Have I always been such a person to you?

I felt like a good-for-nothing after reading those words. Even till now.

Choices that I've made are always the easy way out? All these years I have been stalling time, waiting to take the easiest paths?

To a certain extend it's true, if not I won't be in this state. That was the easiest way out I took. Another one would have been jumping off the ledge that very night when I felt that I could no longer handle my emotions on my own.

I haven't quite redeemed myself despite having to face kids every single day of my wake time. I haven't quite taken the advice from the professional who suggested that I should perhaps consider changing my job.

I didn't go for it. I am not ready to say good-bye.