yeah...got home early today...considered early cos sun hasn't set yet mah...plus i usually reach home at night...at least i get to have dinner with ma and pa...
dun feel like doing anything..so come here and write something...

actually nothing much...feeling tired as always...am always sleepy despite the no. of hours that i sleep...mb it's time to take some supplements...sickening i'm reaching 23 and my body is like an old woman

quite happy yesterday...cos get to have dinner out with my whole family...when i say whole family it means bro, sis-in-law plus my parents...of cos that inculde the little baby in my sis-in-law's stomach...it's been a loooong time since we dine out together...usually we eat at home...but i've always like to have dine out...change of environment and mum dun need to cook...dad dun need to wash dishes...haha...

am happy that ppl around me are happy...=)

lately i discovered that my neighbour is actually a possessive dog owner...perhaps she's emotionally unstable...cos she has juz given birth...haha
anyway there was this morning i was playing with her cute little doggy at her gate...she gave me a black face and asked me "yes?" in a u-touch-my-dog-and-u-die kinda tone....i'm like "huh?"

do i need a reason for playing with ur doggy??...isn't it a compliment that someone else find ur dog cute and wanna play with it....o well i tot it was me...mb my face provoked her...but apparently my sis-in-law got it from her too...so yah i think she juz doesnt like ppl to touch her dog...but her doggy is so cute...and whenever i get out of my house every morning...its eyes and waggy tail keep luring me to play with her/him(eh i dunno the sex of the doggy...anyway doesn't matter)...all i can do each time i see it, is to say hi, hello...and it will tilt its head and wag its tail as though it understands wat i'm saying...haha...mb i'm imagining it...but yah that dog is really cute...
too bad lo...can't play with it...

ppl if u ever own a dog...pls be generous enough to let others play with it...i mean...it's nice to see other ppl patting and finding ur pet cute isn't it? why deprive ur pet from human interactions...

i wanna keep dog...arh....labrador or bull terrier...dog dog dog...
anyway it's dinner time...ciao~

Hotel Rwanda

great show i've watched today...so glad i've caught it...pretty shocked by the movie....cos ignorant ppl like me only know that many many innocent ppl were killed during the Rwanda massacre....i have absolutely no idea the situation that was going on in the country and what the ppl had to go thru during that period of time.

life...so vulnerable...

discrimnation....damn powerful weapon to gun ppl down....arent i glad to stay in s'pore where different races can live in harmony....eh seriously, i cringed at the sight of those killing scenes...it's juz a movie no doubt but it's based on true story.....the idea of ripping off one's life juz becos of their skin colour or the tribe they belong to simply make no sense to me...perhaps suppression does play a part...perhaps human beings are made to be vindictive...i dunnoe...juz feel sad to see that such killings had happened and that it is still happening in other parts of the world....

genocide...blood shed and lives taken can never be justified...

seldom do i tear when i watched movie...but this one did...cos i cant imagine myself living in fear all the time...being abandoned by ppl u think u could trust...most of all being completely helpless....i tot city of god is bloody enough...mm think this is worst......watch it yah...worth ur time and money....

okie i need sleep...nite ppl....maybe i'll type more tomolo...tata

i do care....

i'm not the sort that know how to put across my thoughts to others...i dunno why....i juz dunno how

ppl around me are changing and it is always the hardest thing that i have to come to terms with....i love them dearly...really..... and i know that being a true friend i should point out their mistakes and pull them back when they fall....

but i juz dunno how....i dunno how to tell them that they've changed...that they're no longer their old selves...i'm not expecting them to stay the same....things are always changing...so am i...point is i juz dunno how to react to their changes....all i know....is to be by them and with them through the changing process....it may be tough no doubt....but that's all i know i can do...

i dun care to wat extend they've changed or will change...i juz know i can't give up the friendship...i really can't...after all these years...they are too dear for me to let go...i always tell myself no matter how tough it is it's okie...so long i'm with them...i think i sound like a silly woman here trying to make some sense out of her own thoughts...

super duper tired now...cos had squash training yesterday and today.....sometimes i wonder if i ever will be a better player...cos i'm always so slow in reaction...my squash mate has been so encouraging...she keeps reminding me to run for the ball...haha appreciate that...seriously i like her attitude...get me going too...thanx alot yah...hee....

today had a fun lesson...line dancing and cooking too..for my group we made salad....nice looking and delicious one...luckily the homey lemon dressing works...was afraid ppl will find it too sour...anyway we all had a great eating session with my mentor...we ended up chatting with her about backpacking experience and her oncoming trip....gotten some tips from her....envious that she gets to travel and see the world...would love to do that someday...
hai~ she's leaving us at the end of this semester....so sad...i tot she'll see us thru our 3rd year...somehow among the lecturers...she's one of the more easy going ones....gonna miss her...appreciated her presence during my attachment...guided me quite abit in handling pts....

btw...my aunt called my mum yesterday...cos my cousin told her i have a malay boyfriend...and she actually told mum to talk me out of it...reason being there's religion issues being involved and that malays tend to have many wives....-_-'' i nearly flipped...she being more educated than my mum actually said that malays tend to have many wives....pretty funny...i know she cares about me...but sometimes things she says can really be abit weird...

anyway was talking about it with mummy....my parents are pretty open minded with my relationship...they may be old but they're able to accept my choices....mum did ask me...why of all guys i know i actually choose to be with mr H...haha...as in how come dun choose chinese choose malay....i only shrugged my shoulders and told her things juz happen and that i'm happy with present situation...not sure if she understands but i juz wanna lead my life the way i want and be happy with it....is it too much to ask for?


mr H~ pls dun be offended by wat my aunt said eh...she didnt mean it...wanted to talk to u about it last nite...but was too tired....will talk to u again...

gtg....seriously...i'm drained...energy low...need zzz....soon....nite everyone.....

bumming around...

was dragging myself to go squash today...cos was feeling moody...think cos period coming and yah... right now am one red blooded woman....not that i fancy period...am juz happy that i dun have to go thru that emotional swings again...can u imagine...u're not upset but yet u feel so...all becos of estrogen making u to behave so...~sigh~

anyway didnt regret going for squash...cos it turn out to be fun as usual....haha...the scene of us cleaning the blood stains together in the squash court...mm...it's quite heartwarming...esp the two juniors who helped out on their own....mm...so good...=) ...and of cos my fellow squash mates as well...hehe
okie kendo ppl are nice...at least they offered to clean the bloodstains...not as bad as i tot they are...okie lah shant find fault with them...so long they keep the squash courts in good conditions...shall work things out with them...at the very least the authorithy wont find excuses of courts not being fully utilised...

bathed in schl with the gals after squash and then went to meet mr H for dinner

was at orchard....went for coffee at forum starbucks...always like to laze around there, drinking my usual....observing ppl and have my chit-chatting session...

we were basically juz looking at ppl and cars that went by....poking fun at how weird some ppl can dress and going googar over gorgeous cars....quite fun....haha...went tanglin for dinner....super quiet...unlike orchard that is packed with ppl...sat at the eating place reading magazines after we're done with our food...nice...juz like that noon where we sat at coffee club reading papers...rem? hehe...

ooo we saw kegan kang too...with this loud spoken lady...basically i can only hear the lady's voice most of the time...she really talks abit too loudly...cos i cant hear kegan kang's voice at all though his mouth is moving....

something i wanna put down...sorta a continual from yesterday's blog....
how weird...guys' perception of pretty gals always differ from that of ours....rarely do we see eye to eye upon issues esp on the topic of beauty....mb that's why we can never understand each other totally...cos the way we view things around us is from totally different angles...mb that's why man is from mars and woman from venus? haha...

i ate from morning till nite!

havent been blogging for weeks!!! stupid com crash on me..and now cos of the stupid horse virus i have to reformat again soon...

busy life busy me....busy with schl work, busy with squash and of cos busy with my mr H...yah yah...am attached...not something new cos those who always read my blog should know it by now...have training 5 days a week for squash...need to make schedule with my committee...must take turns to rest if not sure burn out...

wanna talk about wat i did yesterday....muah haha...such a glutton...i practically ate from morning till nite...from home to outside....

morning~ woke up at 10...such a luxury....had bread and water...

noon~ mommy cooked chilly crab!!! was just telling nikki the other day that i missed mummy's cooking and that the crabs she cooked is the best ever....and today she really cooked it!!! so happy...ate some before i went out to meet my frens...very contended le....

noon noon~~met up with yk and yd...woo hoo....went to eat at robertson quay....yk brought us to this jap restuarant to eat....really nice and cosy place...filled with japanese ppl and japanese books....food there is superb...desserts too...really nice place to hang out...yk...not that i didnt trust u...i really am too lazy to search for the place myself...haha...

we hang out at the place fro 2 to 530....ordered 3 different dishes...curry rice and ramen of different soup base....wanted to taste different dishes so we end up rotating our food to each other...abit unglam...but who cares...haha...desserts are good...cos it's not the sort that u get to eat outside...really jap jap kinda stuff....yum yum

talked about man and woman...why is it so hard for one spiece to understand the other...how come there's actually books like: man from mars, woman from venus, being published. Talked about sigmund freud and one of his theories....talked about self centredness...interesting topics to chat...and we had so much fun trying to understand wat each other is trying to convey on the ideas we have...i also tried very hard to make out wat yk was saying...cos this chap kept mumbling when he's in the restaurant...all becos it's a jap place and jap ppl are soft spoken...-_- wah liao....first time seeing him to 'gentle' -_-''....

really nice to hang out with old frens...not walking around but to juz sit...talk and catch with each other...love it....

evening~ went suntec with yd...shopping...nothing much le...cos i dunno wat to buy for new year...zero ideas on wat to wear...sian...still i bought a top and a panty from bodynits...muah haha...

yan met up with us then...and u know wat...it's eating time again...went mache and we oredered tonnes of food...calamari, mixed veg, rosti, crepes, fish and chips...cant believe i ate so much...really too much...never spend my day out eating from noon till nite...never tried that before...agrh...so fat...it's either my period coming or i have been exercising too much...haha...

sickening...hormones seems to be fluctuating lately...think it's the medication...why am i a woman...have to go thru so much trouble...period didnt come i feel abnormal...when it comes i feel sian...and now i have to be on medication to make sure it's regular...so much disadvantages biologically...ppl have to be worried about me....questioning me if things are okie...concern concern...i know...hai yah see..i'm blabbering rubbish...

gtg for squash...will try to write as frequent as possible...

tomatoes!!!

muah haha....4 beauties' cherry tomatoe plant has blossomed!!! wah haha....the fact that i can actually taste the fruit makes me so happy...cos as u know watever i have planted have all died eventually...so now only left this cherry tomatoes that i shared with my classmates....luckily there's hydoponics...if not i think the plant will die under my hands too...keke...the tomatoes are sweet and juicy...if there are more, mb can let u guys try yah...

schl started in a glimpse man...one moment i'm stress with attachment and the next i'm back to schl again...then two months later i'm back to attachment again...o my...so fast so fast...this sem is gonna be tough...schl work, attachment, squash....think i'll be stretched among these stuffs...esp trainings....i hope i can pull thru it and not get burn out...erm but then i've been feeling sleepy easily...think it's age thingy arh...o no...

was discussing about club stuff juz now...abit worried cos i realise there's so much i need to look into and we are not very much supported by the schl...hai~

anyway this sem got alot of fun things going on...cos i'm actually learning cooking...-_-'' if my classmates get diarrhea pls dun blame me...cos i think the food i cook can only be fit for my stomach....haha...seriously i think so...except for baking lah...but that is if little cheif is baking with me...anyway i'll try my best to balance btw schl work and cca....i cant afford history to repeat...let's juz say i'll die die make sure i'll make it thru...

guys...havent met up since x'mas...will see u all on sat k...i try not to be late...hehe

stress is building up for u...i dunno wat i can do to help...but hang in there k...at the most we suffer together...haha...think i'll be stress too...see u in schl yah...=)