I miss the kids...

sigh...finally my placement has ended...went back to schl today to do some research...i actually miss the feeling of being in schl...and it feels nice to be in the lib reading up stuff...haha...yah i'm weird...

yeah no more travelling from one end of singapore to another every morning...but i do miss the ppl and kids at jurong cdu...hope everything will be fine for them...

will be sleeping late for this whole week cos i need to rush my work...must get them done asap...but i have one big headache...i dunnoe how to use photoshop to design leaflet...mm...if only it can be handmade...haha...it'll be so much easier...a computer idiot like me...sigh...will find my way to finish it lah...

yippee...gotten a new schl bag...thank you my dear...i really like it alot but at the same time am feeling guilty for making u spend so much...seriously i didnt know it cost that much...eek...

okie gtg head for schl to do work...feeling abit stress now...sigh...

floating...

cant seem to settle down and get my work done...attachment is gonna end in a week time and i have yet to start doing my work...plus me falling ill...that's worst...

one week break coming...gotta do work...tonnes of them...and studies too...think i've placed it aside for long enough...think i'm gonna miss my kids when my placement end...sigh...seems like my one month is not enough with them...cos i only get to see them at the most 4 times? or less than that...sigh...time is passing so darn fast....and i'm growing older each day! gosh....

think i slept too much today cos i'm like blabbering now...cant help it...been tired the whole day...must be my period...so many things to do but i'm procrastinating...argh...wake up wake up...

gtg read some stuff...brain dun seem to work these days...damn...

where were u when i needed someone to guide me and be there for me during my lowest point...and now u assume father-like figure all of the sudden...

it reminded me of wat u've said sometime back...that if i'm guy...u would have wacked me inside out for being such as loser...but becos i'm a girl ultimately i'll be married off and u can wash ur hands off me eventually....

...i'm never good enough...i can never outshine u...do u know how pressurising it is to constantly live under ur shadow...i dont even know why i did that...was never good in my studies...neither am i good in my chinese...i so wanted to prove that i can be as good as you...perhaps i overestimated myself...

hungry...

at this moment...i'm feeling hungry...cos i had nothing but porridge thru out the day...damn hungry!!!

i'm sick...running a fever yesterday after attanding to 4 kids...pretty fulfiling day for me...although i got shoe prints all over cos a kid refused to take off his shoes during therapy and he stepped on me for dunno how many times...

anyway took mc today...sigh...out of no choice cos i really have no energy plus i dun wanna infect the children...so i have to make it up...which means my attachment will end one day later...sob...sob...i so dun wan that to happen...sigh...

sigh...feel so weird...everyone is treating me like a kid...mom keep reminding me wat to tell the doc when i went to get mc this morning...i'm like duh not the first time i see doc on my own...something else happened too...mm...talk about it next time...need to go sleep...take care ppl...drink more water and dun fall sick...

haha we came in 15!

out of 50 teams...we actually came in 15 for the xphysique event....woo hoo...well done eaters!!! haha didnt expect that at all...

nothing much today...except that we gotta attend the annual OT conference held by the year 3s...next year will be our turn...man...so scary...

couldn't go squash cos of the conference...and i'm so blur lo...booked the courts for the squashies but forgot to give my guy captain my ic no. for him to make payment...so damn absent minded...plus he couldnt reach me as i was at the lecture theatre...no reception...sigh... felt so incompetent...sian plus my attachment i havent got time to plan for squash camp yet...damn...

anyway...evening time went to toa payoh to have dinner...then sit around at starbucks to chit chat...sigh...felt good...we laughed at silly jokes and chat about current issues...miss spending time with my friends...glad we did that today...hehe...fun fun....

sigh...think i need to take up tuition...dilema...sch work, squash, tuition....how am i going to cope and how am i going to spend time with hairul, my friends and even myself then???
i need sugar daddy...muah haha....

i cant wait to earn my own bucks...at the same time i very much wanna study still...think i dun even have the money to further it...sigh...cant be help...part of growing(old) process...

list of things i wanna buy:
1. schl bag ( current bag...disintegrating at the moment...shall see how long it can last)
2. hp ( current phone i love it...but abit siao siao lately...dunno why....think it's dying soon...)
3. court shoes for squash ( few occassions where i nearly slipped and kill myself in court...)

shall see...if my allowance come mb i'll get them...if my allowance doesnt come then forget it...mb i shouldnt even ask for allowance to be transferred cos each time i ask i feel like a begger...sick to the core...

sigh...forget it...i shouldnt have expectd so much...juz be glad that i dun need to pay my handphone bills and transport fees...the rest juz leave it....

gtg...2 more weeks of attachment...woo hoo...

x-physique!

haha...so fun! went for ntu sports club event today...really enojyed myself...yd, thanx for psycho~ing me to join...although i feel like breaking ur neck when i swam in kallang river...cos it's so damn tiring...keke...

alright...did alot of things for the first time...

jumped off at the kallang bridge and swam in kallang river...ran to the cycling point...cycled for awhile then went to kayak....first time kayaking...really damn lousy...haha...think papa ng really vomitted blood kayaking with me...but it's very fun lah...cos i keep laughing and laughing...cant help it cos no matter how many 'left right left right' he shouted...i juz cant synchronise with him...haha...we really struggled alot cos our kayak keep going to one side...damn tiring...

tried rock climbing and abseiling too....so malu cos i fell then have to start again...but alright lah...fun fun...abseil is fun too...

o well...overall it's good experience..i'm so happy that we've made it thru...and i'm proud that i've actually made it thru too...and for the first time i really hated running...but anyway had great time with my frens and mr H too...

alright gtg...attachment tomolo...hopefully i still have energy to chase after kids...
yd, i'm so proud of u...=) pls have good rest since the event has ended...take care yah..and thanx!