sigh

It's actually not about the drinking...I didn't expect you to wanna drink actually...I'll be happy enough to just spend time with you over dinner and if you gotta leave halfway, i'm fine with that....but the very first time when you said you're not coming at all...i just feel =( cos i thought i could spend new year eve with all you guys...sigh...

Sorry baby, i wont feel upset if u dun mean anything to me...

Anyway...spent the whole day helping a friend in the preparation for his proposal to his gf at the airport...

It was a success and everyone at the airport clapped for them...so so sweet...

Congrats to the couple o....

Shall blog again...freaking freaking tired...

Rambles...

I have a feeling it may fall flat and no one will enjoy the party.

I'm sorry I nearly blew my top. I couldn't help feeling a tad disappointed last night. Okay, the mango sago did make me feel alittle better.

I feel like raising my two hands and say 'Whatever' to everything around me. Every comment, every remark, every decision made.

Alot of things are replaceable, I think I'm just in denial mode. Give me time to accommodate to it. I'm sure I can get use to that soon...

I have never...

had such Great Christmas Eve!

Started my Christmas Eve by preparing salad and dessert. Went to Jessie's place for dinner. Turned out the dessert was pretty well liked by most peeps...hehe...happy...

Done with dinner, off we head down to Happy Daze for count down. It was alittle disappointing. We ended up not counting down, instead we were too busy trying to shun from the peeps who started the 'snow fight' with their sprays...nearly suffocated or rather intoxicated by the fumes that the sprays gave out.

Downed 4 shots then off we head to Somerset for the Martinis! Emerald no. 5 serves the best martinis! Had tonnes of them cos it was one for one.

Had so much fun downing the martinis and our round of games in ' I have never...' We were laughing our heads off and making so much noise that the couple at the next table found it interesting just watching us play.

No puking for me this time round. Wasnt smashed either despite tonnes of alcohol which was good, except that I missed a step and sprained my ankle while trying to go back to Jessie and Peifen.

Abrasions and sprained ankle...still....I had so much fun this year...so much more fun as compared to last year....Thank you girls for being there for me...

Hope everyone's Christmas this year trump the one they had last year!

It's been a year...

I remembered the details. Everything single thing that happened. The effort I spend trying to look for a decent Xmas present for you. The time I spent going back to exchange the gift because you said you didn't like the colour.

I remembered the quarrel we had over the bridge when everyone was counting down by the riverside. I remembered the tearing up of Xmas card, throwing them into the bin and the storming off part.

I remembered you looking for me. I remembered your angry face knowing I went back to my friends. I remembered running after you, trying to look for you. I remembered finding you sitting at the side of the pavement while still talking to me over the phone.

I remembered retrieving the torn cards. I remembered bursting out in tears while saying Merry Xmas to you. I remembered crying in your arms for a good few minutes. I remembered you giving me your sweater.

It's been a year.

Did I mention how much I hate Xmas?

My week...

Been out most of the time...Meeting friends, accompanying fen do her 'G' shopping, went tanning with nikki babe, went handsome's house to bum around...

here are some pics of the week...















Handsome was suppose to drive me home...Realised we havent had enough of chatting with each other so we decided to stop by some coffee shop for more catching up















The nite when handsome drove justin and I to cosy bay and geylang for dou huey...saw alot of hum sup ah peks, blangadesh workers and china ladies...eew...















Our tanning session...despite it rained all these while, we managed to get ourselves burnt! haha...so nice to just chill, tan and talk...though lying on the sand is still giving me the backache...















Jessie and I, we met up yesterday nite...decided we wanna have margaritas so headed down to cafe iguana...pink guava and mango were so yummy...















Ray joined us later...had more margaritas and then went to the pump room for more drinks...she refused to take pic...so....















i took a pic with her...dun rem ever taking pics with her alone leh...but i like this one...hehe...
















Jessie took this pic...dun rem what i was doing...















Wanted to take pic of jessie but she moved...or that my hands arent steady...haha...

Had such a fun nite! Looking forward to tomolo! Xmas eve!!!

Little ben ben

My nephews are ever so cute...you guys have already witness how cute auggy is...now it's time to witness how cute little ben ben is....

I dun rem auggy reacting to his name the way like his baby bro...this little ben ben's chuckles are soooo cute!

Damn....

I'm not only addicted to alcohol and caffeine...now I'm addicted to Grey's Anatomy...and I just realised I spent my entire Sunday and Monday either sleeping or watching Grey's...

This is so not good...My entire bioclock is screwed up and I felt like a slob that cant leave my room until my Grey's addiction is fed....

Fat arse...I'm so so gonna jog tomorrow...

no more delays...I dun wanna be fat Jayna...

Damn the cable...

Sassy hot date!

Lovers: Yd, Ck, Sze, Fen, Yilong, Myself

Place for tonight's date: AMK coffee shop opposite Mayflower Sec

Things we need to do: Get our fingers dirty and lick them off clean

Chilly crabs! How can anyone resist eating them. Dear Sze initiated the meetup for tonight's crab session. It was sooooo fun!

Fun to see the Sim brothers who dun really eat that much of seafood to attempt eating them...

Fun to conduct a crab crash course for yd so that he knows how to eat crabs properly...

Fun to see each other dodge a little whenever the one sitting next to you attempt to split the crabs apart...

Fun to see yd attempting to break his teeth by biting into that hard hard shell...

Fun to see yilong digging those crab eggs out cos he finds it gross to eat them...

Fun to have sze peeling crab for moi...

Fun to see fen eating crabs as elegantly as she can...

Fun to see how ck gorging on crabs too...

Fun to see each other's shagged face after eating the crabs as though we've just completed marathon...

After dinner was movies at yd's place...crappy movies...seriously...but I had fun laughing my arse off at the scenes...eating ice cream and attempting to be the ice cream woman but failed...

Guys...appreciate you all making the effort to eat crabs with me, to satisfy my cravings, to do something that you seldom do, to eat something that you seldom eat...

I dun need fancy stuffs...I'm happy enough to have you guys willing to spend time with me =)

muack muack...love you all to bits!!

Pics for the week....

Been out meeting frens and eating lotsa food...damn...i'm getting fat...















My beloved goddaughter has grown so much over the past 6 months...she looks different from the last time I saw her...hehe...here's the pic of apple mommy trying to give xin xin her bite toy...
















Sze...went drinking with him last sat and then again yesterday...















The hiao po who took this pic herself....haha...
















I like this pic...except that it's blurred cos someone doesnt have a steady hand =p















Went to Plalana, after not being able to find seats and being scorched by someone's ciggy at Balaclava...I seriously condemn the place...stupid arseholes...smoke also dunno how to smoke properly...may you lungs turn black...















Downed 1.5L of beer last nite..woohoo...nice!
















Okie...this is the best 3 persons pic of all nite...the rest were either fen was out of pic or sze out of pic...not to mention the one that he placed the timer on...he was completely out of the frame...we need more practice peeps...come on man...

Dodo's wedding

Part of the reason why I decided to come back to Singapore was becos beloved cousin of mine is getting married...

We grew up together, we fought, she always made me cry ( okie...I admit...I'm a hum bao most of the time when I was young), I always imitated her, copied her even in the dresses I chose...

And now, seeing her getting married to her cute-sporting hubby, I'm truly happy for her...

Here are some pics...














Went to do hair for the wedding...from looking like an alien...














to doing french manicure for the first time....Really like my nails! Cos back when I was working, I was never able to keep my nails long nor put nail polish...hehe...feel very ladylike leh...















My look for dodo's church wedding...mind u hor...i wore peachy pink! sooo not my colour...but it's the bride's theme leh...so bo bian...haha...
















The tired couple....The morning for 'Zhuang men' we literally had to use our bodies to block the brothers...cos they played cheat...not only did they waste the chilli beer, they took forever to wear the red undies that I bought...only the groom was sporting enough to wear the red bra with two oranges in them...haha

And they guys made us sisters to kiss groom's dog on the mouth before letting us into his place!! @$#@$ Heng i like dogs and that Hatchi doesnt smell...
















Pretty dodo and me! I freaking hate my nose...big and shiny...puke puke
















Wedding dinner...in the hotel room..waiting to go down...















Me and kiddo...the only girl left in the Aw family who is not married...haha...when is ur turn arh?!

i wish...

If I can use one word to describe this pic...it will be 'carefree'...I have no idea what Auggy was laughing about...but he sure was enjoying himself...

I miss my baby boys...

Latest pictures of my baby boys...I miss them to bits...miss them sooooo much....















Auggy looking really smart in his winter uniform. So cute!



















He looked so funny in his daddy's shoes...hehe



















My parcel of 'Thomas and friends' reached him on Monday...he seemed to like the hat alot =) been calling home and trying to get me to thank me for it...so sweet hor...















This is little ben ben...you know...he seriously looks the same as Auggy at this age...SAME!!! I rem last time Auggy also have some photos with this kinda poses...look the same lor...















Very cute hor...got the shuai shuai look hehe...















Finger...yum yum....















In the process of covering my greys...kaoz...hairstylist said I have quite abit of greys again! !#@@!@#@!...sis asked me...what has aussie done to you...give u two cavities and white hair?? =p















Okie..this is my new look...one side shorter than the other...hope i dun look too toot....

The day with " you like it? you like it?...eh not really" storie...haha

My last dental appt was 3 years ago! Wow, I didn't realise that until I asked my dentist about the last visit I had with her. That record card even had my old house address instead of the current one. Freaking long ago! Perhaps I'm lucky, only had 2 cavities...hehe...eh...3 years never check leh...2 considered quite little okie =p

Went walking around AMK hub with mommy thereafter. Quite fun, except that I dun think my mama appreciate my choice of clothes for her...haha...kept saying too young...too bright...too trendy...doink...

Met up with handsome for dinner tonight. Was at Raffles City Starbucks, sipping my coffee, people watching, waiting for him to knock off...

It was the exact same spot in which I cried tonnes in public, to eve, to handsome...telling them how miserable I was on separate occasions but on that one single issue. Sigh, time flies...today, I just enjoy sitting there by myself, looking at the people buzzing passed...no more misery, I'm neither sad nor happy, just felt lighter...perhaps baggages are finally shedding off...

Had a great time chatting with handsome...so much to catch up upon over the past 6 months...so much to laugh about...with each other, at each other...hehe...it's this kinda connection that I've been missing, to hear from close friends and be heard with that tinge of attentiveness only they know how and can give to me =)

Meet up again soon...want you guys to see me until you wanna puke so as to make up for the remaining half a year when I'm not around...muah haha...

role reversal...

Parent no. 1: My bro ( not available in Singapore)
Parent no. 2: ME
Child no. 1: My dad
Child no. 2: My mom

Child no. 1: I WANT to go HK asap in dec...I CAN take the plane myself...You can go there with mom in Jan...your bro need help in doing the chores and looking after the little ones...I HAVE to go there in Dec...

Me: What's the hurry...they are adults, surely they can take care of themselves and the baby boys...no need to go so early lar...

Child no. 1: NO...I want to go there in Dec...

Child no. 2: I have doc appt on the 14 Dec...can book tix after 14 Dec or not...can can can?

Me: Okie...I'll try to get the airtickets for the two of after 14 Dec okie?

Child no. 1: I can go on 10...I can even go now...

Me: -__-"

So the whole freaking morning was spent with me in messy hair, stinky mouth and gooey eyes (I just woke up), checking airlines for the earliest date and cheapest deal for them to fly over to HK.

Finally we settled on 25 Dec noon flight. You know, working in JMC helped alot. Cos I dealt with difficult AND demanding patients, in this case, my parents. Mom was okie but it didnt quite help when she bugged me with the ' so now how?' every 5 min while I was doing the online booking.

I really wanna puke blood and die...and suddenly I feel so old as though I'm dealing with two kids...doink...

My consolation was that dad compensated me by treating me and mom for lunch- sushi. Then it was another round of " what is this arh...eh what is that....eh this one nice or not...." Hai yo...If not for me being therapist, having dealt with elderly and having the liking for dealing with kids as well...I think I will convulse and die on the spot with all these qn...

Sigh...okie lar...at least they are happy now...that's all I'll ask for...

freaked out...

I scared myself just now while I was at Robinson. I thought I saw him walking by the window. I thought it was him. Caught a glimpse and I actually froze on the spot, only to realise it wasn't him.

Was out with L and his friends last night. That place was showing the EPL. New Castle versus some other team. I thought of him. Sigh. I know, he'll be betting and watching the match too. I was secretly hoping that New Castle will lose.

Sigh...why did he pop out in my mind still...

I'm home!

The moment the plane touched down...I was grinning...cos I couldn't wait to see them...Soooooo happy to see them all...yd, fen, sze, yk, adrian, choon yew...

Feel so spoilt to be fetched and driven by the guys...thank you sooo much o...

Went home to put luggage, hugged mommy...called daddy...then zoomed out for supper at chomp chomp...

Finally get to eat stingray, cai tao guey, la la, rojak and drink sugarcane juice...yum yum...

Everything seems the same yet it comes with that tinge of unfamiliarity...Kinda weird....

I have so much to talk to yd they all...sooo much....i cant wait to hang out with them longer!!!

ray, jessie, angie, wan yee and chin han...we gotta meet up soon too!

Currently am stuffed and still smell of stingray when i burped...eeks...

waiting for hair to dry so that i can get my much needed sleep...

okie peeps...in case u need to reach me...call my singtel line...i'm still using it alright...

seeya ;)