Not just any other Saturday night...

I have nearly forgotten how fun it was to just hang out even if it's late into the night...even if I'm sickish and tired after work...

It was super fun to meet up and have curry fish head together at the place we used to go many years back...

It was fun to have ice cream together and share with the each other the different nice-weird-accquired taste ice cream...

It was nice to drive around, to get lost together and then to sit down at a fast food outlet to just drink and chit chat...

It was great hanging out with the two peeps who love me so much and who can laugh and criticize me openly...I just need this kind of quality time in which I can talk and trash things out...I just need someone whom I know will do anything and everything to make me happy...

At least I know I am important to them as they are to me...and I know no matter what, they'll think of and look out for me...

At least for the two of them...I know for sure...and I am really really grateful for that...really...

It sux to be an adult and to fall sick...

Mom only asked what happened and then went out...

Dad blasted the tv, shocking the hell out of the drowsy me...I had to tune the tv volume down myself...

Bf had a tiring day and ended up falling asleep while talking to me...always...

Lucky me...I do love myself enough to drag the hell out of me to see the doc...and then drag myself back home to sleep...

Where is all the TLC I am supposed to get from the loved ones...

Today...I thought I can have some TLC...but nope...

Ended work at 8 plus and all alone...

Didnt know what to do, dun feel like having dinner, I ended up buying stuffs...

welcome to the adult world...

be mindful...you're on your own and it sux big time...

When I say I'm tired...I am...

Why is it that when I said I'm tired, you would still bring over the manual and sit beside me and started asking me questions...

It's not that I dun wanna help...I did...I took a deep breath and I read the stuff and brief you how to use it...

But it's upsetting that you actually disregard how I fucking feel...

sigh I'm really tired...cant you just at least acknowledge it...

Thank you, oki buta aka butt master aka yingkai...

I know a girl named jiahui (not jia hui), jiahui is true and nice to everyone, everybody likes her she has many friends and jiahui was happy, but dark clouds began to cover jiahui's sky, rain fell and like a sunflower without sunlight, jiahui almost withered in the darkness. Fortunately, jiahui perservered and the rain stopped, clouds began to clear and the sun began shining, jiahui slowly remembers how to be happy again, strangely in jiahui's pursuit of happiness, i grew distant from her, at times, i panciked at the tot of losing a friend n wonders wad can be done to shorten the distance, until one day, when jiahui smsed me and we began chatting, through the short exchanges of messages, memories of the past were evoked and i realised there r so many things abt jiahui that i know, thats impossible to shake off, thats when i realised distance between jiahui n me might be widening, but it just takes simple short interactions to shorten the distance substantially, ha..there arent many ppl in my life that im able to do that with, most ppl just drift apart and never reconcile. so to my dear friend aka fatimah, joojooba, piggy, left butt cheek, of 14 years, (which is half of our current lifetime) happy birthday!

Birthday wishlist!

Here is goes...

1. Iphone

2. Clarins Multi-Active Jour

3. Clarins Multi- Active Nuit

4. Clarins Younger Longer Balm

5. Cosmetics

6. A small cushion for me to hug at night since I threw away my 20+ year old blue pillow...

7. Earrings that don't rust and not too big that the kids can pull them out

8. Teardrop shape pendent preferrably diamond (dropped in rank...ha ha ha)

Okie pretty much it...if i thought of anything I'll add in somemore...

Every year when it's close to my bday, I'm freaking grouchy...I think I am sabotaging myself in some ways...damn...anyway time to sleep...night