mentally wasnt feeling that well...may be due to the lack of sleep...cos thurs nite was rushing report like mad....only slept for 3 hours and i'm off to schl...
lack of sleep...makes me cranky...
realise i've depend too much on ppl around me esp my parents...been depending on them to gimme allowance...depending on my dad to drive me to schl...depending on them to understand that i need to get away from singapore for my hols before i go crazy...
shouldnt have given up tuition back then...how naive i am to think that my dad will give me allowance without complaining about it...no doubt i may spend a little too much...but have been cutting down on expenses...
it just sickens me that at age 22 i have to justify to them what i spend on..explain why i need the money...i hate to beg...but i hve to cos i'm totally dependent on them financially...it makes me feel so useless and incapable...
have been so eadgy since last nite...simple comments by my dad made me cry...although perhaps he didnt mean it...wat he said really put me into thinking...i'm expecting too much from them...parents at their age should be pampering themselves and enjoying their lives instead of providing for me...
i've always linked dependency to weakness....and ironically... i often fall into this comfort zone subconciously...until one day like yesterday when things happened and it hit me in the head telling me i should wake up and stop being a baby...
who can i depend on? myself...
others will always have the choice to reject u when they wan to...so if u're at the level where dependency is fully established...u'll juz crash and burn when they choose not to help u anymore...or that u realise u need to beg in order to get wat u wan...how pathetic....
hate being the weak me...i hate to cry...i've cried too much during that 2 years...and i told myself dun fucking cry anymore.....
or perhaps i've been conditioned since young that crying equals to being weak...yet i yearn to cry sometimes to let out my emotions...this kinda struggle always put me into situation where i wanna cry but no tears come out...or eventually if i do cry...i cant stop...
sigh...freaking tired...cant type anymore...juz freaking tired...
Saturday, February 26, 2005
Monday, February 21, 2005
new year, v day, being wacked day...
new year came and passed...collected ang baos...received quite abit of money...yeah good good cos i'm so darn broke...
didn't do much this year...visitings to relatives house were done in the first day...pretty fun...went ktv with my parents, aunt, uncle and cousins...had so much fun...think it's the first time i ever sang in front of my parents and with them too...really enjoyed myself...and i think they had fun too...though the karaoke system is a littlt too complicated for them to use when selecting the songs...
then it's v-day...planned to spend more time together during weekend but couldn't do so due to some reasons...it's okie...instead we had dinner at fish & co on monday...pretty fun...cos i made mr H carry something that he wouldn't wanna carry around...haha too bad...gotta be sabotaged by me...after dinner we juz head home loh...simple lah but good enough for me...
wednesday....being wacked by my junior on the forehead..and it's with the racquet...had a cut at the eyebrown area and a bum too...now my eyelid is bruised...goodness...so damn ugly...dark circles are bad enough..now this bruise...yucks...and it's turning greenish blue...-_- having been icing it...dun even dare to rub...darn pain!
okie it's been quite awhile since i update my blog...sorry arh...busy with schl and squash...fri was the worst...cos i practically travel from schl to tampines...eve's house to do home modification...then back to schl to attend a concert...by the time i reached schl...the concert had ended...tried to rush back as soon as i could cos i promised my fren i'll attend it...but i ended up missing it...could only talk to her after the concert ended...at least i made it back lah...so sorry i missed it angie...
was really zombiefied on my way home...by the time i reached home...i was too tired to move and ended up sleeping on the floor till1 am cos i havent bathed yet so didnt wanna stink my bed...was really gone this time round...minus the alcohol though...haha
attachment is out for me...will be posted to jurong child development unit...uh dunno where is it...if i'm not wrong it should be at jurong polyclinic...which is near NUH.... which mean i'll have to travel from one end to another everyday!!!! 4 hours of travelling at least...o my...sure dead tired one...but then at least i'm in pediatrics this time round...and did i mention that i'm alone for this placement...uh..okie lah...bo bian...
read-with-me prog is back...if i were to go for it...that means every sat i'll go read-with-me at 915am....then head for training from 12-5pm....-_- very fun hor...ppl dun even work full day on sat...arh...
okie i need to work on my report...have been procrastinating for freaking long liao....
ppl pls take care...weather very hot...so drink more water!
didn't do much this year...visitings to relatives house were done in the first day...pretty fun...went ktv with my parents, aunt, uncle and cousins...had so much fun...think it's the first time i ever sang in front of my parents and with them too...really enjoyed myself...and i think they had fun too...though the karaoke system is a littlt too complicated for them to use when selecting the songs...
then it's v-day...planned to spend more time together during weekend but couldn't do so due to some reasons...it's okie...instead we had dinner at fish & co on monday...pretty fun...cos i made mr H carry something that he wouldn't wanna carry around...haha too bad...gotta be sabotaged by me...after dinner we juz head home loh...simple lah but good enough for me...
wednesday....being wacked by my junior on the forehead..and it's with the racquet...had a cut at the eyebrown area and a bum too...now my eyelid is bruised...goodness...so damn ugly...dark circles are bad enough..now this bruise...yucks...and it's turning greenish blue...-_- having been icing it...dun even dare to rub...darn pain!
okie it's been quite awhile since i update my blog...sorry arh...busy with schl and squash...fri was the worst...cos i practically travel from schl to tampines...eve's house to do home modification...then back to schl to attend a concert...by the time i reached schl...the concert had ended...tried to rush back as soon as i could cos i promised my fren i'll attend it...but i ended up missing it...could only talk to her after the concert ended...at least i made it back lah...so sorry i missed it angie...
was really zombiefied on my way home...by the time i reached home...i was too tired to move and ended up sleeping on the floor till1 am cos i havent bathed yet so didnt wanna stink my bed...was really gone this time round...minus the alcohol though...haha
attachment is out for me...will be posted to jurong child development unit...uh dunno where is it...if i'm not wrong it should be at jurong polyclinic...which is near NUH.... which mean i'll have to travel from one end to another everyday!!!! 4 hours of travelling at least...o my...sure dead tired one...but then at least i'm in pediatrics this time round...and did i mention that i'm alone for this placement...uh..okie lah...bo bian...
read-with-me prog is back...if i were to go for it...that means every sat i'll go read-with-me at 915am....then head for training from 12-5pm....-_- very fun hor...ppl dun even work full day on sat...arh...
okie i need to work on my report...have been procrastinating for freaking long liao....
ppl pls take care...weather very hot...so drink more water!
Monday, February 07, 2005
sleepy but cant sleep...
perhaps it's the coffee...perhaps it's my brain...need to sort things thru my mind...havent been putting my best effort in schl work...deadlines are coming up and i'm still procrastinating...guess i'll need to do my work during cny...
sometimes i wonder wat lies ahead for me...i seem to know where i'm heading to yet i feel clueless at times...
am i good enough to be an OT? am i good enough to be the captain? am i good enough as a student? am i good enough as a classmate? am i good enough as a friend? am i good enough as a lover?how come i seem to be inadequate in all the areas...
sometimes i wonder wat lies ahead for me...i seem to know where i'm heading to yet i feel clueless at times...
am i good enough to be an OT? am i good enough to be the captain? am i good enough as a student? am i good enough as a classmate? am i good enough as a friend? am i good enough as a lover?how come i seem to be inadequate in all the areas...
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
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i need to buck up
so stupid...kena first warning by this nursing lecturer for wearing slippers...-_- students...wat they want us to wear...i dun wear make up to sch neither do i wear heels...why fault me for wearing something comfortable...rigid old mind...
went to visit eve today after ee zu let us off...so poor thing...worried for her man...
but she seemed quite alright...was sleeping soundly when we visited her...bought her a small little balloon..haha hopefully it cheered her up...at least she is still joking with us when we're there...
surprisingly...hua beng appeared too...juz when we were speculating whether he'll coms visit eve...he appeared at the door...wah not bad to have such nice lecturer...haha...really nice of him to pay a visit..at least he reassured eve upon her cirriculum...
after that...i followed the girls to arab street to buy their materials...mm...never been there before..pretty interesting...wrapping papers there are selling real cheap....
went bugis for a walk...still didnt see clothes that i wan...sian...
have to go back to schl for squash in the evening...feel like crying while i was in the train heading to raffles place...dunno why...mb i'm feeling abit drained...yah think once again i feel like screaming my head off...sigh...i wanna go somewhere...a corner to hide so that no one can find me...
need to bathe...feel so unhealthy...had my dinner at 10...fat ass....
went to visit eve today after ee zu let us off...so poor thing...worried for her man...
but she seemed quite alright...was sleeping soundly when we visited her...bought her a small little balloon..haha hopefully it cheered her up...at least she is still joking with us when we're there...
surprisingly...hua beng appeared too...juz when we were speculating whether he'll coms visit eve...he appeared at the door...wah not bad to have such nice lecturer...haha...really nice of him to pay a visit..at least he reassured eve upon her cirriculum...
after that...i followed the girls to arab street to buy their materials...mm...never been there before..pretty interesting...wrapping papers there are selling real cheap....
went bugis for a walk...still didnt see clothes that i wan...sian...
have to go back to schl for squash in the evening...feel like crying while i was in the train heading to raffles place...dunno why...mb i'm feeling abit drained...yah think once again i feel like screaming my head off...sigh...i wanna go somewhere...a corner to hide so that no one can find me...
need to bathe...feel so unhealthy...had my dinner at 10...fat ass....
Monday, January 31, 2005
yeah...got home early today...considered early cos sun hasn't set yet mah...plus i usually reach home at night...at least i get to have dinner with ma and pa...
dun feel like doing anything..so come here and write something...
actually nothing much...feeling tired as always...am always sleepy despite the no. of hours that i sleep...mb it's time to take some supplements...sickening i'm reaching 23 and my body is like an old woman
quite happy yesterday...cos get to have dinner out with my whole family...when i say whole family it means bro, sis-in-law plus my parents...of cos that inculde the little baby in my sis-in-law's stomach...it's been a loooong time since we dine out together...usually we eat at home...but i've always like to have dine out...change of environment and mum dun need to cook...dad dun need to wash dishes...haha...
am happy that ppl around me are happy...=)
lately i discovered that my neighbour is actually a possessive dog owner...perhaps she's emotionally unstable...cos she has juz given birth...haha
anyway there was this morning i was playing with her cute little doggy at her gate...she gave me a black face and asked me "yes?" in a u-touch-my-dog-and-u-die kinda tone....i'm like "huh?"
do i need a reason for playing with ur doggy??...isn't it a compliment that someone else find ur dog cute and wanna play with it....o well i tot it was me...mb my face provoked her...but apparently my sis-in-law got it from her too...so yah i think she juz doesnt like ppl to touch her dog...but her doggy is so cute...and whenever i get out of my house every morning...its eyes and waggy tail keep luring me to play with her/him(eh i dunno the sex of the doggy...anyway doesn't matter)...all i can do each time i see it, is to say hi, hello...and it will tilt its head and wag its tail as though it understands wat i'm saying...haha...mb i'm imagining it...but yah that dog is really cute...
too bad lo...can't play with it...
ppl if u ever own a dog...pls be generous enough to let others play with it...i mean...it's nice to see other ppl patting and finding ur pet cute isn't it? why deprive ur pet from human interactions...
i wanna keep dog...arh....labrador or bull terrier...dog dog dog...
anyway it's dinner time...ciao~
dun feel like doing anything..so come here and write something...
actually nothing much...feeling tired as always...am always sleepy despite the no. of hours that i sleep...mb it's time to take some supplements...sickening i'm reaching 23 and my body is like an old woman
quite happy yesterday...cos get to have dinner out with my whole family...when i say whole family it means bro, sis-in-law plus my parents...of cos that inculde the little baby in my sis-in-law's stomach...it's been a loooong time since we dine out together...usually we eat at home...but i've always like to have dine out...change of environment and mum dun need to cook...dad dun need to wash dishes...haha...
am happy that ppl around me are happy...=)
lately i discovered that my neighbour is actually a possessive dog owner...perhaps she's emotionally unstable...cos she has juz given birth...haha
anyway there was this morning i was playing with her cute little doggy at her gate...she gave me a black face and asked me "yes?" in a u-touch-my-dog-and-u-die kinda tone....i'm like "huh?"
do i need a reason for playing with ur doggy??...isn't it a compliment that someone else find ur dog cute and wanna play with it....o well i tot it was me...mb my face provoked her...but apparently my sis-in-law got it from her too...so yah i think she juz doesnt like ppl to touch her dog...but her doggy is so cute...and whenever i get out of my house every morning...its eyes and waggy tail keep luring me to play with her/him(eh i dunno the sex of the doggy...anyway doesn't matter)...all i can do each time i see it, is to say hi, hello...and it will tilt its head and wag its tail as though it understands wat i'm saying...haha...mb i'm imagining it...but yah that dog is really cute...
too bad lo...can't play with it...
ppl if u ever own a dog...pls be generous enough to let others play with it...i mean...it's nice to see other ppl patting and finding ur pet cute isn't it? why deprive ur pet from human interactions...
i wanna keep dog...arh....labrador or bull terrier...dog dog dog...
anyway it's dinner time...ciao~
Saturday, January 29, 2005
Hotel Rwanda
great show i've watched today...so glad i've caught it...pretty shocked by the movie....cos ignorant ppl like me only know that many many innocent ppl were killed during the Rwanda massacre....i have absolutely no idea the situation that was going on in the country and what the ppl had to go thru during that period of time.
life...so vulnerable...
discrimnation....damn powerful weapon to gun ppl down....arent i glad to stay in s'pore where different races can live in harmony....eh seriously, i cringed at the sight of those killing scenes...it's juz a movie no doubt but it's based on true story.....the idea of ripping off one's life juz becos of their skin colour or the tribe they belong to simply make no sense to me...perhaps suppression does play a part...perhaps human beings are made to be vindictive...i dunnoe...juz feel sad to see that such killings had happened and that it is still happening in other parts of the world....
genocide...blood shed and lives taken can never be justified...
seldom do i tear when i watched movie...but this one did...cos i cant imagine myself living in fear all the time...being abandoned by ppl u think u could trust...most of all being completely helpless....i tot city of god is bloody enough...mm think this is worst......watch it yah...worth ur time and money....
okie i need sleep...nite ppl....maybe i'll type more tomolo...tata
life...so vulnerable...
discrimnation....damn powerful weapon to gun ppl down....arent i glad to stay in s'pore where different races can live in harmony....eh seriously, i cringed at the sight of those killing scenes...it's juz a movie no doubt but it's based on true story.....the idea of ripping off one's life juz becos of their skin colour or the tribe they belong to simply make no sense to me...perhaps suppression does play a part...perhaps human beings are made to be vindictive...i dunnoe...juz feel sad to see that such killings had happened and that it is still happening in other parts of the world....
genocide...blood shed and lives taken can never be justified...
seldom do i tear when i watched movie...but this one did...cos i cant imagine myself living in fear all the time...being abandoned by ppl u think u could trust...most of all being completely helpless....i tot city of god is bloody enough...mm think this is worst......watch it yah...worth ur time and money....
okie i need sleep...nite ppl....maybe i'll type more tomolo...tata
Thursday, January 27, 2005
i do care....
i'm not the sort that know how to put across my thoughts to others...i dunno why....i juz dunno how
ppl around me are changing and it is always the hardest thing that i have to come to terms with....i love them dearly...really..... and i know that being a true friend i should point out their mistakes and pull them back when they fall....
but i juz dunno how....i dunno how to tell them that they've changed...that they're no longer their old selves...i'm not expecting them to stay the same....things are always changing...so am i...point is i juz dunno how to react to their changes....all i know....is to be by them and with them through the changing process....it may be tough no doubt....but that's all i know i can do...
i dun care to wat extend they've changed or will change...i juz know i can't give up the friendship...i really can't...after all these years...they are too dear for me to let go...i always tell myself no matter how tough it is it's okie...so long i'm with them...i think i sound like a silly woman here trying to make some sense out of her own thoughts...
super duper tired now...cos had squash training yesterday and today.....sometimes i wonder if i ever will be a better player...cos i'm always so slow in reaction...my squash mate has been so encouraging...she keeps reminding me to run for the ball...haha appreciate that...seriously i like her attitude...get me going too...thanx alot yah...hee....
today had a fun lesson...line dancing and cooking too..for my group we made salad....nice looking and delicious one...luckily the homey lemon dressing works...was afraid ppl will find it too sour...anyway we all had a great eating session with my mentor...we ended up chatting with her about backpacking experience and her oncoming trip....gotten some tips from her....envious that she gets to travel and see the world...would love to do that someday...
hai~ she's leaving us at the end of this semester....so sad...i tot she'll see us thru our 3rd year...somehow among the lecturers...she's one of the more easy going ones....gonna miss her...appreciated her presence during my attachment...guided me quite abit in handling pts....
btw...my aunt called my mum yesterday...cos my cousin told her i have a malay boyfriend...and she actually told mum to talk me out of it...reason being there's religion issues being involved and that malays tend to have many wives....-_-'' i nearly flipped...she being more educated than my mum actually said that malays tend to have many wives....pretty funny...i know she cares about me...but sometimes things she says can really be abit weird...
anyway was talking about it with mummy....my parents are pretty open minded with my relationship...they may be old but they're able to accept my choices....mum did ask me...why of all guys i know i actually choose to be with mr H...haha...as in how come dun choose chinese choose malay....i only shrugged my shoulders and told her things juz happen and that i'm happy with present situation...not sure if she understands but i juz wanna lead my life the way i want and be happy with it....is it too much to ask for?
mr H~ pls dun be offended by wat my aunt said eh...she didnt mean it...wanted to talk to u about it last nite...but was too tired....will talk to u again...
gtg....seriously...i'm drained...energy low...need zzz....soon....nite everyone.....
ppl around me are changing and it is always the hardest thing that i have to come to terms with....i love them dearly...really..... and i know that being a true friend i should point out their mistakes and pull them back when they fall....
but i juz dunno how....i dunno how to tell them that they've changed...that they're no longer their old selves...i'm not expecting them to stay the same....things are always changing...so am i...point is i juz dunno how to react to their changes....all i know....is to be by them and with them through the changing process....it may be tough no doubt....but that's all i know i can do...
i dun care to wat extend they've changed or will change...i juz know i can't give up the friendship...i really can't...after all these years...they are too dear for me to let go...i always tell myself no matter how tough it is it's okie...so long i'm with them...i think i sound like a silly woman here trying to make some sense out of her own thoughts...
super duper tired now...cos had squash training yesterday and today.....sometimes i wonder if i ever will be a better player...cos i'm always so slow in reaction...my squash mate has been so encouraging...she keeps reminding me to run for the ball...haha appreciate that...seriously i like her attitude...get me going too...thanx alot yah...hee....
today had a fun lesson...line dancing and cooking too..for my group we made salad....nice looking and delicious one...luckily the homey lemon dressing works...was afraid ppl will find it too sour...anyway we all had a great eating session with my mentor...we ended up chatting with her about backpacking experience and her oncoming trip....gotten some tips from her....envious that she gets to travel and see the world...would love to do that someday...
hai~ she's leaving us at the end of this semester....so sad...i tot she'll see us thru our 3rd year...somehow among the lecturers...she's one of the more easy going ones....gonna miss her...appreciated her presence during my attachment...guided me quite abit in handling pts....
btw...my aunt called my mum yesterday...cos my cousin told her i have a malay boyfriend...and she actually told mum to talk me out of it...reason being there's religion issues being involved and that malays tend to have many wives....-_-'' i nearly flipped...she being more educated than my mum actually said that malays tend to have many wives....pretty funny...i know she cares about me...but sometimes things she says can really be abit weird...
anyway was talking about it with mummy....my parents are pretty open minded with my relationship...they may be old but they're able to accept my choices....mum did ask me...why of all guys i know i actually choose to be with mr H...haha...as in how come dun choose chinese choose malay....i only shrugged my shoulders and told her things juz happen and that i'm happy with present situation...not sure if she understands but i juz wanna lead my life the way i want and be happy with it....is it too much to ask for?
mr H~ pls dun be offended by wat my aunt said eh...she didnt mean it...wanted to talk to u about it last nite...but was too tired....will talk to u again...
gtg....seriously...i'm drained...energy low...need zzz....soon....nite everyone.....
Sunday, January 23, 2005
bumming around...
was dragging myself to go squash today...cos was feeling moody...think cos period coming and yah... right now am one red blooded woman....not that i fancy period...am juz happy that i dun have to go thru that emotional swings again...can u imagine...u're not upset but yet u feel so...all becos of estrogen making u to behave so...~sigh~
anyway didnt regret going for squash...cos it turn out to be fun as usual....haha...the scene of us cleaning the blood stains together in the squash court...mm...it's quite heartwarming...esp the two juniors who helped out on their own....mm...so good...=) ...and of cos my fellow squash mates as well...hehe
okie kendo ppl are nice...at least they offered to clean the bloodstains...not as bad as i tot they are...okie lah shant find fault with them...so long they keep the squash courts in good conditions...shall work things out with them...at the very least the authorithy wont find excuses of courts not being fully utilised...
bathed in schl with the gals after squash and then went to meet mr H for dinner
was at orchard....went for coffee at forum starbucks...always like to laze around there, drinking my usual....observing ppl and have my chit-chatting session...
we were basically juz looking at ppl and cars that went by....poking fun at how weird some ppl can dress and going googar over gorgeous cars....quite fun....haha...went tanglin for dinner....super quiet...unlike orchard that is packed with ppl...sat at the eating place reading magazines after we're done with our food...nice...juz like that noon where we sat at coffee club reading papers...rem? hehe...
ooo we saw kegan kang too...with this loud spoken lady...basically i can only hear the lady's voice most of the time...she really talks abit too loudly...cos i cant hear kegan kang's voice at all though his mouth is moving....
something i wanna put down...sorta a continual from yesterday's blog....
how weird...guys' perception of pretty gals always differ from that of ours....rarely do we see eye to eye upon issues esp on the topic of beauty....mb that's why we can never understand each other totally...cos the way we view things around us is from totally different angles...mb that's why man is from mars and woman from venus? haha...
anyway didnt regret going for squash...cos it turn out to be fun as usual....haha...the scene of us cleaning the blood stains together in the squash court...mm...it's quite heartwarming...esp the two juniors who helped out on their own....mm...so good...=) ...and of cos my fellow squash mates as well...hehe
okie kendo ppl are nice...at least they offered to clean the bloodstains...not as bad as i tot they are...okie lah shant find fault with them...so long they keep the squash courts in good conditions...shall work things out with them...at the very least the authorithy wont find excuses of courts not being fully utilised...
bathed in schl with the gals after squash and then went to meet mr H for dinner
was at orchard....went for coffee at forum starbucks...always like to laze around there, drinking my usual....observing ppl and have my chit-chatting session...
we were basically juz looking at ppl and cars that went by....poking fun at how weird some ppl can dress and going googar over gorgeous cars....quite fun....haha...went tanglin for dinner....super quiet...unlike orchard that is packed with ppl...sat at the eating place reading magazines after we're done with our food...nice...juz like that noon where we sat at coffee club reading papers...rem? hehe...
ooo we saw kegan kang too...with this loud spoken lady...basically i can only hear the lady's voice most of the time...she really talks abit too loudly...cos i cant hear kegan kang's voice at all though his mouth is moving....
something i wanna put down...sorta a continual from yesterday's blog....
how weird...guys' perception of pretty gals always differ from that of ours....rarely do we see eye to eye upon issues esp on the topic of beauty....mb that's why we can never understand each other totally...cos the way we view things around us is from totally different angles...mb that's why man is from mars and woman from venus? haha...
i ate from morning till nite!
havent been blogging for weeks!!! stupid com crash on me..and now cos of the stupid horse virus i have to reformat again soon...
busy life busy me....busy with schl work, busy with squash and of cos busy with my mr H...yah yah...am attached...not something new cos those who always read my blog should know it by now...have training 5 days a week for squash...need to make schedule with my committee...must take turns to rest if not sure burn out...
wanna talk about wat i did yesterday....muah haha...such a glutton...i practically ate from morning till nite...from home to outside....
morning~ woke up at 10...such a luxury....had bread and water...
noon~ mommy cooked chilly crab!!! was just telling nikki the other day that i missed mummy's cooking and that the crabs she cooked is the best ever....and today she really cooked it!!! so happy...ate some before i went out to meet my frens...very contended le....
noon noon~~met up with yk and yd...woo hoo....went to eat at robertson quay....yk brought us to this jap restuarant to eat....really nice and cosy place...filled with japanese ppl and japanese books....food there is superb...desserts too...really nice place to hang out...yk...not that i didnt trust u...i really am too lazy to search for the place myself...haha...
we hang out at the place fro 2 to 530....ordered 3 different dishes...curry rice and ramen of different soup base....wanted to taste different dishes so we end up rotating our food to each other...abit unglam...but who cares...haha...desserts are good...cos it's not the sort that u get to eat outside...really jap jap kinda stuff....yum yum
talked about man and woman...why is it so hard for one spiece to understand the other...how come there's actually books like: man from mars, woman from venus, being published. Talked about sigmund freud and one of his theories....talked about self centredness...interesting topics to chat...and we had so much fun trying to understand wat each other is trying to convey on the ideas we have...i also tried very hard to make out wat yk was saying...cos this chap kept mumbling when he's in the restaurant...all becos it's a jap place and jap ppl are soft spoken...-_- wah liao....first time seeing him to 'gentle' -_-''....
really nice to hang out with old frens...not walking around but to juz sit...talk and catch with each other...love it....
evening~ went suntec with yd...shopping...nothing much le...cos i dunno wat to buy for new year...zero ideas on wat to wear...sian...still i bought a top and a panty from bodynits...muah haha...
yan met up with us then...and u know wat...it's eating time again...went mache and we oredered tonnes of food...calamari, mixed veg, rosti, crepes, fish and chips...cant believe i ate so much...really too much...never spend my day out eating from noon till nite...never tried that before...agrh...so fat...it's either my period coming or i have been exercising too much...haha...
sickening...hormones seems to be fluctuating lately...think it's the medication...why am i a woman...have to go thru so much trouble...period didnt come i feel abnormal...when it comes i feel sian...and now i have to be on medication to make sure it's regular...so much disadvantages biologically...ppl have to be worried about me....questioning me if things are okie...concern concern...i know...hai yah see..i'm blabbering rubbish...
gtg for squash...will try to write as frequent as possible...
busy life busy me....busy with schl work, busy with squash and of cos busy with my mr H...yah yah...am attached...not something new cos those who always read my blog should know it by now...have training 5 days a week for squash...need to make schedule with my committee...must take turns to rest if not sure burn out...
wanna talk about wat i did yesterday....muah haha...such a glutton...i practically ate from morning till nite...from home to outside....
morning~ woke up at 10...such a luxury....had bread and water...
noon~ mommy cooked chilly crab!!! was just telling nikki the other day that i missed mummy's cooking and that the crabs she cooked is the best ever....and today she really cooked it!!! so happy...ate some before i went out to meet my frens...very contended le....
noon noon~~met up with yk and yd...woo hoo....went to eat at robertson quay....yk brought us to this jap restuarant to eat....really nice and cosy place...filled with japanese ppl and japanese books....food there is superb...desserts too...really nice place to hang out...yk...not that i didnt trust u...i really am too lazy to search for the place myself...haha...
we hang out at the place fro 2 to 530....ordered 3 different dishes...curry rice and ramen of different soup base....wanted to taste different dishes so we end up rotating our food to each other...abit unglam...but who cares...haha...desserts are good...cos it's not the sort that u get to eat outside...really jap jap kinda stuff....yum yum
talked about man and woman...why is it so hard for one spiece to understand the other...how come there's actually books like: man from mars, woman from venus, being published. Talked about sigmund freud and one of his theories....talked about self centredness...interesting topics to chat...and we had so much fun trying to understand wat each other is trying to convey on the ideas we have...i also tried very hard to make out wat yk was saying...cos this chap kept mumbling when he's in the restaurant...all becos it's a jap place and jap ppl are soft spoken...-_- wah liao....first time seeing him to 'gentle' -_-''....
really nice to hang out with old frens...not walking around but to juz sit...talk and catch with each other...love it....
evening~ went suntec with yd...shopping...nothing much le...cos i dunno wat to buy for new year...zero ideas on wat to wear...sian...still i bought a top and a panty from bodynits...muah haha...
yan met up with us then...and u know wat...it's eating time again...went mache and we oredered tonnes of food...calamari, mixed veg, rosti, crepes, fish and chips...cant believe i ate so much...really too much...never spend my day out eating from noon till nite...never tried that before...agrh...so fat...it's either my period coming or i have been exercising too much...haha...
sickening...hormones seems to be fluctuating lately...think it's the medication...why am i a woman...have to go thru so much trouble...period didnt come i feel abnormal...when it comes i feel sian...and now i have to be on medication to make sure it's regular...so much disadvantages biologically...ppl have to be worried about me....questioning me if things are okie...concern concern...i know...hai yah see..i'm blabbering rubbish...
gtg for squash...will try to write as frequent as possible...
Monday, January 03, 2005
tomatoes!!!
muah haha....4 beauties' cherry tomatoe plant has blossomed!!! wah haha....the fact that i can actually taste the fruit makes me so happy...cos as u know watever i have planted have all died eventually...so now only left this cherry tomatoes that i shared with my classmates....luckily there's hydoponics...if not i think the plant will die under my hands too...keke...the tomatoes are sweet and juicy...if there are more, mb can let u guys try yah...
schl started in a glimpse man...one moment i'm stress with attachment and the next i'm back to schl again...then two months later i'm back to attachment again...o my...so fast so fast...this sem is gonna be tough...schl work, attachment, squash....think i'll be stretched among these stuffs...esp trainings....i hope i can pull thru it and not get burn out...erm but then i've been feeling sleepy easily...think it's age thingy arh...o no...
was discussing about club stuff juz now...abit worried cos i realise there's so much i need to look into and we are not very much supported by the schl...hai~
anyway this sem got alot of fun things going on...cos i'm actually learning cooking...-_-'' if my classmates get diarrhea pls dun blame me...cos i think the food i cook can only be fit for my stomach....haha...seriously i think so...except for baking lah...but that is if little cheif is baking with me...anyway i'll try my best to balance btw schl work and cca....i cant afford history to repeat...let's juz say i'll die die make sure i'll make it thru...
guys...havent met up since x'mas...will see u all on sat k...i try not to be late...hehe
stress is building up for u...i dunno wat i can do to help...but hang in there k...at the most we suffer together...haha...think i'll be stress too...see u in schl yah...=)
schl started in a glimpse man...one moment i'm stress with attachment and the next i'm back to schl again...then two months later i'm back to attachment again...o my...so fast so fast...this sem is gonna be tough...schl work, attachment, squash....think i'll be stretched among these stuffs...esp trainings....i hope i can pull thru it and not get burn out...erm but then i've been feeling sleepy easily...think it's age thingy arh...o no...
was discussing about club stuff juz now...abit worried cos i realise there's so much i need to look into and we are not very much supported by the schl...hai~
anyway this sem got alot of fun things going on...cos i'm actually learning cooking...-_-'' if my classmates get diarrhea pls dun blame me...cos i think the food i cook can only be fit for my stomach....haha...seriously i think so...except for baking lah...but that is if little cheif is baking with me...anyway i'll try my best to balance btw schl work and cca....i cant afford history to repeat...let's juz say i'll die die make sure i'll make it thru...
guys...havent met up since x'mas...will see u all on sat k...i try not to be late...hehe
stress is building up for u...i dunno wat i can do to help...but hang in there k...at the most we suffer together...haha...think i'll be stress too...see u in schl yah...=)
Thursday, December 23, 2004
tired...
yah time flies...i'm already in my 3rd week of attachment...mm...pretty worn out...but getting in tune with pts and hospital setting...sadly some of my pts are leaving...which is good cos ultimately they should go home...but i think i'm gonna miss them...although most of them gimme a huge headache when i assess them...haha...
put on weight man...sickening...feel fat and am fat...ugrh...havent gone for training for very long le...argh...i have two huge brusies on my thighs...mm how to wear my short skirt like that...hai yo...one's turning black while the other turning red...how nice...like christmas colour...
eyes gonna close soon man...cant wait for weekend to come...cos i can have fun and hang out with my beloved frens and U! this year's christmas...cant appreciate it more...cos i really need to rest...sleep and not do anything...haha...lazy bum eh...cant wait cant wait...=p
gtg...taking a nap then will plan for tomolo's treatment...jia you yj...-_-
put on weight man...sickening...feel fat and am fat...ugrh...havent gone for training for very long le...argh...i have two huge brusies on my thighs...mm how to wear my short skirt like that...hai yo...one's turning black while the other turning red...how nice...like christmas colour...
eyes gonna close soon man...cant wait for weekend to come...cos i can have fun and hang out with my beloved frens and U! this year's christmas...cant appreciate it more...cos i really need to rest...sleep and not do anything...haha...lazy bum eh...cant wait cant wait...=p
gtg...taking a nap then will plan for tomolo's treatment...jia you yj...-_-
Monday, December 20, 2004
not again...
affected...
all be cos i've been hanging out late during fri and sat nite you assume that i am not putting enough effort on my studies...you said you dun wanna see me repeating my course or not being able to graduate...yah one bad fall and i'm marked dead on that forever...such a failure...ugrh...i know you care but must you always say things like that...
anyway drop tat subj...happy annoucement...i'm gonna be an aunt soon! haha...5 weeks preagnant...i mean my sis-in-law...so exciting!! can't wait man...
hop to another subj...had fun at the bbq last nite...nice to meet up with my click and chit chat...haha lotsa stuff to catch up...oooo juicy news flying around...haha...really have to thank sze for organising this bbq...=)
thanx for accompanying me last nite...sorry arh end up u have to go home while i join the gals at happy days...keke...anyway see u later k...tata
all be cos i've been hanging out late during fri and sat nite you assume that i am not putting enough effort on my studies...you said you dun wanna see me repeating my course or not being able to graduate...yah one bad fall and i'm marked dead on that forever...such a failure...ugrh...i know you care but must you always say things like that...
anyway drop tat subj...happy annoucement...i'm gonna be an aunt soon! haha...5 weeks preagnant...i mean my sis-in-law...so exciting!! can't wait man...
hop to another subj...had fun at the bbq last nite...nice to meet up with my click and chit chat...haha lotsa stuff to catch up...oooo juicy news flying around...haha...really have to thank sze for organising this bbq...=)
thanx for accompanying me last nite...sorry arh end up u have to go home while i join the gals at happy days...keke...anyway see u later k...tata
Thursday, December 16, 2004
thank u mr H...hehe
alright...second week into my attachment...i'm like half dead cos kena bombarded by sup on alot of questions...think i won't fair well for midway eval...but i'll do my best...anyway now super lack of sleep...gotta prepare for tomolo's party...cos we have to organise games for our dept party tomolo...i hope things will go well...
sat having squash one-day camp...forgotten that it clashes with sze's bbq...will make it...die die i'll go cos i said i'm going...u guys have fun bbq~ing first lo...need anything like tibits or alcohol then i'll buy when i'm on my way there k...
As for U!
speechless...sweet enough of u to send me home juz now and even sweeter of u to give me a surprise...was stressed out today....to the extend it's almost the same kinda stress i felt when i was having exam...well...tomolo's a brand new day...will be better i hope...can't wait for the weekends to come...esp next week's weekend...hehe...thank u so so much!!
sat having squash one-day camp...forgotten that it clashes with sze's bbq...will make it...die die i'll go cos i said i'm going...u guys have fun bbq~ing first lo...need anything like tibits or alcohol then i'll buy when i'm on my way there k...
As for U!
speechless...sweet enough of u to send me home juz now and even sweeter of u to give me a surprise...was stressed out today....to the extend it's almost the same kinda stress i felt when i was having exam...well...tomolo's a brand new day...will be better i hope...can't wait for the weekends to come...esp next week's weekend...hehe...thank u so so much!!
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
how true is it...i dunnoe...
Your element is Light: Innocent, beautiful,
kind-hearted and pure. You are so sweet your
almost angelic, you find joy in others
happiness and cannot stand to see anyone in
pain. You want to make everyone around you feel
good about themselves and if someone is upset
you can tend to become rather upset as well
which means you are sympathetic and raise
others above yourself. Being as kind and
good-natured as you are people have most likely
hurt you in the past but you pick yourself up
every time. You may look fragile but you are
stronger than most tend to see. Life is
beautiful no matter how you look at it and you
understand that people make mistakes, not
everyone is perfect. You try to see the good in
the bad which is a talent few posses, dont ever
let anyone change you. You truly have a
beautiful soul inside and a heart of gold.
.:-What is your true element?-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
i'm stressed up...damn stress up...help help help...many things to do...am so damn sleepy...
ugrh...i hate stress...it got worst when i'm home...not so much during attachment...so shitty...really full of shit lo...cos my diagestive system always cok up during attachment...either too stress or something...
i need hug and i need ppl to tell me things are gonna be alright...that i'll not be dead after this one month of attachment...damn it...it's only 2nd day of attachment...
Thursday, December 02, 2004
unplanned evening...
i've gotten my purple specs...muah haha...yah yah it's purple! nice k...anyway will let u guys see it on sat...haha
tue nite...was wearing very lok kok...cos someone was wearing t-shirt and berms...wanted to have dinner together then go home early...but we ended up going holland v...eh two underdress ppl going holland v...looked kinda weird...but cant be bothered...haha...simple nite turn out pretty fun...
wed nite...went city hall for dinner...ordered salad and coffee...eh nydc really give huge serving for their salad...cos the one we had ended up as our dinner...pretty big bowl of chicken and veg....soo damn healthy...haha....caught singapore idol at the foutain...first time watching tv there...mm it's like catching those kind of big screen movie except that this screen is made out of water...interesting...yeah taufik won...i've guessed correctly...muah haha...but who know's mb he'll end up like ruben...hmm...
alright, i have to get ready to meet my beloved peifen...havent seen her since her exam...
o yeah sat going yd's house to bum round...
ck babe...if u're reading this...not sure if u're free tomolo...i'll contact u k...mb can meet u for lunch or dinner...
as for U...i'll see u later...~buai buai~
tue nite...was wearing very lok kok...cos someone was wearing t-shirt and berms...wanted to have dinner together then go home early...but we ended up going holland v...eh two underdress ppl going holland v...looked kinda weird...but cant be bothered...haha...simple nite turn out pretty fun...
wed nite...went city hall for dinner...ordered salad and coffee...eh nydc really give huge serving for their salad...cos the one we had ended up as our dinner...pretty big bowl of chicken and veg....soo damn healthy...haha....caught singapore idol at the foutain...first time watching tv there...mm it's like catching those kind of big screen movie except that this screen is made out of water...interesting...yeah taufik won...i've guessed correctly...muah haha...but who know's mb he'll end up like ruben...hmm...
alright, i have to get ready to meet my beloved peifen...havent seen her since her exam...
o yeah sat going yd's house to bum round...
ck babe...if u're reading this...not sure if u're free tomolo...i'll contact u k...mb can meet u for lunch or dinner...
as for U...i'll see u later...~buai buai~
Tuesday, November 30, 2004
drink drink drink...
wooo...had squash training with coach and the gals...fun...yah i always say it's fun...cos i enjoy the process...
haven't hang out together for so damn long...i miss u gals so much...i miss the drinking days....getting tipsy together and giggling away...o man i miss those days...really...
didn't drink that much last nite...one stella, one volka blackcurrent and one tequila shot...and tah dah...i'm sleepy...so lousy...haha...and can't even play pool properly cos the gals keep teasing and distracting me... so sorry angie...keeping making our team lose...hehe...
bought jessie belated birthday gifts...cos haven't had the chance to see her till yesterday...hehe hope she likes them...
process...am always trying to make the best out of it
many things happened without me knowing the outcome...neither will i wanna expect too much nor to make sure the ultimate outcome will appear for definite...
dunnoe wat i'm blabbering about...juz something that came across my mind...
haven't hang out together for so damn long...i miss u gals so much...i miss the drinking days....getting tipsy together and giggling away...o man i miss those days...really...
didn't drink that much last nite...one stella, one volka blackcurrent and one tequila shot...and tah dah...i'm sleepy...so lousy...haha...and can't even play pool properly cos the gals keep teasing and distracting me... so sorry angie...keeping making our team lose...hehe...
bought jessie belated birthday gifts...cos haven't had the chance to see her till yesterday...hehe hope she likes them...
process...am always trying to make the best out of it
many things happened without me knowing the outcome...neither will i wanna expect too much nor to make sure the ultimate outcome will appear for definite...
dunnoe wat i'm blabbering about...juz something that came across my mind...
Saturday, November 27, 2004
6 days...
haven't been blogging for days and so many things had happened...gee...i'm dazed by the stuff that went by...
for many things that happened during these 6 days...i haven't quite figured out the reasons why they turn out this way....but i'm contented...pretty much... hehe....U!
sat~ got to hang out with my click of frens...watched SAW....psycho show...but interesting...haha...totally grossed out by the scenes...ck gotten so scared that he had to grab my sleeve...haha...cannot help it but i really find it funny when u hid behind ur bag, sat lower and lower and eventually grabbed the sleeve of the sweater that u lent me...haha...
sun~ went out with mr H...keke...had fun...loved to go out with him...walked around in town and had dinner...then walked around town again..haha...=p
mon~ went shopping with yd...walked alot man...pratically from one end of orchard to dohby ghaut...shopped quite abit...but didn't buy anything except for his 3 pairs of socks...haha...but i enjoyed his company...been a long long time since we last did that...
funny thing was...think both of us are getting older and were so exhausted from all the walking that eventually when we get the chance to sit down...we both let out this ~ah~ sigh...haha like some old ppl...old liao old liao!
in the evening...we went to baker's inn for desserts...my o my...their desserts are sooo good!!! my hot choco cake is soo rich...yd's cream something something(i dun rem the name) is good too...i love the crust on top...it's a sugared crust and u'll need to use the spoon to break it...underneath it is like egg pudding...~melt~ so nice!!!
yan joined us shortly after we're into the desserts...kena strangled by her while yd juz walked away talking on his phone! argh...didn't even save me from her claws...
okie lah i was at fault in the first place for not telling her something...but i still need help when this woman attack...haha...cos she can get quite violent...haha
anyway had fun that nite...happy happy...haha mr H joined us for awhile too...keke...
tue~ had squash training...arh..i nearly died lo...if u think running in the squash courts is easy...come join squash and give it a try...ran 50 times inside and my legs are wobbly already...good butt exercise though...haha try it...
wed~ met up with apple and min...went ktv...hahaha fun fun...always love to sing and hang out with them...alot of things to catch up with...haha even went raffles city to see apple's bf performing as tigger...haha quite funny...cos tigger keep waving at us on stage too...haha
went shopping with the gals after that...stamped my own toe with the high heel i was trying on...gosh was juz telling apple that the shoes look bimbotic and there i am stamping it on my own big toe...-_-''...duh...stupid stupid...bleed abit somemore...
thurs~ went schl for awhile...to surprise someone...haha...guess wat...while walking towards the schl...few feet away a girl infront of me gotten splashed by the car...cos it was raining then...i was trying so hard not to laugh...at the same time counting myself lucky that it's not me...hahaha...then another gal slipped and landed on her butt right before i entered the schl...i feel like i've jinx them or something cos both happened right before my eyes...o man...
o btw...i've gotten my results...hahahahaha satisfying lah...at least no sup paper!!! mainly Bs and Cs...haha...goodness...was so scared lo...cos COP was quite a killer...glad that ppl around me did well too..happy for them as well...hehe good good...
okie have to stop here...too too long le...one more week to attachment...worried...
hehe...yeah pulled thru exams...see...told u men's sixth sense is not accurate...haha
thank you for all the time spend together...love it....
lot more stuff to say but dunno how to put it so shall leave it as it is...
see you later!
for many things that happened during these 6 days...i haven't quite figured out the reasons why they turn out this way....but i'm contented...pretty much... hehe....U!
sat~ got to hang out with my click of frens...watched SAW....psycho show...but interesting...haha...totally grossed out by the scenes...ck gotten so scared that he had to grab my sleeve...haha...cannot help it but i really find it funny when u hid behind ur bag, sat lower and lower and eventually grabbed the sleeve of the sweater that u lent me...haha...
sun~ went out with mr H...keke...had fun...loved to go out with him...walked around in town and had dinner...then walked around town again..haha...=p
mon~ went shopping with yd...walked alot man...pratically from one end of orchard to dohby ghaut...shopped quite abit...but didn't buy anything except for his 3 pairs of socks...haha...but i enjoyed his company...been a long long time since we last did that...
funny thing was...think both of us are getting older and were so exhausted from all the walking that eventually when we get the chance to sit down...we both let out this ~ah~ sigh...haha like some old ppl...old liao old liao!
in the evening...we went to baker's inn for desserts...my o my...their desserts are sooo good!!! my hot choco cake is soo rich...yd's cream something something(i dun rem the name) is good too...i love the crust on top...it's a sugared crust and u'll need to use the spoon to break it...underneath it is like egg pudding...~melt~ so nice!!!
yan joined us shortly after we're into the desserts...kena strangled by her while yd juz walked away talking on his phone! argh...didn't even save me from her claws...
okie lah i was at fault in the first place for not telling her something...but i still need help when this woman attack...haha...cos she can get quite violent...haha
anyway had fun that nite...happy happy...haha mr H joined us for awhile too...keke...
tue~ had squash training...arh..i nearly died lo...if u think running in the squash courts is easy...come join squash and give it a try...ran 50 times inside and my legs are wobbly already...good butt exercise though...haha try it...
wed~ met up with apple and min...went ktv...hahaha fun fun...always love to sing and hang out with them...alot of things to catch up with...haha even went raffles city to see apple's bf performing as tigger...haha quite funny...cos tigger keep waving at us on stage too...haha
went shopping with the gals after that...stamped my own toe with the high heel i was trying on...gosh was juz telling apple that the shoes look bimbotic and there i am stamping it on my own big toe...-_-''...duh...stupid stupid...bleed abit somemore...
thurs~ went schl for awhile...to surprise someone...haha...guess wat...while walking towards the schl...few feet away a girl infront of me gotten splashed by the car...cos it was raining then...i was trying so hard not to laugh...at the same time counting myself lucky that it's not me...hahaha...then another gal slipped and landed on her butt right before i entered the schl...i feel like i've jinx them or something cos both happened right before my eyes...o man...
o btw...i've gotten my results...hahahahaha satisfying lah...at least no sup paper!!! mainly Bs and Cs...haha...goodness...was so scared lo...cos COP was quite a killer...glad that ppl around me did well too..happy for them as well...hehe good good...
okie have to stop here...too too long le...one more week to attachment...worried...
hehe...yeah pulled thru exams...see...told u men's sixth sense is not accurate...haha
thank you for all the time spend together...love it....
lot more stuff to say but dunno how to put it so shall leave it as it is...
see you later!
Saturday, November 20, 2004
incredibles...hehe
6 am in the morning, not that i woke up early... i simply can't seem to sleep...think btw 2-5 am i was sleeping...then suddenly ~ting~ i'm awake...no matter how hard i try to sleep...i can't....cham think tomolo may not be fit enough for training....
i'll still make it for the movie though...it's been a long time since i last watched a show with my click...gonna catch the movie- saw...plot seems pretty interesting, heard it's kinda relate to human survival instinct..mm...will let u know if it's nice...gee...i seemed to be into movie critque lately..
btw i bought the skirt i've been eyeing previously at project shop( ck rem the one i tried for u and sze to see...haha yah yah it's that one!!!) and it was like half price!! haha happy happy...
Insomnia...not sure issit the food i had for dinner, the coffee or you...
have been meeting up with mr H lately....first was in schl...then was lunch and yesterday for dinner and movie....watched Incredibles....eh not as nice as i expected le...beginning part was so draggy...okie lah it does get better towards the end...haha...
got home late...cos of the movie and it was raining so we're stranded in sheltered area...trying to look for cab...
thanx for sending me home...=) and thanx for the lovely nite!
~hugs~
i'll still make it for the movie though...it's been a long time since i last watched a show with my click...gonna catch the movie- saw...plot seems pretty interesting, heard it's kinda relate to human survival instinct..mm...will let u know if it's nice...gee...i seemed to be into movie critque lately..
btw i bought the skirt i've been eyeing previously at project shop( ck rem the one i tried for u and sze to see...haha yah yah it's that one!!!) and it was like half price!! haha happy happy...
Insomnia...not sure issit the food i had for dinner, the coffee or you...
have been meeting up with mr H lately....first was in schl...then was lunch and yesterday for dinner and movie....watched Incredibles....eh not as nice as i expected le...beginning part was so draggy...okie lah it does get better towards the end...haha...
got home late...cos of the movie and it was raining so we're stranded in sheltered area...trying to look for cab...
thanx for sending me home...=) and thanx for the lovely nite!
~hugs~
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