Woo...been three months or so since I last touched this space...
Plain lazy...busy or just...cannot be bothered...A combination of 3 I guess...
Currently am feeling very tired (what's new) and trying to psych myself to do my work...sigh...always...
Been a fairly good year I guess...except for the constantly falling sick part...
Over this year...I think some part of me remain the same...some part died along the way...
Still stupidly naive in this thing call 'relationship' and waiting for someone who is romantic enough to sweep me off the ground for good...
Still incapable of dealing with hope and disappointment...I guess the key is...dun raise my hope and get me all excited and then drop me to let me crash and die on the spot....
I.cannot.deal.with.that....
I feel like taking a long break from everything but I know financially that is not possible...just got to grit my teeth and go through this...
How long can I stand this...I dun know...but I do know I am feeling pretty depressed at the moment despite knowing that I pretty much have what I need right now...
Exactly what is lacking? What? I cannot pin point what is it...and that irks me...a hell lot...
Am I so broken to the extend that the emptiness forbade me to feel contentment?