Yippee....sweet sweet handsome came over my clinic again! Gave me some of his crackers...haha
Last nite we went Marks & Spencer and we each bought different packets of crackers. So i kept bugging him to tell me if his is nice when he goes home to try. You know how i can be forgetful and repeat the same old qn from time to time. Haha...I think i've bugged him enough and he actually gave me some of his in a containter today...hoho...Thanx o!
I sooooo dun wanna play the game later...not that i'm a sore loser...I just dun wanna face those bitches....as bitchy as i am....i can never reach their level of bitchy~ness...maybe in another 20 years time....but then again...i'm sure i'll still be a lovable aunty =p
Monday, April 30, 2007
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
姑姑...爱你...
Tell me...how can i not melt when my baby boy said that to me yesterday morning. No idea where he learnt that from but it's soooo darn sweet!
You know that you've grown up when...
You're the one to bring your mama to see the consultant and do all the talking while she sits on the plinth very compliantly like a little girl. One thing to take note...she didnt interrupt me at all throughout the whole consultantaion which is soooo darn rare....
You're the one paying for lunch after realising your mama seemed to be fetching for her wallet in slooow motion and digging deep deep deep down into her handbag...
You're handling all the necessary paperwork on your own and that your parents still have no idea where exactly you're going for your study...
You're hitting 25 which is suppose to be your peak only to find that you're actually juz 5 years away from the big 30 and that you're frantically in the midst of looking for anti-aging products to prolong the youthful look....
Sigh...What am i rambling about...everytime when i'm stepping into the month of May i'll go into this fuzzy mode...sometimes happy, sometimes sad, sometimes even sian...What is wrong with me man...
Maybe i should start planning what to do for my birthday to keep myself occupied and at least provide myself with something to look forward to...but then again...i'm tired of making calls...making the arrangements...
Just done clearing sis's vomit in her bedroom corridor...massive puke...bro and i gotta clear it up using newspapers... mom dun even dare to go near cos we all know she'll definitely puke if she smell of the vomit...we were practically gliding thru the vomit and the oily floor...
So glad that i've always made it to the toilet bowl before my puke come gushing out...good trainings i've had all these while...hahahaha....
You know that you've grown up when...
You're the one to bring your mama to see the consultant and do all the talking while she sits on the plinth very compliantly like a little girl. One thing to take note...she didnt interrupt me at all throughout the whole consultantaion which is soooo darn rare....
You're the one paying for lunch after realising your mama seemed to be fetching for her wallet in slooow motion and digging deep deep deep down into her handbag...
You're handling all the necessary paperwork on your own and that your parents still have no idea where exactly you're going for your study...
You're hitting 25 which is suppose to be your peak only to find that you're actually juz 5 years away from the big 30 and that you're frantically in the midst of looking for anti-aging products to prolong the youthful look....
Sigh...What am i rambling about...everytime when i'm stepping into the month of May i'll go into this fuzzy mode...sometimes happy, sometimes sad, sometimes even sian...What is wrong with me man...
Maybe i should start planning what to do for my birthday to keep myself occupied and at least provide myself with something to look forward to...but then again...i'm tired of making calls...making the arrangements...
Just done clearing sis's vomit in her bedroom corridor...massive puke...bro and i gotta clear it up using newspapers... mom dun even dare to go near cos we all know she'll definitely puke if she smell of the vomit...we were practically gliding thru the vomit and the oily floor...
So glad that i've always made it to the toilet bowl before my puke come gushing out...good trainings i've had all these while...hahahaha....
Monday, April 23, 2007
start with green...end with purple....
~code green~
Everyone in my house is taking turn to fall sick...first is moi, then papa, then auggy and now bro...
Auggy and bro been puking. The two boys always fall sick together and it's always the baby pass to the dad. That's how potent baby germs are...
Was feeding him milk before he slept, trying to burp him. He coughed and started looking abit weird. Before i could carry him off mama's bed, his veg-mushroom-porriage-dinner came splashing out of his puny mouth and onto moi! Sigh...his puke didnt kena him at all cos it went horizontally out onto my arms and legs. So...i have to hold him an arm length away from his own puke, wait for mama to carry him to toilet to wash off, then sit still and not move an inch from the bed while i wait for some kind soul to get me paper towels to at least wipe off the puke from my arms and legs before i can walk from my parent's room to the toilet.
Tell me, which single and avaliable woman can stand being covered in puke for approx 5 min or more, analyzed the puke contends and wonder what did baby boy have for dinner, while waiting for paper towels to come my way so that i can clean up without giving a word of 'Yucks....' or ' EEEee vomit vomit' ?? Perhaps cos it doesnt smell and i was too engross in looking at what he had puked out...haha
I think working in hospital helps a great deal. I mean it's not as though i've never cleaned up patients' shit or puke before, so what's with baby's puke? Either that or my tolerance for gross stuff is way higher than anyone else...Or best...the combi simply makes me the ultimate gross champion...HA haha hahaha...
On a different note...
Handsome made my day =) Moi love surprises! Big or small i dun care...i juz looove surprises! ~jump jump~
At first when my therapy assistant told me someone was looking for me, i thought which patient wanna see me to have earlier appt for physio...again...haha...
It turned out to be sweet sweet yd, who came looking for me for lunch! Yippee...so happy to see him standing outside my clinic! It's the effort that counts and i appreciate that a hell lot! Seriously, it makes my day so much more bearable =)
Jia you for your french tomolo handsome...though i dunno how to say jia you in french...anyway juz write whatever u can lar...
See ya on Sunday!
Everyone in my house is taking turn to fall sick...first is moi, then papa, then auggy and now bro...
Auggy and bro been puking. The two boys always fall sick together and it's always the baby pass to the dad. That's how potent baby germs are...
Was feeding him milk before he slept, trying to burp him. He coughed and started looking abit weird. Before i could carry him off mama's bed, his veg-mushroom-porriage-dinner came splashing out of his puny mouth and onto moi! Sigh...his puke didnt kena him at all cos it went horizontally out onto my arms and legs. So...i have to hold him an arm length away from his own puke, wait for mama to carry him to toilet to wash off, then sit still and not move an inch from the bed while i wait for some kind soul to get me paper towels to at least wipe off the puke from my arms and legs before i can walk from my parent's room to the toilet.
Tell me, which single and avaliable woman can stand being covered in puke for approx 5 min or more, analyzed the puke contends and wonder what did baby boy have for dinner, while waiting for paper towels to come my way so that i can clean up without giving a word of 'Yucks....' or ' EEEee vomit vomit' ?? Perhaps cos it doesnt smell and i was too engross in looking at what he had puked out...haha
I think working in hospital helps a great deal. I mean it's not as though i've never cleaned up patients' shit or puke before, so what's with baby's puke? Either that or my tolerance for gross stuff is way higher than anyone else...Or best...the combi simply makes me the ultimate gross champion...HA haha hahaha...
On a different note...
Handsome made my day =) Moi love surprises! Big or small i dun care...i juz looove surprises! ~jump jump~
At first when my therapy assistant told me someone was looking for me, i thought which patient wanna see me to have earlier appt for physio...again...haha...
It turned out to be sweet sweet yd, who came looking for me for lunch! Yippee...so happy to see him standing outside my clinic! It's the effort that counts and i appreciate that a hell lot! Seriously, it makes my day so much more bearable =)
Jia you for your french tomolo handsome...though i dunno how to say jia you in french...anyway juz write whatever u can lar...
See ya on Sunday!
Sunday, April 22, 2007
smiling with tears...
Went to Wala with audrey last nite. It's a simple girls' nite out. We eat, we drink, we bitch. Thanx for asking me out and listening to my complaints. If not for u asking, i'll probably be at home nua~ing as usual. Had so much fun grooving to the songs, laughing our hearts out. Appreciate your company woman=)
Bumped into yk. The moment he saw me, we juz burst out laughing. As usual, i'm greeted with a flick and a punch by this big bully of mine. Stupid pig, when will you ever stop abusing me, i'm already left with skin n bones =p
Bumped into L too. He's suppose to be alone but decided to crash with us girls. Hoped he's had his share of fun.
Shirlyn made my day. Sang 'starlight' and 'time is running out' which are currently my favourite songs. Sang ' Locomotion' which reminds me of ck. Sang ' Grace Kelly' which reminds me of yd. Not that i havent seen them for very very long. But somehow i juz miss hanging out with them. I kept telling myself - gee...it'll be good to groove to 'their' songs should they be present.
Auggy is sick. Fever and vomitting. Heartache. I miss the cheeky, bubbly him. ~Speedy recovery baby~
I havent seen him much this week cos from mon to wed i was home late. By the time i'm home, he's asleep. I didnt know i miss him that much. Fact is, i miss him alot...To the extend that i decided to skip a workshop that i'm suppose to attend to go home in the excuse that 'i'm tired'. Actually i juz wanna play with him. Hug him and kiss kiss him.
I did hit him really hard on his palm though, for he threw some stuff out of the window despite me telling him not to. He cried pretty badly at the fourth time i hit his palm and was asking me to 'bao bao...bao bao...' . Okie, i ended up carrying him and soothing him after that. I know i know, i'm going to be a bad mother...o man...
Had the craving for potato chips and i ended up finishing one whole mango on my own at 11.30pm. Healthy snack it is but not so healthy to consume it at such late hour. Me eating mango, me eating it at such hour, me staying home doing nothing but watching tv all day long juz reminded me of someone. Someone whom i was told was rotten and so not worth remembering but i still did. Someone whom i've gotten reminded of suddenly when one of my babes sent me the song that he told me he liked. He had that song in his car on repeat mode back then and it's on repeat mode in my nano now. Now that i recall, no wonder i dreamt of him last nite.
I know i'll be better off without you and so do you. Good luck in whatever you do....
Bumped into yk. The moment he saw me, we juz burst out laughing. As usual, i'm greeted with a flick and a punch by this big bully of mine. Stupid pig, when will you ever stop abusing me, i'm already left with skin n bones =p
Bumped into L too. He's suppose to be alone but decided to crash with us girls. Hoped he's had his share of fun.
Shirlyn made my day. Sang 'starlight' and 'time is running out' which are currently my favourite songs. Sang ' Locomotion' which reminds me of ck. Sang ' Grace Kelly' which reminds me of yd. Not that i havent seen them for very very long. But somehow i juz miss hanging out with them. I kept telling myself - gee...it'll be good to groove to 'their' songs should they be present.
Auggy is sick. Fever and vomitting. Heartache. I miss the cheeky, bubbly him. ~Speedy recovery baby~
I havent seen him much this week cos from mon to wed i was home late. By the time i'm home, he's asleep. I didnt know i miss him that much. Fact is, i miss him alot...To the extend that i decided to skip a workshop that i'm suppose to attend to go home in the excuse that 'i'm tired'. Actually i juz wanna play with him. Hug him and kiss kiss him.
I did hit him really hard on his palm though, for he threw some stuff out of the window despite me telling him not to. He cried pretty badly at the fourth time i hit his palm and was asking me to 'bao bao...bao bao...' . Okie, i ended up carrying him and soothing him after that. I know i know, i'm going to be a bad mother...o man...
Had the craving for potato chips and i ended up finishing one whole mango on my own at 11.30pm. Healthy snack it is but not so healthy to consume it at such late hour. Me eating mango, me eating it at such hour, me staying home doing nothing but watching tv all day long juz reminded me of someone. Someone whom i was told was rotten and so not worth remembering but i still did. Someone whom i've gotten reminded of suddenly when one of my babes sent me the song that he told me he liked. He had that song in his car on repeat mode back then and it's on repeat mode in my nano now. Now that i recall, no wonder i dreamt of him last nite.
I know i'll be better off without you and so do you. Good luck in whatever you do....
Saturday, April 21, 2007
My name
You entered: Yeong Jiahui, Jayna
There are 16 letters in your name.
Those 16 letters total to 76
There are 8 vowels and 8 consonants in your name.
Your number is: 4
The characteristics of #4 are: A foundation, order, service, struggle against limits, steady growth.
The expression or destiny for #4:
Order, service, and management are the cornerstones of the number 4 Expression. Your destiny is to express wonderful organization skills with your ever practical, down-to-earth approach. You are the kind of person who is always willing to work those long, hard hours to push a project through to completion. A patience with detail allows you to become expert in fields such as building, engineering, and all forms of craftsmanship. Your abilities to write and teach may lean toward the more technical and detailed. In the arts, music will likely be your choice. Artistic talents may also appear in such fields as horiculture and floral arrangement, as well. Many skilled physicians and especially surgeons have the 4 Expression.
The positive attitudes of the 4 Expression yield responsibility; you are one who no doubt, fulfills obligations, and is highly systematic and orderly. You are serious and sincere, honest and faithful. It is your role to help and you are required to do a good job at everything you undertake.
If there is too much 4 energies present in your makeup, you may express some of the negative attitudes of the number 4. The obligations that you face may tend to create frustration and feelings of limitation or restriction. You may sometimes find yourself nursing negative attitudes in this regard and these can keep you in a rather low mood. Avoid becoming too rigid, stubborn, dogmatic, and fixed in your opinions. You may have a tendency to develop and hold very strong likes and dislikes, and some of these may border on the classification of prejudice. The negative side of 4 often produces dominant and bossy individuals who use disciplinarian to an excess. These tendencies must be avoided. Finally, like nearly all with 4 Expression, you must keep your eye on the big picture and not get overly wrapped up in detail and routine.
Your Soul Urge number is: 8
A Soul Urge number of 8 means:
With an 8 soul urge, you have a natural flair for big business and the challenges imposed by the commercial world. Power, status and success are very important to you. You have strong urges to supervise, organize and lead. Material desires are also very pronounced. You have good executive abilities, and with these, confidence, energy and ambition.
Your mind is analytical and judgment sound; you're a good judge of material values and also human character. Self-controlled, you rarely let emotions cloud judgment. You are somewhat of an organizer at heart, and you like to keep those beneath you organized and on a proper track. This is a personality that wants to lead, not follow. You want to be known for your planning ability and solid judgment.
The negative aspects of the 8 soul urge are the often dominating and exacting attitude. You may have a tendency to be very rigid, sometimes stubborn.
Your Inner Dream number is: 5
An Inner Dream number of 5 means:
You dream of being totally free and unrestrained by responsibility. You see yourself conversing and mingling with the natives in many nations, living for adventure and life experiences. You imagine what you might accomplished.
Take it here
Friday, April 20, 2007
~PMS~
If i'm a bipolar disorder patient, i think i'm currently in the manic stage now. I want to get myself a pair of gucci shades, get my hair coloured, manicure and pedicure done, buy myself pretty dresses, give my malnurished body some really good food, buy the camera that i need, get the lappy that i gotta have, buy tonnes of shoes that i fancy, purchase all the nice sexy bras and bikinis that i can never get enough of...Get the things i want, buy the things i desire without ANY consideration
Of course, in reality, i still have the ability to delay such gratifications. So...none of those for moi...~ROAR~
I'm currently in this sian mode which i dunno how to describe....
At times all sorts of input from the surrounding and the ppl keeps flowing my way 24/7 non-stop...I juz feel like putting both hands to my ears, close my eyes and shut things out from my system completely.
Was in dilema in the beginning of this week due to new launch of study programme here. Seriously, when i finally set my mind to do something for myself, things like that have to pop up. Then i'll have to take a step back to re-evaluate all that i've planned. You know that kind of feeling?
Will be going for the briefing on Sun. See what's the difference between it being offered here and in melbourne. Why this year? i tot it's gonna start next year or 2009. Perhaps someone up there is telling me that i've made a wrong move - that i should have gone last year? If i were to go for it last year, everything will be so different....
Of course, in reality, i still have the ability to delay such gratifications. So...none of those for moi...~ROAR~
I'm currently in this sian mode which i dunno how to describe....
At times all sorts of input from the surrounding and the ppl keeps flowing my way 24/7 non-stop...I juz feel like putting both hands to my ears, close my eyes and shut things out from my system completely.
Was in dilema in the beginning of this week due to new launch of study programme here. Seriously, when i finally set my mind to do something for myself, things like that have to pop up. Then i'll have to take a step back to re-evaluate all that i've planned. You know that kind of feeling?
Will be going for the briefing on Sun. See what's the difference between it being offered here and in melbourne. Why this year? i tot it's gonna start next year or 2009. Perhaps someone up there is telling me that i've made a wrong move - that i should have gone last year? If i were to go for it last year, everything will be so different....
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
wah sick again...
Went for a jog yesterday evening. It was merely a 4.8km jog. Then came the running nose. So i slept early at around 9 plus (which is so darn rare). Next came the fever. And yes, everytime i am bound to play for the squash match, i'm sick. Two weeks ago was like that and same for today.
Even a patient whom i saw two weeks ago asked me if i'm having sinus or flu again. Man...what's wrong with my system. Just dun understand how come i get flu and fever so often. Sianz
On a happier note, fen babe came down to watch me play my match. Hee, okie lah...i was abit nervous but after awhile i'm fine. As usual, i lost but at least i didnt score nothing this time round. But after the match, i think my fever went up a notch higher.
Babe, thanx for making your way down...appreciate that! In fact no one has done that before....hehe...
I'm glad i didnt type the msg, i'm glad i didnt press send...
gonna go sleep...hope tomolo will feel much much better...
Came across this video ~nice~
Title sorta describes how i felt on saturday nite =)
I’ve been twisting and turning,
In a space that’s too small.
I’ve been drawing the line and watching it fall,
You’ve been closing me in, closing the space in my heart.
Watching us fading and watching it all fall apart.
Even a patient whom i saw two weeks ago asked me if i'm having sinus or flu again. Man...what's wrong with my system. Just dun understand how come i get flu and fever so often. Sianz
On a happier note, fen babe came down to watch me play my match. Hee, okie lah...i was abit nervous but after awhile i'm fine. As usual, i lost but at least i didnt score nothing this time round. But after the match, i think my fever went up a notch higher.
Babe, thanx for making your way down...appreciate that! In fact no one has done that before....hehe...
I'm glad i didnt type the msg, i'm glad i didnt press send...
gonna go sleep...hope tomolo will feel much much better...
Came across this video ~nice~
Title sorta describes how i felt on saturday nite =)
I’ve been twisting and turning,
In a space that’s too small.
I’ve been drawing the line and watching it fall,
You’ve been closing me in, closing the space in my heart.
Watching us fading and watching it all fall apart.
Chorus
Well I can’t explain why it’s not enough, Cause I gave it all to you.
And if you leave me now, oh just leave me now.
It’s the better thing to do,
It’s time to surrender,
It’s been to long pretending.
Theres no use in trying,
When the pieces don’t fit anymore, Pieces don’t fit here anymore.
You pulled me under,
If I had to give in.
Such a beautiful myth,
That’s breaking my skin.
Well I’ll hide all the bruises,
I’ll hide all the damage that’s done.
But I show how I’m feeling until all the feeling has gone.
(Chorus)
Ooh don’t missunderstand,
How I feel.
Cause I’ve tried, yes I’ve tried.
But still I don’t know why, no I don’t know why.
III dont know why…… whyyyyyyyy!
(Chorus)
Sunday, April 15, 2007
should have just...
gone home and not make the effort. I thought my presence will be appreciated and perhaps friendship will be very much the same as before.
So wrong...
Awkwardness lingered in the air and I knew at that point of time - it'll never be the same again. In the first place, it was my choice to terminate the friendship. So why did i even expect it to be the same again when it was refound...
selfish of me to think that way eh...
i'll just keep my distance from now...i think it's better that way...
So wrong...
Awkwardness lingered in the air and I knew at that point of time - it'll never be the same again. In the first place, it was my choice to terminate the friendship. So why did i even expect it to be the same again when it was refound...
selfish of me to think that way eh...
i'll just keep my distance from now...i think it's better that way...
Saturday, April 14, 2007
The ninniy nanny
This is what happened when u're single, have no plan for the weekends and that ur bitches are having exams...
Man...i so wanna go sun tanning but the thought of going alone will only mean i'll end up nua~ing at home...
gotten woken up by auggy knocking on my door, calling me AGAIN...this time round it's the biggest boy who asked him to do that - my dad...why is it that they always like to disturb moi and moi beauty sleep! Darn...
Got nothing to do so ended up taking photos and video while being the nanny...
Man...i so wanna go sun tanning but the thought of going alone will only mean i'll end up nua~ing at home...
gotten woken up by auggy knocking on my door, calling me AGAIN...this time round it's the biggest boy who asked him to do that - my dad...why is it that they always like to disturb moi and moi beauty sleep! Darn...
Got nothing to do so ended up taking photos and video while being the nanny...
Thursday, April 12, 2007
Contented....
yeah...mission no. 2 accomplished! Met up with NUS biatch for dinner at vivo. Had japanese food for dinner...yummy yum yum...so worth the money and the food is good! Let's do that again after exams k...
Thanx for listening to my nonsense and my updates...i miss hanging out with you for dinner like today...hang in there k...with ur proj done soon soon and ur exams...you'll be able to join me at the beach for tanning session in no time...
To all my bitches having exams...last lap to run...hang in there! Sorry arh no cookies this year cos i no time to bake any =p
okie me tired liao...need to sleep...~~
Thanx for listening to my nonsense and my updates...i miss hanging out with you for dinner like today...hang in there k...with ur proj done soon soon and ur exams...you'll be able to join me at the beach for tanning session in no time...
To all my bitches having exams...last lap to run...hang in there! Sorry arh no cookies this year cos i no time to bake any =p
okie me tired liao...need to sleep...~~
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Yippee...
Mission no. 1 - Da bao 3 combo meals from Long John Silver; one turkey breast chicken and a cold cut trio sandwich from subway
Not that my bitches consist of 4 of them. In fact, i was juz da bao~ing for yd and sze, additional ones are for yd's neighbours...see i very nice hor =p
Eh dunno why but i love to da bao food to yd's hostel and makan with him. Not that i've done that often but juz like the idea of sitting on the floor to eat with him n sze, listen to music, nua and chit chat.
Went for a walk and we ended up at the Art building in NTU. Nice place to hang out. We juz sat there and talk. About career, about future, about adulthood, about life...Under the sky, under the planes, under the stars...with one or two bats flying around occassionally and with yd's humming in hope of shooing them off...haha...
Had yummy waffles with ice cream before we decided to head home...
Thanx for tonite algea man and papa ng...
Mission no. 1 accomplished...next up...mission no. 2 with my NUS biatch...
Stay tune...
Not that my bitches consist of 4 of them. In fact, i was juz da bao~ing for yd and sze, additional ones are for yd's neighbours...see i very nice hor =p
Eh dunno why but i love to da bao food to yd's hostel and makan with him. Not that i've done that often but juz like the idea of sitting on the floor to eat with him n sze, listen to music, nua and chit chat.
Went for a walk and we ended up at the Art building in NTU. Nice place to hang out. We juz sat there and talk. About career, about future, about adulthood, about life...Under the sky, under the planes, under the stars...with one or two bats flying around occassionally and with yd's humming in hope of shooing them off...haha...
Had yummy waffles with ice cream before we decided to head home...
Thanx for tonite algea man and papa ng...
Mission no. 1 accomplished...next up...mission no. 2 with my NUS biatch...
Stay tune...
Monday, April 09, 2007
New found jealousy
Residual happiness is still in my blood. I cant stop smiling even till now...So darn happy can!
Saturday was such an eventful day despite me waking up at 7 am; travelling down to ICA building; standing around for 1.5 hours to collect my passport; rushing down to cineleisure to catch 'Conversation with other woman' at 11.30am; purchasing nice nice bra at CK tang and nua~ing at starbucks for my much needed coffee and lunch.
Spent a good half of the day with myself, on my own. Great to do my own stuff at my own pace! No one to rush me, no one to say 'no' to the things i do.
Met up with Yk in the evening. Made me such a happy woman for the rest of the day! Gotten my early birthday gift from him - Shirlyn's CD! To top it off, he took me to her CD launching event at the outdoor esplanade! It was such a great performance! I just couldn't stop beaming throughout the whole event! Not that i've not seen Shirlyn performed before. It been near half a year since i last went to Wala to chill out. I missed her voice and the UnXpected's performance so much! The only thing that was lacking during the performance was a nice cold cold beer in my hand! haha
O and i bumped into a fren who loves Shirlyn juz as much as i do...so happy to see him despite him not able to recognise me and walked past me like i'm a total stranger -_- I didnt know my hair style makes me look so different...nice to be able to watch the performance 'with' him after a good half year of no contact
O i went to get autograph from Shirlyn at the end of the performance! haha...like wat i did 3 years back! Man...i'm like a little fan..being excited and happy to get her to sign the CD for me...so darn silly...haha...
HAPPY!!!! Thank you oki buta! I know i dun see much of you but whenever i do, it's always filled with laughters and happiness and occassional brusies...haha...
Saturday was such an eventful day despite me waking up at 7 am; travelling down to ICA building; standing around for 1.5 hours to collect my passport; rushing down to cineleisure to catch 'Conversation with other woman' at 11.30am; purchasing nice nice bra at CK tang and nua~ing at starbucks for my much needed coffee and lunch.
Spent a good half of the day with myself, on my own. Great to do my own stuff at my own pace! No one to rush me, no one to say 'no' to the things i do.
Met up with Yk in the evening. Made me such a happy woman for the rest of the day! Gotten my early birthday gift from him - Shirlyn's CD! To top it off, he took me to her CD launching event at the outdoor esplanade! It was such a great performance! I just couldn't stop beaming throughout the whole event! Not that i've not seen Shirlyn performed before. It been near half a year since i last went to Wala to chill out. I missed her voice and the UnXpected's performance so much! The only thing that was lacking during the performance was a nice cold cold beer in my hand! haha
O and i bumped into a fren who loves Shirlyn juz as much as i do...so happy to see him despite him not able to recognise me and walked past me like i'm a total stranger -_- I didnt know my hair style makes me look so different...nice to be able to watch the performance 'with' him after a good half year of no contact
O i went to get autograph from Shirlyn at the end of the performance! haha...like wat i did 3 years back! Man...i'm like a little fan..being excited and happy to get her to sign the CD for me...so darn silly...haha...
HAPPY!!!! Thank you oki buta! I know i dun see much of you but whenever i do, it's always filled with laughters and happiness and occassional brusies...haha...
Friday, April 06, 2007
abcdefg@!#@%$%...stupid bro...
Yeah! It's Good Friday! Which means it's a public holiday! Which means no work! Which means i get to sleep in!
BUT NO!!!
Stupid bro kept asking auggy to shout for me at my door. Big kid went ' Quick quick, shout Gu Gu to wake her up!' and little one will juz go ' GUuu GUuu! GUuu GUuu! GUuuu GUuuu!' First time at around 9 am, second time at 10. Thought i was smart with the locking of my door but these two boys still have the ability to bug me and wake me up! !@#@$# Darn sleepy can...
I did ignore the two buggers and went back to sleep. It was not until auggy kept crying cos he couldnt bear to be separated from his mama who was heading off for church service. Stupid bro juz let him stand at the gate and cry to his mama who was by the door. I simply cannot stand baby boy crying non stop and worst when it was loud enough to wake me up.
If u havent seen me in my morning wake up mode, i look like a mess. Messy hair, gooey half opened eyes. I simply look like siao char bo. But i cant be bothered. Hey, i got woken up, plus i'm at home. So who cares...
And so, i got out of my room, picked auggy up and put him on my shoulder, with my half closed eyes throughout. Surprisingly he stopped crying, gave a flying kiss to his mama and juz propped his sweaty head over my shoulder. Carried him, pat him on his back. Hummed songs - from london bridge is falling down, to twinkle twinkle little stars, to 'ke ren lai', to humpty dumpty, to 'i'm a little teapot'. Eventually he fell asleep on my shoulder after a good 30-45 min of carrying...
By the time i put baby boy down on the mattress to sleep, bro claimed that he's tired and started snoring-_- Excuse moi, i should be the one feeling tired leh...i ended up with slight back ache and not able to get back to sleep cos i'm wide awake ALREADY!
who is the father huh huh huh...
!@#$#@ stupid bro....
BUT NO!!!
Stupid bro kept asking auggy to shout for me at my door. Big kid went ' Quick quick, shout Gu Gu to wake her up!' and little one will juz go ' GUuu GUuu! GUuu GUuu! GUuuu GUuuu!' First time at around 9 am, second time at 10. Thought i was smart with the locking of my door but these two boys still have the ability to bug me and wake me up! !@#@$# Darn sleepy can...
I did ignore the two buggers and went back to sleep. It was not until auggy kept crying cos he couldnt bear to be separated from his mama who was heading off for church service. Stupid bro juz let him stand at the gate and cry to his mama who was by the door. I simply cannot stand baby boy crying non stop and worst when it was loud enough to wake me up.
If u havent seen me in my morning wake up mode, i look like a mess. Messy hair, gooey half opened eyes. I simply look like siao char bo. But i cant be bothered. Hey, i got woken up, plus i'm at home. So who cares...
And so, i got out of my room, picked auggy up and put him on my shoulder, with my half closed eyes throughout. Surprisingly he stopped crying, gave a flying kiss to his mama and juz propped his sweaty head over my shoulder. Carried him, pat him on his back. Hummed songs - from london bridge is falling down, to twinkle twinkle little stars, to 'ke ren lai', to humpty dumpty, to 'i'm a little teapot'. Eventually he fell asleep on my shoulder after a good 30-45 min of carrying...
By the time i put baby boy down on the mattress to sleep, bro claimed that he's tired and started snoring-_- Excuse moi, i should be the one feeling tired leh...i ended up with slight back ache and not able to get back to sleep cos i'm wide awake ALREADY!
who is the father huh huh huh...
!@#$#@ stupid bro....
Saturday, March 31, 2007
He looked super funny and cute in this pic.
One of the outing he had with bro and sis-in-law
Think they took him to boat quay area
It started with him retrieving the camera attempting to take photos on his own.
Now baby boy has master the art of posing for shots...hoho...fun fun...
See he can pose...
Picture taken on new year day 1.
We were in the train on our way to lao chek's house.
Mom bought baby boy the cheena golden new year clothes...he looked pretty cool in that...haha
First day of school...
He looked pretty studious in his oversized uniform...
Mama said that auggy can finally take school bus home without her being in the bus with him. So proud of him...hehe...
Yar abit bo liao to put auggy's poo here but sometimes i juz dun get it...
How can such a small body system produce such amount of poo that sometime is more than what i can generate...
Wonders of human body...haha
Gonna smooch you!
Friday, March 30, 2007
bloody farny....
stupid things happened yesterday...
1. Scalded my left hand while getting water for myself. It was normal routine BUT i have no idea which nerve of mine went short circuit and it shook while i was walking out of the pantry. 100 degree celsius water went pouring over my thumb and it turned lobster red in like secs. My reflex was certainly not working. Normal human being will drop whatever they are holding and retrieve their scalded hand. Me? I held it even tighter and walked back to the pantry so that i can put the cup on the table. #%#$% it was darn painful...
2. Did something on impulse yesterday while out with my squashies. Am very happy with it now. Beaming beaming. We were walking down a flight of stairs when we heard something dropped. Sounded like some metal stuff or coins. Ray said ' Someone dropped a screw? must be yours...' I thought she directed it to me and didnt know she actually meant it sacarstically for jessie. I actually checked my newly done accessory and said ' no leh' aloud. They burst out laughing like siao all the way man...damn...
Will be collecting my passport tomolo. Finally gotten it done. Am still settling the loan, just deciding how much to loan and how long to return it.
Yippee...love the purple gem...hehe...soup spoon tonite!
1. Scalded my left hand while getting water for myself. It was normal routine BUT i have no idea which nerve of mine went short circuit and it shook while i was walking out of the pantry. 100 degree celsius water went pouring over my thumb and it turned lobster red in like secs. My reflex was certainly not working. Normal human being will drop whatever they are holding and retrieve their scalded hand. Me? I held it even tighter and walked back to the pantry so that i can put the cup on the table. #%#$% it was darn painful...
2. Did something on impulse yesterday while out with my squashies. Am very happy with it now. Beaming beaming. We were walking down a flight of stairs when we heard something dropped. Sounded like some metal stuff or coins. Ray said ' Someone dropped a screw? must be yours...' I thought she directed it to me and didnt know she actually meant it sacarstically for jessie. I actually checked my newly done accessory and said ' no leh' aloud. They burst out laughing like siao all the way man...damn...
Will be collecting my passport tomolo. Finally gotten it done. Am still settling the loan, just deciding how much to loan and how long to return it.
Yippee...love the purple gem...hehe...soup spoon tonite!
Thursday, March 29, 2007
love love...
FINALLY I heard him call me 'gu gu' way before i entered the room!!! But cheeky him resumed calling me 'goon goon' the moment he saw me. Perhaps that's the way he shows his closeness to me. I like it when he calls me 'goon goon', like a little nick specially for me. Haha..
I love it when he gives me little peck on the cheek when i ask him to 'kiss kiss' me...
I love it when he rests his head over my shoulder and pats me with his tiny little arm, as if telling me - everything is going to be alright and that he loves me no matter how...
I love it when he comes into my room and give that cheeky chuckles juz becos he managed to open my door...
I love it when he placed the earphones to his ears and listen to the songs from my nano. He'll give the sweetest smile and do a little dance to whatever songs he hears...
I love it when he was able to open my phone and attempt to take pic himself...
I love it when he sat on my lap, lying against me and stone throughout the bus ride cos he was tired...
I love it when he goes crazy and start to pinch me, pull my hair or my specs, scream ever so loudly and then laugh like crazy together with me...
I think i'm gonna miss him terribly when i go away...o man...
I love it when he gives me little peck on the cheek when i ask him to 'kiss kiss' me...
I love it when he rests his head over my shoulder and pats me with his tiny little arm, as if telling me - everything is going to be alright and that he loves me no matter how...
I love it when he comes into my room and give that cheeky chuckles juz becos he managed to open my door...
I love it when he placed the earphones to his ears and listen to the songs from my nano. He'll give the sweetest smile and do a little dance to whatever songs he hears...
I love it when he was able to open my phone and attempt to take pic himself...
I love it when he sat on my lap, lying against me and stone throughout the bus ride cos he was tired...
I love it when he goes crazy and start to pinch me, pull my hair or my specs, scream ever so loudly and then laugh like crazy together with me...
I think i'm gonna miss him terribly when i go away...o man...
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
WTF....
In freaking pissed off mode today.
Had news that a patient passed away. HUH?! He was fine 3 weeks ago when we last saw him. He was suppose to follow up with doc today. Gone?! We were giving his caregiver some carer training the other day. Gone?! I still rem him telling us his daily routine and like a child, he needed some attention and tender-loving-care. Sigh, he's quite a cute old man you know...
Had to restart my computer 3 times today. 3 freaking times. It hung 3 times today!
Just knew that someone went to schedule a programme on Sunday in May. Hello...Who is going to work on Sunday? I'm not going to be paid for working on Sunday. It's suppose to be my freaking personal time on Sunday.
Frustration building up. I need to rant it out.
I have decieded not to entertain anymore nonsense. There wasnt any respect given to me at all. From then till now. Nothing change. Yes, i'm the idiot and now i'm pissed off for letting myself be one. Again.
Had news that a patient passed away. HUH?! He was fine 3 weeks ago when we last saw him. He was suppose to follow up with doc today. Gone?! We were giving his caregiver some carer training the other day. Gone?! I still rem him telling us his daily routine and like a child, he needed some attention and tender-loving-care. Sigh, he's quite a cute old man you know...
Had to restart my computer 3 times today. 3 freaking times. It hung 3 times today!
Just knew that someone went to schedule a programme on Sunday in May. Hello...Who is going to work on Sunday? I'm not going to be paid for working on Sunday. It's suppose to be my freaking personal time on Sunday.
Frustration building up. I need to rant it out.
I have decieded not to entertain anymore nonsense. There wasnt any respect given to me at all. From then till now. Nothing change. Yes, i'm the idiot and now i'm pissed off for letting myself be one. Again.
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
purple...
Was feeling so sick yesterday. Stucked at home the whole day due to headache and nuasea. Wonder if the antibiotics are doing me more harm than good. Till yesterday, i was still spitting green and gooey phlegm, how gross is that.
There are alot of 'whys' that i have not been asking myself. Even if i do have many questions regarding myself, regarding what have been happening to me and around me, they are all so different from the ones that gage asked me to ponder upon. I realise i havent been really putting much thoughts into these questions. I'm merely juz asking the questions. Have i been truthful to myself, not so. I always try to avoid stuffs cos i know the truths will always sting my heart alittle here and there which will eventually amount to a huge snowball...
I'm still seeking for the answers... i hope i wont take as long as you did...i really dun wanna take that long...really appreciate you talking to me that nite...
thanx for telling me that i'm a wonderful person...
thanx for telling me that i deserve more...
thanx for telling me not to be too hard on myself...
thanx gagey...
There are alot of 'whys' that i have not been asking myself. Even if i do have many questions regarding myself, regarding what have been happening to me and around me, they are all so different from the ones that gage asked me to ponder upon. I realise i havent been really putting much thoughts into these questions. I'm merely juz asking the questions. Have i been truthful to myself, not so. I always try to avoid stuffs cos i know the truths will always sting my heart alittle here and there which will eventually amount to a huge snowball...
I'm still seeking for the answers... i hope i wont take as long as you did...i really dun wanna take that long...really appreciate you talking to me that nite...
thanx for telling me that i'm a wonderful person...
thanx for telling me that i deserve more...
thanx for telling me not to be too hard on myself...
thanx gagey...
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
still running...non stop...
my nose...maybe if it run fast enough, i'll have an excuse to go for nose job to get rid of that meaty lump! ha...
current appearance: comforty home clothes; with a tissue paper securely tug in my left nostril ~damn i'm so screwed, been a week and i'm still sick. Today being the worst, with me in boy-reach-puberty-breaking-voice; watery eyes and ever non-stop cough. And did i mention my phlegm is so green and gooey that i think it can be used as glue if really needed ~yucks~
Went back to AH yesterday to pass some stuffs and to update big boss about upcoming issues regarding JMC. Met up with my beloved TA and we hugged. Yes, it felt so good to hug her again! She commented that i'm more 'chan teh' ('pretty' in malay) and even look like ang mo with this new rebonded hairstyle 0_o Or maybe i look more SPG like what yd's sis said when she first saw me with flat hair.
Except for me falling sick, emotionally i'm more or less stable at the moment. Perhaps it's the outburst, perhaps it's my period. O well, at least i'm stable and not crying anymore. I'm dehydrated with my running nose and the constant peeing, am so done with crying. Thank you all for being so patient with me =)
To the person who is having holiday in bkk now. Have fun for your trip. I know this come way too late and that you probably dun wanna talk to me again. Still, i need to get this out of my system. I'm sorry for pulling the brake. I thought i was fine and well; in total control of myself and that i can deal with everything perfectly. Am so wrong. I need to get myself fixed on my own. I dun wan to drag anyone with me becos of my fluctuating emotions and thoughts. I guess all these words don't matter anymore. But i am still glad that i get the chance to know you.
Been having silly thoughts...
1. Of me being part of the population that is bound to have no offspring so as to ensure no jayna-like spieces will be running around. In another words, may not get married and even if i do i may be too old to have any kids by then. Judging from my absurd behaviour from the previous r/s and my inability to sustain a long term relationship, this may be highly possible somehow...
2. Shirlyn + my clique + stage + wala = my birthday song...dun ask me why i have this thought. It just suddenly pop out. Perhaps i wanna see how well my clique can sing other than draw? haha
3. Me working in aussie with autistic kids even after i graduate. That will be so cool!!! But first let me get used to their accent. I dun wanna 'beg ur pardon' all the time when talking to them.
4. Bring auggy out on my own one of these days, such as toyr' us or macdonald. I think abit tough, considering how much he can wriggle if he doesnt wanna be carried and the speed he runs lately, o man i probably need to train up first. Maybe to the Macdonald will have higher possibility cos it involves food. O did i mention that little boy know how to give those 'muack' kiss rather than the big-mouth-open-with-lotsa-saliver type of ' wet wet' kiss? really sweet of him to peck me on my cheek in the morning when i asked him to 'kiss kiss' before i head to work...hehe good way to start a day!
Okie no energy to type anymore. Gonna sleep so that my nose wont run too far away as i'm desperately saving up for studies and have no additional money for any nose job to be done.
~nitenite~
current appearance: comforty home clothes; with a tissue paper securely tug in my left nostril ~damn i'm so screwed, been a week and i'm still sick. Today being the worst, with me in boy-reach-puberty-breaking-voice; watery eyes and ever non-stop cough. And did i mention my phlegm is so green and gooey that i think it can be used as glue if really needed ~yucks~
Went back to AH yesterday to pass some stuffs and to update big boss about upcoming issues regarding JMC. Met up with my beloved TA and we hugged. Yes, it felt so good to hug her again! She commented that i'm more 'chan teh' ('pretty' in malay) and even look like ang mo with this new rebonded hairstyle 0_o Or maybe i look more SPG like what yd's sis said when she first saw me with flat hair.
Except for me falling sick, emotionally i'm more or less stable at the moment. Perhaps it's the outburst, perhaps it's my period. O well, at least i'm stable and not crying anymore. I'm dehydrated with my running nose and the constant peeing, am so done with crying. Thank you all for being so patient with me =)
To the person who is having holiday in bkk now. Have fun for your trip. I know this come way too late and that you probably dun wanna talk to me again. Still, i need to get this out of my system. I'm sorry for pulling the brake. I thought i was fine and well; in total control of myself and that i can deal with everything perfectly. Am so wrong. I need to get myself fixed on my own. I dun wan to drag anyone with me becos of my fluctuating emotions and thoughts. I guess all these words don't matter anymore. But i am still glad that i get the chance to know you.
Been having silly thoughts...
1. Of me being part of the population that is bound to have no offspring so as to ensure no jayna-like spieces will be running around. In another words, may not get married and even if i do i may be too old to have any kids by then. Judging from my absurd behaviour from the previous r/s and my inability to sustain a long term relationship, this may be highly possible somehow...
2. Shirlyn + my clique + stage + wala = my birthday song...dun ask me why i have this thought. It just suddenly pop out. Perhaps i wanna see how well my clique can sing other than draw? haha
3. Me working in aussie with autistic kids even after i graduate. That will be so cool!!! But first let me get used to their accent. I dun wanna 'beg ur pardon' all the time when talking to them.
4. Bring auggy out on my own one of these days, such as toyr' us or macdonald. I think abit tough, considering how much he can wriggle if he doesnt wanna be carried and the speed he runs lately, o man i probably need to train up first. Maybe to the Macdonald will have higher possibility cos it involves food. O did i mention that little boy know how to give those 'muack' kiss rather than the big-mouth-open-with-lotsa-saliver type of ' wet wet' kiss? really sweet of him to peck me on my cheek in the morning when i asked him to 'kiss kiss' before i head to work...hehe good way to start a day!
Okie no energy to type anymore. Gonna sleep so that my nose wont run too far away as i'm desperately saving up for studies and have no additional money for any nose job to be done.
~nitenite~
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Simple lyrics but it reflect so much on my current mode...thanx gage
Te Busque
by nelly furtado
I've been high I've been low
I've been fast I've been slow
I've had nowhere to go
Missed the bus missed the show
I've been down on my luck
I've felt like giving up
My life locked in a trunk
When it hurt way too much
I needed a reason to live
Some love inside me to give
I couldn't rest I had to keep on searching
Te busque de bajo de las piedras y no te-encontre
En la manana fria y en la noche te-busque
Hasta enloquecer
Pero tu llegaste a mi vida como una luz
Sanando las heridas de mi corazon
Haciendo me-sentir vivo otra vez
I've been too sad to speak and too tired to eat
Been too lonely to sing the devil cut off my wings
I've been hurt by my past but I feel the future
In my dreams and it lasts I wake up I'm not sure
I wanted to find the light something just didn't feel right
I needed an answer to end all my searching
I look in the mirror the picture's getting clearer
I wanna be myself but does the world really need her
I ache for this earth
I stopped going to church
See God in the trees makes me fall to my knees
My depression keeps building like a cup overfilling
My heart so rigid I keep it in the fridge
It hurts so bad that I can't dry my eyes
Cuz they keep on refillin' with the tears that I cry...
Te Busque
by nelly furtado
I've been high I've been low
I've been fast I've been slow
I've had nowhere to go
Missed the bus missed the show
I've been down on my luck
I've felt like giving up
My life locked in a trunk
When it hurt way too much
I needed a reason to live
Some love inside me to give
I couldn't rest I had to keep on searching
Te busque de bajo de las piedras y no te-encontre
En la manana fria y en la noche te-busque
Hasta enloquecer
Pero tu llegaste a mi vida como una luz
Sanando las heridas de mi corazon
Haciendo me-sentir vivo otra vez
I've been too sad to speak and too tired to eat
Been too lonely to sing the devil cut off my wings
I've been hurt by my past but I feel the future
In my dreams and it lasts I wake up I'm not sure
I wanted to find the light something just didn't feel right
I needed an answer to end all my searching
I look in the mirror the picture's getting clearer
I wanna be myself but does the world really need her
I ache for this earth
I stopped going to church
See God in the trees makes me fall to my knees
My depression keeps building like a cup overfilling
My heart so rigid I keep it in the fridge
It hurts so bad that I can't dry my eyes
Cuz they keep on refillin' with the tears that I cry...
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