Do I miss clinical work? Of course. I miss the kiddos and the parents (not the crazy ones). I even dreamt about conducting sessions with the kids from time to time. I still keep in touch with some of my ex-clients and their parents. Some are coping well, some are not. Some mummies still messaged me occasionally when they needed help. Humbled that they still keep me in the loop and seek my advice from time to time. Come to think of it, it does mean something that they still trust me on my opinions when it comes to their kids.
Do I regret putting my career on hold for the cheeky monkey of mine? To be honest, no. True that I earn alot lesser and I am still adapting to being dependent on my husband for financial support, I am just glad that I have the chance to witness every milestone that this baby of mine has and is still going through. No doubt it is very mundane and a 24/7 kind of job; no doubt that I will lose it sometimes and go into the crazy mother/wife mode; no doubt that I complained alot....I still think it is worth it to be able to go through this process without having to split myself between work and home.
I love it when I get to wake up with my koala every morning. We often like to laze around in bed, partly because I refused to wake up. Although this boy is a very cheeky, rough and limit testing little person, I still love seeing him chuckle when we do rough play together. Now that he can speak simple words, I love it that he often calls for me - be it to irritate me with the non stop 'mama...mama...mama...' or to share/show me something that he found. I love it that he still hugs me as a bolster to sleep at night and always lifts up my shirt to touch my tummy/ belly button (yes that's how he falls asleep each night. He loves my fat tummy hahaha). Not too sure how we are going to get him to sleep on his own when the new house is here, we shall see how it goes.
I guess the best feeling in the world is when I see how much koala loves playing/irritating his papa. It's like watching two kids playing together. Both are equally cheeky, noisy and crazy when they play with each other. It just warms my heart to see Puppy being silly when he's around koala. Perhaps now I should slowly let go and let them have father-son alone time, so that mummy can have 'me time' hahaha....o well...we shall see!