Saturday, March 17, 2007

tear-stained glasses...

i didnt know how difficult it is to clean my pair of tear-stained glasses despite me rubbing ever so hard with the spec cloth...

i didnt know how hurt i still am with all the words that my dad had ever said to me...

i didnt know how easily i cry while watching a love-comedy movie...

i didnt know how little self love i actually have for myself...

i didnt know how broken i am inside me all these while...

ask me how i've been doing at work? my reply will be this =)

ask me how i've been coming along? my reply will be this =)

ask me how i've been feeling this week? my reply will be this =)

who am i kidding...i was never =) thru the past week...

i want my tears to stop...but it's been flowing non-stop....

5 comments:

gageism said...

and now you know.
i often think that you want yourself to be the world's best and strongest.
that's not it..
it's knowing yourself.. and protecting yourself from your obvious enemies..

it's never bad to be weak.
everyone of us is.
everyone has his/ her weakness.

so now you know your weakness..
time to be stronger..

hugz

mEipiNg said...

take for an example a half filled glass. different people interpret it differently. some may say its half filled, some may say its half empty.

same goes for people. people tend to see their flaws more than their strengths.. but if you were to change that thinking and focus more on your strengths, you will be more happy!

there is no need to please the world, because the world wont please you in the end.

okay i dunno wad im blabbering but i hope u caught something in my words! cheer up ya? hug hug :)

Misspiggy said...

since young i've always recognised crying as a sign of weakness...i hate to show the weaker me...been trying to be strong for too long...for once i tried removing this shield of mine to allow that someone in but it went out of hand and now i crumbled totally...

it wont happen anymore...i'll pick myself up...no matter what i'll juz have to move on, on my own, with my own two feet...

gageism said...

this is your song.. by nelly furtado (Te Busque)

I've been high I've been low
I've been fast I've been slow
I've had nowhere to go
Missed the bus missed the show
I've been down on my luck
I've felt like giving up
My life locked in a trunk
When it hurt way too much
I needed a reason to live
Some love inside me to give
I couldn't rest I had to keep on searching

Te busque de bajo de las piedras y no te-encontre
En la manana fria y en la noche te-busque
Hasta enloquecer
Pero tu llegaste a mi vida como una luz
Sanando las heridas de mi corazon
Haciendo me-sentir vivo otra vez

I've been too sad to speak and too tired to eat
Been too lonely to sing the devil cut off my wings
I've been hurt by my past but I feel the future

In my dreams and it lasts I wake up I'm not sure
I wanted to find the light something just didn't feel right
I needed an answer to end all my searching

I look in the mirror the picture's getting clearer
I wanna be myself but does the world really need her
I ache for this earth
I stopped going to church
See God in the trees makes me fall to my knees
My depression keeps building like a cup overfilling
My heart so rigid I keep it in the fridge
It hurts so bad that I can't dry my eyes
Cuz they keep on refillin' with the tears that I cry...

Misspiggy said...

nahele: you're right...it's time i stop this self pity thingy

gage: IT IS MY SONG!!