woke up late today...despite auggy's cries...i continue to sleep...thus i was late for my fyp proj...hehe...such a pig...

anyway after sorting out the data...i went down to have my hair coloured and trimmed...colour looked almost the same...but at least it suits my skin colour...and the hairdresser was pretty nice to me...although i do hope that he was the one who cut my hair cos i think he's much better than the one who did mine...sigh...never mind lah....

look good...feel good...and i finally understand...good looking ppl always get better treatment...i always tot it'll be enough to juz be sincere to another person...but no...human beings are that superficial...really...

anyway...after getting my hair done...i went to shop around alone...from 330 to 730 while waiting for fen to knock off and meet me for dinner...was quite desperate to meet her...cos havent seen her since i was back from my trip...so i pathetically begged her to meet up with me...keke...

bought dad a polo t-shirt while shopping...was on sale at robinson...and thinking that i didnt get him anything from my trip...i chose a relatively light colour shirt to make it up to him...hee...hopefully not too big...think mom will be jealous...cos i also didnt buy her anything from my trip...=p

finally had my first meal at 530...cos was rushing from places to places doing stuff...i actually forgot that i havent eaten anything except for the soya bean milk i drank in the morning...so i sat in the bras barsa mac...munching chicken fold...watever it's called...btw the kfc chicken fold we had at thailand tasted so much better...

munched and read my book till evening time then i head down to national lib to look for a book that i wan...bloody lib...despite being so big..it's freaking empty...dun even have the book that i wan...disappointed...

more shopping with my gal..was helping her in getting an outfit for the wedding she has to attend tomolo...bought her a belated bday handbag...hehe...low cost but nice one...

went to test for perfume at sasa...and u know wat...there are some that smell like tequila shots...really...no bluffing...eek...weird smell...or is it juz me...muah haha...

okie we walked till our legs gave way(i walked for like more than 7 hours in a pair of wedges...winner right... ) and had to settle at brecko for a drink...praise this cafe...they actually have stella at 2 for 10 bucks...so we sat down and drink beer...hehe...so much to update each other! and i juz love to chill out like that!!!

yeah...tomolo we'll meet again...we shall embrace 2006 in each other's company...fen...why are u not a guy? or why am i not a guy?? or why arent we a pair of lesbian couple??? muah haha....

sometimes i forgot how easily one can be replaced...by time, by object and of cos by another being...

perhaps i've been too comfortable in my own world of thoughts...constantly assuming that even if things were to change i will be able to handle it...or better still...adapt to it...

But the thing is this...i realise i can do neither....the older i get, the more resistent i am to changes and the ironic thing is...there seem to be more changes occuring as one aged...seriously...is it me or is it a natural process?

the only fortunate thing that happened to me is that becos of OT, it kinda make me learn how face the changes instead of avoiding them...handle them even if it means u're doing something for the first time...see it, acknowledge it, then anyhow wack loh....if u handle it wrongly the first time...learn...then try again the second time...i'm still learning...

i realise i'm the sort that need to learn and go through the process many many times before i can resolve watever is ahead of me...am i dumb or wat...how come my journey is never a straight path? or maybe if it is...my life would have been so typical juz like any other singaporeans...right?

sometimes i wonder why is there such a definite process for everyone to go through...u change from being a baby to a waiting-for-all-milk-teeth-to-drop-out primary schl kid; to a wearing-braces-secondary schl teenager; to a growing-wisdom-tooth jc student; then to a studious and smart uni student....u grad with a degree, find a prestigious job, along the way meet someone u think u can live happily-ever-after-with...get married and give birth to as many cute babies as u and ur partner can have...taa daa....there u go...u'll be termed as a successful being who will be respected and acknowledged...at least in singapore...

somehow along the way i seem to be out of the norm...cos i'm not a uni grad; not sure i'll be able to find a prestigious job; dun think i'll be able to get married and give birth to kids...so am i loser?

wah liao...i'm very bored now...juz a few days after coming back i'm feeling bored liao...

tomolo gonna do fyp for the whole day...and gotta go for squash...havent exercise for a whole week...argh...

i miss those ferry rides....sitting on the deck feeling the wind blowing at ur face....chatting with ur frens in the middle of the sea...seeing the ang mos trying to find joy in drinking beer they've picked is really funny too...

i miss eating food bought from the roadside..yummy...i miss the chicken lady...

i miss the massive blackout in the whole town...i miss walking around every evening going from stalls to stalls...i even miss the super huge waves that to me are so scary...miss running along the beach too...

okie...i juz dun wan the holiday to end so soon...

santa claus...i know x'mas is over...but can my hols not end so soon? i've been a good girl this year....~innocent look~

back from samui trip! went for a drink with my squash mates last nite after i've touched down...

was nursing my hangover for the whole of today...

more updates to come...waiting for handsome to send photos...

love this trip!! each of us has grown and changed alittle as compared to the redang trip we had...

tried crazy stuffs...did crazy things...had great time with ppl i love...i cant ask for more...except to have more of such trips in the future...

yes....will be leaving in few hours time...

cant sleep...cos firstly i'm not done with packing...not bathed yet...and havent cool down yet...mentally...

went to meet up with yk...waited for this bugger for hours cos he ended work late and why he ended work late? cos of his 'analysis paralysis' behaviour...haha...he's the only few whom i know understand and takes me for who i am...somethings juz never change...despite him hitting me till blue black and plucking leaves for me cos i'm into the colour green...

short meet up...and we juz talked as we walked cos trying to catch last bus...he was telling me about his experience and some thoughts he gathered through his part time job in retail...forever got thoughts running thru his mind when he's into something...somehow i juz feel that he should have stuck to literature instead of computing...cos his brain juz function that way...too wasted to go into areas that requires mundane and complicated execution of work...not that he's not capable of doing programming...

i'm juz glad i met up with him...short one...but that's enough...till yd is back...3 of us will unite again...muah haha...and yk if u're reading this....u bloody bruised my arms!!! 100 dao huey minus off from wat i owe u man...inclusive of the hours i've waited for u!

3 more days before i'm out of town...pls let this trip be boo-boo-less....and a super fun one!!

bought vicky her belated bday pressie!! bikini!! muah haha...papa ng sure nose bleed when he sees her in it...we shall wait and see!!

i bought myself another set too! a plain one though...and it's green in colour! kinda contrast with my skin...so quite like it...keke...yummy...yummy!!! i'll take pics...hopefully will look good in them...

havent been jogging much lately...only once this week...am so guilty about it...argh...cant wake up early to do it...evening time i'm always out...how to jog...die die have to do it tomolo...

gonna try something new together with vicky on monday...so exciting....keke...cross fingers...

time flies eh...it's been a year....rem the last christmas eve i spent with ray, jessie and angie...gotten myself drunk before the countdown was done...fond memories of mine...keke...wont be around this christmas eve...but i'm sure looking forward to the gathering we've planned to have on 25th dec...i'll be back...sure will...juz not sure what time i'm touching down...this year there'll be more ppl...more fun...plus i'm not the lousiest drinker among the clique anymore...haha...fact is i'll be getting pre-training from boozing my way thru the whole trip!! yippee!!!

boy do i sound more and more like karen walker... haha....

yeah yeah...miss phua trying to smooch me when her tiko isnt around...wat to do...i can only oblige to her request...juz like how jessie always did to mine...scandalous eh!!

yipee...class dinner

Been doing FYP over at Health Promotion Board...looking through tonnes and tonnes of case notes...see until i blur...hopefully can get enough clients for the study...cross fingers and pray hard hard...

wed went sentosa again...drank beer on the beach..sooooo nice!!! u guys should try next time....and cos the girls didnt like the beer they have...i have to help them finish theirs...ended up being high despite the fact that it's still broad daylight...plus i need to attend dinner with my class somemore...

so evening time....had dinner with my mentor and his wife at this italian restuarant...14 of us went and it's quite fun cos it's informal gathering and we can shake off our status and juz eat and dine like friends...haha not to mention there's wine too...HB brought 4 wine...3 white and 1 red...very nice and smooth!! yummy...love it...

thurs nite went out with chris and nikki...got a treat from the bday gal...keke fun fun...ate japanese food...nice nice...haha hope she like the pressie that we bought...hehe...

today...went vicky's house to bake cookies!! haha super oily and sweet! but turns out not bad lah...presentable and edible...process of baking was hilarious...cos so many of us...and we all trying to chip in to make the best out of it...and we add all sort of ingredients to make it taste more....exortic? unique maybe...haha

yes...tomolo going to buy bikini...muah haha...mm how many bikinis do i have now...mm...5 i think..more to come!!yippe!!! so exciting!

u know sometimes when u talk to a fren out of concern
but whatever u said ended up being brushed off like dust
u juz feel like raising your arms, surrender and shout 'I GIVE UP'?
i wanna puke blood...convulse and die....no matter how much i have said...nothing gets thru...so why talk in the first place...i'll zip my mouth from now onwards...
realise my words are zero value...utterly worthless...might as well shut my bloody mouth up...

Woo hoo!!! exciting weekends! i think i wasn't home for more than 10 hours since friday! haha...busy busy...trying to make full use of my holidays...so i packed as much activities as i can within a day...haha...crazy...i really did alot of stuff man...

fri~
wanted to see choon yew off before he go for his ns service...poor poor thing...juz had his A level and he has to go in for the no-brainer training already...we haven't even gotten the time to go sentosa with him...i promised that we will go again cos he said it was fun the previous time we went...too bad loh who ask him dun train earlier for nafa test...in the end can't do his pull up...

anyway...ck and i couldn't wake up in time...i ended up calling this little bro and told him to take care of himself in camp...juz hope that his blurness wont lead him to being ter gan...

ck, me and sze still meet up at pasir ris later in the morning...cos i need to get some stuff for a fren...after which three of us went for a shopping spree at the john little sale...haha...actaully there isn't much to buy except for lingerie! yah yah went shopping with two guys for bras!!! hey i'm training them k...afterall they will need to acc their gfs for lingerie shopping in future...it'll be such a turn off if guys still have those i'm-not-stepping-into-the-bra-zone concept...
it ain't the first time with them shopping with me anyway...if handsome is here he'll in the clique too...muah haha...o we bought ck a feather coat for his trip as a present too...sze, vic, adrian, me and yd (eh i count u in too...cos can imagine u whining if i didnt do that...haha)

after burning a hole in my pocket with the bras i bought...ck acc me to change photo for my passport...i tell u....there's a hell lot of ppl at the ICA buiding...ALOT....luckily the service was quite efficient...so i didnt really wait too long...BUT the buzzing sound of the bell gave me a headache and it didnt help with this irritating father who kept complaining to his son about how slow the queue was moving and later change his topic to how his son was being picked up from dustbin...ppl never Ever tell ur children that they are picked up from the dustbin...it's lame...it's stupid...and to have such meaningless conversation going on for 20 min...i was secretly slapping this man left-right-centre inside my head...

my photo was changed eventually...and u know wat...the lady at the counter gave a little giggle when she saw my old passport photo...biang...very funny meh...i dun look that different lo...and becos of her...ck burst out laughing...he laughed so much that the lady asked him 'why are u laughing'...hello..i'm still sitting there le...totally ignore my existance man...

done with being mocked by my unglam old photo...went swimming with ck...i was made to swim laps after laps...argh...so tiring...such a torturous coach...

okie...done with swimming...it was evening then...went to gina's place to stay over cos her hubby was out of town...was watching her wedding video...keke...quite fun!

exciting part comes...vicky babe managed to borrow a van...and she suggested supper at geylang...so sweet of her to come drive us all...from balestir to serangoon to bishan to ntu to punggol then to geylang....my frens and i were at the back of the van...riding the bumpy road for 1 hour++ before reaching our destination...haha...hilarious ride...there were shoutings...of directions...of horror...of pain...of laughters...and boy...we all miss yd...cos it always remind us of all the lorry rides we had...

okie...by the time we went back..it was 3++ in the morning...didnt sleep till about 5++....
exciting day eh...and it's only fri for me...haha...

sat~
had badminton session with ck, yilong and liyan....haha...all very nua...juz play and play...not very tough lah...but we're all like half dead...dunno why...liyan was the worst...cos not only was she tired....she kept being hit by the shuttlecocks too...no longer am i jinx with the thing flying at my head...haha...

went old airport road for dinner...cos vick drove...yummy...we ate all the dishes that we love...haha...we are such a bunch of gluttons...

reached home at 8++ and was totally beated...knocked out in front of tv by 10...by far the earliest time i slept....

sun~
SENOTSA!! it was zouk out on sat...so the beach was left with tentages and stuffs...hmm...maybe the sand is covered with ppl's puke too...who knows...
anyway we went to the far end to lie down and get ourselves baked till golden brown...haha...the sun was perfect for suntanning...not scorching hot but good enough to make u turn colour...
and now i'm burnt...like wat ck's frens said...i've turned from rare to well done...to chao da....-_-

fun weekends!!! yippee....dunno where i've gotten my energy from...but i juz looooooove all the company i had!

8 more days to koh samui!!!

falling asleep soon....

finally asleep on my shoulder

giving my arms some rest for carrying this huge chubby baby to sleep...

wanted to blog last nite...but was too sleepy...

yeah...first day of not working...i woke up at 10 cos auggy was crying...cant stand him crying...so woke up to carry him...cant seem to soothe him so throw back to bro to let him deal with his son...haha...

then gotten pissed off by my dad...complaining about my room being messy...so i spent the whole afternoon clearing my room...threw out the whole lot of my teddy bears and soft toys to make space for my notes and textbooks...tell u...i really threw out a hell lot...now i'm only left with the big totoro soft toy whom my fren brought back all the way from taiwan when he went for ns field camp years ago (till now i'm still very surprise that he rem i like totoro and had make the effort to bring this huge soft toy all the way back)...two beanies from my frens on my 21st bday and my beloved tattered bear from fen two x'mas ago..o and the fury dog that yd they all bought and secretly hid at my place for one of my bday...the rest i juz threw them away...made up my mind and i finally did what i should have done long ago...

actually my whole plan for the day was spoilt due to the complain...wanted to change photo for passport...in the end have to push it to fri...things i plan to do on wed i have to change it...so was in rather foul mood....

seek solace in my jogging regime...exactly one hour for about 7km jog...not too bad considering it was bloody hot when i jogged...after that went to meet fen for 9.20 pm harry potter show...entertaining lah...except that the new dumblerdore actor sux...totally changed the calm, experienced wizard into one that is gan jiong and weird...

as for today...woke up late...once again i fly ck kite...cos suppose to swim with him in the morning but couldnt get up...=p haha had lunch at home then went KK for fyp discussion...then went schl for training...didnt play much though...

tomolo morning...sending our beloved choon yew to tekong...haha...o man...i hope he'll do juz fine for ns...little bro is all grown up now...next will be yilong's turn in few years time...o man...reminds me of the time when i send jl off...that's like so darn long ago lah...

okie going to watch will and grace! muah haha....

i cant stop beaming...today is my last day of work!!!

wah haha...i can finally sleep in for tomolo...so happy! i really need sleep man...so tired...if i were to continue any further...i probably juz cracked...dun think i can take it le...tiring...

already planned to go sentosa on sun...but as for tomolo...need to get something done first...hopefully can go and change me photo for my passport...haha...yd smsed me this afternoon to remind me...so sweet...haha...

meet up with ck, liyan and her fren for dinner...then off we go, shopping around at fast east...tried a tube dress...ck say very nice...keke...maybe i'll get it! yeah!

seriously need to get another set of bikini...shall go with vicky to get it...then can wear it on our trip too!! yeah yeah...i cant wait to go!!

sat was great! i'm so proud of the clients from SPD...their performance is really nice...of cos not to mention my classmates' effort in training them and coming up with the musical beats and stuff...job well done...=)

physical disability awareness week...wonder if anyone notice this campaign...hopefully we're able to rise some attention among the public...

sent the clients to our schl in the noon for lunch and activities...was attending to the client i took last year during the SPD sportsday...haha he's still as talkative...thing is he didnt throw tantrum at me this time round...at least i kinda manage him pretty well...know when to talk him thru to participate in the games so that he can earn the prize that he kept asking for...haha...

and guess wat...my group won the sandwich making competition and for the overall games...didnt expect that...haha...but happy that all of them had fun...at least i did...

mm...i felt really happy...dunno why...not because we won...but i juz feel happy to see them enjoying themselves...guess it's the kind of satisfaction i see when at the end of the day everyone had their share of fun and laughter...it's tiring though cos have to keep the energy level up constantly...have to look out for clients as well...so by the time i got on the bus to head home...i was dozing off away like a dead log....

evening time went to carl's junior for dinner...it was packed man...dunno why ppl like to eat such big portion burger...as if they can finish...i know yilong was struggling with his super 'tua' burger in the end...haha...

anyway as usual...went to hang out with my squash mates at the new happy daz....deco is slightly better now...but they still dun have stella...wat's wrong with them man...dun they know it's nicer than tiger...sigh...as usual lah...i got home tipsy and sleepy...hehe...fun sat afterall...

my clinical suppose to end yesterday...but due to the 2 days mc i took...i have to make them up for the coming two days...

not that i mind at all...cos that means i have two more days to spend with my clients...and my supervisor...haha

o man...juz realised that it was a year ago that i've baked cookies for my beloved frens...hehe...the-once-a-year-baking season is here again...but this time round i'm planning to bake for my supervisor....for being able to face me day in day out for 8 weeks and also being so tolerant of my clumsiness and blurness...

sigh time flies...2 months and it's gone...I CAN'T WAIT TO FLY!!! I CAN'T WAIT TO GO BKK TO FIND YD!! let's all do crazy stuff while we're away shall we?

muah haha...but first of all...i need to get my passport photo changed...cos i kena final warning the previous time....so ppl...pls do me a favour and ask me this qn 'have u changed ur passport photo?' whenever u see me...cos i very scare i'll forget...and if i forget...think my frens will all scream at me...there wont be much fun without me on this trip right...~wink wink~ muah haha...

okie gotta run...have SPD event today...hehe...hopefully can get to see cute cute clients that we saw last year!