I wonder...

If you've sensed my agitation whenever you asked me if bro is online the moment I set foot in the house...

for god sake, I haven't even switched on my lappy to access the internet yet...

If you've sensed my frustrations when I tried to tell you something about me and you ended up interrupting me with your complaints...complaints about the past few months, complaints that revolve around you, complaints about dad...

did you realise I end up keeping my mouth shut, let you talk and not finishing whatever I wanna say cos I just feel that everything become pointless now...

Maybe I'm pms~ing...maybe i'm just being short fused...

Sometimes I wonder, if I am the one who gave birth and relocated to another country, would my parents do the same for me...

I know the answer somehow...

In the first place I dun think I'll want to rely on my parents knowing how tough and stress it'll be on them...but then again...who am I to make such statement right...

Home Sweet Home...

I survived the LA trip!

Flight to LA was horrendous...colleague and I were alittle sick, hence the flight to Narita was not as enjoyable...the wait at Narita was worse! Remaining 11 hours flight to LA was tiring and alittle unbearable...

Reaching LA was a relieve...it was refreshing and reminds me so much of Melbourne....

The overall stay at Hilton was alright...not fantastic but the bed was good enough for me to wanna just stay in the hotel and not go out...

Seriously, Long Beach has nothing much for us to explore...we did little walking about in the area...pretty quiet and decent place...ppl are generally nice and friendly..

Two days of courses were great...we got lost on the way to the medical centre...thinking we could walk there...only to find out we forgot the differences btw miles and kilometres...we walked for like 5 km before giving up and tried taking a bus...was alittle late...but didnt miss out as much...really informative...learnt alot...and the speaker was so nice! He ended up chauffeuring us to and fro the medical centre for the next day...

Had alittle adventure on our own...due to the lack of transport and the build up frustration of our urge to shop...we decided to rent a car and drive to factory outlet on our own! As yours truly has no license...I can only rely on my colleague to drive us there....It was fun...and wasnt that difficult with the help of the GPS...I must say...my colleague was really brave...to try right-hand driving for the first time!

Anyhow, factory outlet did us harm! Burnt a huge hole in the pocket...still...it was fun...hehe...and before we know it...it's time to come back home...

Now is 3am...I used to say I dun think I will experience jetlag...but I guess not...I cant sleep!!! Luckily I only start work in the noon tomorrow...hungry...gonna grab some food!

Updates

Here I am, at Narita Airpot transiting to go LA!

Good thing about it, I get to fly and travel alittle...bad thing about it, I am alittle sick and extremetly tired from the flight and the long hours of waiting time to transit...6.50am to 5pm...If not for the free internet access, I would have gone mad...

I realise I am quite a pig...I can sleep anywhere and everywhere...waiting area chair I could also doze off and even have dreams...haha...

Heading to LA for a course...a 2.5 days course...cost me 4 days of travelling time...tonnes of rearrangement on my schedule...ask me if I am excited...I think I am more tired than anything else...nonetheless, the notion of being able to get out singapore still excites me alittle =p

I cant wait for the bali trip this coming Sat...it has been awhile since we all go on a trip together! The last one was Redang? or was it Koh Samui...ages ages ago....

So...what have I been up to this past month or so? I have been busy with work...been busy trying to upkeep my house since my parents were away from June till two days ago...mommy had great complaints of how I keep the house clean during their trip to HongKong...it is tiring to have to constantly think of when to sweep, mop, wash clothes etc...

And if you were guessing the reason I mia~ed for so long is because I have got into a relationship...

Bingo! hehe...kinda unexpected....anytime sooner or later...things would have been totally different...

It's funny...we went through a full circle and came back to meet one another...10 years...has it been that long? I found the photo we took during JC, we both looked hilariously toot...well..at least we look much better now ;p

You've matured over these years, I've been through lowest point of my life...right now, I am just thankful to have you by my side...

Actually last night, I was really happy...I'm surrounded by ppl who love me so much! Gage - who drove down after being a day of storeman, Sze - who came after losing a pack of blood, CK -who came with messy hair after his body pump, James - who came down despite his hectic work load and my crazy boyfriend - who went to and fro airport in the time span of a few hours...

okie...I cannot take it...need to go toilet brush teeth and wash up...perhaps I'll contiue later...

Genuinely happy...

Things were so random lately...

My kid whom I have been working with, did the funniest thing ever. He was climbing through the obstacle course while I was behind him stretching to hang something up high. Suddnely he came down and ran towards me and poked my tummy as if tickling me...not sure is it my flabby tummy that attracted this attention, or he is slowly warming up to me...haha...

Farewell dinner for Sherbs was Muthu's Curry at Little India...Was suppose to go home after but fren of mine from aussie msged and said he's back in town! Been exactly one year since I last saw him! Totally excited that we finally get to meet up! It was great to chat and even mingle with his sibs...

Didn't sleep much on Sat night and woke up early on Sun to send Sherbs off...

It was an entourage of kids in sending her off! After sending her off it's a round of chasing after kids, talking to bosses and colleagues, eating and taking care of the the kiddos...

It was so tiring running after the kids but I had a really really fun time talking to them and hearing their remarks to everything they see...so innocently cute!

When was the last time I laugh from my heart...hmm....

I am so blessed...

to have friend who will still drive me home despite him being tired...on the many many many occasions...

to have friend's mom who will buy cooling tea for me so that I can get my voice back...

to have friend who will think of me when he has a complimentary pass for his gym so that I can get the work out that I very much need...

to have boss who is willing to boil another type of cooling tea for me...

to have someone who is willing to spend the whole of Monday, dropping by just so to keep me company while I nurse myself back to recovery...plus the ice cream, cooling tea and cake...

it's nice to just sit in front of the tv, laugh at those sitcoms and eat the tub of ice cream...

FYI

In case you were worried that the pop-out that is asking for pin to view my posts...well it's not...you can still view my post even if you press 'cancel' button...

the pop-out is for my twitter msges that i've locked up under my account...so for ppl like fen, you can request and wait for my approval to follow the twits...then u'll know more of the latest updates...sensical, nonsensical updates included...and of cos...more vulgarities involved...haha...

miss you babe...wish you were here to crash my place and stay with me over the weekends...miss our prata time tooo...love love...

Away Day 5-7 July 2009

Some pictures on our 'Away Day'
















Second day, on tram. We were on our way to Palawan Beach. Peeps were on their way to get tortured by me. I, the game master, gotten ordered around and bullied, induced quite a number of injuries...haha...but overall it was fun...or at least I hope!















Trying to act funny while carrying those heavy water bombs...that's JR, Sheralyn and I!
















Our team of fun loving peeps!

















Another shot...minus the man behind...haha..

















My beloved old housemate-now-colleague, Alison...second night was the most hilarious, fun time spent. We had company's dinner then KTV at St James. It was marked with lots of trashy-fun-sing-along songs and lotsa alcohol! O plus not to mention, funny drunkard moments...which I wasn't involved...haha how rare right...

Anyway, it was really a fun and memorable night!




















Me and my unglam face...I was slightly tipsy high then I think...



















This was me singing...didnt even know ally took this pic...haha...

sick and alone...

Fever, cough, running nose...welcome to the sick zone baby!!!

I'm not only the green snog machine but also the master of the mime...

It's quite funny when yd hit me on my arm and I literally screamed to complain to his mom "Auntie!! Yidong beat me!!" BUT nothing came out...only my facial expressions...it's sooooooo funny can....I can play charades very well now...ha!

Very sweet of yd to drive me home after dinner, very sweet of auntie to buy me the liang cha...now I have two pseudo moms! hehe....thank you so much!

Disclaimer...

I'm overloaded with junk food. Feel fat and lack of exercise. Because of the junks I ate, the late nights I had for rushing reports, my throat is now protesting and my nose is starting to leak...

Cooked mushroom soup and eating salad now...I hope these are healthy enough...

being sick sux...

being sick and alone sux even MORE!!!

AGRH!!!

overload...with junks

Kill me plsssssss....argh!!!!!!!

cooking day!

Edible cooked food vs yucky cooked food - 1:1

My attempt for fried rice went well! Yippe! Fried rice trump macaroni soup. Slight boo boo though when I tripped on the stairs and broke the glass bottled of sweet soya sauce. I should count my lucky stars that I didn't cut myself. Time to buy new slippers...the front of the slippers probably is slightly too big and making me fall...not the first time...bruises on my arms can account for it...sigh...Anyway, I think I cooked too huge a portion...enough to feed 3 ppl equivalent to 3 meals for me...haha...die...

Anyway, company's Away Day was great fun. The stress in preparing the games and prizes were pretty much worth it...though I did give peeps more injuries =p sorry guys...

I think the highlight was the ktv...surprisingly I aint the drunk one...haha. To think that I was actually quick enough to shove the empty jug to my colleague when I saw that familiar wanna_puke_immediately kinda face, that was quite something. It was crazy tipsy fun! We drained the two bottles of hard liquor when I thought we might end up saving them for the next time. So fun to hang out like that...hehe...

Went for Da Vinci exhibition...it was interesting...though too much reading makes me feel whoozy and tired...signs of old age =( boohoo...

I miss hanging out with yd, ck and james...you bitches made my day...I hope our trip will go through! I so wanna chill by the pool!

Love you guys!

fen...I miss you terribly today...I so wanna go beach resort with you! Should have gone for the batam one!!! =p Hope you are feeling better and not down with flu...love ya!


In some kind of a shut down mode...just want to do things on my own and be alone for awhile...I think I may just pack and go on a trip alone...hmm....batam? bintan? sentosa? HK?

high high high....

i am so happily high on my own at home right now....i think i can so live by myself...

i think it's funny that i talk to myself...

i think i will be strong enough to depend on my own totally..

btw...ray is out of cave...drinking time!!!! yippe!!!

Junk food vs cooked food by moi: lost count vs 1

and it sux big time...how come same ingredients yet it didnt taste as good as when I cooked it in aussie...hmm...

I cooked and mopped within the time span of 2 hours. Eh...considered fast enough okie...I still need to prepare food and mop entire house...

Feeling more at ease now..certain things are just not meant to be...so even if I have to be the bad person to cut people off, I have to do it...why should I always be the one to please others at the expense of my comfort and happiness, knowing that the other party may not quite worth the effort afterall, and despite knowing what I've been going through...

I'm usually quite a soft hearted person, to get me to this stage...you're the man...

Mismatch

I'm sorry this has to happen, I just dun see the way you see this friendship...why cant we just be friends, as in normal buddy-pal kinda friends...

Appreciate you trying to be there for me during the hard times and I am grateful that I was important to you...

I can't condone your thinking and actions, especially at the expense of my emotions...

The only reaction I can conjure up is smile so that it can mask the disappointment I have out of this...

I'm the pig...

My eating system and sleep routine have totally been fucked. I eat only when I'm hungry which means I am having dinner as late as 9 plus 10 because I usually feel tired more than hungry after work...

I was so beat today that I fell asleep on the sofa while Oprah was on the tv...Oprah leh...and I could still fall asleep...subconsciously I even heard myself snoring...o no...

It's either I'll get super fat or super thin due to this irregular eating...

junk food vs cooked food - 2:2

I love the rides with those songs played from the precious mp3...old school rock...or whatever genre they are in...never fail to remind me of the aussie time...good memories...I rem sitting in the car, being driven home down the dark quiet streets...I rem tapping to the beats and singing to those few songs that I know of...there wasnt a moment that was awkward or pretencious and I feel so at ease with myself, with the people I was with.

I want that feeling back...that simplicity...that contentment...

Seeing stars...

Today is not a good day for me. Sadness got snowballed towards end of the day.

But I will be better. I will get better.

Things at my end are getting better. I sincerely hope that yours will too.

I think I can get used to the idea of being alone and living on my own. Although I do whine about how pathetic it is to have dinner on my own =p, to some extend I do enjoy this peacefulness...no expectations, no disappointment, no tears...

On a side note, I wanna join the winter fest madi gras too!!! boo hoo...so envious...I have always wanted to be part of the madi gras celebration!!! so proud of you my dear girl! hehe

How did I survive?

I read the email, I saw the timetable like many times but I still manage to get it mixed up! Ugrh...darn pissed with myself. First day of school and I already sorta screw up...peee weee...I'm the ultimate blur queen...

So I travelled from home to Clementi then Clementi back to clinic...all in the time span of 45 min...

I need to wake up! Wake up! Wake up!

And so...

Michael Jackson passed away...what a pity...his last concert would have been awesome...and now, he is free from the ridicule that others placed on him, free from the worry of his finances and free from the fear of not being perfect outside in...

This week...

Home alone 2 started on Wednesday...why 2? Cos I had Home alone 1 back in 2008 when I flew back from Melbourne for vacation before flying to HK to find my family.

So far I dun think I have spent more than 12 hours at home except today...morning I would be out for work, evening out for dinner with friends then home at night to bathe and sleep...

Headaches been my pretty close friend lately...perhaps not enough rest...stress and headache dun go well...I can forsee myself struggling alittle more in month of July...all the handover, adjustment to make before getting the breather in August...sigh...die die DIE...

I took the longest nap ever...it was supposed to be good until I had the dream...

I rather dream about fen...miss her...and her sms always cheer me up!

I quit...

You are always free during weekdays after work and you work in the city...

I work in Jurong...go city very troublesome...so next time you come Jurong to meet okie...

Pissed.to.the.max.

I did try to arrange to meet up in the past...when I was free, you weren't...when you are free, I ain't...so what you want me to do? I aint complaining about it...why should you?

Just becos I used to be nice...just becos I work in city...just becos my work involves dealing with kids...

Everything is deemed easy for me...

I have been feeling stressed...being awake way before alarm time is bad enough, sleeping/waking up with the feeling of stress regarding work is bad enough...dreaming about banker and having to push those thoughts away to focus on work is bad enough...facing my mistakes and not to feel guilty on the daily basis is bad enough...

what more do you want from me?!

I have always thought it was pretty hard to find a teardrop shape pendent BUT....hey...I have just found this lovely teardrop shape pendent from the Tiffany & Co website! Not crystal nor diamond but just a simple silver one which I can wear it with me all the time.

It is so pretty looking...

And then it hit me, how much bullshit it was when I was told it aint easy to locate one...hmm....