have been working...so much so that i actually forgotten to reply nyp regarding my graduation attendance...

thing is...only one person can attend my graduation...naturally i ask my mom...

'When is it held?'
' Monday...'
'O monady arh...if baby at home then i can't go...if not who will look after him?'
'Okie lo...never mind...it's juz a graduation...anyway nothing much...quite boring stuff...'

why am i not surprise...anyway it's not a convocation....if it is a convocation, will things be different? perhaps...why should i mind anyway...i guess it juz not a big deal at all...

mom juz threw tantrum to me...or at me...sigh hate it when ppl do that...as though i'm the one at fault...

working...tired...gonna sleep...so rare of me to sleep before 12...haha...

been staying at home for 2 days to nurse myself so that i can be well enough to start work on monday...the idea of me going to work so soon is still alittle daunting...i'll do whatever i can...

my day started with squabblings again...it's sucky...perhaps on my part i had too much assumptions...funny that i hate assumptions made upon me...yet often made the mistakes of creating them upon others...will bear in mind not to do it...at the end of the day our miscommunication is ressolved with both of us apologising to each other and laughing at each other's silliness...sigh...differen age..different thoughts...different way of reacting...yar...lover birds can be quite stupid...i for one is an example...no denial....

anyway...since i've been home these few days...i've been helping out looking after auggy...fun as usual...cos he started blabbering and is noiser than before...it's a joy to play with him...making him shriek with laughters...but at the same time i'm being tortured too...he's been pulling my hair...pinching me, scratching my face, pulling my specs, biting me and leaving me his two tiny teeth marks whenever possible...hmm...so far he's the cutest baby i've seen...really...not saying it cos he's my nephew...but generally he's really cute...and when he kisses u...it's a big wet kiss with teeth marks on ur face...haha...basically he juz open his mouth real big and grab u by the neck and stick himself on ur face...that's his version of kiss...pretty funny to see him do that to my mom...

gtg sleep...cant seem to fall asleep...dunnoe is it the stress or the chicken that i had in the evening...argh...

bloody hell...i'm sick again...and my sup wanted to me to start work tomolo!

i'm suppose to rest at home...but...got woken up by baby boy's cries...this i can take it cos i'm quite use to it...

then my aunt and her fren came to visit us...u know plus my mom..the 3 aunties talked so loudly...i feel like pulling my ears out...

now...my mom switched on her teochew opera to let the aunties watch....i cannot take it anymore...i'm getting out of the house despite me feeling abit feverish...

sometimes i think i'll be better staying outside alone...cos it's no difference now that i'm looking after myself....

been going out with different groups of frens to celebrate my birthday...thank you so much for the presents and also ur tolerance to my profound bad habit of being late...really really sorry...gonna make adjustment to my time management..promise...

i'm blessed with frens who love and dote me alot...and i realise at times i take them for granted far too much...i expect them to take my nonsense and know what i'm thinking...

thing is...how will they know what i'm thinking when i'm the one not telling them anything that is going inside me...there's alot going on...sometimes i juz dun wanna bore them with the stupid stuff that are in my head...at times...i juz dunnoe how to bring across cos dunno where to start...

lately i've been having dreams...weird dreams...so despite me sleeping more than usual...i dun feel rested at all instead i woke up feeling more tired...

jessie said maybe it's due to me going thru a transition phase and that i'm experiencing stress subconsciously...maybe...i dunno...despite me not having to worry about schl work or attachment anymore...i dun really feel stress free....why why why....maybe cos i need to start work next week?!

and i have yet to go into hiding at any place yet...is there still time to go somewhere?

Happy Birthday to ME!!!

yeah yeah!!! 24 yo!!!

Thank you all for the well wishes you've sent me!! i'm so happy to get all your msgs!! =) happy happy

eve of my bday...had dinner with Bb and went for a movie after that...simple way to celebrate but i like it =) yeah...next time i have something to listen to on my way to work...keke...happy happy...

today...
juz went for lunch with my parents...been a while since i last ate with them...and it's been a long time since we've gone out to eat on my bday...hehe happy happy...

going to have dinner with my beloved girls...fen and min...so much to catch up...eh but my stomach like no room for anymore food...been eating alot leh...o no..

anyway...gonna go bathe then head out!

yd's film...
i went to watch the short films that yd and his classmates had created individually for their assignments...it's really interesting to see beginners trying out on short films for the first time... i'm amazed by their work and effort...good start man...

and i have to say this...i am proud of yd...though i know he thinks his film is shitty...still...it's not easy to come out with a short film like this...i like certain parts of ur editing...esp the overlapping of the memories...it's nice...

here is the side where u can view their work...
http://www.ntu.edu.sg/adm/film/

currently...i'm tired...again...although my attachment has ended...
settling some stuff....making some decisions...wondering if i'm up to being a full fledge therapist...cos it is a little overwhelming...i realise there is so much that i dunno still...huh...how?

going back to schl lib tomolo....

what have i been doing since last day of clinical?

fri~
went back to schl...took competency test...it's a 2 freaking hours paper...more brain cells died in attempting to proof that i am competent to be a full fledge therapist...haha

after the test...it's farewell with the lecturers...words that they have spoken will always be remembered...am always grateful to have this bunch of dedicated mentors to guide me through my 3 years course...abit freaky...now that i dun have them to fall back on when i go out to work...

evening time...went to shop around alone at marina square...bought some clothes for myself...then head down to meet bb...went to play pool...had quite a good laugh...cos neither one of us were very good in this...hehe fun fun

sat~ sentosa day!
woke up late and was late for meetup with my clique...gotten someone sooo pissed off...oops...sorry...cough syrup...rem? hehe...babe i really really appreciate what you've done k...

after sun tanning at the beach...we head down to wheellock for dinner...it's this nice jap restaurant...food was great...and the space we've gotten was excellent...haha more like a family dinner...so cosy...i like...

dessert was my bday cake...bought specially from pine garden...wah haha...babe went home from sentosa to get it for me...so touched...woo and the best thing is...it's lychee martini cake..haha...yummy...

will post the pics up once handsome send me the pic...got it yd?? u're suppose to send me the pics...

sun~
went to amk to have breakfast with min and apple...at the same time was given wedding invitation that was written on the spot....

popped over min's house to say hi to her mom and then sat down chatting with her...

evening time...passed the file to audrey and then went off to meet bb for dinner....

that's all for now...i need to type some stuff...update about yd's short file tonite....

another job interview offer...should i take it up...i'm still thinking...seriously not sure if i'm up to it...sigh sigh...think about it over weekend then decide...maybe i should juz go for interview and see how things go...

YESH!!!!!

the time has finally come!!! end of placement!!! wah haha....

but i not happy with my grade...gotten a band C...though it's 70 out of 100...i was hoping for something better...sigh sigh...hopefully my overall grades will be better...

anyway...time to rest...really exhausted....i think my system knows that i am able to rest now...and it starts to break down on me...cough lah...headache lah...gastric...u name it i have it man...

time to sleep....i need to hibernate!

2 more days!!! cant wait cant wait...though i aint looking forward to the competency test on fri either...

treatment session went alright...hai yah but accidentally bummed my kid's head...heart pain...so sorry...he's such a cutie pie....always make me laugh with his cute cute remarks...and the underpants he wore today...haha super cute...think is sponge bob arh...anyway i hope he had enjoyed his session with me...afterall it's an interesting 'insect catching' game...hehe...at least i manage to teach him how to use clothes pegs...wah haha...such a cute boy...

okie...gtg sleep...2 more days....yeah!

wish list cont....

13. birkenstocks slippers..

14. good eye cream that can cure my dark circles...

okie no more...cant think of any liao...screen is making me nausea...better go sleep then do my report and stuff tomolo morning...

quality time spent today...nice to be able to rest....sigh sigh...luxury...

hehe a photo i took with my sis-in-law and baby auggy...he looked abit blur cos he juz woke up...and trying to grab my specs as always....

wish list...
1. wallet
2. handbag - think dodo getting me one
3. a pair of nice fitting jeans - i juz realised...the current one and only jeans i have...is bloody LOOSE...i look horrible in it...didnt realise it was THAT loose until i wore it lately...super baggy...
4. 3/4 pants
5. bikinis
6. before sunset and before sunrise DVD
7. sunglasses
8. LCD screen
9. ipod video
10. jogging stuff- singlets, shorts, sports bra
11. lingerie - ask me for my size...basically i have shrunk everywhere...haha
12. hp...samsung D820

i think i'm more like listing down my own shopping list...since the 800 bucks is in...i might as well splurge on myself...haha...

cant wait to spend my time with yd they all next sat...hehe...they gonna celebrate my bday with me that whole day...so nice...esp ck who initiated to contact the whole bunch of them...haha...happy happy

no plan for my actual bday yet...someone juz told me he'll be going away to KL over the long weekend...guess i'll have to make plans for myself then...no point waiting to be surprised...eeek learnt my lesson already...only close frens will do such thing for me...haha...u know i can never ever forget the time during j2...when the guys tricked me and collabrated with my mama to hide in my house and surprise me...hmm...pretty innovative then except for the part that i saw their shoes before i even enter my house...wat a give away keke...love u guys!

sigh...never mind...shall go out and drink to my heart's content...wat's birthday without drinking eh...hehe...

3 more days...i'll get my rest...complete ones...3 more days...i'll be able to do the things i wannt do...3 more days i can make plans for myself...birthday, career and future...

i wanna get out of singapore...handsome arh...u guys wanna go anywhere or not?

some updates bout my wish list....dodo say she might be getting me wallet or handbag...keke...this cuzzie of mine always dotes me alot...i miss hanging out with her...been busy with our own stuff and agenda...

tomolo got case study to present in schl...havent gone back for weeks le...perhaps i'll drop by the squash courts to take a look...i miss squash...didnt play for like 2 months...die le...standard sure drop to the bottom...

as always...i'm counting down to my days for clinical...4 more days! was in session with my kid today...hai yo tell you...he is so so cute! really really funny boy...so fun to work with...hopefully the session i'm gonna conduct with him will go well next tue...

so happy...ck and all are meeting me next sat for our tanning session!!!! pls pls pls dun rain...let 6th may be a nice sunny sat...throughout the day...woo...sipping beer by the beach~~ i cant wait!!!

woo another birthday wish list...
wanna go mt faber...not to dine or drink but to go there and take a look at night view...cos sua gu me never been there before...or maybe i should go there and jog one of the morning...hmm...

hai yo my baby boy is sick...dunno how come got fever...maybe cos teething...poor thing...

slept at 9 pm...i was practically tired the whole day despite 5 hours of luxurious sleep the previous nite...not enough for my body i guess...

should have juz slept when i reached home without dinner...always feel so fat to eat then sleep after that...

squabbled again...i have never quarrelled with anyone as much as i did with him...wat's wrong arh...in fact i dun even like to quarrel at all...but it seem to be one of the ways we communicate...weird...but at least now i learn to bring across my point of view instead of keep mump about it...is that good or bad...

anyway...birthday wish list...
1. wallet ( nice one pls...and no cutesy pink wallets...i'll faint)
2. nice 3/4 pants ( eh something that i can wear causally and semi-formally)
3. ipod video (juz putting this for fun...cos i realise this gadget makes my journey home with ck even more interesting...)
4. bikinis ( since 22 bday i've been receiving one set every year...dun mind having nicer ones added to my collection)
5. belly button piercing (still pending...cos currently tummy is bloody flabby due to lack of exercise...)
6. before sunrise and before sunset ( VCD or DVD...either one which ever is cheaper)
7. LCD screen ( put this to remind myself to get one cos current screen is blinding me as each day pass)
8. sunglasses (nice one pls...)
9. handbags ( working/ party handbags)
~to be continued~

anyother innovative or interesting items are welcome too...

cant think at the moment but will add on the list if i thought of something...if u really dunno wat to get for me...then never mind...meet up for breakfast, lunch or dinner i'll be happy enough...

two more weeks to go...most hectic week is coming! yeah...bring it on...

still deciding if i should go redang with my classmates...hmm...i'll have till evening to think about...

anyway was working yesterday...then went for lunch with my colleagues....wah they are very scary man...ordered so much food...was so so bloated at the end that i walked from tanglin to somerset to meet handsome and yk...

miss talking to the two of them...and as uaual...bloody yk inflicted pain on me...the way he flicked his finger on my arm was darn painful! can never master that...and yesh our r/s is based on pain...i'm always the one receving it...arh...so not fair...i'll have to find a way to irritate him...

anyway met up with ck too...then sent yd to watch his film fest movie...and off we go shopping...didnt buy anything except for cookies and chocolate...and i bought squash ball...haha...

was soo tired at the end of the day that i juz drop dead and sleep once i reached home...

and today...i juz came back from cousin's baby man yue...goodness...babies everywhere...plus the one we have...o my...quite a handful...and they are outshinning one another in terms of their size and weight...fat babies...but auggy is still the cutest! haha

tired...i go take a nap...then biang my reports...

arh.....i miss drinking...in fact i so wanna drink right now...perhaps the fact that i was so low lately was becos i havent been drinking for a long long time....

i miss that giggly feeling...i miss that state of feeling high...juz minus the puking part...hehe...

wala wala...can i go there for my bday...actually it's up to me to arrange...

i always say i have alot of things to buy but i dun seem to have the time or money to buy them....so i told my friends that i'll put these items under my next birthday wishlist....and everytime nearing my birthday...i realise i cant rem wat i want in the first place...diao~~ hmm...i'm still thinking...let me think then i'll post here can? at least for reference...dun buy also never mind...i put shuang...then next year when i read my blog again i'll know wat i wan initially...haha....good idea eh...

gotta do my report...again...dun feel like sleeping tonight...

~waving white flag~

cannot take it anymore...took MC today....in a daze now...never felt so floaty before...the thought of doing make up makes me even more sian...but what to do..feverish plus my headache been bugging me on and off...hopefully the medication will work...

i was moody...and when i'm moody i whined alot...i'll get upset over things that i aint suppose to get upset about in the first place...and i dun smile much, i juz sulk...sooo unlike the usual silly me...

yar...past entries were quite boring...cos it's all about my complaints...i cant help it...esp when my period is here...

yeah...bb bought me a small bottle of choya...havent tried it...but he said it's very nice...hmm...been getting alcoholic drinks from frens too...ck bought me rice wine when he visited japan...james bought me a small cute bottle of jap wine when he came back for vacation from fukuoka...and now bb bought me the choya drink...this goes to see how much my frens know me...muah haha...but i must make this clear...as much as i love to drink...if u buy me a bottle of wine/beer/watever alcoholic drink on my bday...i'll chop u into pieces...at least gimme something functional and usable can?

anyway...i havent tot of wat i wan for my bday...hehe...but i know i'm gonna make myself happy this year...no more running on the track for 10 rounds on my bday...no more!

sanity checked...

thanx adrian...for being such a sweetie say yes to my request and drove me to jalan kayu to drink teh tarik at nite...hehe...

it's nice to juz go out for a short while...drink tea with fren and chat...no reasons needed to meet up...juz simply becos u wanna hang out and ur fren is willing to do so with you...

it's sweet to have frens that u dun need a reason or excuse to meet up cos it's such a natural thing to do...u know u juz wan to spend time with them...without feeling that it's a chore or an obligation...juz the feeling of contentment...and that u really wanna see them...

let's all go tanning after ur exams...it's been awhile since all of us hang out together...i miss you guys...

i'm alright now...i'll always bounce back no matter how hard it is...it has been this way for years...ultimately i can only rely on myself to get back on my feet...i cant expect others to do a job that is suppose to be mine...juz need to strive and push myself further...

argh...bloody hell...cramps are killing me...such a chore to be woman...why is it that man dun have period...i so wish that they'll get to know what the term 'cramps' means...ugh...