feeling numbed now...i dunno wat to say...i juz realised i'm actually not worth fighting for...is it something wrong with me..

so...being too nice and understanding is actually something that can be given up so easily...it happened once...it happened again...u think it's fair to me that i wont suffer further...but i guess the impact of being given up affects me more than anything...

whatever it is i dun think i can control it...if u think u actually feel better without me...then we'll juz have to leave it...but if u think u're willing to take up the challenge...i'll be taking it up with u...


i'm having a competition later...wish me luck...damn i havent been training and now i have to play...eek....okie i go read papers...

aint feeling too good...