sometimes i forgot how easily one can be replaced...by time, by object and of cos by another being...

perhaps i've been too comfortable in my own world of thoughts...constantly assuming that even if things were to change i will be able to handle it...or better still...adapt to it...

But the thing is this...i realise i can do neither....the older i get, the more resistent i am to changes and the ironic thing is...there seem to be more changes occuring as one aged...seriously...is it me or is it a natural process?

the only fortunate thing that happened to me is that becos of OT, it kinda make me learn how face the changes instead of avoiding them...handle them even if it means u're doing something for the first time...see it, acknowledge it, then anyhow wack loh....if u handle it wrongly the first time...learn...then try again the second time...i'm still learning...

i realise i'm the sort that need to learn and go through the process many many times before i can resolve watever is ahead of me...am i dumb or wat...how come my journey is never a straight path? or maybe if it is...my life would have been so typical juz like any other singaporeans...right?

sometimes i wonder why is there such a definite process for everyone to go through...u change from being a baby to a waiting-for-all-milk-teeth-to-drop-out primary schl kid; to a wearing-braces-secondary schl teenager; to a growing-wisdom-tooth jc student; then to a studious and smart uni student....u grad with a degree, find a prestigious job, along the way meet someone u think u can live happily-ever-after-with...get married and give birth to as many cute babies as u and ur partner can have...taa daa....there u go...u'll be termed as a successful being who will be respected and acknowledged...at least in singapore...

somehow along the way i seem to be out of the norm...cos i'm not a uni grad; not sure i'll be able to find a prestigious job; dun think i'll be able to get married and give birth to kids...so am i loser?