Of 2014...

Here I am recovering from another bulk of gastric flu, listening to chinese songs and waiting for the air conditioner repairman to do the maintenance. Am also trying to get work done (not...really not in the mood to...) while waiting for hubby to buy ingredients for me to cook for our lunch.

Have not been on this platform for quite awhile, have not typed my thoughts so freely for quite awhile.

I am thankful for everything that happened in 2014. The good, the not so good, the bad. Yes, even the bad. 

I am thankful for my family who has been very supportive and helpful during my wedding preparation and my transition to being another man's wife. My beloved parents have forever been so thoughtful and least demanding of me. 

I am thankful that I am able to help and ride the waves with my one and only sibling. Yes I grumbled and I lamented but I am still glad that he turned to me for help during the down times. I cannot imagine how he went through what he went through and still goes through. I guess I will never understand. I can only listen and try to mediate. I am thankful that I can still do that. I do hope he will see the good in everything and everyone around him. It's not easy to get rid of that extremely dark cloud above us but who says the sun will not triumph and create some rain above our heads, only to let us see the rainbows at the end of day?

I am thankful for my hubby for accepting me for who I am and still loving me. I know you love me and have been utmost patient with me. The respect, concern, passion and love you've showered me, I still think I am the luckiest girl ever to have you by my side. With you by my side, I think we can overcome many many mountains (apart from Mt Kinabalu ;p )

I am thankful for my in-laws for being so open minded and guiding me along the way ever since I moved in together with my hubby. They have been so understanding and easy going. My mother-in-law has been so thoughtful, always teaching me new stuffs and pointing out things to take note of in the family. I still remember she called me to the kitchen to tell me how to differentiate if the egg is cooked. It's the same kind of feeling when my mum was teaching me cooking stuffs. My father-in-law has been really great in sharing stories of the family with me as well. He's the gem in the family!

I am thankful for my brother and sister-in-law. I have now loved the moments of the 4 of us, sitting at mahjong table - gossiping and laughing at one another's silly acts, perhaps most of the time mine and my hubby's. I hope we will continue to do that when we move into Belgravia. 

I am thankful for my friends and colleagues. I know I have not been the best in keeping up with most of my friends. Perhaps occasional messages are not enough but I would continue to stay in touch. You guys still mean alot to me! I am so thankful to have a bunch of supportive colleagues at work. It has been rough and their presence makes everything so much more bearable. 

I am thankful to be able to learn that I should have stuck to the motto of separating personal stuffs from work. In my 6 coming 7 years of work, it took me a good 3-4 years to open up and share personal stuffs with people in the office. Now, I can't help but shut myself out completely in order not to be affected. Numbers can be fixed, words and trust once broken are difficult to build. I am sorry, I tried to look the other way and to brush it off but this time round, I think I am too disappointed. 

To end with a better note, I think I am ready to step out and explore. I need to build a healthier and more positive self!