wish list cont....

13. birkenstocks slippers..

14. good eye cream that can cure my dark circles...

okie no more...cant think of any liao...screen is making me nausea...better go sleep then do my report and stuff tomolo morning...

quality time spent today...nice to be able to rest....sigh sigh...luxury...

hehe a photo i took with my sis-in-law and baby auggy...he looked abit blur cos he juz woke up...and trying to grab my specs as always....

wish list...
1. wallet
2. handbag - think dodo getting me one
3. a pair of nice fitting jeans - i juz realised...the current one and only jeans i have...is bloody LOOSE...i look horrible in it...didnt realise it was THAT loose until i wore it lately...super baggy...
4. 3/4 pants
5. bikinis
6. before sunset and before sunrise DVD
7. sunglasses
8. LCD screen
9. ipod video
10. jogging stuff- singlets, shorts, sports bra
11. lingerie - ask me for my size...basically i have shrunk everywhere...haha
12. hp...samsung D820

i think i'm more like listing down my own shopping list...since the 800 bucks is in...i might as well splurge on myself...haha...

cant wait to spend my time with yd they all next sat...hehe...they gonna celebrate my bday with me that whole day...so nice...esp ck who initiated to contact the whole bunch of them...haha...happy happy

no plan for my actual bday yet...someone juz told me he'll be going away to KL over the long weekend...guess i'll have to make plans for myself then...no point waiting to be surprised...eeek learnt my lesson already...only close frens will do such thing for me...haha...u know i can never ever forget the time during j2...when the guys tricked me and collabrated with my mama to hide in my house and surprise me...hmm...pretty innovative then except for the part that i saw their shoes before i even enter my house...wat a give away keke...love u guys!

sigh...never mind...shall go out and drink to my heart's content...wat's birthday without drinking eh...hehe...

3 more days...i'll get my rest...complete ones...3 more days...i'll be able to do the things i wannt do...3 more days i can make plans for myself...birthday, career and future...

i wanna get out of singapore...handsome arh...u guys wanna go anywhere or not?

some updates bout my wish list....dodo say she might be getting me wallet or handbag...keke...this cuzzie of mine always dotes me alot...i miss hanging out with her...been busy with our own stuff and agenda...

tomolo got case study to present in schl...havent gone back for weeks le...perhaps i'll drop by the squash courts to take a look...i miss squash...didnt play for like 2 months...die le...standard sure drop to the bottom...

as always...i'm counting down to my days for clinical...4 more days! was in session with my kid today...hai yo tell you...he is so so cute! really really funny boy...so fun to work with...hopefully the session i'm gonna conduct with him will go well next tue...

so happy...ck and all are meeting me next sat for our tanning session!!!! pls pls pls dun rain...let 6th may be a nice sunny sat...throughout the day...woo...sipping beer by the beach~~ i cant wait!!!

woo another birthday wish list...
wanna go mt faber...not to dine or drink but to go there and take a look at night view...cos sua gu me never been there before...or maybe i should go there and jog one of the morning...hmm...

hai yo my baby boy is sick...dunno how come got fever...maybe cos teething...poor thing...

slept at 9 pm...i was practically tired the whole day despite 5 hours of luxurious sleep the previous nite...not enough for my body i guess...

should have juz slept when i reached home without dinner...always feel so fat to eat then sleep after that...

squabbled again...i have never quarrelled with anyone as much as i did with him...wat's wrong arh...in fact i dun even like to quarrel at all...but it seem to be one of the ways we communicate...weird...but at least now i learn to bring across my point of view instead of keep mump about it...is that good or bad...

anyway...birthday wish list...
1. wallet ( nice one pls...and no cutesy pink wallets...i'll faint)
2. nice 3/4 pants ( eh something that i can wear causally and semi-formally)
3. ipod video (juz putting this for fun...cos i realise this gadget makes my journey home with ck even more interesting...)
4. bikinis ( since 22 bday i've been receiving one set every year...dun mind having nicer ones added to my collection)
5. belly button piercing (still pending...cos currently tummy is bloody flabby due to lack of exercise...)
6. before sunrise and before sunset ( VCD or DVD...either one which ever is cheaper)
7. LCD screen ( put this to remind myself to get one cos current screen is blinding me as each day pass)
8. sunglasses (nice one pls...)
9. handbags ( working/ party handbags)
~to be continued~

anyother innovative or interesting items are welcome too...

cant think at the moment but will add on the list if i thought of something...if u really dunno wat to get for me...then never mind...meet up for breakfast, lunch or dinner i'll be happy enough...

two more weeks to go...most hectic week is coming! yeah...bring it on...

still deciding if i should go redang with my classmates...hmm...i'll have till evening to think about...

anyway was working yesterday...then went for lunch with my colleagues....wah they are very scary man...ordered so much food...was so so bloated at the end that i walked from tanglin to somerset to meet handsome and yk...

miss talking to the two of them...and as uaual...bloody yk inflicted pain on me...the way he flicked his finger on my arm was darn painful! can never master that...and yesh our r/s is based on pain...i'm always the one receving it...arh...so not fair...i'll have to find a way to irritate him...

anyway met up with ck too...then sent yd to watch his film fest movie...and off we go shopping...didnt buy anything except for cookies and chocolate...and i bought squash ball...haha...

was soo tired at the end of the day that i juz drop dead and sleep once i reached home...

and today...i juz came back from cousin's baby man yue...goodness...babies everywhere...plus the one we have...o my...quite a handful...and they are outshinning one another in terms of their size and weight...fat babies...but auggy is still the cutest! haha

tired...i go take a nap...then biang my reports...

arh.....i miss drinking...in fact i so wanna drink right now...perhaps the fact that i was so low lately was becos i havent been drinking for a long long time....

i miss that giggly feeling...i miss that state of feeling high...juz minus the puking part...hehe...

wala wala...can i go there for my bday...actually it's up to me to arrange...

i always say i have alot of things to buy but i dun seem to have the time or money to buy them....so i told my friends that i'll put these items under my next birthday wishlist....and everytime nearing my birthday...i realise i cant rem wat i want in the first place...diao~~ hmm...i'm still thinking...let me think then i'll post here can? at least for reference...dun buy also never mind...i put shuang...then next year when i read my blog again i'll know wat i wan initially...haha....good idea eh...

gotta do my report...again...dun feel like sleeping tonight...

~waving white flag~

cannot take it anymore...took MC today....in a daze now...never felt so floaty before...the thought of doing make up makes me even more sian...but what to do..feverish plus my headache been bugging me on and off...hopefully the medication will work...

i was moody...and when i'm moody i whined alot...i'll get upset over things that i aint suppose to get upset about in the first place...and i dun smile much, i juz sulk...sooo unlike the usual silly me...

yar...past entries were quite boring...cos it's all about my complaints...i cant help it...esp when my period is here...

yeah...bb bought me a small bottle of choya...havent tried it...but he said it's very nice...hmm...been getting alcoholic drinks from frens too...ck bought me rice wine when he visited japan...james bought me a small cute bottle of jap wine when he came back for vacation from fukuoka...and now bb bought me the choya drink...this goes to see how much my frens know me...muah haha...but i must make this clear...as much as i love to drink...if u buy me a bottle of wine/beer/watever alcoholic drink on my bday...i'll chop u into pieces...at least gimme something functional and usable can?

anyway...i havent tot of wat i wan for my bday...hehe...but i know i'm gonna make myself happy this year...no more running on the track for 10 rounds on my bday...no more!

sanity checked...

thanx adrian...for being such a sweetie say yes to my request and drove me to jalan kayu to drink teh tarik at nite...hehe...

it's nice to juz go out for a short while...drink tea with fren and chat...no reasons needed to meet up...juz simply becos u wanna hang out and ur fren is willing to do so with you...

it's sweet to have frens that u dun need a reason or excuse to meet up cos it's such a natural thing to do...u know u juz wan to spend time with them...without feeling that it's a chore or an obligation...juz the feeling of contentment...and that u really wanna see them...

let's all go tanning after ur exams...it's been awhile since all of us hang out together...i miss you guys...

i'm alright now...i'll always bounce back no matter how hard it is...it has been this way for years...ultimately i can only rely on myself to get back on my feet...i cant expect others to do a job that is suppose to be mine...juz need to strive and push myself further...

argh...bloody hell...cramps are killing me...such a chore to be woman...why is it that man dun have period...i so wish that they'll get to know what the term 'cramps' means...ugh...

&%^&^**....foul mood...will go jogging later...

cant even complain that i'm tired at home...yar...whatever things i've done were always trivial...attachment i'm on always seemed easy to them...i'm always not as good as what they expected me to be...seriously i dun seemed to be good at anything...

i hate it when ppl doubt me...i hate it when ppl question my intention....even my parents dun seem to be convinced how hard i'm trying...sometimes a pat on the shoulder will be enough...at least i know that they are aware of wat i'm going through...

who am i kidding...

good fri!!! happy...cos it's a holiday and i can spend sometime by myself...though i gotta do work...

did a quality check yesterday...muah haha..okie lah not bad not bad...juz glad to see my gal happily attached...now i dun need to worry about her...keke...

dun feel like doing anything..arh...nua at home...raining somemore...so nice to sleep...

later meeting my nyp mates for dinner...everything is coming to an end...closure is very much needed before we embark upon the next journey... =) isnt it fast...we're gonna be the real therapists soon...3 weeks time...scary eh...

i hope i get the job at AH...no doubt it's only 4 months...i dun mind at least i'll get some experience...hopefully if i perform well enough they'll hire me for long term...at least my sup still rem me...keke...

i feel like going for a drink...hmm...

feeling abit low now...so much things to do...so little time...so little time...so little sleep...everything has to be compromised...

so stressed that i feel conjested in my lungs...

i wanna get out of singapore...after my clinical...cant stand it....i need a break...get me out of here...plssssssss.....

have this strong feeling that i may be falling sick again...think i have been eating too much potato chips =p

mid-way eval went alright today...now more stress to perform well so that i can score even better than mid-way...which means i have to cont' typing more reports each day...

only managed to type one today cos i was too exhausted...reached home at around 9 after having dinner with ray, jessie and wanyee....nice dinner time spent...been awhile since we've met up...always love catching up with them...too bad i cant watch ice age 2 with them...

after the girls sent me home, i fell asleep in front of the tv again...wanted to watch abit of show before starting work...baby boy came home...sis-in-law tossed him to me while i was half awake...and this little fellow was so thrilled to see me that he started attacking my specs and earrings...i wasnt even awake to stop his hands...too much to handle...i tossed him to my dad...haha

went into my room to nap somemore...gotten woken up by mama carrying baby boy into my room 'let's see wat gu gu is doing...' i was napping prone on my bed...half awake...and mama actually placed auggy on my back letting him ride on me and grabbing my hair....wah liao...as if i havent gotten tortured enough by all these little devils in the day time...now she wants to terrorize me with auggy...-_- yar yar...can never be too far away from these little creatures....biang no energy already lah...

slept the longest ever for the whole of this week...

reached home near 8 only to find my self feeling dizzy from all the swinging, bouncing and wrestling with big size kid....

lying on my bedroom floor...i cant move an inch of my muscle...finally managed to get up ate some food and went to nua on the couch to watch tv...

it didnt take long before i dozed off and was sleeping on the couch....by the time i woke up...it was 4 am...no one bothered to wake me up....no one...sigh...

so i woke up at 4...bathed and started reading book, sipping tea...felt so good...read a few chapters...started to feel sleepy again so i finally went back to sleep in my bedroom...with lights off...been quite a while since i slept with lights off...not becos i'm afraid of dark but becos i need it to wake myself up in the middle of the nite to get up and do work....

coming weeks will be worse than this...sigh...typing this down already makes my stress level increase a notch...i wanna get out of singapore after this attachment...to any where....i need a break...desperately...all these madness rushing since exams in mid feb is thinning my blood vessels...i'm juz one step so near of getting a stroke....

i always have this image of my head getting so stress that it ballooned to such a size that eventually it juz burst when i'm still functioning....4 more weeks....i think should keep my head in ice to keep it from expanding...

been eating quite abit and not working out...tummy popping out...damn...

went jogging juz now...8 rounds...real fast...was happy when i ran...i have nearly forgotten how it feels like to have the breeze blowing across my face...was smiling when i jogged cos i miss that adrenaline rush....

now i'm tired...but still gotta do report...

i farted in bb's car yesterday...and nearly kena killed by him...haha...cos it was a real bad one...but i couldnt help burst out laughing...even when i thought about it this morning...yar yar am very gross right...but hey...it's a natural process...juz that digestive system aint working that well lately...too bad loh...too much sitting down during clinical...

gotten a hug from this little girl in the morning...soo soo cute...was surprised that she came to hug me...cos it was only the 3rd day i'm seeing her...she's a real cutie...~melt~ ...reminds me of how auggy would have done when i ask him to sayang me...hehe...so cute.....

gotta do work...yawn yawn

stress again...kena questions from sup...dun quite understand her qn and thus my ans dun seem to ans her qn...how?!

begining to doubt if i am in for peds setting...seems like i'm not as observant as i tot i am...or that i used to be...what happened man...

arh....stress....

super duper stress lately...i dunno why...happened to talk to sze about it and next thing i know... tears started to accumulate...held it back and resume my work cos i knew even if i cry i still have to do work anyway...so no point...might as well get work done than sit there and cry...

it was only till a phone call and some squabbles that i couldnt take it anymore but to breakdown...damn...no one makes me cry before...

hate to cry...it's the last thing that i need to do...

5 more weeks before i can rest completely...5 more weeks.....i'll be able to pull through it no matter wat...

our own version of broke back mountain?


no lah...here's their partners...eh real partners...

my wala girls...keke

the usual 4 beauties...2 of them went penang for attachment...

present to you...mr lim hua beng..i'm really glad to have a mentor like him...really learn alot man...

my dear fyp mates , yingying, huixin, eve, peng(our principal investigator), and dylan!

beloved eve...hehe...always there to hear me whine...thanx o

bonnie...someone who's been with me thru these years!