tonite...germany vs argentina...

hmm...why do i care about soccer...i dun actually...but i'm excited...

why?

becos the alcohol that comes along with it will make the whole soccer thingy more interesting...haha...drinking with squashies tonite!!! i cant wait! i miss those crazy drinking days!!! i miss the high feeling that i get...i miss giggling with the girls and stealing smooches from them juz cos i'm drunk...

yeah...i miss drinking...a hell lot...

at the reception table

some pics taken from apple's wedding!

sisters and the bride!

wu ren bang!

i fucking blew my top juz now...

i'm tired...i juz wanna watch tv...okie living room no tv...never mind...went to mama's room to watch...dunno wat happened scv channels cant be recevied despite me tunning it the other day...mom started to raise her voice...claiming i did something to the tv...

i did wat i'm told wat more do u want...the other time i tune it with my eyes half closed even...cos u wanted to the soccer channel to be up for dad to watch...i did that...wat more do u want...

already i'm freaking tired...from talking the whole day and being patient with ppl the whole day...i juz wanna laze and watch tv...why cant i do that...

now i cant even watch dvd cos freaking vcd player cant play dvd...i'm too lazy to move the dvd player to mom's room...cos already there's no space to put another player in her room...

watever...think i'll juz coop up in my room and look at my blur computer screen...everything is breaking down man...bloody hell...

bloody headache didnt qutie leave me since fri....it was so bad on fri that i nearly puked the food i ate during graduation dinner..i ended up having to leave early cos i still gotta work from 8-5pm on sat....

now it's aching lightly as though waiting for the full blown....

what's wrong arh...i have no freaking idea...

life at the moment pretty mundane...nothing much except work...sleep and occasionally meet up with frens for meals when i have the energy...

5 weeks into work...i havent quite able to meet the daily quota...cham...and my stamina getting worst...i havent been jogging for months...the last time i tried...my cough came back....and now by the time i reached home...i juz wanna sleep...

pretty much cooped up in my world...putting most of my time in work...i actually dreamt that my cheeky stroke pt talked to me while i was napping in the afternoon....-_-''

coming sept worst...have to travel all the way to jurong to work...wah liao...who's gonna pay for all those expenses man...i'll juz camp outisde the medical centre lar...

no time fr myself...i need a break...i wanna get out...i cant wait to go aust...meet ang mos and get hitched there...haha...wah cannot take it i go sleep liao...

a patient of mine passed away the other day...she kinda reminded me of my late grandma...

seen her a few times...but she was too weak to carry out any therapy sessions with me...it's sad to see her getting to the end stage...cos i literally saw her turn from bad to worse...the last time i've seen her...she was gasping for air....her edema was so bad that her hands were swollen and what we can do is to bandage her hands to ease the edema and to position her so that she can be more comfortable...

the next morning...other patients of the same ward told me she had passed away quietly in the morning... no one knows...

sigh...life is so fragile...

me and hwee lan

me and charmaine

Graduation!!! me and hua beng...

I wanna scream my lungs out...why am i always a disappointment to ppl around me...and why do i get disappointed so easily...

perhaps i should never expect reciprocity to occur in the first place...but i'm only human...ding ding...time's up...wat's the next step???

yeah...saturday...today dun need to work...nua at home...best....played with auggy...kena scatched all over....

gonna go shopping! yeah yeah!