stayed up last nite till 2am...to talk to yan cos she's having some trouble with her r/s....i was half studying for my splint test today (which didnt go well cos i dunno how to ans HB's qn) and half trying to calm her down...i know i'm suppose to be listening to her fully...but i'm kinda desperate in reading up for the test...so i ended up multi-task abit...
sigh...sometimes i feel redundant...cos no matter how much i said or console her...i dun seem to be able to alleviate the pain or sadness she's feeling...and today when i checked on her...things are back to normal again...taa daa...r/s issues resolved...i worried about her for nothing like that...sigh...i'm happy for her that her problems are solved...but at the same time i'm doubting myself whether i've helped her as a friend...afterall r/s issues cant be resolved thru third person...one word from her partner means far more than all the sentences i've said to her...i'm not jealous...it juz bugs me that's all...cos it's not the first time this happened...argh...i so wanna grab her by her shoulder and shake her till her head drop off...
sigh sorry...abit impulsive...i do love my fren dearly...but seeing her going thru the torment juz makes me feeling like pouring water down to splash her awake...
Uncle...where are u...i havent seen u for 4 days!!!! driving me nuts...sigh...
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