still taste better on its own...

and so with less than 2 hours of sleep, Alison and I managed to pull our slides together and present them to the class today...

it was fun, at least we managed to get peeps to respond and managed to maintain their level of interest on the topic...

good job ally! I hope you're sleeping and getting enough rest now...

I wanted to sleep at 7 but simply couldnt get to sleep...

soon soon...btw..white wine and coffee...mixed...outlook is yucky...tasted so so....

coffee with bailey is still the best mix...

stress...

I need to shout...F!@#@$@#!!!

Presentations: 2 - 1 down 1 to go (1 today, 1 tomorrow)

Essays/reports: 6 - 3 down 3 more to go...to squeeze out 9500 words from my puny brain...

Exams: 1 next fri...

You think white wine and coffee will taste good?

I'll find out and let you know later...

My boys...

Fat ben ben flying...



Auggy singing hokkien song...



And he sings itsy bitsy spider...

high on caffeine...

had 4 cups of coffee today....cant seem to sleep...so shall update my blog with some pics...















carbonara pasta that we attempted ages ago...nice nice...abit eggy in the end though...















Chicken thighs that we roasted with sauce, carrots and potatos...yummy...















days when i have to cook for myself...noodles...with veg, chicken wings and egg...not back lar...aint that unhealthy i suppose...















told you about my bed being occupied by papers...ta daa....articles lying around...i slept with that for like 2 nights...sad...so sad....haha....

Auggy auggy auggy...

Just spoken to Auggy...he called me, gu gu! ~melt melt~

Gee...he knows how to speak full sentences now...and he speaks so clearly...

Told me, ye ye is in singapore and that he called back to talk to nai nai...

Gosh soo cute! Makes me miss him even more...

Missing out so much on his growing up process...

I am soooo gonna spend one month in HK...I can't wait!

Freaky freak freak...

Lately I'm buried under the heaps of assignments and presentations such that I often fell asleep either while reading articles or typing stuffs. Yes, that's how tired I am at times.

Half of my bed is covered by articles instead of ~cough~man~cough (joking lar joking)...Back in the old days, the floor of my room will be well covered by tonnes of papers...you have to maneuver your way in order to get around within my room ...now it has simply upgraded to papers invading my sleeping space...imagine this - queen size bed, half occupied by papers and the worst thing is sometimes my quilt ended up covering the papers too cos it's too big. Damn it, my sleeping partner is not my teddy bear nor pillow nor human...it's papers...PAPERS...sigh...

Another freaky thing...

despite me being soo tired from all the readings and typings...I actually dreamt of him last nite...very vivid dreams....very real...dreamt that we were having lunch like the old times....dreamt that we bumped into my friends who happened to know him...wah liao eh...

get out pls get out...I dun have enough memory space to wanna even recall or dream of him...

Dreams like that will linger in my brain and occupy maybe 1GB of space (like the nano he bought me...ha)....now I'm only left with 39GB for my 4 essays and 2 presentations....cannot man...

Shall reformat that diskspace....

see i'm typing nonsense...

my eternal sunshine...

I love his smile...i miss his smile...

it's about time to start the ration...

I fucking hate it when non-related ppl make their problems my responsibility to solve...

fucking landlord gave me the electricity bills to show me how much excess there was...excuse me...you're the landlord...it is YOUR responsibility to deal with the bills yourself...if you wanna charge excess, charge...dun make me stand there and asked me to help you solve the problem...it is not my fucking responsibility to help you justify or come up with pathetic excuses to overcharge us...

missy here has been very patient all along...but if you step on my tail...I'm gonna snap big time...

yes, banker pushed my limit beyond god-knows how far...my patience with ppl has always been that high...but currently with the fact that i'm living alone...it is just too tiring for me to compromise ALL the time...to EVERY single person...

No one will care if i dun care for myself...so wth...I dun wanna be that miss full-of-patience shit anymore....i hate the feeling of being shortchanged...

yes i'm a selfish bitch...yes i'm self centred...i'm not here to please everyone in my path...so dun expect me to be all smiley if i dun find you worth my energy to spend my portion of patience upon...

ha ha ha

eh i said i needed blood in previous blog...no response...no one loves moi...

except fen...she said she'll donate her blood to me in future if we stay together and that if she made me puke blood excessively...haha...same blood type somemore...good good...

this silly girl, declared accessories in the parcel but not the piggy mooncake, 2 lanterns and a pack of candles along with some of my clothings and heels...in the end accessories cannot send but the food and flammable stuffs got sent to my door step...how funny is that...

and one of the piggy biscuits is in purple basket somemore! haha both my favourite!

You know you're an alcoholic when...

your cousin who is doing research on social work needed to survey someone who drinks...and she immediately emailed me...why?

cos my mom told her i drink...doink doink doink...

And you know you're an alcoholic when...

your buddy thinks of you whenever she sees heineken...and she made the effort to dig thru her collection of postcards just so that she can send you a heineken postcard....

Hi, I'm Jayna, I'm an alcoholic....@#!@$@#$

" and they try to make me go to rehab, and i say no no no..." muah haha haha...

25 and ?

I think I've lost it. Lost the ability to feel, to think, to reflect.

I haven't been in touch with my emotions because I've been busy trying to move forward, to be in control, to be strong on my own and not rely on anyone.

Learning to do things myself was never easy. I'm the youngest child, a spoilt one too. Am always the one to test my parent's limit, the one who rebel, the one who is out of the norm.

So, where will I be 5 years down the road? Will I still be that spoilt child who wasted so much time and money, taking the longer path life?

What's next?

And so it is...

HERE!

Missy here have been waiting for months...14 weeks to be exact...can you imagine that? not that it's anything unusual since teenage years...

Imagine the amount of money I've saved on purchasing THE products...Luckily I didnt lup all those stuffs into my already-limited-weight luggage...

Now will you excuse me, while I continue nursing in bed with occasional vulgarities spilling out from my sweet sweet mouth when the next tidal wave cramp hit moi...


O and I think 14 weeks of no bleeding...I may bleed to death this time round...so will any kind soul with A+ blood type, donate some blood to me...

Unless you're telling me no one loves me and wanna see me die...

your turn...

I'm turning yellow...I miss sun tanning with you at Sentosa...I miss lazing on the beach chairs, flipping magazines and ogling at cute ' ppl ' with you...

~I was typing this, then you called...haha....great talking to you...havent had a proper chat with you for so darn long...miss you soooooo much.....

muack....catch you soon...hopefully in nov!!!

I was walking home just now, with howling wind blowing behind me...pushing me forward...it's so cold....

At times my pace was too slow to accommodate to the rate that it was blowing at me...

It's not that I didnt try, it's not that I don't want to move forward.

I've tried, walking as fast as my legs can afford to carry me...

But I'm still being pushed...

It's not that I didn't move..at all or fast enough...

My pace seemed too slow for the wind...it just pushes me forward no matter how...

I wanna move ahead quick...fast....but how come I always find myself being pushed despite myself moving forward....

I hate it...

I need to be in control...I have to be in control....

Urgh....

Fuck shit...

me and my itchy hand...

Pea brain, pea brain, pea brain...

Damn it....

Sigh

I couldn't sleep last night. And when I finally did, I actually dreamt of him...

Dreamt that I bummed into him just like how we did the other time under the UOB building. I dreamt that he pulled my arm and wanted to talk to me but I refused to. I walked on...

I hope in real life I won't be able to recognize his face among the crowd. That I'll be the usual blur self and walk my own path. Like how I did the past two times when mr h saw me but not the other way round until my pal pointed out to me and until mr h, himself smsed me....

The usual me will smile, at people I rarely know; at people whom I just got to know; at little babies or toddlers; at old granny or grandpa; at nasty patients or clients even. That's just me. It doesn't hurt to smile, I smile to myself at times when I'm happy, I smile at dogs even. A little nutty, yes I admit.

But to you, if I ever see you again, I dun want to smile at you, I dun want to be able to recognize you because frankly I won't know how to react if i really bummed into you again....

I seriously hope that it will not happen in real life...

I need inspiration...

to cook for myself. Think if I were to live alone, I'll die from eating the same type of food over and over again....am on the verge of becoming vegtarian, considering I stock up more variety of veg than meat...

Yes, miss yeong here lacks the creativity when it comes to food. Who marry me who suey....haha...

Handsome, have you safely reached Thailand? What a pity you've only stayed for 45 min at the Oktoberfest...I dun think you can finish their huge jug of beer in 45 min leh...muah haha...Why do I have this image of you foaming in your mouth...haha...

Gee....I feel like eating thai food now...

I fell in love....

With Amy Winehouse's songs!

So addicted to her songs now! Check out her song ' You know I'm no good' Really funny and nice...loooove her voice....

Went clubbing with fellow course mates and singaporean friends on Sat nite...Freaking fun!

Head down to music festival where the whole street was blocked off for street performance, beer, food, drinks, clothings etc...fun to walk around with music blasting everywhere and lots of doggies around too!

Proceeded to Royal Melbourne show which is a huge once-a-year carnival! Lots of rides, farm animals, showbags and food! Bought one girly showbag and a 'Thomas and Friends' showbag for auggy and little ben ben. More excited on the 'Thomas and Friends' showbag cos it's quite a steal...there's like little schl bag, cup, torch light, beach mat...really really cute stuffs! gonna send it over to them! hehe

break week...but am drowning with paper work...gonna get my arse down to do work...ciao~

I HATE CHINAMAN!

Dear MALE housemate,

What makes you think I will wanna have red wine and watch movie on your laptop with YOU?! or better still in your room?!

And you knocking my door at fucking 3 am, just really PISSED me off.

Common sense will tell you that if you knocked the first time, second time and by the THIRD time I ain't getting the door, it'll mean I'm asleep! Master student, use your brain can?! You not only fucking woke me up, I had trouble falling back to sleep....it's schl hols now....so am going shopping and clubbing today...i bloody need the sleep...

Fucking pissed off...I have never been soooo bloody pissed before...

I hate chinaman...young or old...handsome or ugly...i just hate chinaman...

and if you knock on my door again...YOU DIE...~ROAR~

Bitch, bitch, bitch

Feeling edgy lately. Snappy even. Forgive me if I snapped at any of you.

Making myself happy with Amy Winehouse's songs! hahaha...Love her voice!

Just played with google earth! Freaking fun! Someone sent me his location and future house via google earth and it's so freaking cool to be able to see the exact location!

Okie...gotta pack and go home..am in the lib btw...

Hope I won't drown too badly in 'death, dying and grief' infor...argh argh....

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