Finally, the June hols is over! I can finally sleep in after a month of working 6 days per week.

Also, finally done with Ally's wedding! Omg, I think I am too old for this 'jie mei' thingy. Dun know was it my age or that I have become so pampered. I was so so so exhausted through the day that all I could think of was shower time and getting my emcee job done! The weather was too freaking hot! Bravo to the bride and groom for enduring the sun and taking pics under the scorching heat!

I think my body just totally shut off at the end of the day, giving me the finale - fever at 38 degrees and making me feel cold at such warm weather that I didn't even switch on my air condition.

Love the wedding by the way...it was so tastefully arranged and done by the couples. New chapter ahead babe...blissful marriage!

Once again, stunned by my blonde moment...

It was hilarious, to have my mum barged in like that and saw me talking via FaceTime...

I really thought I have locked the door...perhaps was too excited that I have finally gotten the dress and that I could finally talk to you...

Couldn't help laughing...sweet but facepalm moment too :p

I think someone up there is trying to test me (or play a trick on me)...to see exactly how much I can take or go through before I start to show any sign that I may break...I am human too you know...why can't my life be simpler?

Why is this so tough? It shouldn't be this tough ain't it? If it's so tough to begin with, does it mean it is not meant to be in the first place?

Fucking restless...back to square one where I seek solace in my run and the quiet corner at the back of my house...

I think ultimately, it's just my luck...I've always had shit luck...

I wonder how long can I be physically n mentally strong for myself and my family...

Wish I'm a guy...at least I won't be subjected to the mental weakness...to a certain extend...

I must have done some wrong doings in my last life somehow...urgh...

Something to keep me going...

Almost teared when I read the email. Touched, very very very touched...

I have never quite felt this hard saying goodbye to any of my kids when I discharged them or that they stopped for OT for whatever reasons.

This boy was such a lovely kid that I really feel for him and hope the very best for him from the bottom of my heart. Never have I come across a kid who has his amount of issues, yet is so humble and genuine in person. He has been so compliant and never once fussed when I got him to do any tasks. It was such a great joy interacting with him. I assessed him in Feb and he has to head back home for good in June. The relocation came with such short notice.

Almost wanna cry when I gave him a goodbye hug =(

Wish I could have longer treatment time with him and see him through the process of being better in what he has problem in...

I didn't know he actually enjoyed coming to see me that he would turn down any events or invitations that fell on the time slot that he usually came to see me...Am truly truly touched...

Thank you for the effort kiddo...Will really miss you!

Hell month

Sat night was absolutely great! Enjoyed every min spent and the jokes we made at each other. Always felt blessed to have you guys by my side. Kept me sane to a huge extend...

Sun was pay back time for sleep deprivation....woke up intermittently to play with the kids...pacify or bring them down for a ride...

Slept with a headache, woke up with one...woke up at 3,5 and 6 am was really frustrating...dad ain't helping when what he did is provoking instead or pacifying my whiny niece...I ended up getting the criticism of sleeping my entire Sunday off and still feeling tired...and not helping...sigh...

Btw you have no idea how much it meant to me for you to listen to my rantings...thank you so much!

I am still laughing at the lame stuffs you told me...happy for you my dear friend =p

I do have high hopes of you getting married and giving birth to tonnes of kids who will eventually call me kai ma! hehehehe....

Hell month is June. School hols means I have to go back to see kids during my off days as well. Not that I want to earn more money during this month but I genuinely have kids who need the intensive and who else to fill in the gap but me if that is to say I have to sacrifice my rest time. Not trying to be noble here but I just want them to be better in what they do and see them through these tough time esp those having PSLE.

I will frequent the starbucks very often or maybe not too much cos one of my kids calculated the amount for me and actually yelled at me to not spend such money on coffee...can you imagine, my 11 yo telling me that! I'm really proud of her actually...haha...

Sigh...hope this month will end soon!

I just feel like screaming. Just scream and scream till I'm out of breath and exhausted.

I'm tired. First you gave my mobile to a government surveyor and expect ME to handle all those fucking qn. Have you thought how worn out I have been after a day of work?

Then you load me with all those hospitalization bills qn. You expect ME to handle them yet kept doubting me and wanting me to verify with bro. If you dun think I can handle it, I am more than willing to pass it on to your great son who, from what I know, hasn't gotten a clue on the hospitalization procedures either.

I am fucking tired! Can you pls leave me alone?! Just for one fucking night!