waterfall waterfall....

happy birthday ray...haha...dunno wish u how many times le...haha had so much fun on sat nite...but still didnt managed to bring u down with two waterfall...next time perhaps...graveyard will be the next one for u (i'm not cursing her hor...it's juz the name of a drink) =p
 
had so many surprises for my captain last nite...past two weeks were really tough on her and she really deserve a treat...so this surprise bday celebration come juz in time...hehe like to see ppl happy and see their surprised cum touched expressions...always makes me smile...
 
angie, jessie and me bought different presents for her...hehe hopefully she'll be happily using that disco ball, money clip and eating those delicious chocolate! o man so fun to hang out with u gals...too bad i cant join u all next sat...mm but it'll be good to take a break too...haha will continue our meet ups week after next eh...by then we'll make ray have more waterfalls....haha still cant stop laughing when i think of her expression while she drank her supposed birthday drink...and me bluffing her that the plain water is meant for her burnt mouth...haha...
 
didnt do muc today...except read something on autism...and notes on the case study....austism never fails to interest me and make me wanna explore more in depth...will not give up looking for infor on it...cos somehow i wanna know what the world of an autistic kid is like...not sure if i can really help them but at least i understand and see wat i can do for them in future if i ever get into pediatric department...or mb mental health....
 
tomolo will be a long day for me...hopefully will survive thru...o yah signed up for kickboxing lesson in schl and it starts tomolo...pls let the lessons be fun...if not my 30 bucks will go down the drain...hehe...nite everyone!

yup i'm sick...

after having squash continously for  four days last week and three days this week....i finally fell sick...yup sore throat, flu and slight fever...fren of mine said i shouldn't have pushed myself so hard, cos my health will sure give way...appreciate her concern...still i went ahead with it...stubborn eh...but that's me...
 
like to keep myself busy...cos it proves my existence; good in the sense it keeps me occupied and focus... i won't have the time to dwell on other stuffs...i always have this thinking that i rather die of exhaustion than die not doing anything at all...there was this period of time when i dun even wanna wake up cos i can't bear to face the days ahead and i have simply lost interest in every single thing around me. Worst of all, the routine of my life then was so bloody empty that my inner self is slolwly seeping away...so for now i'm juz glad that i can keep myself busy...=)
 
anyway, went out with ck today and we watched spider man....yeah finally caught this movie...it's exciting and touching...haha runaway bride in the spider man movie...interesting eh....wonder if gal like MJ does exist....who will sacrifice so much for the man she loves????
 
o yah, i finally went to book the basic theory test...die die i wanna learn how to drive...i can't stand public transport...if i'm desperate enough i may even switch to learn bike...cos it's so low maintainence....happy...cos i finally make the first step to learn driving rather than hoping i can drive without even going thru the lessons...haha
 
i realise i'm getting more and more short tempered lately...seems like things are getting on my nerve easily...something is wrong man...think i need sleep...or maybe i need to relearn how to communicate and readjust myself....guess my moulting period is due soon...

zonked out on sat nite....

at this point of time...i so wanna sleep...but am waiting for my parents to come back...dunnoe where they went...12++ liao havent reached home yet...
 
 
yesterday was near the point of dead drunk...was at the rim of losing conscious when the gals sent me home...and by the time i reached home, i have to hide in the toilet cos my sis-in-law was using com in my room. And the next moment i know...i was sitting by the toilet bowl...haha ugly sia...luckily by the time i got out, my room was cleared and i managed to drag myself to my room and juz sleep...
 
 
guess i was too tired...physically and mentally...this whole week was hectic for me...trying my best to do things right but still seem to screw up...
 
 
something happened during the squash training on sat...didnt exactly see it happened but it sure wasn't a pleasant one. Consequence always attaches itself with the things we do...somehow u have to learn to deal with it...handle it well and u'll be safe, if not u'll juz be buried alive by all the consequences that comes along the way....
 
 
The world doesnt revolve around one single person...with or without one's existence, it'll still go on...somehow we are all made to be selfish and tend to magnify only our problems....cynical...but i think it's true...i hate being an adult...cos things will complicate themselves and at the same time u'll realise how ppl can turn to be so ugly all of the sudden....mentally drained...dun wanna think anymore...
 
have to sleep...my two bao beis still havent come back...dunno where they go...tot i'm the only happening one...mm...mb not...nite~

i'm so drained now...

this is only the first week of schl and I'm already feeling worn out...o man not a good sign...either it shows that age is getting on me or that problem lies in me not able to handle stress well...again...

guess I need time to adjust...I always take longer to adjustment to environment...slow to react...damn...

anyway, the orientation thingy for squash was fun and pretty successful...effort and time put in have finally paid off...happy for our squash club...my captain is treating us dinner this sat...so pai seh to make her pay...mb we should be the one treating her back cos I can see she've worked double hard than us...

schl work will be piling like siao in a few weeks time...I have to be able to cope with it...dun wanna feel panicky but I am feeling it alittle now cos quite a no. of new stuff to learn...things like physio...I'm already lost during the first two lectures...haha need to read up during weekend...

dun wan history to repeat itself...I seriously can't afford it...but somehow I have this feeling that it's coming back...damn it damn it damn it...is it cos once u get into it u wont be able to get out that easily? but I was fine for the past yr...hopefully things wont be back to square one...at least I hope the new me compared to three years back will be stronger to handle bad situaition...ugrh...I really dislike this feeling...it's like u're stuck and couldn't move on...and all u can do is struggle...

I missed u guys so much...yd n ck...though u two still having hols...meet up soon k...really need to see u two to bitch and destress haha

am going back to sleep...woke up to go bathe..cos I slept at 8 today...

i juz realise something...

guys, I realise the classical conditioning I've been saying is not by Piaget...I made a mistake!!!! It's suppose to be Palov's theory! o man keep making such stupid mistakes...stupid stupid...

Btw had an incredible experience today...never ever in my life have I had the experience of ideas being stolen by someone and use it as their own. Except that in our case it's not ideas that are stolen but poles! F***king table tennis ppl from NYP used our poles for their booth set up! Bunch of selfish, mindless kids...so f***king lazy to buy their own poles that they actaully have to steal ours to make their pathetic booth...and their president still dared to claim that those poles where bought by them. Come on...all the length are exactly the same as those we've lost...EXACTLY the SAME!

Mmm mb this is only the beginning...cos I'm sure in the working world such things are bound to happen...but make sure u're not the one doing it because it simply proof ur incapabilities and stupidity...

dead tired...finishing venting my anger...nite...

body in bad shape...

cool...yesterday was fun! went ikea...bought the mat which my mum always bug me without fail when I mention that i'm going there to buy stuff...bought wooden frames too...

I bleed to death man..am 145 buck poorer...bought the squash racket I've been eyeing for...damn ex...tried my best to lower the price...managed to cut it from 169 to 145...did disgusting thing like making myself sound like little gal and pleaded the boss to lower the price further, claiming that I'm a poor poor student....yd and ck were like giggling there lo...so pai seh...they said i could have lowered the price more...but I cant stand myself doing anymore digusting stuff..so let's juz say 145 is a good bargain.

went over to sze's house for dinner...so sweet...see his father, mother, him and vic all squeeze in the kitchen preparing dinner while we actually fell asleep in their living room...haha...o man they already look like one family...cosy cosy man....

anyway the supposed main objective today was to help yd shift from his old hostel to the new one....uh but it only start at 8pm...haha
this guy didnt even pack his stuff at all...and we have to fight against the dust, spider and time...can u imagine emptying his room in 30 min...practically we juz do whatever we can and dump his stuff in the limited 2 empty boxes...the funniest thing is to dump his clothes in bedsheet and tied the bedsheet so that it'll be one huge package -__- like those old chinese movie..where ppl wrap their clothes with a blue cloth except that this is sooo much bigger and heavier...

glad that everything is settled...at least now yd's new room looks good and suitable for sleeping...hoho

As for today...went to vote for my coach today at the squash association AGM...the current committee is so damn f***ed up....delayed our time...not enough chairs for us to sit...didnt follow the constitution they've set and gotten question by members...all the president can ans was ' I'm not sure....I think....'
Luckily my coach's team of ppl won the vote- 60++ votes againt 20++ votes for most of the committee ppl selected...hopefully they'll do a better job and make squash a more recognise sport.

That's all for today...one min I'm hungry and now I'm feeling bloated...something's wrong with my disgestive system....if not it must be due to the soon-to-arrive 'best fren'....am so bloody fat...hope tomolo's squash session will make me sweat...nitez