I think someone up there is trying to test me (or play a trick on me)...to see exactly how much I can take or go through before I start to show any sign that I may break...I am human too you know...why can't my life be simpler?

Why is this so tough? It shouldn't be this tough ain't it? If it's so tough to begin with, does it mean it is not meant to be in the first place?

Fucking restless...back to square one where I seek solace in my run and the quiet corner at the back of my house...

I think ultimately, it's just my luck...I've always had shit luck...