Resentment...

I wish I could believe you then I'll be alright
But now everything you told me really don't apply
To the way I feel inside
Loving you was easy once upon a time
But now my suspicions of you have multiplied
And it's all because you lied

[Chorus:]
I only give you a hard time
'Cause I can't go on and pretend like
I haven't tried to forget this
But I'm much too full of resentment

Just can't seem to get over the way you hurt me
Don't know how you gave another who didn't mean a thing, no
The very thing you gave to me
I thought I could forgive you and I know you've changed
As much as I wanna trust you I know it ain't the same
And it's all because you lied

[Chorus:]
I only give you a hard time
'Cause I can't go on and pretend like
I haven't tried to forget this
But I'm much too full of resentment

I may never understand why
I'm doing the best that I can and I
I tried and I tried to forget this
I'm much too full of resentment

I'll always remember feeling like I was no good
Like I couldn't do it for you like your mistress could
And it's all because you lied

[Bridge:]
Loved you more than ever
More than my own life
The best part of me I gave you
It was sacrificed
And it's all because you lied

[Chorus:]
I only give you a hard time
'Cause I can't go on and pretend like
I tried and I tried to forget this
But I'm too damn full of resentment

I know she was attractive but I was here first
Been ridin' with you for six years why did I deserve
To be treated this way by you, you
I know your probably thinking what's up with Bee
I been crying for too long what did you do to me
I used to be so strong but now you took my soul
I'm crying cant stop crying cant stop crying
You could of told me that you wasn't happy
I know you didn't wanna hurt me
But look what you done-done to me now
I gotta look at her in her eyes and see she's had half of me
How could you lie

If I were a boy...

I miss my baby boys...

Just received the Xmas card made by Auggy...so pretty...I can just picture him sitting there and patiently pasting the sequins on the snowman...I miss Auggy and ben ben so much...

Was walking around children section trying to look for a gift for Emma...baby clothing are all so cute...esp the type that I like...it's amazing how those little stuffs can make me feel happy at times...yet give me that tinge of sadness too...I wonder when it'll be my turn to buy those stuffs for my own baby...hmm....

18 grams of love...

爱情到底有多重？

一张信纸八克，

一张信封十克，

加起来，

一封情书，

十八克...

Goldfish eyes...

I want to stop this nightmare now...

Pissed...

I freaking blew my top at strangers...adults strangers....

Went to Amk to run some errands, freaking north-south line was packed...I've been moving in and out of the doorway cos I was near it and I wanted ppl to be able to go in as well as come out.

Before I reached Amk, I had the space to move in so I moved in. When I reached Amk, I was stuck. I was fucking stuck.

NO one moved or gave space for anyone of us who needed to alight... NO ONE! So what did I do? I said ' Excuse me! Excuse me!' nicely....No one moved....the freaking china man right at the doorway DID NOT move...until I pushed and screamed " MOVE PPL!"

Fucking pissed! Adults...they are freaking functional adults! Normal adults! Cant you just move your assess a little so that others can move too...come on, where's the considerations?!!!

Singapore is overcrowded...filled with selfish ppl around!!! agrh!!!!!

Half marathon

I can't feel my legs anymore...as much as I love muscle aches, this time round the experience is wayyyyyyyyyy out of my league...ask fen and gage...they'll know how much I whined and gave that grimace- of- pain look with every slightest movement I try to execute.

Yeah...conquered half marathon without training...haha...ran 8 km, walked 13km...halfway thru the running I was so darn hungry...very tempted to run into Kallang Mac when we ran past it...and then came free bananas...which drove the walking me into running pace just so I could get one...never in my life have I been so happy to see bananas...yes...very funny...

Started the race with Angie, then ran off alone eventually...so the rest of the journey I was pretty much alone...okie...Kylie did keep me company quite a bit...

I thought to myself if I manage to conquer this run, I should be able to conquer anything else in life...still I find myself being the same old me...nothing changed or am I being naive to think one run can give me the strength that I'm looking for...

Anyway some pics from bkk trip...