High high high...

New Year Eve

Had sore throat and ran a fever from morning till night. It was horrible...I slept through the whole day, feeling pathetic and missing out on the yearly Chinatown midnight shopping...sigh that's the usual highlight of my lunar new year man...

Dun think I ate more than 3 meals since last night...

No doc for me to see...this close to wanna go A & E...

Luckily I still have lovely frens who showered me with love, msges and calls...

ARGH!!!!

I HATE IT!

HATE IT!

HATE IT!

HATE IT!

I hate this self loathing feeling. I'm this close to hitting the roof and kill myself while smacking my brain out on the ceiling.

This close!

Facing Window...

Five years since I last caught this. I still love it. Almost forgotten the story line...

This time round, tinge of sadness was evoked rather than the previous just/unjust feeling...

In the end, it doesn't matter the choice you make. Just make sure you can live with it for the rest of your life...

random thoughts...

He was so good today, didn't yank my hair, didn't hit me in the chest either.

Instead, he gave me a little peck on my cheek =)

That's enough to warm my heart. I wish he can stay that way all the time, I wish I can get through to him and into his world...

Goldfish eyes...again...

Behind my house

Alone in the middle of the night

Fireworks, I exploded like one...

Colourful night...

working late...

Worked in the office till late today. I had kids till 6.30...I typed reports till 8.45...

Am the last to lock up the office, the last to go home...

I kind of enjoy typing the stuffs alone in the office...freaky it might be (this time round there is no techno toy fish singing in the cupboard) but it's starting to feel like a second home to me...

Starting to learn not to let the loneliness and emptiness affect me...drowning myself in reports seems to work just fine for me...

No more crying...climbing out of the pit hole requires so much strength...no point wasting more energy on generating tears...I'm good on my own...at least for now I am...

Passing the parcel...

Our beloved Sze is finally 27 yo! As requested by the birthday boy, we went to bukeroo for western food. As usual, we were late and by the time we've reached, I was so exhausted that I felt like sleeping.

It was a good dinner =) Just 8 of us with a hearty meal. O well, we had a fair share of food and I had my beef-craving satisfied (although I did feel like puking beef cos was filled to the brim but it was good stuff!). It warmed my heart that we can just sit around, talk, joke, cut up the food and pass it to one another...the sharing part was fun and funny. The singing of birthday song and cake cutting was fun too. I realise being 27 means your cake will be covered with candles...damn...that make me feel so darn old...can I request to have only one candle on my cake for my birthday?

Went to sembawang beach after dinner, stood there for awhile and it felt good...Haven't stood by the beach with the breeze blowing at my face for a long long time...after that, it's guitar hero time at gage's house...

O forgot to mention, aside from food that we passed around...flu bug was another thing that was passed around during dinner...I ended up with my nose running like tap and being slightly feverish...

The night ended with 5 of us grooving in the car with Kylie's songs and 3 ppl sneezing all the way....fun eh...ho ho ho

time for new year resolution??

So fast....it's been a year since I last had the costume party, stink up Peifen's car with char kwey tiao, or rather all the oily food bought from chomp chomp and of cos, made my pals finish up the 2 weird bottles of wine that had residue in them (without telling them it's been kept for like ages...plus the fact that I only brought it out when most of us were half sober...)

This year, we spent our new year eve at ck's house with awesome shabu shabu and nicer wines to go with...although we still have to drink with residual of the cork in wine due to malfunction or the wine opener...haha...but at least it beats having to drink weird wines...

Time flies...last year this time I was alone in Singapore, on vacation and waiting to fly to HongKong to meet up with my family. Last year this time I think I was happier and more carefree...

This year, I gotta make sure I can...
~get rid of that flabby tummy of mine and perk up the body system so that I dun fall sick so often..
~earn more and save more money so that I can pay all my bills and my loan on time...
~pass basic theory, advance theory and eventually driving test (Think it will be a long process)
~be happier and more open with my emotions...
~be more hardworking and less procrastination...
~swear lesser...hahaha...

I will get better...definitely...and to all who love me...thank you so much for being there for me all these while...muack...love ya!