she remembers....

of the colourful thin slices of waffles that she didnt allow me to eat when i was young....

something i've always complained about...claiming that she had deprived me from all the childhood snacks...which also include those cheap colourful ice-sticks that kids like to buy and suck...

she bought a packet of that colourful waffles for me today....

simple act...but it means alot...simply becos she still remembers...

she's someone who knows me so well...always able to read my mood...like a book that she had written and given the nickname piggy( why u think i like the name piggy so much...duh..)

she's someone who caned me ever so hard....cried to me and with me....complaint to me and always saying one thing but meant the other (yes...i've picked this up from her...)

thank you for remebering....

love you...

Sorry if u've gotten bored of my blog...cannot help it lah...been staying at home to study these few days...so am seeing auggy more often than usual...

feel so much closer to my baby boy as i get to spend a little more time with him...BUT i have yet to try changing his diapers...cos not my job haha...=p

my job is to entertain this little fellow and talk to him when everyone else is busy...plus carry and soothe him when he cries...uh lately he cries real loud..my right ear is hurting man...

he likes ppl to talk to him during his awake hours...if not he'll start making noises and cry even to get ur attention...then he'll smile at you...melt melt melt...so sweet right...

juz the other day, bro was standing beside auggy and looking at him...without talking...i commented that he should at least baby talk to his son rather than stand there and stare at him...cos no stimulation mah...so u know wat he did....he started saying in chinese '1, 2, 3, 4, 5' plus fingers counting in front auggy...funnily auggy looked away unitnerested....

then he took my hp, put it in front of auggy and said 'dian hua', took my flower hairclip and said ' hua', lastly the remote control on the table and said ' yao kong qi'...then...auggy smiled!! wah he must be thinking ' hey my dad is weird'

i'm like -_- both son and father are weird...that scene was quite hilarious....haha


my baby boy is smiling! so cute!


yup...auggy dozing off again in his favourite chair


ever heard of this saying...like father like son?
perhaps one day auggy will ride on a vmax too...

these days auggy has been crying quite abit...chubby fat angel's cry is getting on my nerve...hai yo...u know wat he wants? he wants to be probbed over your shoulder and be patted on the back. It always works cos it sure quiet him down when i do that...problem is...it is very tiring for my arm leh....plus i cant sit...once i sit..he will whine...so i have to stand...to move about...-_-

and this fellow always like to dangle his head backwards with his 'woo~' very comfortable face...he can actually sleep like that...very very weird position...weird baby also...next time i'll take photo and let u see...

his face is getting chubbier each day...haha...balloning like two huge air bags...haha...

always like to kiss his cheeks...very therapeutic le....keke...hey...at least i get some incentives for carrying him all the while till he sleeps...tiring one le...


haha...stunned look...currently his cheeks are chubbier than wat u see in the pic...really...


huh...go away...i'm sleepy....

okie...if u saw me in my uniform last sat...appearing at tampines....i havent gone cuckoo due exams okie...

it's the surprise party that nikki's bf secretly arranged for her! keke..very fun! cos we get to wear our old schl uniform! haha my nyjc schl uniform finally comes in handy this time round!

have to say chris and her bf look the cutest among us all...haha...really like sec schl couple!
most of the ppl at party are nikki's sec schl frens...so while she attended to them...we entertained ourselves with polariod phototaking and mahjong sessions...the gals were crazy over the polariod photos and took alot man...haha quite funny...

i dunno how i can tahan schl uniform for 12 years of my life...it's bloody hot and uncomfortable...and u know wat...the skirt rest on my waist not hip!!! biang...it's darn weird...can u imagine...wearing a low waist panty but ur skirt is up to ur waist...~puke blood~

All hail hipster skirts!!! boy do i sound bimbotic...alright shall put on my thinking cap and bia my bio mech...


uniform rulezzzzzzzzz


looks like photos taken in the 70s hor...


chris is the cutest among us! agree?

i'm so sorry if i ever snapped at anyone these days...i'm really short fused lately...workload is up to my head...

squash, fyp proposal, meetup with clinician, wedding dinner, presentations, assignment, reports, exams...i havent even gotten the time to really settle down to study...next wed is bio mech...damn it...this semester is freaking short...

am asked to push for average B for my academic grade....to maintain if not push my clinical grades to a higher level...was told by my manager that i seem to be more of a 'doing' student which is why my clinical grades are better than my academic ones...hmm...didnt realise that myself...

argh...lots of things to do...so little time...

i'm beginning to loath staying home not that i'm home often...am like a tool being used...to be vent upon....treated like an idiot sometimes...i really cant stand it...did i in any way portray such an incapable image that i need to be told of the simplest things...wat i should do, wat i should not...for god sake i'm already 23...perhaps no one in the family has ever treated me seriously...

sigh...told u i'm short fused...fucking tired already yet my mom like to bombard me with complaints...

cant she see how tired i am...how stretched i am...to her me being tired is juz be cos i stayed up late....

Happy advance birthday Geraldine! yeah 21 yo liao...can watch RA show le...muah haha...

Btw...had dinner with bday gal and my fellow classmates...had so much fun! let's juz wait and see how we all will turn out in 8 years time k...keke...not forgetting our annual reunion dinner...woo! fun!!

though we have not graduate yet...we're already talking about work and stuff...perhaps it's due to the talk that we each individually had with HB... =)

sigh...i need to work harder...jia you everyone!


Geri, the bday gal


my dear classmates...we had so much fun tonite!


Going-to-be mr and mrs lim =)


Geri , me , kay sing and nikki


hehe...look at my eye bag...can see how tired i am...

fen and me

hehe...yeah...i'm a nutcase....juz feeling glad...

fen is not going away afterall...yeah...

i'm not being mean hor...i am glad that she's gotten the job offer...i'm supportive of her taking it up...it's juz the idea of her being away for like a year or 2....it saddens me...really...cos i already felt she bu de when she told me about it...afterall...we've grew up together and never quite been apart for that long except for her 3 wk nz trip...

gal arh...i hope u find a job soon!!

feel like crying...as usual...no tears come out...yet...

wat is worst? to cry cos u feel sad...to cry when someone hurt or disappoint u...to cry for someone or to cry for urself...

there were only those few times when i cried uncontrollably...

over the phone...choking on my tears...telling fen how lost and scared i was...dreading upon the humiliation i have to face upon going back to schl to retake my A level...helplessness...i cried...

hiding my face in my fren's chest...standing at the corner of raffles city after several 'wat happened' that she asked...i just couldnt hold the tears which i held from home all the way to city hall...rejection letter on national day....disappointment...i cried...

words that come out from his mouth...like sharp knives stabbing me one at a time...letting me bleed to death...desperate to seek approval and recognition when in the end all that i get are nasty comments....hurt...i cried...

lying in bed...faking a headache...dreading to go schl...u asked me wat is the matter with me... you said it hurts to see me in this state...i didnt know...how much u love me till the moment u cried with me...depressed....i cried....

excited to meet him for dinner after clinical...one phone call and he brushed me aside with his work...somehow i know i'm not as important anymore...upset....i cried....

tonnes of work...lack of sleep...feeling numbed....tired....tears are rolling down...

btw...latest update bout me...

posted to imh instead...will be with a mobile team where i'll go to patients' house together with a team of doctors and nurses...how cool is that~~ looking forward to it!!!

row row row your boat, gently down the stream..

it rained today...cloudy noon...not much sun...despite all these...we went ahead with the sun tanning session...it was fun...we juz laze around...chit chat and play frisbee...sze threw it and hit my head!! can u imagine that...wah kaoz...i didnt see properly lah cos wasnt wearing glasses..still it hurts man...

today there's only me, vic, sze and choon yew...miss ck...miss yd...both are out of town...plus yilong went for soccer...so my 'family outing' downsized to juz the four of us...

really didnt do much...didnt even put sun tan lotion cos the sun aint hot enough...haha...didnt go into the sea...cos didnt feel like swimming...juz lie on the sand and chat with vic while the two bros entertain themselves...haha...talked about the past...friendship, relationship, feminism, all sort of things...i love the company i'm with today...

sigh...o man...i miss ck and yd...terribly...i dunno why...it's like suddenly my two biatch buddies aint by my side...feel abit weird le...heng ck will be back from vietnam on tue...if he's gone for attachment too...i dunno wat i'll do...sigh sigh sigh....i hope he had fun for his trip...wonder how's handsome's weekend been...sorry have yet to reply ur letter cos been tied up with work lately...hehe am already thinking wat to seal the letter with this time round...hm...

leopoard doesnt change its spot...sigh...how sad for it to be used on a person...

wat a day...

woke up early in the morning to print out proposal...rushed to schl to do bio mech testing...have to thank nikki for her run

then we rushed off for jo's class...

haha...gotten jo pissed off cos few of us werent watching the video which we should be doing when she's not around...instead we're busy chatting about degree conversion and other stuffs...she was so mad that she came in...and walked out of our class...later on demanded an apology letter from those who arent watching the clips...

oops...okie lo...we wrote apology letter...went in to apologise to her...whole lot of us man...haha almost half the class...haha...the moment we entered her room...she broke into smile and gave us a tiny lecture...=p

hehe moral of the story...do apologise to lecturer if u have to...esp when u havent sat thru exams that she'll be marking and always go together in a huge grp...cos it shows sincerity...keke...

anyway lesson ended at 4...bum in lib till 5 plus then head down to bishan to meet ck for dinner...havent seen him for a week...hehe...evening time his parent took his niece down to bishan too...cute gal...took her quite awhile to warm up to me...very fun to play with...and she likes my bag! haha...great minds think alike hor...haha

after that i head down to raffles place to meet my cousin for a drink...poor gal havent had her dinner due to hectic work schdule...we ate and drank red wine at this small cosy eating place...nice music and good service...plus the wine taste good too...

talked alot with my cousin...so nice~ havent done that for a long time cos we've been busy with our lives...hehe...feels so good to juz sit and chat...esp after such a packed day..hehe contended enough...

Happy Birthday my dear vic =) may happiness to be with u all the time and may all ur wish come true!

been feeling weird since last sat...yesterday was even worst...dunno wat's wrong...like system shutting down...feeling weak and all...plus my unknown backache...argh...freaking irritating...i cant even bend down...if i need to get things from floor i need to do knee flexion lift...trunk flexion is totally out of the pic...i think my classmates will get wat i mean... sigh...eh am i getting old or wat...agrh..i'm only 23 le...

woo~ think i dun need to sleep liao...lotsa things to do...

yippee...going drinking with my cousin this fri! haha...yeah!

yeah!

gotten an A minus for my previous clinical placement and a B plus for the clinical presentation...i'm not boasting...juz wanna share my happiness...cos at least it tells me that my effort and resilience paid off...yeah!

hehe...things may not have gone as smoothly for me for the past few months...but at least i've managed to pull thru it as best as i can...and i can proudly say i've survived it all!!!

coming clinical will be even more challenging...mm...hopefully i can learn more...it'll be something different...cos i'll need to assess disabled clients and allocate suitable jobs for them...think it'll mean assessments after one another and reports after reports....plus squash training after work...challenging enough?sigh...the only thing is...how to get from one place to another...

give me a pair of wings...or pls teach me how to teleport myself...of cos without the risk of turning into a fly....haha

~ALL HAIL~ Starbucks at Raffles City

yesh...as u can see...i have found my phone...i dun have to re-key my contacts! wah haha...am i lucky or wat...

o well...really have to thank the staffs over at Raffles City Starbucks....such nice and honest ppl who kept the phone for me!! haha...happy happy...good thing about my 'public handphone'...its simple function has put others off...so unattractive that no one wants to take it...haha...

wanted to buy coffee from the starbucks there to show my appreciation...but silly me forgotten to bring wallet today...haha so i can only give them my praises here...

lesson learnt: pls back up ur contacts in hardcopy format...cos i realise in the case of losing hanphone...all ur frens' no. will be lost...really tedious to trace back leh...so...olden days of owning a small A-Z-obiang phonebook is actually useful!

i'm lucky afterall...keke...

yippee...juz gotten yd's letter! happy happy...

my mum is carrying auggy and singing to him now...so sweet...

he's such a lucky baby...to have a granny who adores him and loves him so much...willing to carry him in weird position that he finds comfortable and sing him to sleep...

i once craved for such attention from my late grandma but it had never occur...

first of all...sigh...

i lost my hp...carelessly misplaced it...think i left it at the cityhall starbucks...didnt realise it till i get to boon keng train station...too late to go back to retrieve cos it was already 11pm...so shall try my luck tomolo...

didnt feel much of a pinch except for the contacts that i've lost...so ppl...forgive me if i reply ur msg with ' sorry may i know who u are??' cos i really dun have all your no. with me....

apart from this little boo boo...i'm actually quite happy today...went out with my gals...shopped around...and min managed to get her gown...bought myself a straw bag...very nice...like it alot...and it's cheap somemore...haha...okie i need to stop buying stuff...at the rate i'm going think mom is going to kill me...

here are some updated photos of my baby boy...super duper chubby baby...plus my own pic...

actually i juz wanna show yd and ck my latest style...hehe... handsome, i hope u had a great time with ur family!


abit blur cos auggy keeps moving...dun u think he looks like piyo piyo??


hehe my handsome boy...


yippe...cheap skirt i got from bugis village


pretty near to bohemian style lah hor...quite like it...

okie...it's from jessie's and aud's blog...doing it for fun...haha...

seven things that scare me:
1. lizards
2. depression
3. losing my parents
4. being out of control with my life
5. loving someone and commit myself to that person
6. friends leaving me
7. labour pain

seven things i like most:
1. jogging,squash
2. suntanning with my pals
3. chilling out with my friends at Wala Wala or any coffee place or pubs
4. spending time with my family esp baby boy auggy
5. meeting up with my friends, giving them big hugs occassionally and letting them know that i really love them
6. cream brulee
7. ice vanilla latte from starbucks

seven important things in my room:
1. my small pillow, my big pillow
2. my handphone
3. my computer
4. my bed
5. air con
6. my computer chair
7. tissue papers

seven random facts about me:
1. stubborn...will never give in upon things that are totally against my principles
2. quite blur at times...
3. real bitchy at times...or most of the time when i'm with my pals...haha
4. love dogs!!!
5. need lots of assurance from ppl around me and i mind what they think of me
6. adore and love to attend drama productions
7. am quite a messy gal...come look at my room and u'll know...keke

seven things i plan to do before i die:
1. go Tibet and Salem, basically backpacking but those are the two places i die die wanna go
2. get belly button ring
3. be a successful OT and show my relatives that i'm the only one who made it to the medical line...who say we need doc in the family to do that...
4. work and study oversea
5. sing in a pub with yk as the base, yd as the pianist(organ), vicky as the guitarist...haha
6. own a bull terrier, a car
7. move out and live with my friends

seven things i can do:
1. burp real loud
2. long distance running
3. sleep less than 5 hours for approx. a week
4. play squash, badminton and attract shuttlecocks with my head
5. drink 10 shots before being a merlion and falling asleep like a dead log
6. go extra miles for friends who need me and who mean alot to me
7. smile at the simplest thing that is done for me

seven things i cant do:
1. to confront or quarrel with ppl
2. sewing
3. cook a full meal for my family
4. express myself well to others(except for those who really really understand me)
5. eat in a buffet that is worth the amount of money paid
6. cry in front of ppl
7. tell ppl something that is true but know it will hurt them ultimately( pehaps that's why i hold back quite alot sometimes...)

seven things that i say most:
1. wah biang
2. shit you
3. chi da bian
4. damn it
5. pui ( only used in squashcourts when i miss the balls)
6. anything
7. never mind lo

am one happy gal today!!! as always...reatail therapy worked!!

bought a long skirt from bugis village...quite cheap...at least within my affordable range...muah haha...got a plain top to match it too...yippee~~

tried levis jeans with fen too...eh like wat ck said...not outstanding leh...hmm...tried 593...but it juz doesnt seem as appealing...good...then i'll save 139 bucks...too bad for fen...cos hers fit perfectly...haha...she'll be broke....i'll juz stick to my skirts...keke...will continue to hunt for more...

to think that i used to own less than 5 skirts (mind u...it's inclusive of schl uniform skirts...haha) and now i quite like to wear them...am i a late bloomer or wat...feminity juz gotten into me like few years back only...haha...

yippee...i cant wait to meet up with min and apple on sun! miss them so much...sigh...too bad i aint a teacher like them...if not we'll be the 3 musket~chers...haha...having more and more frens into the teaching line...kinda made up to my inability to be one...so cool eh...i'm surrounded by teachers basically...cos my bro is a teacher...sis in law used to be one too...min and apple are teaching now...so is vic who is studying in nie...and jie going to be a pe teacher...wow....alot eh...haha...cant wait to hear them talking about their students...trust me the stories about them are funny...cos bro always narrate things that happened in schl...can be quite hilarious...haha

sometimes i ask myself if i regret not going into teaching chinese...i do miss chinese seriously...while others are struggling or avioding to learn it...i took higher chinese at A level and actually enjoyed it despite not having O level higher chinese as my foundation...haha....daring hor...

i mean my whole life revolves around chinese till i was 21...how can i not miss something that i truly enjoy and excel in...=) but sometimes things juz dun work out despite me being stubborn and fighting really hard for it...so letting go is something i have to do in order to move on...

=) no regrets...juz that i'm damn pai seh about my chinese standard now...cos i think it's really bad...haha....juz like wat i told yd previously...i wanted to write my first letter to him in chinese...but i realise my thoughts cant be processed thru my existing chinese system!!! argh..i think mine need to be upgraded soon....haha

listening to radio...current song played ~ Stop, look, listen (to your heart) by Michael Macdonald & Toni Braxton

yippe...friday is here...tiring week...really tiring week...but i'm not sleeping yet...

2 am in the morning...aint sleepy...perhaps cos i juz drank 2 cups of coffee...hehe...

'wat are the happy things that happened to you lately apart from auggy being born?'

yk always like to ask me questions like this...make me run thru things that have happened lately and sift out the ones that are worth remebering and feel happy about...=)

i miss hanging out with him and yd...juz the 3 of us...although i always have to bear with the bullying...i dun mind...kinda miss that actually...better not let yk know...if not he'll hit/push me doubly hard next time...haha

happy for yd...cos his family flying over to see him tomolo...bet he misses them lots...treasure the time u spend with them o...and dun forget my beach bag!! haha

hehe burped my baby boy juz now...sigh he kept puking milk...must have drank too much man...juz this morning i was playing with him...i kept poking his cheeks...cos they are REALLY chubby...i think he got irritated by me poking...ended up crying...=p haha...sorry...cant help it...

keke...kissed him on his forehead too before putting him to sleep...to compensate for the irritating himin the morning...muah haha...

werid dreams...disrrupt my sleep when i'm so deprieved of it...sigh...

sore throat...abit feverish...

i'm so happy for my two frens...seeing them so happily together...keke...tells me i did the right thing...haha...

wow...for the whole of today...i didnt have any coffee till now...those who know me well...will know that i usually take more than 2 cups a day..haha..

i really have to thank geri...for she's been so patient with me all these while...since sat...i've been bugging her with tonnes of qn regarding my report...she ans all of my really stupid and ridiculous qn...and she taught me how to do the stupid irritating biomech tut today too...thank you so much gal....i truly appreciate it...and really sorry for bugging u ever so often...

and jessie babe...thanx for always taking my crap....i know sometimes i keep repeating the same thing...issues that i should not dwell on....thanx for listening and talking to me...=)
the entry u wrote...it's interesting...haha...meatballs aint necessary the thing that make spagetti taste good...there's always other better ingredients to make it taste even better...~wink~

am done with my coffee soon..which means working time is about to start...

at the moment...i'm abit scared....cos i realise i may be faced with emptiness in about 3 months time...once competition is over...training wont be so intense...i may work out less...i may not be so busy....and i'll get fat again....argh...dun wan le...i wanna be busy....like drama nite last time...i always feel alittle lost and sad after the whole thing is staged successfully....

like everything else...i have to learn to let go somehow....

before i start my biomech...did some tests that i found on handsome's website...haha...i need some fun after a tiring day...like today...

why do i feel that i'm always the bad guy...although i try to make the best out of the bad situation...if they're in my shoes how would they feel if i said the same thing to them...

Your Seduction Style: The Coquette

You are a pro at playing the age old game of hard to get. Your flirting style runs hot and cold, giving just enough to keep them chasing you. Independent and self-sufficient, you don't need any one person to make you compelte. And that independence is exactly what makes people pursue you.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

Your Love Style is Eros

For you, love is all about the passion! And chances are, you're currently in love. You have a strong physical response to love... And you are great at committing (As long as the person makes your toes curl!)

What's Your Love Style?

You're an Passionate Kisser

For you, kissing is about all about following your urges If someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of story You can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kisses A total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble

You're a Romantic Kisser

For you, kissing is all about feeling the romance You love to kiss under the stars or by the sea The perfect kiss involves the perfect mood It's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

when are we having chalet again???

i juz find this pic so darn funny...i look such a glutton right...

wala nite!

in total i only slept 2 hours since this morning till now...still gotta do biomech later...it's starting again...the vicious cycle...

o btw did i mention...today there was no lesson at all for the whole damn day...juz rushed down to schl to hand in the assignment and have to wait till 3.30pm to go visit Oasis Day Centre....instead of going home to sleep during the empty slot...i went to toa payoh and orchard with the gals for shoping instead....juz dun feel like going home to sleep...dunnoe why...

fen said my lifestyle got problem...cos so little sleep and never have proper meals...

i think i'm on the run again...to where...i dunno...i juz wanna keep running...when will i stop? till my energy run dry...

maybe that's why i like long distant running...cos at one point u may be so tired that u juz wanna give up...but as u hang on and push urself alittle further...u'll realise u wont feel the tiredness anymore and u can acutally run more than u're expected to...

it's always a mind game...set ur end point alittle further each time and at the end of the day...u'll realise the extra miles that u've managed to cover....

into my hectic life...

half of my classmates are online thru the nite...somehow i find it quite fun...to have ppl rushing assignment together with me.. hehe cos i tot i'm the only one who is rushing...

now is 5.42 am...didnt sleep the whole nite..been typing since morning...actually is from saturday till now! printing my papers out...haha finally...i hope it's alright...may not be as detailed but i've tried my best le...24 pages long le...okie lah cos it's double spacing...still there's quite alot of words there....

baby boy not at home...keep thinking i heard his cry...haha...eh dun think about the eerie part lah...juz that i've gotten accustomed to his presence...

soothed him to sleep twice today...he's so cheeky...keep wanting us to carry him to sleep...

he is so darn cute and so darn chubby that i cannot help but keep poking at his cheeks and kissing them...muah haha...

i love to see him fall asleep on my chest...little fat angel...haha...i shall go get him a pair of wings! sure look cute on him!

come to think of it i have yet to get him toys except for the photo frames that i intend to display his pic in.

i juz like to spend more time carrying him and talking to him at this point of time...i mean, some how he'll out grow the toys that he has but at least i know i have spent time with my baby boy, putting him to sleep and burping him...muack muack....

grovvy nite....

where is it?

wala wala of cos...haha....what can i say...i'm a boring person...so i always stick to the place that i love unless i manage to find replacement...which so far has yet to surface...

anyway last nite was fun...though it's not my unexpected band performing...EIC aint that bad either...and they actually sang damien rice's song juz before i left...cool~~...too bad they sang cannon ball...if they were to sing amie...i think i'll melt...haha...

didnt drink alot last nite...but enough to get myself high...keke...and i'm so sorry babe that u have to take my nonsense...i always like to bug u when i'm getting high or drunk =p but thanx for replying me...

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received a card from handsome in the noon when i got back from schl.

when i open the card...i see myself in it...keke...only u and i will know wat i meant by 'seeing myself in the card'...haha...

tears swell up as i read wat u've wrote and i read it like 3 times...things that u pointed out, i didnt quite realise it myself...

there are times i thought wat i've said is something that i believe in when in actual fact i myself dun even seem to be convienced....i'm trying...really...have always been a constant struggle for me...i dunno why some ppl can lead their life in such a simple way whereas mine seem to be complex...or is it the way i perceive it?

handsome thanx for going the extra mile...

and yah i felt the hug when i open the card...keke...muack!

yippee...new look for my pencil case...the blok on the top left hand corner is the failed attempt when i first try it...haha...the rest i did it all at one shot...if u can make out wat i've design there...drinks on me!


seven dwarfs...where is snow white? i'm too dark to be one...=(