Genuinely happy...

Things were so random lately...

My kid whom I have been working with, did the funniest thing ever. He was climbing through the obstacle course while I was behind him stretching to hang something up high. Suddnely he came down and ran towards me and poked my tummy as if tickling me...not sure is it my flabby tummy that attracted this attention, or he is slowly warming up to me...haha...

Farewell dinner for Sherbs was Muthu's Curry at Little India...Was suppose to go home after but fren of mine from aussie msged and said he's back in town! Been exactly one year since I last saw him! Totally excited that we finally get to meet up! It was great to chat and even mingle with his sibs...

Didn't sleep much on Sat night and woke up early on Sun to send Sherbs off...

It was an entourage of kids in sending her off! After sending her off it's a round of chasing after kids, talking to bosses and colleagues, eating and taking care of the the kiddos...

It was so tiring running after the kids but I had a really really fun time talking to them and hearing their remarks to everything they see...so innocently cute!

When was the last time I laugh from my heart...hmm....

I am so blessed...

to have friend who will still drive me home despite him being tired...on the many many many occasions...

to have friend's mom who will buy cooling tea for me so that I can get my voice back...

to have friend who will think of me when he has a complimentary pass for his gym so that I can get the work out that I very much need...

to have boss who is willing to boil another type of cooling tea for me...

to have someone who is willing to spend the whole of Monday, dropping by just so to keep me company while I nurse myself back to recovery...plus the ice cream, cooling tea and cake...

it's nice to just sit in front of the tv, laugh at those sitcoms and eat the tub of ice cream...

FYI

In case you were worried that the pop-out that is asking for pin to view my posts...well it's not...you can still view my post even if you press 'cancel' button...

the pop-out is for my twitter msges that i've locked up under my account...so for ppl like fen, you can request and wait for my approval to follow the twits...then u'll know more of the latest updates...sensical, nonsensical updates included...and of cos...more vulgarities involved...haha...

miss you babe...wish you were here to crash my place and stay with me over the weekends...miss our prata time tooo...love love...

Away Day 5-7 July 2009

Some pictures on our 'Away Day'
















Second day, on tram. We were on our way to Palawan Beach. Peeps were on their way to get tortured by me. I, the game master, gotten ordered around and bullied, induced quite a number of injuries...haha...but overall it was fun...or at least I hope!















Trying to act funny while carrying those heavy water bombs...that's JR, Sheralyn and I!
















Our team of fun loving peeps!

















Another shot...minus the man behind...haha..

















My beloved old housemate-now-colleague, Alison...second night was the most hilarious, fun time spent. We had company's dinner then KTV at St James. It was marked with lots of trashy-fun-sing-along songs and lotsa alcohol! O plus not to mention, funny drunkard moments...which I wasn't involved...haha how rare right...

Anyway, it was really a fun and memorable night!




















Me and my unglam face...I was slightly tipsy high then I think...



















This was me singing...didnt even know ally took this pic...haha...

sick and alone...

Fever, cough, running nose...welcome to the sick zone baby!!!

I'm not only the green snog machine but also the master of the mime...

It's quite funny when yd hit me on my arm and I literally screamed to complain to his mom "Auntie!! Yidong beat me!!" BUT nothing came out...only my facial expressions...it's sooooooo funny can....I can play charades very well now...ha!

Very sweet of yd to drive me home after dinner, very sweet of auntie to buy me the liang cha...now I have two pseudo moms! hehe....thank you so much!

Disclaimer...

I'm overloaded with junk food. Feel fat and lack of exercise. Because of the junks I ate, the late nights I had for rushing reports, my throat is now protesting and my nose is starting to leak...

Cooked mushroom soup and eating salad now...I hope these are healthy enough...

being sick sux...

being sick and alone sux even MORE!!!

AGRH!!!

overload...with junks

Kill me plsssssss....argh!!!!!!!

cooking day!

Edible cooked food vs yucky cooked food - 1:1

My attempt for fried rice went well! Yippe! Fried rice trump macaroni soup. Slight boo boo though when I tripped on the stairs and broke the glass bottled of sweet soya sauce. I should count my lucky stars that I didn't cut myself. Time to buy new slippers...the front of the slippers probably is slightly too big and making me fall...not the first time...bruises on my arms can account for it...sigh...Anyway, I think I cooked too huge a portion...enough to feed 3 ppl equivalent to 3 meals for me...haha...die...

Anyway, company's Away Day was great fun. The stress in preparing the games and prizes were pretty much worth it...though I did give peeps more injuries =p sorry guys...

I think the highlight was the ktv...surprisingly I aint the drunk one...haha. To think that I was actually quick enough to shove the empty jug to my colleague when I saw that familiar wanna_puke_immediately kinda face, that was quite something. It was crazy tipsy fun! We drained the two bottles of hard liquor when I thought we might end up saving them for the next time. So fun to hang out like that...hehe...

Went for Da Vinci exhibition...it was interesting...though too much reading makes me feel whoozy and tired...signs of old age =( boohoo...

I miss hanging out with yd, ck and james...you bitches made my day...I hope our trip will go through! I so wanna chill by the pool!

Love you guys!

fen...I miss you terribly today...I so wanna go beach resort with you! Should have gone for the batam one!!! =p Hope you are feeling better and not down with flu...love ya!


In some kind of a shut down mode...just want to do things on my own and be alone for awhile...I think I may just pack and go on a trip alone...hmm....batam? bintan? sentosa? HK?

high high high....

i am so happily high on my own at home right now....i think i can so live by myself...

i think it's funny that i talk to myself...

i think i will be strong enough to depend on my own totally..

btw...ray is out of cave...drinking time!!!! yippe!!!

Junk food vs cooked food by moi: lost count vs 1

and it sux big time...how come same ingredients yet it didnt taste as good as when I cooked it in aussie...hmm...

I cooked and mopped within the time span of 2 hours. Eh...considered fast enough okie...I still need to prepare food and mop entire house...

Feeling more at ease now..certain things are just not meant to be...so even if I have to be the bad person to cut people off, I have to do it...why should I always be the one to please others at the expense of my comfort and happiness, knowing that the other party may not quite worth the effort afterall, and despite knowing what I've been going through...

I'm usually quite a soft hearted person, to get me to this stage...you're the man...

Mismatch

I'm sorry this has to happen, I just dun see the way you see this friendship...why cant we just be friends, as in normal buddy-pal kinda friends...

Appreciate you trying to be there for me during the hard times and I am grateful that I was important to you...

I can't condone your thinking and actions, especially at the expense of my emotions...

The only reaction I can conjure up is smile so that it can mask the disappointment I have out of this...

I'm the pig...

My eating system and sleep routine have totally been fucked. I eat only when I'm hungry which means I am having dinner as late as 9 plus 10 because I usually feel tired more than hungry after work...

I was so beat today that I fell asleep on the sofa while Oprah was on the tv...Oprah leh...and I could still fall asleep...subconsciously I even heard myself snoring...o no...

It's either I'll get super fat or super thin due to this irregular eating...

junk food vs cooked food - 2:2

I love the rides with those songs played from the precious mp3...old school rock...or whatever genre they are in...never fail to remind me of the aussie time...good memories...I rem sitting in the car, being driven home down the dark quiet streets...I rem tapping to the beats and singing to those few songs that I know of...there wasnt a moment that was awkward or pretencious and I feel so at ease with myself, with the people I was with.

I want that feeling back...that simplicity...that contentment...

Seeing stars...

Today is not a good day for me. Sadness got snowballed towards end of the day.

But I will be better. I will get better.

Things at my end are getting better. I sincerely hope that yours will too.

I think I can get used to the idea of being alone and living on my own. Although I do whine about how pathetic it is to have dinner on my own =p, to some extend I do enjoy this peacefulness...no expectations, no disappointment, no tears...

On a side note, I wanna join the winter fest madi gras too!!! boo hoo...so envious...I have always wanted to be part of the madi gras celebration!!! so proud of you my dear girl! hehe

How did I survive?

I read the email, I saw the timetable like many times but I still manage to get it mixed up! Ugrh...darn pissed with myself. First day of school and I already sorta screw up...peee weee...I'm the ultimate blur queen...

So I travelled from home to Clementi then Clementi back to clinic...all in the time span of 45 min...

I need to wake up! Wake up! Wake up!

And so...

Michael Jackson passed away...what a pity...his last concert would have been awesome...and now, he is free from the ridicule that others placed on him, free from the worry of his finances and free from the fear of not being perfect outside in...

This week...

Home alone 2 started on Wednesday...why 2? Cos I had Home alone 1 back in 2008 when I flew back from Melbourne for vacation before flying to HK to find my family.

So far I dun think I have spent more than 12 hours at home except today...morning I would be out for work, evening out for dinner with friends then home at night to bathe and sleep...

Headaches been my pretty close friend lately...perhaps not enough rest...stress and headache dun go well...I can forsee myself struggling alittle more in month of July...all the handover, adjustment to make before getting the breather in August...sigh...die die DIE...

I took the longest nap ever...it was supposed to be good until I had the dream...

I rather dream about fen...miss her...and her sms always cheer me up!

I quit...

You are always free during weekdays after work and you work in the city...

I work in Jurong...go city very troublesome...so next time you come Jurong to meet okie...

Pissed.to.the.max.

I did try to arrange to meet up in the past...when I was free, you weren't...when you are free, I ain't...so what you want me to do? I aint complaining about it...why should you?

Just becos I used to be nice...just becos I work in city...just becos my work involves dealing with kids...

Everything is deemed easy for me...

I have been feeling stressed...being awake way before alarm time is bad enough, sleeping/waking up with the feeling of stress regarding work is bad enough...dreaming about banker and having to push those thoughts away to focus on work is bad enough...facing my mistakes and not to feel guilty on the daily basis is bad enough...

what more do you want from me?!

I have always thought it was pretty hard to find a teardrop shape pendent BUT....hey...I have just found this lovely teardrop shape pendent from the Tiffany & Co website! Not crystal nor diamond but just a simple silver one which I can wear it with me all the time.

It is so pretty looking...

And then it hit me, how much bullshit it was when I was told it aint easy to locate one...hmm....

snippets of life...

Deforestation happened last Friday...finally I got down to make the appointment and do something about it...

I realised I can be distracted so easily. I think it would have hurt so much more, should I not used the handphone to bring myself away from the task. The count-down and anticipation would have brought on so much more pain! Not to mention the slight bleeding due to dryness of the skin. Anyway, deed was done and I am a happy customer.

Went to seletar airbase for the baffalo wings and other food. It was a nice place to hang out and great fun that yd's mom could join us. We got back to our guitar hero last night! Hilarious night with new people joining us in the chase of beats. Not to mention we have found a new female drummer who has much better rhythm than most of us!

Watching 'Frida' now. Have always wanted to catch it. I think quite a number of scenes were cut. So dampening to the mood. Her drawings were...interestingly weird. And so were her relationships.

Mizuno run was pretty much done...so what's next? POSB run? Army run? Stand Chart run?

Long way to happy

One night to you
Lasted six weeks for me
Just a bitter little pill now
Just to try to go to sleep
No more waking up to innocence
Say hello to hesitance
To everyone I meet
Thanks to you years ago
I guess I'll never know
What love means to me but oh
I'll keep on rolling down this road
But I've got a bad, bad feeling

It's gonna take a long time to love
It's gonna take a lot to hold on
It's gonna be a long way to happy, yeah
Left in the pieces that you broke me into
Torn apart but now I've got to
Keep on rolling like a stone
Cause it's gonna be a long long way to happy

Left my childhood behind
In a roll away bed
Everything was so damn simple
Now I'm losing my head
Trying to cover up the damage
And pad out all the bruises
Do you know I had it
So it didn't hurt to lose it
Didn't hurt to lose it
No but oh
I'll keep on rolling down this road
But I've got a bad, bad feeling

It's gonna take a long time to love
It's gonna take a lot to hold on
It's gonna be a long way to happy, yeah
Left in the pieces that you broke me into
Torn apart but now I've got to
Keep on rolling like a stone
Cause it's gonna be a long long way

Now I'm numb as hell and I can't feel a thing
But don't worry about regret or guilt cause I never knew your name
I just want to thank you
Thank you
From the bottem of my heart
For all the sleepless nights
And for tearing me apart yeah yeah

It's gonna take a long time to love
It's gonna take a lot to hold on
It's gonna be a long way to happy, yeah
Left in the pieces that you broke me into
Torn apart but now I've got to
Keep on rolling like a stone
Cause it's gonna be a long long way

It's gonna take a long time to love
It's gonna take a lot to hold on
It's gonna be a long, long, long, long way to happy, yeah
Left in the pieces that you broke me into
Torn apart but now I've got to
Keep on rolling like a stone
Cause it's gonna be a long long way to happy
Cause it's gonna be a long long way to happy


I seriously dun mind being home alone for the next half a year. Eventually I will live on my own. Just afraid that I will some how spiral downwards again and plunge into that black hole once more, unable to get up.

Perhaps then I should get into the regime of running every night...at least I guess the dreams that happened ever so often will cease completely...

Out..

I met the two of you about the same time 3 years ago...

Little did I know, you have such common grounds with him...

Haven't we always been friends? There wasn't much contact in between cos of the things that happened and eventually you were with someone else while I was with him. Now, you are with another person while I'm on my own.

Like him, you appeared intermittently in my life. Like him, you tried to put me in the exact same position. Haven't you heard, Jayna is still under construction...healing in progress...

I'm human, I have feelings. I'm the youngest child and one thing for sure, I really hate to share.

Let me do the nasty job here. I'll draw the line. Just because I'm nice to you, doesn't mean you can use me as a tool.

You want company, go look for your girlfriend. You want company, go look for your wife.

Like him, I'm striking your name out. Both of you.