So happy!

Am I lucky or what...

To catch Kylie's concert, danced throughout the night and see her so up close!! She's really a gorgeous chick I tell you...

To shop, tour and bargain with the best guide ever...

To be able to come back Singapore before the airport is shut down due to demonstrations...

Dearest gage...thank you for bringing us around and helping us bargain with the locals...we girls cannot get best price for bras without your help! haha...

thank you fen for looking after me...during the you-know-what!

thank you taufiq for letting us stay over and make a mess out of his place!

thank you Bing shen for looking after my bag and bringing it back the next day!

I heart Thailand...and Kylie....

I've never thought I could travel to Bangkok, catch an awesome concert and then be back to work the next day...

gagey thanx for making this happened!

Now I'm starting to think, perhaps I can do alot more with my life...my way, my say....

happy....and....sad??

I'm going Bangkok tonight...I'm going with a heavy heart...

I have 3 assessment reports and 7 summary reports to type, all by mid Dec...and another 10 something reports to type for update...to be done by Jan

I think I can officially camp in the office to type reports when I come back from Bangkok...So dead man...so dead...

Looking forward to watch Kylie...I hope she can cheer me up a little....

I'm a little lost...

Don't know where to start, don't know how to start...

I haven't been thinking about things around me as much as I used to...

I'm going with the flow, living day by day without much of a goal except to earn more money, to save up so that I can get by in case anything happen...

I'm at the neither happy nor sad zone...is this good or bad?

I think at times I just want to be like that wooden chair, to feel useful at some point of time, useful to someone or something at least...

I'm still a little loss...

Where exactly should I head to?

upset...

It's been a week...that I've been so tired after work and really really sleepy...but when I do have the chance to sleep, I can't sleep at all.

So many things happened this week, in fact it should be since I'm back...I feel like screaming...I feel like crying my heart out...but what's the point...

After all that have happened, I'm still deemed as a whiner, a bitch, someone who drove another up the wall and to the point of breaking down...

You need someone to blame all the fault upon, there's jayna...

You need someone to act as the punching bag, there's jayna...

You need someone to run errands and do shit work for you, there's jayna...

At the end of the day, I'm still dispensable...just words of 'I can't take it anymore' and I'm chucked aside like a toy which is no longer attractive or interesting to the child...

You are right...I'm that puzzle piece...only difference is...I dun fit in at all..

random thoughts...

I finally went to book a date for basic theory test. Seriously wanna get the license so that at least I can drive around abit. It'll be even better if I can own a car...or maybe not...

I tried to run all my errands today but only managed to get the basic theory date fixed cos the queue in the bloody driving centre was so long...planned to get my watch strap fixed but haven't gotten the time to do it. Always wanted to get it replace when I knock off but usually when I do, the shop is closed as well. It's been like what, 4 months since I bought it and actually wore a watch for real after so long. Maybe I never meant to wear a watch...haha...that's why I'm perpentually late...

At the moment I'm charging my camera. Battery was flat since the day of my graduation. I haven't uploaded graduation photos yet and I have yet to upload mt buller photos too...I am a true blue procrastinator...cannot stand it...can someone wake me up pls...

I was so tired yesterday that I slept in and bummed at home the entire day...caught the marathon series of heroes 2 and ordered macdelivery for dinner simply becos I didnt wanna miss any episode and that no one was home the whole day...I can foresee myself replaying such scene in the next 10 years...how pathetic can one be...

O anyway, I finally opened the box that I sent back from Melbourne. I guess by opening it, it kinda mean I've finally accepted the fact that I'm back...for good...In the midst of opening the badly taped up box, I accidentally cut my thumb with the rusty penknife...Then in the evening I attempted piecing and fixing the metal clothes hanger I bought from Ikea the other day...in the midst of screwing the nails in...I accidentally jabbed the screwdriver into my thigh...could the screwdriver be any sharper, I think my neighbours can see me hopping down the flat trying to flag for a cab with the screwdriver still embedded in my thigh...

Sigh...for fuck sake...if I cannot even get these simple tasks done, how am I gonna live on my own in future...who knows if I try fixing the bulb, I may get myself electorcuted or try to fix the pipe and ended up flooding my unit? Then the worst thing is...who is gonna discover that I'm injured or dead when there's no one else around me...

maybe my pet guinea pig will discover my body and eventually eat me up cos no one is feeding him and he is too hungry...

the boys...

Auggy has grown so much! His new hairstyle looks funny...and he doesnt look like a 3yo at all...















Little one just discovered the 'enjoyment' of nose digging....see how he explore his left and right nostrils...















See...ben ben's shiok face in digging his nose...hahaha