Monday, April 30, 2007

to be continued...

Yippee....sweet sweet handsome came over my clinic again! Gave me some of his crackers...haha

Last nite we went Marks & Spencer and we each bought different packets of crackers. So i kept bugging him to tell me if his is nice when he goes home to try. You know how i can be forgetful and repeat the same old qn from time to time. Haha...I think i've bugged him enough and he actually gave me some of his in a containter today...hoho...Thanx o!

I sooooo dun wanna play the game later...not that i'm a sore loser...I just dun wanna face those bitches....as bitchy as i am....i can never reach their level of bitchy~ness...maybe in another 20 years time....but then again...i'm sure i'll still be a lovable aunty =p

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

姑姑...爱你...

Tell me...how can i not melt when my baby boy said that to me yesterday morning. No idea where he learnt that from but it's soooo darn sweet!

You know that you've grown up when...

You're the one to bring your mama to see the consultant and do all the talking while she sits on the plinth very compliantly like a little girl. One thing to take note...she didnt interrupt me at all throughout the whole consultantaion which is soooo darn rare....

You're the one paying for lunch after realising your mama seemed to be fetching for her wallet in slooow motion and digging deep deep deep down into her handbag...

You're handling all the necessary paperwork on your own and that your parents still have no idea where exactly you're going for your study...

You're hitting 25 which is suppose to be your peak only to find that you're actually juz 5 years away from the big 30 and that you're frantically in the midst of looking for anti-aging products to prolong the youthful look....

Sigh...What am i rambling about...everytime when i'm stepping into the month of May i'll go into this fuzzy mode...sometimes happy, sometimes sad, sometimes even sian...What is wrong with me man...

Maybe i should start planning what to do for my birthday to keep myself occupied and at least provide myself with something to look forward to...but then again...i'm tired of making calls...making the arrangements...

Just done clearing sis's vomit in her bedroom corridor...massive puke...bro and i gotta clear it up using newspapers... mom dun even dare to go near cos we all know she'll definitely puke if she smell of the vomit...we were practically gliding thru the vomit and the oily floor...

So glad that i've always made it to the toilet bowl before my puke come gushing out...good trainings i've had all these while...hahahaha....

Monday, April 23, 2007

start with green...end with purple....

~code green~
Everyone in my house is taking turn to fall sick...first is moi, then papa, then auggy and now bro...

Auggy and bro been puking. The two boys always fall sick together and it's always the baby pass to the dad. That's how potent baby germs are...

Was feeding him milk before he slept, trying to burp him. He coughed and started looking abit weird. Before i could carry him off mama's bed, his veg-mushroom-porriage-dinner came splashing out of his puny mouth and onto moi! Sigh...his puke didnt kena him at all cos it went horizontally out onto my arms and legs. So...i have to hold him an arm length away from his own puke, wait for mama to carry him to toilet to wash off, then sit still and not move an inch from the bed while i wait for some kind soul to get me paper towels to at least wipe off the puke from my arms and legs before i can walk from my parent's room to the toilet.

Tell me, which single and avaliable woman can stand being covered in puke for approx 5 min or more, analyzed the puke contends and wonder what did baby boy have for dinner, while waiting for paper towels to come my way so that i can clean up without giving a word of 'Yucks....' or ' EEEee vomit vomit' ?? Perhaps cos it doesnt smell and i was too engross in looking at what he had puked out...haha

I think working in hospital helps a great deal. I mean it's not as though i've never cleaned up patients' shit or puke before, so what's with baby's puke? Either that or my tolerance for gross stuff is way higher than anyone else...Or best...the combi simply makes me the ultimate gross champion...HA haha hahaha...

On a different note...
Handsome made my day =) Moi love surprises! Big or small i dun care...i juz looove surprises! ~jump jump~

At first when my therapy assistant told me someone was looking for me, i thought which patient wanna see me to have earlier appt for physio...again...haha...

It turned out to be sweet sweet yd, who came looking for me for lunch! Yippee...so happy to see him standing outside my clinic! It's the effort that counts and i appreciate that a hell lot! Seriously, it makes my day so much more bearable =)

Jia you for your french tomolo handsome...though i dunno how to say jia you in french...anyway juz write whatever u can lar...

See ya on Sunday!

Sunday, April 22, 2007

smiling with tears...

Went to Wala with audrey last nite. It's a simple girls' nite out. We eat, we drink, we bitch. Thanx for asking me out and listening to my complaints. If not for u asking, i'll probably be at home nua~ing as usual. Had so much fun grooving to the songs, laughing our hearts out. Appreciate your company woman=)

Bumped into yk. The moment he saw me, we juz burst out laughing. As usual, i'm greeted with a flick and a punch by this big bully of mine. Stupid pig, when will you ever stop abusing me, i'm already left with skin n bones =p

Bumped into L too. He's suppose to be alone but decided to crash with us girls. Hoped he's had his share of fun.

Shirlyn made my day. Sang 'starlight' and 'time is running out' which are currently my favourite songs. Sang ' Locomotion' which reminds me of ck. Sang ' Grace Kelly' which reminds me of yd. Not that i havent seen them for very very long. But somehow i juz miss hanging out with them. I kept telling myself - gee...it'll be good to groove to 'their' songs should they be present.


Auggy is sick. Fever and vomitting. Heartache. I miss the cheeky, bubbly him. ~Speedy recovery baby~

I havent seen him much this week cos from mon to wed i was home late. By the time i'm home, he's asleep. I didnt know i miss him that much. Fact is, i miss him alot...To the extend that i decided to skip a workshop that i'm suppose to attend to go home in the excuse that 'i'm tired'. Actually i juz wanna play with him. Hug him and kiss kiss him.

I did hit him really hard on his palm though, for he threw some stuff out of the window despite me telling him not to. He cried pretty badly at the fourth time i hit his palm and was asking me to 'bao bao...bao bao...' . Okie, i ended up carrying him and soothing him after that. I know i know, i'm going to be a bad mother...o man...



Had the craving for potato chips and i ended up finishing one whole mango on my own at 11.30pm. Healthy snack it is but not so healthy to consume it at such late hour. Me eating mango, me eating it at such hour, me staying home doing nothing but watching tv all day long juz reminded me of someone. Someone whom i was told was rotten and so not worth remembering but i still did. Someone whom i've gotten reminded of suddenly when one of my babes sent me the song that he told me he liked. He had that song in his car on repeat mode back then and it's on repeat mode in my nano now. Now that i recall, no wonder i dreamt of him last nite.

I know i'll be better off without you and so do you. Good luck in whatever you do....

Saturday, April 21, 2007

My name

You entered: Yeong Jiahui, Jayna

There are 16 letters in your name.
Those 16 letters total to 76
There are 8 vowels and 8 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 4

The characteristics of #4 are: A foundation, order, service, struggle against limits, steady growth.

The expression or destiny for #4:
Order, service, and management are the cornerstones of the number 4 Expression. Your destiny is to express wonderful organization skills with your ever practical, down-to-earth approach. You are the kind of person who is always willing to work those long, hard hours to push a project through to completion. A patience with detail allows you to become expert in fields such as building, engineering, and all forms of craftsmanship. Your abilities to write and teach may lean toward the more technical and detailed. In the arts, music will likely be your choice. Artistic talents may also appear in such fields as horiculture and floral arrangement, as well. Many skilled physicians and especially surgeons have the 4 Expression.

The positive attitudes of the 4 Expression yield responsibility; you are one who no doubt, fulfills obligations, and is highly systematic and orderly. You are serious and sincere, honest and faithful. It is your role to help and you are required to do a good job at everything you undertake.

If there is too much 4 energies present in your makeup, you may express some of the negative attitudes of the number 4. The obligations that you face may tend to create frustration and feelings of limitation or restriction. You may sometimes find yourself nursing negative attitudes in this regard and these can keep you in a rather low mood. Avoid becoming too rigid, stubborn, dogmatic, and fixed in your opinions. You may have a tendency to develop and hold very strong likes and dislikes, and some of these may border on the classification of prejudice. The negative side of 4 often produces dominant and bossy individuals who use disciplinarian to an excess. These tendencies must be avoided. Finally, like nearly all with 4 Expression, you must keep your eye on the big picture and not get overly wrapped up in detail and routine.

Your Soul Urge number is: 8

A Soul Urge number of 8 means:
With an 8 soul urge, you have a natural flair for big business and the challenges imposed by the commercial world. Power, status and success are very important to you. You have strong urges to supervise, organize and lead. Material desires are also very pronounced. You have good executive abilities, and with these, confidence, energy and ambition.

Your mind is analytical and judgment sound; you're a good judge of material values and also human character. Self-controlled, you rarely let emotions cloud judgment. You are somewhat of an organizer at heart, and you like to keep those beneath you organized and on a proper track. This is a personality that wants to lead, not follow. You want to be known for your planning ability and solid judgment.

The negative aspects of the 8 soul urge are the often dominating and exacting attitude. You may have a tendency to be very rigid, sometimes stubborn.

Your Inner Dream number is: 5

An Inner Dream number of 5 means:
You dream of being totally free and unrestrained by responsibility. You see yourself conversing and mingling with the natives in many nations, living for adventure and life experiences. You imagine what you might accomplished.

Take it here

Friday, April 20, 2007

~PMS~

If i'm a bipolar disorder patient, i think i'm currently in the manic stage now. I want to get myself a pair of gucci shades, get my hair coloured, manicure and pedicure done, buy myself pretty dresses, give my malnurished body some really good food, buy the camera that i need, get the lappy that i gotta have, buy tonnes of shoes that i fancy, purchase all the nice sexy bras and bikinis that i can never get enough of...Get the things i want, buy the things i desire without ANY consideration

Of course, in reality, i still have the ability to delay such gratifications. So...none of those for moi...~ROAR~

I'm currently in this sian mode which i dunno how to describe....

At times all sorts of input from the surrounding and the ppl keeps flowing my way 24/7 non-stop...I juz feel like putting both hands to my ears, close my eyes and shut things out from my system completely.

Was in dilema in the beginning of this week due to new launch of study programme here. Seriously, when i finally set my mind to do something for myself, things like that have to pop up. Then i'll have to take a step back to re-evaluate all that i've planned. You know that kind of feeling?

Will be going for the briefing on Sun. See what's the difference between it being offered here and in melbourne. Why this year? i tot it's gonna start next year or 2009. Perhaps someone up there is telling me that i've made a wrong move - that i should have gone last year? If i were to go for it last year, everything will be so different....

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

wah sick again...

Went for a jog yesterday evening. It was merely a 4.8km jog. Then came the running nose. So i slept early at around 9 plus (which is so darn rare). Next came the fever. And yes, everytime i am bound to play for the squash match, i'm sick. Two weeks ago was like that and same for today.

Even a patient whom i saw two weeks ago asked me if i'm having sinus or flu again. Man...what's wrong with my system. Just dun understand how come i get flu and fever so often. Sianz

On a happier note, fen babe came down to watch me play my match. Hee, okie lah...i was abit nervous but after awhile i'm fine. As usual, i lost but at least i didnt score nothing this time round. But after the match, i think my fever went up a notch higher.

Babe, thanx for making your way down...appreciate that! In fact no one has done that before....hehe...

I'm glad i didnt type the msg, i'm glad i didnt press send...

gonna go sleep...hope tomolo will feel much much better...

Came across this video ~nice~
Title sorta describes how i felt on saturday nite =)



I’ve been twisting and turning,
In a space that’s too small.
I’ve been drawing the line and watching it fall,
You’ve been closing me in, closing the space in my heart.
Watching us fading and watching it all fall apart.

Chorus
Well I can’t explain why it’s not enough, Cause I gave it all to you.
And if you leave me now, oh just leave me now.
It’s the better thing to do,
It’s time to surrender,
It’s been to long pretending.
Theres no use in trying,
When the pieces don’t fit anymore, Pieces don’t fit here anymore.

You pulled me under,
If I had to give in.
Such a beautiful myth,
That’s breaking my skin.
Well I’ll hide all the bruises,
I’ll hide all the damage that’s done.
But I show how I’m feeling until all the feeling has gone.

(Chorus)

Ooh don’t missunderstand,
How I feel.
Cause I’ve tried, yes I’ve tried.
But still I don’t know why, no I don’t know why.
III dont know why…… whyyyyyyyy!

(Chorus)

Sunday, April 15, 2007

should have just...

gone home and not make the effort. I thought my presence will be appreciated and perhaps friendship will be very much the same as before.

So wrong...

Awkwardness lingered in the air and I knew at that point of time - it'll never be the same again. In the first place, it was my choice to terminate the friendship. So why did i even expect it to be the same again when it was refound...

selfish of me to think that way eh...

i'll just keep my distance from now...i think it's better that way...

Saturday, April 14, 2007

The ninniy nanny

This is what happened when u're single, have no plan for the weekends and that ur bitches are having exams...

Man...i so wanna go sun tanning but the thought of going alone will only mean i'll end up nua~ing at home...

gotten woken up by auggy knocking on my door, calling me AGAIN...this time round it's the biggest boy who asked him to do that - my dad...why is it that they always like to disturb moi and moi beauty sleep! Darn...

Got nothing to do so ended up taking photos and video while being the nanny...





















Thursday, April 12, 2007

Contented....

yeah...mission no. 2 accomplished! Met up with NUS biatch for dinner at vivo. Had japanese food for dinner...yummy yum yum...so worth the money and the food is good! Let's do that again after exams k...

Thanx for listening to my nonsense and my updates...i miss hanging out with you for dinner like today...hang in there k...with ur proj done soon soon and ur exams...you'll be able to join me at the beach for tanning session in no time...

To all my bitches having exams...last lap to run...hang in there! Sorry arh no cookies this year cos i no time to bake any =p

okie me tired liao...need to sleep...~~

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Yippee...

Mission no. 1 - Da bao 3 combo meals from Long John Silver; one turkey breast chicken and a cold cut trio sandwich from subway

Not that my bitches consist of 4 of them. In fact, i was juz da bao~ing for yd and sze, additional ones are for yd's neighbours...see i very nice hor =p

Eh dunno why but i love to da bao food to yd's hostel and makan with him. Not that i've done that often but juz like the idea of sitting on the floor to eat with him n sze, listen to music, nua and chit chat.

Went for a walk and we ended up at the Art building in NTU. Nice place to hang out. We juz sat there and talk. About career, about future, about adulthood, about life...Under the sky, under the planes, under the stars...with one or two bats flying around occassionally and with yd's humming in hope of shooing them off...haha...

Had yummy waffles with ice cream before we decided to head home...

Thanx for tonite algea man and papa ng...

Mission no. 1 accomplished...next up...mission no. 2 with my NUS biatch...

Stay tune...

Monday, April 09, 2007

New found jealousy

Residual happiness is still in my blood. I cant stop smiling even till now...So darn happy can!

Saturday was such an eventful day despite me waking up at 7 am; travelling down to ICA building; standing around for 1.5 hours to collect my passport; rushing down to cineleisure to catch 'Conversation with other woman' at 11.30am; purchasing nice nice bra at CK tang and nua~ing at starbucks for my much needed coffee and lunch.

Spent a good half of the day with myself, on my own. Great to do my own stuff at my own pace! No one to rush me, no one to say 'no' to the things i do.

Met up with Yk in the evening. Made me such a happy woman for the rest of the day! Gotten my early birthday gift from him - Shirlyn's CD! To top it off, he took me to her CD launching event at the outdoor esplanade! It was such a great performance! I just couldn't stop beaming throughout the whole event! Not that i've not seen Shirlyn performed before. It been near half a year since i last went to Wala to chill out. I missed her voice and the UnXpected's performance so much! The only thing that was lacking during the performance was a nice cold cold beer in my hand! haha

O and i bumped into a fren who loves Shirlyn juz as much as i do...so happy to see him despite him not able to recognise me and walked past me like i'm a total stranger -_- I didnt know my hair style makes me look so different...nice to be able to watch the performance 'with' him after a good half year of no contact

O i went to get autograph from Shirlyn at the end of the performance! haha...like wat i did 3 years back! Man...i'm like a little fan..being excited and happy to get her to sign the CD for me...so darn silly...haha...

HAPPY!!!! Thank you oki buta! I know i dun see much of you but whenever i do, it's always filled with laughters and happiness and occassional brusies...haha...

Friday, April 06, 2007

abcdefg@!#@%$%...stupid bro...

Yeah! It's Good Friday! Which means it's a public holiday! Which means no work! Which means i get to sleep in!

BUT NO!!!

Stupid bro kept asking auggy to shout for me at my door. Big kid went ' Quick quick, shout Gu Gu to wake her up!' and little one will juz go ' GUuu GUuu! GUuu GUuu! GUuuu GUuuu!' First time at around 9 am, second time at 10. Thought i was smart with the locking of my door but these two boys still have the ability to bug me and wake me up! !@#@$# Darn sleepy can...

I did ignore the two buggers and went back to sleep. It was not until auggy kept crying cos he couldnt bear to be separated from his mama who was heading off for church service. Stupid bro juz let him stand at the gate and cry to his mama who was by the door. I simply cannot stand baby boy crying non stop and worst when it was loud enough to wake me up.

If u havent seen me in my morning wake up mode, i look like a mess. Messy hair, gooey half opened eyes. I simply look like siao char bo. But i cant be bothered. Hey, i got woken up, plus i'm at home. So who cares...

And so, i got out of my room, picked auggy up and put him on my shoulder, with my half closed eyes throughout. Surprisingly he stopped crying, gave a flying kiss to his mama and juz propped his sweaty head over my shoulder. Carried him, pat him on his back. Hummed songs - from london bridge is falling down, to twinkle twinkle little stars, to 'ke ren lai', to humpty dumpty, to 'i'm a little teapot'. Eventually he fell asleep on my shoulder after a good 30-45 min of carrying...

By the time i put baby boy down on the mattress to sleep, bro claimed that he's tired and started snoring-_- Excuse moi, i should be the one feeling tired leh...i ended up with slight back ache and not able to get back to sleep cos i'm wide awake ALREADY!

who is the father huh huh huh...

!@#$#@ stupid bro....