...haha will continue our meet ups week after next eh...by then we'll make ray have more waterfalls....haha still cant stop laughing when i think of her expression while she drank her supposed birthday drink...and me bluffing her that the plain water is meant for her burnt mouth...haha...
didnt do muc today...except read something on autism...and notes on the case study....austism never fails to interest me and make me wanna explore more in depth...will not give up looking for infor on it...cos somehow i wanna know what the world of an autistic kid is like...not sure if i can really help them but at least i understand and see wat i can do for them in future if i ever get into pediatric department...or mb mental health....
tomolo will be a long day for me...hopefully will survive thru...o yah signed up for kickboxing lesson in schl and it starts tomolo...pls let the lessons be fun...if not my 30 bucks will go down the drain...hehe...nite everyone!
"How happy is the blameless vestal's lot! The world forgetting, by the world forgot. Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind! Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd"
Monday, July 26, 2004
Saturday, July 24, 2004
yup i'm sick...
after having squash continously for four days last week and three days this week....i finally fell sick...yup sore throat, flu and slight fever...fren of mine said i shouldn't have pushed myself so hard, cos my health will sure give way...appreciate her concern...still i went ahead with it...stubborn eh...but that's me...
like to keep myself busy...cos it proves my existence; good in the sense it keeps me occupied and focus... i won't have the time to dwell on other stuffs...i always have this thinking that i rather die of exhaustion than die not doing anything at all...there was this period of time when i dun even wanna wake up cos i can't bear to face the days ahead and i have simply lost interest in every single thing around me. Worst of all, the routine of my life then was so bloody empty that my inner self is slolwly seeping away...so for now i'm juz glad that i can keep myself busy...=)
anyway, went out with ck today and we watched spider man....yeah finally caught this movie...it's exciting and touching...haha runaway bride in the spider man movie...interesting eh....wonder if gal like MJ does exist....who will sacrifice so much for the man she loves????
o yah, i finally went to book the basic theory test...die die i wanna learn how to drive...i can't stand public transport...if i'm desperate enough i may even switch to learn bike...cos it's so low maintainence....happy...cos i finally make the first step to learn driving rather than hoping i can drive without even going thru the lessons...haha
i realise i'm getting more and more short tempered lately...seems like things are getting on my nerve easily...something is wrong man...think i need sleep...or maybe i need to relearn how to communicate and readjust myself....guess my moulting period is due soon...
like to keep myself busy...cos it proves my existence; good in the sense it keeps me occupied and focus... i won't have the time to dwell on other stuffs...i always have this thinking that i rather die of exhaustion than die not doing anything at all...there was this period of time when i dun even wanna wake up cos i can't bear to face the days ahead and i have simply lost interest in every single thing around me. Worst of all, the routine of my life then was so bloody empty that my inner self is slolwly seeping away...so for now i'm juz glad that i can keep myself busy...=)
anyway, went out with ck today and we watched spider man....yeah finally caught this movie...it's exciting and touching...haha runaway bride in the spider man movie...interesting eh....wonder if gal like MJ does exist....who will sacrifice so much for the man she loves????
o yah, i finally went to book the basic theory test...die die i wanna learn how to drive...i can't stand public transport...if i'm desperate enough i may even switch to learn bike...cos it's so low maintainence....happy...cos i finally make the first step to learn driving rather than hoping i can drive without even going thru the lessons...haha
i realise i'm getting more and more short tempered lately...seems like things are getting on my nerve easily...something is wrong man...think i need sleep...or maybe i need to relearn how to communicate and readjust myself....guess my moulting period is due soon...
Monday, July 19, 2004
zonked out on sat nite....
at this point of time...i so wanna sleep...but am waiting for my parents to come back...dunnoe where they went...12++ liao havent reached home yet...
yesterday was near the point of dead drunk...was at the rim of losing conscious when the gals sent me home...and by the time i reached home, i have to hide in the toilet cos my sis-in-law was using com in my room. And the next moment i know...i was sitting by the toilet bowl...haha ugly sia...luckily by the time i got out, my room was cleared and i managed to drag myself to my room and juz sleep...
guess i was too tired...physically and mentally...this whole week was hectic for me...trying my best to do things right but still seem to screw up...
something happened during the squash training on sat...didnt exactly see it happened but it sure wasn't a pleasant one. Consequence always attaches itself with the things we do...somehow u have to learn to deal with it...handle it well and u'll be safe, if not u'll juz be buried alive by all the consequences that comes along the way....
The world doesnt revolve around one single person...with or without one's existence, it'll still go on...somehow we are all made to be selfish and tend to magnify only our problems....cynical...but i think it's true...i hate being an adult...cos things will complicate themselves and at the same time u'll realise how ppl can turn to be so ugly all of the sudden....mentally drained...dun wanna think anymore...
have to sleep...my two bao beis still havent come back...dunno where they go...tot i'm the only happening one...mm...mb not...nite~
yesterday was near the point of dead drunk...was at the rim of losing conscious when the gals sent me home...and by the time i reached home, i have to hide in the toilet cos my sis-in-law was using com in my room. And the next moment i know...i was sitting by the toilet bowl...haha ugly sia...luckily by the time i got out, my room was cleared and i managed to drag myself to my room and juz sleep...
guess i was too tired...physically and mentally...this whole week was hectic for me...trying my best to do things right but still seem to screw up...
something happened during the squash training on sat...didnt exactly see it happened but it sure wasn't a pleasant one. Consequence always attaches itself with the things we do...somehow u have to learn to deal with it...handle it well and u'll be safe, if not u'll juz be buried alive by all the consequences that comes along the way....
The world doesnt revolve around one single person...with or without one's existence, it'll still go on...somehow we are all made to be selfish and tend to magnify only our problems....cynical...but i think it's true...i hate being an adult...cos things will complicate themselves and at the same time u'll realise how ppl can turn to be so ugly all of the sudden....mentally drained...dun wanna think anymore...
have to sleep...my two bao beis still havent come back...dunno where they go...tot i'm the only happening one...mm...mb not...nite~
Friday, July 09, 2004
i'm so drained now...
this is only the first week of schl and I'm already feeling worn out...o man not a good sign...either it shows that age is getting on me or that problem lies in me not able to handle stress well...again...
guess I need time to adjust...I always take longer to adjustment to environment...slow to react...damn...
anyway, the orientation thingy for squash was fun and pretty successful...effort and time put in have finally paid off...happy for our squash club...my captain is treating us dinner this sat...so pai seh to make her pay...mb we should be the one treating her back cos I can see she've worked double hard than us...
schl work will be piling like siao in a few weeks time...I have to be able to cope with it...dun wanna feel panicky but I am feeling it alittle now cos quite a no. of new stuff to learn...things like physio...I'm already lost during the first two lectures...haha need to read up during weekend...
dun wan history to repeat itself...I seriously can't afford it...but somehow I have this feeling that it's coming back...damn it damn it damn it...is it cos once u get into it u wont be able to get out that easily? but I was fine for the past yr...hopefully things wont be back to square one...at least I hope the new me compared to three years back will be stronger to handle bad situaition...ugrh...I really dislike this feeling...it's like u're stuck and couldn't move on...and all u can do is struggle...
I missed u guys so much...yd n ck...though u two still having hols...meet up soon k...really need to see u two to bitch and destress haha
am going back to sleep...woke up to go bathe..cos I slept at 8 today...
guess I need time to adjust...I always take longer to adjustment to environment...slow to react...damn...
anyway, the orientation thingy for squash was fun and pretty successful...effort and time put in have finally paid off...happy for our squash club...my captain is treating us dinner this sat...so pai seh to make her pay...mb we should be the one treating her back cos I can see she've worked double hard than us...
schl work will be piling like siao in a few weeks time...I have to be able to cope with it...dun wanna feel panicky but I am feeling it alittle now cos quite a no. of new stuff to learn...things like physio...I'm already lost during the first two lectures...haha need to read up during weekend...
dun wan history to repeat itself...I seriously can't afford it...but somehow I have this feeling that it's coming back...damn it damn it damn it...is it cos once u get into it u wont be able to get out that easily? but I was fine for the past yr...hopefully things wont be back to square one...at least I hope the new me compared to three years back will be stronger to handle bad situaition...ugrh...I really dislike this feeling...it's like u're stuck and couldn't move on...and all u can do is struggle...
I missed u guys so much...yd n ck...though u two still having hols...meet up soon k...really need to see u two to bitch and destress haha
am going back to sleep...woke up to go bathe..cos I slept at 8 today...
Tuesday, July 06, 2004
i juz realise something...
guys, I realise the classical conditioning I've been saying is not by Piaget...I made a mistake!!!! It's suppose to be Palov's theory! o man keep making such stupid mistakes...stupid stupid...
Btw had an incredible experience today...never ever in my life have I had the experience of ideas being stolen by someone and use it as their own. Except that in our case it's not ideas that are stolen but poles! F***king table tennis ppl from NYP used our poles for their booth set up! Bunch of selfish, mindless kids...so f***king lazy to buy their own poles that they actaully have to steal ours to make their pathetic booth...and their president still dared to claim that those poles where bought by them. Come on...all the length are exactly the same as those we've lost...EXACTLY the SAME!
Mmm mb this is only the beginning...cos I'm sure in the working world such things are bound to happen...but make sure u're not the one doing it because it simply proof ur incapabilities and stupidity...
dead tired...finishing venting my anger...nite...
Btw had an incredible experience today...never ever in my life have I had the experience of ideas being stolen by someone and use it as their own. Except that in our case it's not ideas that are stolen but poles! F***king table tennis ppl from NYP used our poles for their booth set up! Bunch of selfish, mindless kids...so f***king lazy to buy their own poles that they actaully have to steal ours to make their pathetic booth...and their president still dared to claim that those poles where bought by them. Come on...all the length are exactly the same as those we've lost...EXACTLY the SAME!
Mmm mb this is only the beginning...cos I'm sure in the working world such things are bound to happen...but make sure u're not the one doing it because it simply proof ur incapabilities and stupidity...
dead tired...finishing venting my anger...nite...
Thursday, July 01, 2004
body in bad shape...
cool...yesterday was fun! went ikea...bought the mat which my mum always bug me without fail when I mention that i'm going there to buy stuff...bought wooden frames too...
I bleed to death man..am 145 buck poorer...bought the squash racket I've been eyeing for...damn ex...tried my best to lower the price...managed to cut it from 169 to 145...did disgusting thing like making myself sound like little gal and pleaded the boss to lower the price further, claiming that I'm a poor poor student....yd and ck were like giggling there lo...so pai seh...they said i could have lowered the price more...but I cant stand myself doing anymore digusting stuff..so let's juz say 145 is a good bargain.
went over to sze's house for dinner...so sweet...see his father, mother, him and vic all squeeze in the kitchen preparing dinner while we actually fell asleep in their living room...haha...o man they already look like one family...cosy cosy man....
anyway the supposed main objective today was to help yd shift from his old hostel to the new one....uh but it only start at 8pm...haha
this guy didnt even pack his stuff at all...and we have to fight against the dust, spider and time...can u imagine emptying his room in 30 min...practically we juz do whatever we can and dump his stuff in the limited 2 empty boxes...the funniest thing is to dump his clothes in bedsheet and tied the bedsheet so that it'll be one huge package -__- like those old chinese movie..where ppl wrap their clothes with a blue cloth except that this is sooo much bigger and heavier...
glad that everything is settled...at least now yd's new room looks good and suitable for sleeping...hoho
As for today...went to vote for my coach today at the squash association AGM...the current committee is so damn f***ed up....delayed our time...not enough chairs for us to sit...didnt follow the constitution they've set and gotten question by members...all the president can ans was ' I'm not sure....I think....'
Luckily my coach's team of ppl won the vote- 60++ votes againt 20++ votes for most of the committee ppl selected...hopefully they'll do a better job and make squash a more recognise sport.
That's all for today...one min I'm hungry and now I'm feeling bloated...something's wrong with my disgestive system....if not it must be due to the soon-to-arrive 'best fren'....am so bloody fat...hope tomolo's squash session will make me sweat...nitez
I bleed to death man..am 145 buck poorer...bought the squash racket I've been eyeing for...damn ex...tried my best to lower the price...managed to cut it from 169 to 145...did disgusting thing like making myself sound like little gal and pleaded the boss to lower the price further, claiming that I'm a poor poor student....yd and ck were like giggling there lo...so pai seh...they said i could have lowered the price more...but I cant stand myself doing anymore digusting stuff..so let's juz say 145 is a good bargain.
went over to sze's house for dinner...so sweet...see his father, mother, him and vic all squeeze in the kitchen preparing dinner while we actually fell asleep in their living room...haha...o man they already look like one family...cosy cosy man....
anyway the supposed main objective today was to help yd shift from his old hostel to the new one....uh but it only start at 8pm...haha
this guy didnt even pack his stuff at all...and we have to fight against the dust, spider and time...can u imagine emptying his room in 30 min...practically we juz do whatever we can and dump his stuff in the limited 2 empty boxes...the funniest thing is to dump his clothes in bedsheet and tied the bedsheet so that it'll be one huge package -__- like those old chinese movie..where ppl wrap their clothes with a blue cloth except that this is sooo much bigger and heavier...
glad that everything is settled...at least now yd's new room looks good and suitable for sleeping...hoho
As for today...went to vote for my coach today at the squash association AGM...the current committee is so damn f***ed up....delayed our time...not enough chairs for us to sit...didnt follow the constitution they've set and gotten question by members...all the president can ans was ' I'm not sure....I think....'
Luckily my coach's team of ppl won the vote- 60++ votes againt 20++ votes for most of the committee ppl selected...hopefully they'll do a better job and make squash a more recognise sport.
That's all for today...one min I'm hungry and now I'm feeling bloated...something's wrong with my disgestive system....if not it must be due to the soon-to-arrive 'best fren'....am so bloody fat...hope tomolo's squash session will make me sweat...nitez
Monday, June 28, 2004
feeling nothing
feeling tired...
feeling numb...
am I happy?
am I sad?
no ans to that...cos like wat I said to my fren there is nothing for me to be ecstatic about, neither is there anything that upsets me...
everything is changing...
everyone is changing...
I'm changing...
wat if one day my frens say to me: geez...yj...I don't know who you are anymore? what am I to do? how am I to react?
need to take a step back and back off...
schl starting in one week's time...I'll be busy like hell...no more can I slack....no more can I do the things I wanna do....no more can I meet up with the frens I wanna meet up...but good in a sense there's always things to keep me occupied...then I won't be down again...
feeling numb...
am I happy?
am I sad?
no ans to that...cos like wat I said to my fren there is nothing for me to be ecstatic about, neither is there anything that upsets me...
everything is changing...
everyone is changing...
I'm changing...
wat if one day my frens say to me: geez...yj...I don't know who you are anymore? what am I to do? how am I to react?
need to take a step back and back off...
schl starting in one week's time...I'll be busy like hell...no more can I slack....no more can I do the things I wanna do....no more can I meet up with the frens I wanna meet up...but good in a sense there's always things to keep me occupied...then I won't be down again...
Thursday, June 24, 2004
Dog...dog....dog...I need a dog...I want a dog
Hai~ seriously...I want a dog as my companion and as a baby for me to care for...pitbull terrier preferably...u know the one that's in the comic-家有贱狗 that super cute small eyes big nose dog...really cute breed...
I'm sure I can train my puppy well..cos I've experiment that on my frens...and to my OT frens - Piaget's theory really works! Classical conditioning...hoho fantastic theory! haha think yd,ck,vic and sze couldn't agree more to that.
Okie it all happened back then when we were at redang. Due to constant exposure to the sunlight...we were always asking one another to help in applying sunblock or aloe gel on our back...and with that I started poking at their waist everytime I finish applying their back...and before I poke them, I'll always say " 3,2,1, clear!" then I'll poke...u know like the way u try to resucitate someone with that electric thingy. I did this the most for yd and the least for sze with respect to their level of sensitivity...erh...actually it's juz simply that yd scared of ppl poking at his waist far more than sze who has no feeling at all. O and yd's reaction is the greatest somehow...so effect better...haha
Anyway last sun, when we met up...we tried this again on each other...and it still works! haha...no matter wat language we use in saying 3,2,1 (even in latin and malay)...the other party will definitely 'protect' or 'prepare' their wasit...so fun! The funniest part is that...I've pushed yd to the limit where I dun even need to touch him....muah hahaha....I only said "3,2,1, clear!" and the next minute I know...he juz jolt on his own like someone really did poke him at the waist...haha..brilliant eh...haha
ppl try it on ur frens and family...I'm sure it works...well at least I've proven that it works on my frens! hoho...
I'm sure I can train my puppy well..cos I've experiment that on my frens...and to my OT frens - Piaget's theory really works! Classical conditioning...hoho fantastic theory! haha think yd,ck,vic and sze couldn't agree more to that.
Okie it all happened back then when we were at redang. Due to constant exposure to the sunlight...we were always asking one another to help in applying sunblock or aloe gel on our back...and with that I started poking at their waist everytime I finish applying their back...and before I poke them, I'll always say " 3,2,1, clear!" then I'll poke...u know like the way u try to resucitate someone with that electric thingy. I did this the most for yd and the least for sze with respect to their level of sensitivity...erh...actually it's juz simply that yd scared of ppl poking at his waist far more than sze who has no feeling at all. O and yd's reaction is the greatest somehow...so effect better...haha
Anyway last sun, when we met up...we tried this again on each other...and it still works! haha...no matter wat language we use in saying 3,2,1 (even in latin and malay)...the other party will definitely 'protect' or 'prepare' their wasit...so fun! The funniest part is that...I've pushed yd to the limit where I dun even need to touch him....muah hahaha....I only said "3,2,1, clear!" and the next minute I know...he juz jolt on his own like someone really did poke him at the waist...haha..brilliant eh...haha
ppl try it on ur frens and family...I'm sure it works...well at least I've proven that it works on my frens! hoho...
Monday, June 21, 2004
a path to walk...
last nite went out for a long walk with a fren of mine...walked to sengkang and back to my place with tibits and drinks...juz sat outside looking at the nite view of the flyover near my house...
chatted for quite long...talking about frens...our life...wat we've been thru...realise there are many things that happened to him which I never knew. I think I need to slow down my pace to know each of my fren again...I keep having this feeling that I fail as a fren and havent got to known them good enough...I can do better but I dunno where exactly went wrong...
yeah today had lunch with yd, ck, vic and sze...nice, juz eat and talk without us having to rush from one place to another...perhaps it'll be last meeting before schl starts, cos once it begin we'll be busy with our own activities...time will be stretched with so many things on hand.
walked around abit at suntec area and we settled down at millenium walk's starbucks to drink coffee and laugh about funny incidents that happen during our invigilation job...haha alot of weird things happened with ppl taking exams...some can reall make u feel like screaming at them...
evening time left me and yd...walking around bugis seraching for gift for his fren...ended up bought a braclet...we kinda 'shared' it, pretty cool and nice...seldom can I find one that I wear and suits me...thanx man!
so far...comments for my hairstyle aint that bad...except for my bro..who keeps laughing at me saying I really look funny...mm...but weird enough this time round I dun really feel paranoid about having a bad haircut or wearing a top that look like those aunties selling tiger beer at kopi thiam(cos it's orange and blue in colour..reminds me of those ladies..haha).
usually I'll be very consious of others' comments...this time round I dun really take them to heart anymore...how come ah...mb be cos I simply like the haircut I had and the top I bought...being comfortable and natural as a person is the best...something I'm learning and trying to achieve.
chatted for quite long...talking about frens...our life...wat we've been thru...realise there are many things that happened to him which I never knew. I think I need to slow down my pace to know each of my fren again...I keep having this feeling that I fail as a fren and havent got to known them good enough...I can do better but I dunno where exactly went wrong...
yeah today had lunch with yd, ck, vic and sze...nice, juz eat and talk without us having to rush from one place to another...perhaps it'll be last meeting before schl starts, cos once it begin we'll be busy with our own activities...time will be stretched with so many things on hand.
walked around abit at suntec area and we settled down at millenium walk's starbucks to drink coffee and laugh about funny incidents that happen during our invigilation job...haha alot of weird things happened with ppl taking exams...some can reall make u feel like screaming at them...
evening time left me and yd...walking around bugis seraching for gift for his fren...ended up bought a braclet...we kinda 'shared' it, pretty cool and nice...seldom can I find one that I wear and suits me...thanx man!
so far...comments for my hairstyle aint that bad...except for my bro..who keeps laughing at me saying I really look funny...mm...but weird enough this time round I dun really feel paranoid about having a bad haircut or wearing a top that look like those aunties selling tiger beer at kopi thiam(cos it's orange and blue in colour..reminds me of those ladies..haha).
usually I'll be very consious of others' comments...this time round I dun really take them to heart anymore...how come ah...mb be cos I simply like the haircut I had and the top I bought...being comfortable and natural as a person is the best...something I'm learning and trying to achieve.
Sunday, June 20, 2004
first time....
ever since the invigilation job had ended, I have more time to spend doing things I wanna do but haven't gotten the chance to.
Wed evening after the last day of work, val and I went to have a nice dinner together. It's been soooo long since we last have a good chat...o man I miss chatting with her...so fun! We laughed alot bout the stupid things we did during sec schl...and it kinda makes me feel closer to her once again. Sometimes I feel that I've lost her cos we didnt contact each other since the last pulau ubin trip 2 years back. And now it gives me the chance to know her better again...haha think I'm one of the few frens she knows who is so cheena and has weird english pronuciation. Funny that we can click from sec till now...haha
Thurs, went to cut and highlight my hair...had my fringe cut and now I look so toot...cos my fringe is one straight line slightly above my eyebrowns. I like it man! haha though I look so silly...
anyway met up with pf for dinner...went queensway to look out for my squash racket and deuter bag...havent bought any yet...cos kinda broke at the moment...so sian have to spend at least 139 on my squash racket...that will force me to master it well so that money dun go down the drain..haha...as if my agility will shoot up once I bought my racket.
had hotdog bread for dinner from ikea...used to be 1 buck but now went up le...1.20 mb cos of gst...haha...anyway still as nice...after that went down to chinatown to eat hua sheng tang yuan + toa tao + ching teng...yummy...
And out of curiosity, we finally have the courage to walk into the hindu temple in chinatown...haha cos we not sure if we can do that but juz wanna try our luck. Anyway it's soo amazing...I love hindu temples...so real and colourful...all the statues are so unqiue and interesting. There are so many gods in the temple and we have no idea which is which...uh not that we know alot...there must be some festival going on cos quite a no. of ppl went and were waiting for the priest to give them blessings...interesting to see how devoted these believers are...
decided to walk to clark quay after we finished our feast and exploring the place...on our way, there was this lao uncle who was holding his slightly young gf's hand...we were waiting to cross the street and they were standing in front of us. This stupid uncle keep turning around to look in our direction then turn back and smile and mumble something to his gf....he did that for like 4 times...have this feeling that he's commenting about my hair...I kept staring at him and swear to pf that if he turn and look somemore I'll dig out his eyeballs...bloodyidiot....
Fri, I met up with gina for lunch....haha this woman is still as chatty as ever...so relax to be with her...and we can chat about anything...if it's not for our bloated tummies, we would have sat at coffee club express for the rest of the noon.
think she'll be the first among all my friends whom I'll get to attend wedding...woo so exciting...I mean it's like double the fun since I've already attended her rom.
Envy her and I'm so happy that she found her mr right. I know she'll be in really good hands of her hubby...afterall they've been together for like 6 yrs and went thru so much together...she has all my blessing! and I can't wait to see their product!
shall end here...need to bathe...hoho
Wed evening after the last day of work, val and I went to have a nice dinner together. It's been soooo long since we last have a good chat...o man I miss chatting with her...so fun! We laughed alot bout the stupid things we did during sec schl...and it kinda makes me feel closer to her once again. Sometimes I feel that I've lost her cos we didnt contact each other since the last pulau ubin trip 2 years back. And now it gives me the chance to know her better again...haha think I'm one of the few frens she knows who is so cheena and has weird english pronuciation. Funny that we can click from sec till now...haha
Thurs, went to cut and highlight my hair...had my fringe cut and now I look so toot...cos my fringe is one straight line slightly above my eyebrowns. I like it man! haha though I look so silly...
anyway met up with pf for dinner...went queensway to look out for my squash racket and deuter bag...havent bought any yet...cos kinda broke at the moment...so sian have to spend at least 139 on my squash racket...that will force me to master it well so that money dun go down the drain..haha...as if my agility will shoot up once I bought my racket.
had hotdog bread for dinner from ikea...used to be 1 buck but now went up le...1.20 mb cos of gst...haha...anyway still as nice...after that went down to chinatown to eat hua sheng tang yuan + toa tao + ching teng...yummy...
And out of curiosity, we finally have the courage to walk into the hindu temple in chinatown...haha cos we not sure if we can do that but juz wanna try our luck. Anyway it's soo amazing...I love hindu temples...so real and colourful...all the statues are so unqiue and interesting. There are so many gods in the temple and we have no idea which is which...uh not that we know alot...there must be some festival going on cos quite a no. of ppl went and were waiting for the priest to give them blessings...interesting to see how devoted these believers are...
decided to walk to clark quay after we finished our feast and exploring the place...on our way, there was this lao uncle who was holding his slightly young gf's hand...we were waiting to cross the street and they were standing in front of us. This stupid uncle keep turning around to look in our direction then turn back and smile and mumble something to his gf....he did that for like 4 times...have this feeling that he's commenting about my hair...I kept staring at him and swear to pf that if he turn and look somemore I'll dig out his eyeballs...bloodyidiot....
Fri, I met up with gina for lunch....haha this woman is still as chatty as ever...so relax to be with her...and we can chat about anything...if it's not for our bloated tummies, we would have sat at coffee club express for the rest of the noon.
think she'll be the first among all my friends whom I'll get to attend wedding...woo so exciting...I mean it's like double the fun since I've already attended her rom.
Envy her and I'm so happy that she found her mr right. I know she'll be in really good hands of her hubby...afterall they've been together for like 6 yrs and went thru so much together...she has all my blessing! and I can't wait to see their product!
shall end here...need to bathe...hoho
Wednesday, June 16, 2004
Something interesting...
"How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd"
- Eloisa to Abelard by Alexander Pope
yk found this and share it with me..so i post it here...from the movie eternal sunshine of the spotless mind...dun really understand the poem but it's where the script came about...
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd"
- Eloisa to Abelard by Alexander Pope
yk found this and share it with me..so i post it here...from the movie eternal sunshine of the spotless mind...dun really understand the poem but it's where the script came about...
Saturday, June 12, 2004
tired but happy...
O man...never in my life have I walked for so long...I can't imagine myself walking from tanjong pagar all the way to somerset...wah liao...but we did it,took us more than 1 hour...my legs are gone man....
haha okie, so I was pretty down for the past few days...but today's outing kinda brigthen me up so much! All thanx to yk...
My initial plan was juz to ask yk out for a drink and to chill out at my favourite wala wala bar...but by the time we're done with our dinner and dessert, we realise the bar was too packed...anyway the band that we like is not performing tonite so we decided to go other places for a drink.
Surprise surprise...yk who always know so much about music and bars, brought me to this bar at the arts house...it's so cool! The atmosphere is really woooo...the service was good, ppl were friendly and there was a live band playing jazz/blue music...singer was fantastic too...really a good place to chill out.
We wanted to leave early...cos I was planning to go home by train. But later on decided to go for second round of drinking and he brought me to this pub at tanjong pagar call Mojo...bloody shocked when I went there...cos there was not many ppl there and guess wat...the singers there are the bosses of the pub who are like in their late 30s, early 40s....their vocals were really good...and they were playing rock music...you should really see the way they move(sort of dancing) and sing man...it's so funny...it's like 2 uncles trying to act young and reliving their younger days...it's fun to see them enjoying themselves!
One reason we had to walk from tanjong pagar all the way to somerset is be cos that stupid yk's nite rider is only available at somerset...so I walked with him cos I didnt want him to walk all the way alone...wonder how many kilometres we've walked...
This fellow is always full of crappy ideas...he made me walked with him to the fullerton hotel so that we can take free apples to eat. So pai seh...never done that in my life before...haha wat to do...I juz followed him around lo. Actually I didnt quite believe him about the free apples cos he always tricked me into believing stupid stuff. So I'm quite shocked to see fuji apples placed on the tables and all are free for us to take.
Haha the apples were good...sort of provide us the energy for the rest of the journey from city hall to somerset...haha it's very fun to eat apple and talk and walk along the padang area...so quite and peaceful
Really thankful for yk to accompany me tonite..if not for him...think I'll still be sulking...o man going out with him is always so fun cos he always think of weird places to go and they are always interesting....thank u so much bala!!
haha okie, so I was pretty down for the past few days...but today's outing kinda brigthen me up so much! All thanx to yk...
My initial plan was juz to ask yk out for a drink and to chill out at my favourite wala wala bar...but by the time we're done with our dinner and dessert, we realise the bar was too packed...anyway the band that we like is not performing tonite so we decided to go other places for a drink.
Surprise surprise...yk who always know so much about music and bars, brought me to this bar at the arts house...it's so cool! The atmosphere is really woooo...the service was good, ppl were friendly and there was a live band playing jazz/blue music...singer was fantastic too...really a good place to chill out.
We wanted to leave early...cos I was planning to go home by train. But later on decided to go for second round of drinking and he brought me to this pub at tanjong pagar call Mojo...bloody shocked when I went there...cos there was not many ppl there and guess wat...the singers there are the bosses of the pub who are like in their late 30s, early 40s....their vocals were really good...and they were playing rock music...you should really see the way they move(sort of dancing) and sing man...it's so funny...it's like 2 uncles trying to act young and reliving their younger days...it's fun to see them enjoying themselves!
One reason we had to walk from tanjong pagar all the way to somerset is be cos that stupid yk's nite rider is only available at somerset...so I walked with him cos I didnt want him to walk all the way alone...wonder how many kilometres we've walked...
This fellow is always full of crappy ideas...he made me walked with him to the fullerton hotel so that we can take free apples to eat. So pai seh...never done that in my life before...haha wat to do...I juz followed him around lo. Actually I didnt quite believe him about the free apples cos he always tricked me into believing stupid stuff. So I'm quite shocked to see fuji apples placed on the tables and all are free for us to take.
Haha the apples were good...sort of provide us the energy for the rest of the journey from city hall to somerset...haha it's very fun to eat apple and talk and walk along the padang area...so quite and peaceful
Really thankful for yk to accompany me tonite..if not for him...think I'll still be sulking...o man going out with him is always so fun cos he always think of weird places to go and they are always interesting....thank u so much bala!!
Thursday, June 10, 2004
eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
If u plan to catch this show...dun read my blog today...
You know why this is the movie title? cos it's about erasing memories...with unhappy memories earsed from ur brain...it's no doubt your mind will always be filled with sunshine.
If you have the chance to earse your memory...what will u choose to erase? Memory of a person, memory of being hurt by someone, embarassing moment, bad experience or the darkest time in your life? Or will you choose to erase everything and start all over again?
okie the characters in the movie chose to erase each other from their memory...reason: the gal cant stand the guy being boring and the guy cant stand the gal always being so impulsive and seem to be sleeping around. In the end, after erasing each other off...they still managed to know each other and actually begin to start afresh without the knowledge that they had once live their live together...is it fate or is it coincidence that the script writter is trying to show...I have no idea. In the end when they found out their reasons for erasing each other's existence from their memory...they struggled with the decision of whether they should carry on...cos in the end they might juz hate one another all over again with the similar reasons they had previously. Mmm dun think u'll get what i'm talkting about..so catch the movie...it's funny in btw the erasing of memories too...
Will you still go back to that same person, knowing you may end up hating him/her for the same reason that you chose to leave him in the first place? Although the ending for the movie is a touching one...I wonder if I would do the same...I dun think I can be like the characters in the movie...If I've had gone through the bad stuff why will I wanna go through them once more? it'll be like being stabbed twice in the heart and letting myself bleed even more. Why on earth will I do that to hurt myself?
okie no more artsy films...makes me go nuts...make my thoughts run wild...somehow these thought make me feel kinda down too...dun ask why I have no ans to that either...mb I'm starting to feel empty inside...
You know why this is the movie title? cos it's about erasing memories...with unhappy memories earsed from ur brain...it's no doubt your mind will always be filled with sunshine.
If you have the chance to earse your memory...what will u choose to erase? Memory of a person, memory of being hurt by someone, embarassing moment, bad experience or the darkest time in your life? Or will you choose to erase everything and start all over again?
okie the characters in the movie chose to erase each other from their memory...reason: the gal cant stand the guy being boring and the guy cant stand the gal always being so impulsive and seem to be sleeping around. In the end, after erasing each other off...they still managed to know each other and actually begin to start afresh without the knowledge that they had once live their live together...is it fate or is it coincidence that the script writter is trying to show...I have no idea. In the end when they found out their reasons for erasing each other's existence from their memory...they struggled with the decision of whether they should carry on...cos in the end they might juz hate one another all over again with the similar reasons they had previously. Mmm dun think u'll get what i'm talkting about..so catch the movie...it's funny in btw the erasing of memories too...
Will you still go back to that same person, knowing you may end up hating him/her for the same reason that you chose to leave him in the first place? Although the ending for the movie is a touching one...I wonder if I would do the same...I dun think I can be like the characters in the movie...If I've had gone through the bad stuff why will I wanna go through them once more? it'll be like being stabbed twice in the heart and letting myself bleed even more. Why on earth will I do that to hurt myself?
okie no more artsy films...makes me go nuts...make my thoughts run wild...somehow these thought make me feel kinda down too...dun ask why I have no ans to that either...mb I'm starting to feel empty inside...
will there ever be someone who will love me no matter wat happen?
parents?friends?who will love me till the day I die? selfish or rather stupid thought of mine...but really who? I never doubt the love my parents and friends shower me with...but things are always changing, nothing is for sure anymore and the term 'uncondition love' seems non-existence. What will I be if my parents moved on; friends gotten married and have their own lives?
Can't exactly picture myself living alone till my very last breath. Perhaps that is a good thing...我一个人来，就一个人走。It's normal isn't it? Ppl come and go as they wish....as you grow older you'll realise no. of ppl who can leave a mark in your memory will get less and less...learning not to get disappointed with that...cos it's part of the growing process.
I used to be very sociable...but now...I'll keep a distant...
Can't exactly picture myself living alone till my very last breath. Perhaps that is a good thing...我一个人来，就一个人走。It's normal isn't it? Ppl come and go as they wish....as you grow older you'll realise no. of ppl who can leave a mark in your memory will get less and less...learning not to get disappointed with that...cos it's part of the growing process.
I used to be very sociable...but now...I'll keep a distant...
Saturday, June 05, 2004
eating cheezles now...
Songs of the day...Love song by 311 and Holding out from a hero by Bonnie Tyler....really nice!
Juz met up with a few frens...had a simple dinner and went to irish bar at chijmes for a drink. Quite fun...cos we talked alot...trying to fill each other in with things that we had done during the hols...cool~
Went over to take a look at the art festvial thingy...u know the one at raffles city where 4 bald australian artists...theme is called the dream capsule...something like that...where it allows the public to look at them staying in the enclosure for 15 days. So ppl can practically see them do anything...sleeping, cooking, talking, eating, using the com and bathing! Surprisingly, alot of ppl are so interested in seeing them bathe(esp women)! So perverted....okie, I saw one of them bathe too...it juz so happen that when I was there one of the guys was bathing and he was trying to reach for the towel outside the bathroom...we all saw his hairy butt...haha....
I was asking my frens...wonder how they feel, constantly being watched by so many unfamiliar faces all day long 24/7...mm...if it were u...how will u feel? Think I'll be very conscious of wat I'm doing and how I look...plus I'll go crazy being copped up in a restricted space...
It's interesting how some ppl try to communicate with the guys behind the glass...some juz mouth their words, some wrote questions down on papers while they replied thru markers and whiteboard...I wanted to try using handphone to type the words for them to see...but didn't do that...cos I have nothing to ask...haha
See how ppl try to communicate with each other despite barriers...how come we still complain about having communication breakdown with ppl around us? Is it becos we cant be bothered or we didn't put in enough effort to try?
Anyway...my fren's bf drove me home...so I dun need to take cab..yuppiee...haha funny thing was her bf juz gotten his liscense...aint familiar with the roads yet and he's kinda nervous...
reminds me of the first time yd drove...except that he was driving a huge lorry the next day after he gotten his liscence. Haha back then I was so worried...cos if anything were to happen...I'll die with him lo...front seat with no seat belt somemore...anyway it was really fun lah...esp the hump thingy...cant forget that hilarious scene...haha
okie gotta go finish up my crackers and brush teeth liao...
Juz met up with a few frens...had a simple dinner and went to irish bar at chijmes for a drink. Quite fun...cos we talked alot...trying to fill each other in with things that we had done during the hols...cool~
Went over to take a look at the art festvial thingy...u know the one at raffles city where 4 bald australian artists...theme is called the dream capsule...something like that...where it allows the public to look at them staying in the enclosure for 15 days. So ppl can practically see them do anything...sleeping, cooking, talking, eating, using the com and bathing! Surprisingly, alot of ppl are so interested in seeing them bathe(esp women)! So perverted....okie, I saw one of them bathe too...it juz so happen that when I was there one of the guys was bathing and he was trying to reach for the towel outside the bathroom...we all saw his hairy butt...haha....
I was asking my frens...wonder how they feel, constantly being watched by so many unfamiliar faces all day long 24/7...mm...if it were u...how will u feel? Think I'll be very conscious of wat I'm doing and how I look...plus I'll go crazy being copped up in a restricted space...
It's interesting how some ppl try to communicate with the guys behind the glass...some juz mouth their words, some wrote questions down on papers while they replied thru markers and whiteboard...I wanted to try using handphone to type the words for them to see...but didn't do that...cos I have nothing to ask...haha
See how ppl try to communicate with each other despite barriers...how come we still complain about having communication breakdown with ppl around us? Is it becos we cant be bothered or we didn't put in enough effort to try?
Anyway...my fren's bf drove me home...so I dun need to take cab..yuppiee...haha funny thing was her bf juz gotten his liscense...aint familiar with the roads yet and he's kinda nervous...
reminds me of the first time yd drove...except that he was driving a huge lorry the next day after he gotten his liscence. Haha back then I was so worried...cos if anything were to happen...I'll die with him lo...front seat with no seat belt somemore...anyway it was really fun lah...esp the hump thingy...cant forget that hilarious scene...haha
okie gotta go finish up my crackers and brush teeth liao...
Friday, June 04, 2004
long time no see
Haha call me lazy pig...haven't been updating my own blog for dayssssss...anyway have been away for squash camp and briefing for that invigilator job...so pretty busy these days.
Squash camp was fun! really learnt alot thru the training...though my reaction still abit slow and that I still lack of ball sense...mm..at least my strokes are slightly better...at the end of the day, all of us had 'jelly' legs,tight butts,well-defined legs...see how effective those drillings are! mm need to build up my stamina and shed all those fats man....
Camp is always a good way to see group dynamics among ur team mates and getting to know their characters in depth. O well...it's interesting to see how each other's behaviour slowly surface as u are more and more familar with one another.Good side or ugly side will all be shown as time pass...
By the way...my results came out during the mist of my camp...everyone around me was frantically trying to checked their results while I'm contemplating whether to ask my fren to check for me or to check it two days later when my camp end. Actually I wasn't that eager to know my results but becos I failed that report...I can't help but worry if I have to take sup paper for that module....so in the end I called pf to check for me....somehow for things like this,she's always the first that come to my mind...mb becos she's the only one whom I can cry to thru the phone...haha that happened 3 years back, when I juz cried and cried for almost an hour thru the phone cos of my first A level results...poor girl had to put up with me even though her results were great! I really can't thank her more for being there for me all the time.
Anyway....heng ah...my results wasn't that bad...haha practically my grades were same as last sem...only for that particular report module I got a D...o well nothing to be happy about but at least I pass...and I embrace that...hahaha...my motto: improvement will be a bonus but staying the same will be good enough too!
I have to admit...I've always been an average student so unless my brain really grow in size...it'll be very surprising to see me ace my studies...so Bs and Cs are fine with me...will try to maintain that.
Back to my squash...mm...starting to like it more and more...but kinda afraid that if I get into school team I will need to train and go for competition...I'm really not the competitive kind...reason of me joining squash at first was to learn something new and to play it for leisure...and if I ever get into the committee...that will mean more time for activities and less time for studies...that's how I screwed up for my A level somehow...I can't afford history to occur again...hai I'm thinking too far ahead...will have to wait and see how things turn out...
Having been meeting pf for consecutively 3 days man...wanna puke liao...haha no lah...we won't get sick of each other and...no we're not les...haha...it's always easy for us to meet up even if it's last min...she's always juz a call away. If she ever get attached...mb it'll be different story...but who knows...
O that brings me to yesterday, we went to suntec to look for present for her IA supervisiors...found some beany cushions..but the covering was spoilt...we did the very typical aunty thing which was to take out the other cushion and change the covering...we always do super stupid and embarassing things together then end up laughing like mad women...
Yeah tomolo playing badminton! I can finally use that 100 bucks racket! but if I broke it...it'll mean I'm super good =p...and I'll be in deep shit cos it belongs to my dad...haha...hopefully tomolo's game will be fun! Still wondering how my captain broke my squash racket...will be damn poor by the end of this month...cos gotta buy a new deuter bag + squash racket + sports bra..think that will cost a bomb lo...and now is great singapore sale somemore...I'll bleed to death le...too bad I simply love shopping!
Squash camp was fun! really learnt alot thru the training...though my reaction still abit slow and that I still lack of ball sense...mm..at least my strokes are slightly better...at the end of the day, all of us had 'jelly' legs,tight butts,well-defined legs...see how effective those drillings are! mm need to build up my stamina and shed all those fats man....
Camp is always a good way to see group dynamics among ur team mates and getting to know their characters in depth. O well...it's interesting to see how each other's behaviour slowly surface as u are more and more familar with one another.Good side or ugly side will all be shown as time pass...
By the way...my results came out during the mist of my camp...everyone around me was frantically trying to checked their results while I'm contemplating whether to ask my fren to check for me or to check it two days later when my camp end. Actually I wasn't that eager to know my results but becos I failed that report...I can't help but worry if I have to take sup paper for that module....so in the end I called pf to check for me....somehow for things like this,she's always the first that come to my mind...mb becos she's the only one whom I can cry to thru the phone...haha that happened 3 years back, when I juz cried and cried for almost an hour thru the phone cos of my first A level results...poor girl had to put up with me even though her results were great! I really can't thank her more for being there for me all the time.
Anyway....heng ah...my results wasn't that bad...haha practically my grades were same as last sem...only for that particular report module I got a D...o well nothing to be happy about but at least I pass...and I embrace that...hahaha...my motto: improvement will be a bonus but staying the same will be good enough too!
I have to admit...I've always been an average student so unless my brain really grow in size...it'll be very surprising to see me ace my studies...so Bs and Cs are fine with me...will try to maintain that.
Back to my squash...mm...starting to like it more and more...but kinda afraid that if I get into school team I will need to train and go for competition...I'm really not the competitive kind...reason of me joining squash at first was to learn something new and to play it for leisure...and if I ever get into the committee...that will mean more time for activities and less time for studies...that's how I screwed up for my A level somehow...I can't afford history to occur again...hai I'm thinking too far ahead...will have to wait and see how things turn out...
Having been meeting pf for consecutively 3 days man...wanna puke liao...haha no lah...we won't get sick of each other and...no we're not les...haha...it's always easy for us to meet up even if it's last min...she's always juz a call away. If she ever get attached...mb it'll be different story...but who knows...
O that brings me to yesterday, we went to suntec to look for present for her IA supervisiors...found some beany cushions..but the covering was spoilt...we did the very typical aunty thing which was to take out the other cushion and change the covering...we always do super stupid and embarassing things together then end up laughing like mad women...
Yeah tomolo playing badminton! I can finally use that 100 bucks racket! but if I broke it...it'll mean I'm super good =p...and I'll be in deep shit cos it belongs to my dad...haha...hopefully tomolo's game will be fun! Still wondering how my captain broke my squash racket...will be damn poor by the end of this month...cos gotta buy a new deuter bag + squash racket + sports bra..think that will cost a bomb lo...and now is great singapore sale somemore...I'll bleed to death le...too bad I simply love shopping!
Friday, May 28, 2004
I feel like drinking...feeling shitty....
Yup I'm a product of freaking singapore education system(as u can see I so wanna swear the word F***...but prefer to keep my blog slightly clean from vulgarities). At this point of time I'm feeling damn shitty cos...although I managed to score pretty well for my LLD assignment, I failed the case study report with 2.5 marks from reaching the passing grade. Damn it...I struggled with revision for exam and doing this report during the study week...and my effort seem to go down the drain.
yah yah am like a baby fussing about not able to pass assignment...wat's the big deal right...anyway I always magnify my failures instead of my success...something is wrong with me...I know...but I juz hate seeing my effort turn out like ash...meaningless.
okie I dun wanna talk about it anymore...the more I complain the more I feel like swearing...
Anyway spent the whole noon at yd's hostel...seeing him learning guitar from yk was pretty entertaining cos yd was trying to get the fingering right and hearing him scream while yk tortured him by stretching his-already-distorted fingers was so funny. Haha...after the guitar cum finger torment session, 3 of us went out to watch an italian movie. On our way to town...yd irritates us with his usual out-of-tune singing and the thing that makes me wanna slap him is he kept pretending as though he is the old time qi cham chinese lady who had to sing to make a living...worst of all he pretends that the guitar is his pi pa and he keep singing the song 'tian ya~ hai jiao.....'. I'm pretty amazed by his creativity man...making use of things around him to bug ppl, sometimes really make me pengz. By the way his act of being qi cham singer is so horrendous...I told him I'll throw him money juz so he'll stop.
Talking about the movie, it's 'Facing Window'...wanna know the storyline...go find out yourself...ain't going to explain here. It's quite an interesting movie...storyline is not bad...I like how the story is being told and presented to us...direct and yet indirect in some ways. If one day you're given the chance to save ppl...would you save those ppl who had turned their back against you first or will you choose to save ur lover first? Two paths and you're at the crossjunction...which path will you take?
The old man in the movie chose to save ppl who denied his presence while his lover was taken away to the concentration camp. Choices...always difficult to make a right one...but once you made your decision, make sure you can live with it...if not you'll regret and have to suffer the consequences for the rest of your life no matter how much effort are given to made up for it.
I like the part where the Lozendo and Giovanna constantly spy on each other through their windows...lusting for each other through the frame of their own. Weird thing is when Giovanna was at Lozendo's apartment and begin to view through the window she used to look at...the views are different...meaning to her life becomes different too...perhaps that's why their affair didn't proceed. Views we see from our frame are always nicer...but if we dun see it from another angle...we will never be able to reflect upon our own lives...
Phrase that I like from the movie 'Don't be contended just because you're surviving....demand what you want in life...' Makes me wonder...cos I often think that life will be simpler and happier if I'm more easily contended with what I have...is that not true?
yah yah am like a baby fussing about not able to pass assignment...wat's the big deal right...anyway I always magnify my failures instead of my success...something is wrong with me...I know...but I juz hate seeing my effort turn out like ash...meaningless.
okie I dun wanna talk about it anymore...the more I complain the more I feel like swearing...
Anyway spent the whole noon at yd's hostel...seeing him learning guitar from yk was pretty entertaining cos yd was trying to get the fingering right and hearing him scream while yk tortured him by stretching his-already-distorted fingers was so funny. Haha...after the guitar cum finger torment session, 3 of us went out to watch an italian movie. On our way to town...yd irritates us with his usual out-of-tune singing and the thing that makes me wanna slap him is he kept pretending as though he is the old time qi cham chinese lady who had to sing to make a living...worst of all he pretends that the guitar is his pi pa and he keep singing the song 'tian ya~ hai jiao.....'. I'm pretty amazed by his creativity man...making use of things around him to bug ppl, sometimes really make me pengz. By the way his act of being qi cham singer is so horrendous...I told him I'll throw him money juz so he'll stop.
Talking about the movie, it's 'Facing Window'...wanna know the storyline...go find out yourself...ain't going to explain here. It's quite an interesting movie...storyline is not bad...I like how the story is being told and presented to us...direct and yet indirect in some ways. If one day you're given the chance to save ppl...would you save those ppl who had turned their back against you first or will you choose to save ur lover first? Two paths and you're at the crossjunction...which path will you take?
The old man in the movie chose to save ppl who denied his presence while his lover was taken away to the concentration camp. Choices...always difficult to make a right one...but once you made your decision, make sure you can live with it...if not you'll regret and have to suffer the consequences for the rest of your life no matter how much effort are given to made up for it.
I like the part where the Lozendo and Giovanna constantly spy on each other through their windows...lusting for each other through the frame of their own. Weird thing is when Giovanna was at Lozendo's apartment and begin to view through the window she used to look at...the views are different...meaning to her life becomes different too...perhaps that's why their affair didn't proceed. Views we see from our frame are always nicer...but if we dun see it from another angle...we will never be able to reflect upon our own lives...
Phrase that I like from the movie 'Don't be contended just because you're surviving....demand what you want in life...' Makes me wonder...cos I often think that life will be simpler and happier if I'm more easily contended with what I have...is that not true?
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
lazy bum...lazy pig...ice-cream ice-cream...yum yum...
haha yesterday was the most fulfiling day for me...I slacked at home totally! haha...yup...I woke up in the noon, had brunch and then started slacking...reading books from time to time...watching tv too! It's really nice to have the time to do things of my own and not bothered about homework and tests! Which reminds me...results are coming out soon...damn...abit worried.
anyway went out with mama to shop for awhile, bought a nice top...yipee! Later, mama went karaoke session, I dun see the point of going home and having dinner alone so decided to meet ck at bugis to walk walk. Went to eat spagetti at Sketches...this time round the service was rather bad...they didnt give us water...make a hungry person like me to wait for like 20 min. So can't exactly blame me for bitching them...anyway ck bitched too...haha that makes two bitches...anyway at last we had our order and with my tummy filled..we went shopping again...
Great Singapore sale is coming! sooo happy! I can stock up my clothes again...yeah!
Anyway, in the noon I was watching this documentary on the making of ice-cream and ice-cream cone...suddenly have the craving for it at 930pm....okie most of the shops were closed by then so in the end we went to hunt abit for ice-cream stalls...Finally!!managed to get ice-cream at dohby ghoat...Sooo happy! It's really yummy cos it's from gelare...eh not sure of the spelling...anyway that's not the point...point is I'm able to satisfy my craving and this can make me HAPPY!~man zu man zu man zu~
okie I sound like xiao cha bo...but I'm always like that esp when I manage to eat something I crave for...am not a food person...juz someone who can be easily contended...haha
Am reading this book call - autobiography of a schizophrenic girl, story of 'Renee'. Came across this...'The world was a moving picture, taking place without my participation'....how sad can that be when one constantly sinks in unreality and unable to make contact with the real world...many of us will say things like - how I wish I can be detached from all these cruel realities and mb those ppl who are mad are far better off than us....well well...u have no idea the constant struggles and difficulties that these so call 'mad ppl' have to go thru just to be normal like us. Not sure if I make any sense but what I wanna say is...try not to overlook things around you...not even the smallest ones...cos you don't know when you'll lose it juz like that.
anyway went out with mama to shop for awhile, bought a nice top...yipee! Later, mama went karaoke session, I dun see the point of going home and having dinner alone so decided to meet ck at bugis to walk walk. Went to eat spagetti at Sketches...this time round the service was rather bad...they didnt give us water...make a hungry person like me to wait for like 20 min. So can't exactly blame me for bitching them...anyway ck bitched too...haha that makes two bitches...anyway at last we had our order and with my tummy filled..we went shopping again...
Great Singapore sale is coming! sooo happy! I can stock up my clothes again...yeah!
Anyway, in the noon I was watching this documentary on the making of ice-cream and ice-cream cone...suddenly have the craving for it at 930pm....okie most of the shops were closed by then so in the end we went to hunt abit for ice-cream stalls...Finally!!managed to get ice-cream at dohby ghoat...Sooo happy! It's really yummy cos it's from gelare...eh not sure of the spelling...anyway that's not the point...point is I'm able to satisfy my craving and this can make me HAPPY!~man zu man zu man zu~
okie I sound like xiao cha bo...but I'm always like that esp when I manage to eat something I crave for...am not a food person...juz someone who can be easily contended...haha
Am reading this book call - autobiography of a schizophrenic girl, story of 'Renee'. Came across this...'The world was a moving picture, taking place without my participation'....how sad can that be when one constantly sinks in unreality and unable to make contact with the real world...many of us will say things like - how I wish I can be detached from all these cruel realities and mb those ppl who are mad are far better off than us....well well...u have no idea the constant struggles and difficulties that these so call 'mad ppl' have to go thru just to be normal like us. Not sure if I make any sense but what I wanna say is...try not to overlook things around you...not even the smallest ones...cos you don't know when you'll lose it juz like that.
Sunday, May 23, 2004
back to my cozy little bedroom
Yup...I'm back from my redang trip...all chao ta and exhausted...thanx to the super long bus ride....
Anyway, have enjoyed this trip and surprisingly, I didn't miss home at all...perhaps the getaway is not long enough...mm..think it's becos of the the frens I went with...I really appreciate their company...although things did crop up and squabbling did occur, still I love travelling with them cos they made me realise how much I depend on them and how much I shouldn't depend on them.
Still..I had fun with them!
Well it's fun in the sense that I tried and I saw alot of things for the first time. First was the bus journey with super scary drivers who sped thru narrow and bumpy roads in Malaysia(seriously I dunno how they lay the roads). Second was the snorkeling trip, feeding and seeing different kind of fish that I nver would have thought will exist in this world. Third was wearing bikini and suntanning at the beautiful beautiful beach. Fourth was making 'muah chee' out of the 5 of us. Fifth was the belly button cleaning session for papa ng(it's really yucky and I admire vic for her courage to do that for her bf).
During this trip...I think I really grossed my frens out with my bad habits. What can I say...I can be as natural as possible with them and let them see the ugly side of me...like burping out loud in front of them. acting cute to get my way thru, bitching them occasionally, being lazy from time to time, changing in front of my gal and guy frens. Think apart from my family, they're the ones who see this side of me. Think I'm crossing the line...will have to try not to take them for granted...afterall they are not obliged to take such nonsense from me.
Am taking a step back to chill out and get things done alone...
brain not working now...have to go...will write more tomolo
Anyway, have enjoyed this trip and surprisingly, I didn't miss home at all...perhaps the getaway is not long enough...mm..think it's becos of the the frens I went with...I really appreciate their company...although things did crop up and squabbling did occur, still I love travelling with them cos they made me realise how much I depend on them and how much I shouldn't depend on them.
Still..I had fun with them!
Well it's fun in the sense that I tried and I saw alot of things for the first time. First was the bus journey with super scary drivers who sped thru narrow and bumpy roads in Malaysia(seriously I dunno how they lay the roads). Second was the snorkeling trip, feeding and seeing different kind of fish that I nver would have thought will exist in this world. Third was wearing bikini and suntanning at the beautiful beautiful beach. Fourth was making 'muah chee' out of the 5 of us. Fifth was the belly button cleaning session for papa ng(it's really yucky and I admire vic for her courage to do that for her bf).
During this trip...I think I really grossed my frens out with my bad habits. What can I say...I can be as natural as possible with them and let them see the ugly side of me...like burping out loud in front of them. acting cute to get my way thru, bitching them occasionally, being lazy from time to time, changing in front of my gal and guy frens. Think apart from my family, they're the ones who see this side of me. Think I'm crossing the line...will have to try not to take them for granted...afterall they are not obliged to take such nonsense from me.
Am taking a step back to chill out and get things done alone...
brain not working now...have to go...will write more tomolo
Saturday, May 15, 2004
Pissed off totally...
Tried to do something just now but it juz wont work...damn it..it's so frustrating...
Anyway had a nice dinner with pf today and guess wat...two of us wore the same colour top PLUS same coloured bra...how cool is that! Freak the hell out of us sometimes..haha..
I realise such conincidence always happen between the two of us...it's although she's my other long lost twin. Nothing needs to be said or done and....taa daa...we know what each other is thinking or we can dress exactly the similar range of clothing..
Wonder how it would be like to live with pf under the same roof...I've always wanted to do that..think it'll be fun, with all the freedom and independence that we will have. But who knows maybe at the end of the day we'll end up hating each other's bad habit and can't wait to kick each other's butt. Mmm still waiting for such a day to come...
Two more days to redang...yeah! mm..damn do I sound bimbotic...but who cares...have been using my brain for quite a while so shall let my boobs take charge for the time being...haha...
okie this bimbo need some sleep...tomolo is 'cleaning my room' day...have to clear my messy place before mama screams at me. Sometimes I wonder if I'm really a gal...cos my room can be damn messy and I really hate cleaning up...
Anyway had a nice dinner with pf today and guess wat...two of us wore the same colour top PLUS same coloured bra...how cool is that! Freak the hell out of us sometimes..haha..
I realise such conincidence always happen between the two of us...it's although she's my other long lost twin. Nothing needs to be said or done and....taa daa...we know what each other is thinking or we can dress exactly the similar range of clothing..
Wonder how it would be like to live with pf under the same roof...I've always wanted to do that..think it'll be fun, with all the freedom and independence that we will have. But who knows maybe at the end of the day we'll end up hating each other's bad habit and can't wait to kick each other's butt. Mmm still waiting for such a day to come...
Two more days to redang...yeah! mm..damn do I sound bimbotic...but who cares...have been using my brain for quite a while so shall let my boobs take charge for the time being...haha...
okie this bimbo need some sleep...tomolo is 'cleaning my room' day...have to clear my messy place before mama screams at me. Sometimes I wonder if I'm really a gal...cos my room can be damn messy and I really hate cleaning up...
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