Pics for the week....

Been out meeting frens and eating lotsa food...damn...i'm getting fat...















My beloved goddaughter has grown so much over the past 6 months...she looks different from the last time I saw her...hehe...here's the pic of apple mommy trying to give xin xin her bite toy...
















Sze...went drinking with him last sat and then again yesterday...















The hiao po who took this pic herself....haha...
















I like this pic...except that it's blurred cos someone doesnt have a steady hand =p















Went to Plalana, after not being able to find seats and being scorched by someone's ciggy at Balaclava...I seriously condemn the place...stupid arseholes...smoke also dunno how to smoke properly...may you lungs turn black...















Downed 1.5L of beer last nite..woohoo...nice!
















Okie...this is the best 3 persons pic of all nite...the rest were either fen was out of pic or sze out of pic...not to mention the one that he placed the timer on...he was completely out of the frame...we need more practice peeps...come on man...

Dodo's wedding

Part of the reason why I decided to come back to Singapore was becos beloved cousin of mine is getting married...

We grew up together, we fought, she always made me cry ( okie...I admit...I'm a hum bao most of the time when I was young), I always imitated her, copied her even in the dresses I chose...

And now, seeing her getting married to her cute-sporting hubby, I'm truly happy for her...

Here are some pics...














Went to do hair for the wedding...from looking like an alien...














to doing french manicure for the first time....Really like my nails! Cos back when I was working, I was never able to keep my nails long nor put nail polish...hehe...feel very ladylike leh...















My look for dodo's church wedding...mind u hor...i wore peachy pink! sooo not my colour...but it's the bride's theme leh...so bo bian...haha...
















The tired couple....The morning for 'Zhuang men' we literally had to use our bodies to block the brothers...cos they played cheat...not only did they waste the chilli beer, they took forever to wear the red undies that I bought...only the groom was sporting enough to wear the red bra with two oranges in them...haha

And they guys made us sisters to kiss groom's dog on the mouth before letting us into his place!! @$#@$ Heng i like dogs and that Hatchi doesnt smell...
















Pretty dodo and me! I freaking hate my nose...big and shiny...puke puke
















Wedding dinner...in the hotel room..waiting to go down...















Me and kiddo...the only girl left in the Aw family who is not married...haha...when is ur turn arh?!

i wish...

If I can use one word to describe this pic...it will be 'carefree'...I have no idea what Auggy was laughing about...but he sure was enjoying himself...

I miss my baby boys...

Latest pictures of my baby boys...I miss them to bits...miss them sooooo much....















Auggy looking really smart in his winter uniform. So cute!



















He looked so funny in his daddy's shoes...hehe



















My parcel of 'Thomas and friends' reached him on Monday...he seemed to like the hat alot =) been calling home and trying to get me to thank me for it...so sweet hor...















This is little ben ben...you know...he seriously looks the same as Auggy at this age...SAME!!! I rem last time Auggy also have some photos with this kinda poses...look the same lor...















Very cute hor...got the shuai shuai look hehe...















Finger...yum yum....















In the process of covering my greys...kaoz...hairstylist said I have quite abit of greys again! !#@@!@#@!...sis asked me...what has aussie done to you...give u two cavities and white hair?? =p















Okie..this is my new look...one side shorter than the other...hope i dun look too toot....

The day with " you like it? you like it?...eh not really" storie...haha

My last dental appt was 3 years ago! Wow, I didn't realise that until I asked my dentist about the last visit I had with her. That record card even had my old house address instead of the current one. Freaking long ago! Perhaps I'm lucky, only had 2 cavities...hehe...eh...3 years never check leh...2 considered quite little okie =p

Went walking around AMK hub with mommy thereafter. Quite fun, except that I dun think my mama appreciate my choice of clothes for her...haha...kept saying too young...too bright...too trendy...doink...

Met up with handsome for dinner tonight. Was at Raffles City Starbucks, sipping my coffee, people watching, waiting for him to knock off...

It was the exact same spot in which I cried tonnes in public, to eve, to handsome...telling them how miserable I was on separate occasions but on that one single issue. Sigh, time flies...today, I just enjoy sitting there by myself, looking at the people buzzing passed...no more misery, I'm neither sad nor happy, just felt lighter...perhaps baggages are finally shedding off...

Had a great time chatting with handsome...so much to catch up upon over the past 6 months...so much to laugh about...with each other, at each other...hehe...it's this kinda connection that I've been missing, to hear from close friends and be heard with that tinge of attentiveness only they know how and can give to me =)

Meet up again soon...want you guys to see me until you wanna puke so as to make up for the remaining half a year when I'm not around...muah haha...

role reversal...

Parent no. 1: My bro ( not available in Singapore)
Parent no. 2: ME
Child no. 1: My dad
Child no. 2: My mom

Child no. 1: I WANT to go HK asap in dec...I CAN take the plane myself...You can go there with mom in Jan...your bro need help in doing the chores and looking after the little ones...I HAVE to go there in Dec...

Me: What's the hurry...they are adults, surely they can take care of themselves and the baby boys...no need to go so early lar...

Child no. 1: NO...I want to go there in Dec...

Child no. 2: I have doc appt on the 14 Dec...can book tix after 14 Dec or not...can can can?

Me: Okie...I'll try to get the airtickets for the two of after 14 Dec okie?

Child no. 1: I can go on 10...I can even go now...

Me: -__-"

So the whole freaking morning was spent with me in messy hair, stinky mouth and gooey eyes (I just woke up), checking airlines for the earliest date and cheapest deal for them to fly over to HK.

Finally we settled on 25 Dec noon flight. You know, working in JMC helped alot. Cos I dealt with difficult AND demanding patients, in this case, my parents. Mom was okie but it didnt quite help when she bugged me with the ' so now how?' every 5 min while I was doing the online booking.

I really wanna puke blood and die...and suddenly I feel so old as though I'm dealing with two kids...doink...

My consolation was that dad compensated me by treating me and mom for lunch- sushi. Then it was another round of " what is this arh...eh what is that....eh this one nice or not...." Hai yo...If not for me being therapist, having dealt with elderly and having the liking for dealing with kids as well...I think I will convulse and die on the spot with all these qn...

Sigh...okie lar...at least they are happy now...that's all I'll ask for...

freaked out...

I scared myself just now while I was at Robinson. I thought I saw him walking by the window. I thought it was him. Caught a glimpse and I actually froze on the spot, only to realise it wasn't him.

Was out with L and his friends last night. That place was showing the EPL. New Castle versus some other team. I thought of him. Sigh. I know, he'll be betting and watching the match too. I was secretly hoping that New Castle will lose.

Sigh...why did he pop out in my mind still...

I'm home!

The moment the plane touched down...I was grinning...cos I couldn't wait to see them...Soooooo happy to see them all...yd, fen, sze, yk, adrian, choon yew...

Feel so spoilt to be fetched and driven by the guys...thank you sooo much o...

Went home to put luggage, hugged mommy...called daddy...then zoomed out for supper at chomp chomp...

Finally get to eat stingray, cai tao guey, la la, rojak and drink sugarcane juice...yum yum...

Everything seems the same yet it comes with that tinge of unfamiliarity...Kinda weird....

I have so much to talk to yd they all...sooo much....i cant wait to hang out with them longer!!!

ray, jessie, angie, wan yee and chin han...we gotta meet up soon too!

Currently am stuffed and still smell of stingray when i burped...eeks...

waiting for hair to dry so that i can get my much needed sleep...

okie peeps...in case u need to reach me...call my singtel line...i'm still using it alright...

seeya ;)

Backdated stuffs...

Past two weeks went by so fast...before I know it, it's my turn to fly home...

Been out with the guys most of the time...monday was drinking with them and i was totally smashed...apparently i puked while sleeping...and they had to wash my hair for me and checked on me every 10 min to make sure that i dun choke and die from my puke...kaoz...so pai seh and unglam...no image infront of them man...thanx so much for taking care of me...hehe...

Been packing my stuffs into boxes to get them shifted to my new house...learnt to do wise packing such that i spread the weight and able to carry them myself since i didnt get the guys to help me...shifted 8 boxes of things today in my heels somemore...not bad right? haha...

met up with frens today after shifting too.....just feel great hanging out with them...eating...chatting...eating yummy ice cream...

had a lovely night out too...

okie need to do final packing and then sleep...

home sweet home...soon...

To Jessie

Happy Birthday!!!

Welcome to Club 25!

Muack...may all your wish come true! Hope you'll be having fun today!

funny...

Me: So..what do you want for your birthday?
Yk: It's okie...same lar...give me MONEY like what u and yd did last year...

Me: Wah liao...one year already and you're still at it...sorry lar...
Yk: Dunno what I want for birthday lar...

Me: Btw, I've bought you an aboriginal art piece that you requested...
Yk: o okie..thanx o..

Yk: o I know what my birthday wish is...To see you happily married with 7 kids, 2 dogs, 1 cat and 1 guinea pig...
Me: -_-" can...you find me a husband lo...

Yk: ONZ! any ethnicity also can hor...
Me: Yar...i'm pro multiracial mah...but I prefer ang mos cos I like ang mo babies more...

Yk: ha ha ha...

He never fails to crack me up every single time i chat with him online...goodness...

why is it so hard...

It still stings my heart...It's the third time I'm watching it...At the end of it, it still leaves this bitter sweet taste...

'I'm not a concept...I'm just a fucked up girl who is looking for my own piece of mind...i'm not perfect...'

I think i'm still looking for mine...

Cookie

Met up with a fren this morning, it was nice weather...rainy but at least it's cooling...wasnt quite awake the whole time we hanged out...it's the weather man...made me wanna snuggle in bed...sorry about that...i'll be more awake the next time alright =)

It didnt help when I was told the meetup with Rickard, Harald, Janine, Emilie and all gotten pushed back from 5pm to 8pm...so there I was loitering within city for the 3rd day since beginning of this week...tiredness set in at about 4 plus...I couldnt take it anymore hence went to starbucks to get my 3 cup of coffee for the day...and read my book to pass the time...

Managed to finish my book...so decided to walk around abit...

Felt very much alone during this few hours...it's like you're surrounded by lots of ppl walking by but all you feel is the emptiness within...that's what I felt...empty to the core...It's not that I cant do things alone...it just feel different from how I felt back home even when I'm out all alone....I nearly wanna catch a tram and just head home becos of I was starting to feel kinda miserable...

But then again I didnt...decided to just hang around for awhile longer cos I really wanna meet up with this bunch of international students whom I got to know during this semester...

I'm glad I met up with them...It was nice to catch up...the pub was really cool and fun to chill at...we ended up teaching each other how to say the numbers in different language - german, spanish, mandrin etc...It was really fun...

Kinda sad that we're gonna go separate ways soon...

Tonite is more of a farewell gathering to all...sigh...hugged every single one of them when I was about to head home...hugged Rickard for the longest cos I am really gonna miss him...it's like we just had our surf trip together not long ago and now everyone is going off...

It's really really great knowing them all =)

ATTENTION PLS...

Was talking to Ck last nite...told me that his friend said I should stay in Aussie to work cos the prospect for OT is pretty good. But like I said, visa seemed to be a problem and Ck replied " then come back home...I miss shopping with you..." Eew...so sweet right?

Anyway details of my flight:
Be back on : 30th Nov

Flight no. : QF 9

Depart: 1710

Arrive : 2130

Will be at T1. Pls check the timing on the day itself hor, any delay not my business, dun complain you wait too long arh...but then again....i may be stuck at the liquor section and the DFS section...haha

Yd, fen, sze and yk...if none of you were there when I walk out of the arrival gate...I WILL SKIN YOU ALIVE! Ck, you heng...cos you'll be in Sydney so you shall be spared =p

of cos I know you guys love me...so will definitely come and pick me up lar hor? Pls?? Then we can head to chomp chomp to eat stingray and then happy daze to drink beer...onz???

Miss you all lotsssssss.....

p/s: will be good if you guys make me a banner too....hahhaha....

Living alone means...

You have to kill fucking huge spiders yourself...I'm thankful they dun have lizards here...if not I will die...really...

you have to wash your own dishes after meals...not to mention cook them to the edible level first...

you have to entertain yourself when you are bored...

you have to do laundry which is piling up like a mountain...

you have to pack your stuffs and be prepared to shift those fucking heavy boxes to the new place alone...

It is freaking hot tonite...i am so contemplating to sleep naked...but then again...spiders ppl...spiders...eew...

blisters...

Bought a pair of new heels, wore them, ended up with blisters that gave me open wound. I thought I could bare with the pain and continue my day. I couldn't. Ended up getting another pair to free myself from the agony. Not that my threshold of pain went down but when the wounds start whoozing blood and fluid, one has no choice but to give up and find alternatives.

And no, plasters didn't work. I ain't dumb. Bought a box of plasters, used up almost half of them, kept changing them whenever they came off, tried different ways of sticking them and it still didn't work. That's when I decided to give up. Yes, only when the wound started to get worst and whoozed blood.

It's always the case...

I did try my best to hold on to it, tried to make it work, tried to stretch my threshold...

What did I get in return? Pain and agony...

Now I'm left with scars and potential phobia...

And in case you didn't notice...

It's back to haunt me...

Backdated photos...

Birthday party for Rickard, Therese and Sven















We were at this outdoor rooftop place, pretty nice place to chill and talk. Great for birthday party! Though we dun know all the ppl there, it's great to just sit and talk, no awkwardness at all...fun fun!















Food and alcohol...i think we looked abit sleepy here





















Harald's food came last...hence for this pic...he was hungry! haha...















The birthday boys and girl...















Rickard and I...my favourite uncle...haha...knew him since orientation and surf trip...
Always bum into him and Harald in the lib...always like to bug him cos he's forever so cute and funny...they'll be going home after this sem...gonna miss them man...















Ally and Emilie...sweet french girl whom we got to know since orientation and surf trip...
Also going home after this sem =(















Emilie and me...















Took turns to take photo with birthday boy...
















amanda and rickard

so loved...

it's suppose to be spring now, yet it's still fucking cold...cold on the outside, cold on the inside, wtf...weather is weird...

finally submitted my final papers, went out for a movie and had 3 beers...seeking solace in my much needed alcohol...

received my parcel today and it's my favourite movie! Ck baby, Thank yo so much! It's the little details that I appreciate...am so gonna watch it over and over again! Muack muack...

Am now in a fuck care mode...dun wanna ask, dun wanna care, dun wanna do anything, dun wanna know....

brian dead...

Perhaps I care too much, perhaps I assume I saw a glimpse of my shadow in her, I should have just let it be...

~doink~ too much a busybody when I myself dunno any better...yes, I shall be a stingy nun and zip up from now on...it's my ears that people want afterall, not my mouth or brain...certainly not my opinions....

Anyway...obesity is driving me nuts...I'm still in the process of coughing out another 2000 words...sigh...I seriously cant think of anymore things to write...how....I can't wait for tomorrow, then I can go jogging, go drinking, go shopping!

And I miss playing squash...jes, ray, angie and wanyee...can we have a squash session when I go back? I really miss you girls and surprisingly I miss my 110g racket...alot...

so loved...

Little things that I appreciate in life and that's why I love them so much...

Handsome told his mama that I missed chilly crabs and now I have date with his mom cos Auntie agreed to cook for me! Feel so loved can...Thank you auntie! I'll help you wash plates!

Calvin promised to bring me and princess to eat chilly crab too...yeah yeah...

Sze said we'll have a chilly crab feast! He'll wash and kill the crabs and I'll cook them...

Ck is sending me postcard...i'm still waiting...hehe...

One of the days when I felt depressed and unwanted...I messaged fen...here's how our conversation went...

Me: babe...what are you doing?
Fen: Hey babe, am okie. Besides missing you, as usual.

Me: Eh...by 30 if I not married, will you marry me?
Fen: of cos! But you propose to me with a diamond ring can? I sure say yes one!

Me: Wah biang...diamond ring...eh I also want leh. Why not we each buy a diamond ring and proposed to each other? I want tear-drop shape one hor...
Fen: Ok lah. We plan a romantic trip overseas and propose to each other!

Me: Onz! I wanna go Figi island! We go skydiving then we propose to each other while jumping off the plane! We'll probably pee in our pants but dunnoe know is it cos of the height or cos of marriage...hahahha
Fen: Good idea! Then we can hug together and scream and shit! We are such a perfect match for each other!!

You know, when I asked if she's gonna marry me, I tot her respond would be ' siao!' or she would console me with ' no lar you sure can get married one...'

She had me at 'diamond ring' ....really...it made me smile for the rest of the day...

o and did I mentioned Sze sent me an erotic picture with 'Her strong arms cradled him as he laid back in panicked excitement, helpless in rapture: When a warrior breaks...' postcard...

I was smiling so happily while reading the lovely words that he wrote to me...

Smile went into to hysterical laughters when I read the fine lines at the bottom of the postcard cos it goes ' There's no such thing as weaker sex....visit www.letstalkaboutsex.sg/woman for more information....Health Promotion Board - Project Women against AIDS'
Everything ended with " no offense ya...just found ths picture and description eye catchy..."

Same effect...he made my day with me laughing and swearing...all at the same time

How not to love my friends you tell me?

P/s: Sze....I havent told you this...I have a surprise for you! wait okie...i'll send it to you when i'm done with my essay ~angelic smile~