goon goon??

All of us have been trying to get auggy to call my mum ' nai nai' and me 'gu gu' ...so far he can call my bro 'pa pa', sis-in-law 'ma ma', my dad 'ye ye' and of cos blurt out ' bao bei' or ' baby' at times which indicates himself.... haha very duh right...

was having cereal breakfast today at the dinning table and this little glutton kept bugging me to feed him some...and so i did....but before i fed him...i made him say 'xie xie' (sis-in-law has been training him for it...so i'm juz helping her to reinforce)...for this he can pronounce very clearly...the next few times when i fed him...i made him call me 'gu gu'...and cos he really really wanted to eat...he attempted calling me...

'goon goon' was all he called out o_O ....sounds like 'goon doo' leh...
actually all these while he's been calling me that...tried to correct it but cant leh...

hai yar 'goon goon' is better than him calling me something else =p

anyway here's the videos that my bro uploaded...

christmas!

spent x'mas eve with my dear squashies at new majestic hotel...it's so darn cool!! nice hotel room we've gotten! really cosy and nice to stay in...two storey somemore...the design is so interesting and the bed is so fluffy!!! haha...would love to go there again and try out the different rooms...cos each room has different design!

chrismas day itself was spent at handsome's house...we all went crazy with the game of twister!
u can never imagine the kind of positions we've gotten into in order to win the game...haha...and best thing is we will attack each other's space so that the other party will fall and get kick out of the game...haha evil eh...but it's fun...not to mentioning tiring too...

dinner was filled with delicious turkey, salad, baked potatoes and ham etc....it's like our family gathering once again...something different from our usual steamboat...

gifts exchange was fun too...i've gotten yd's cd...the music is not bad...some group that i've not heard of but they songs are nice...
dawn has gotten my gift...hope she'll grow the sea monkeys and let me see...hehe...

very sleepy now...such a nice weather to sleep in...but i have to wake up early to work...why why why....

i shall re-post auggy's video again later...something gone wrong with the set up...

was on roller coster ride for the past one week...emotionally going up and down due to some reasons...have things been back to normal? i dun think it'll ever be the same again...

looking forward to X'mas...spending time with ray, jessie, wanyee, chin han and angie on the eve and going yd's house on the christmas itself...bought an interesting present for the gift exchange...exciting...hehe...

ARGH!!!! KILL ME PLS....

so many things to do at work place but none related to my job! bloody hell....i'm not a PSA...i'm not a therapy assistant...i'm not an organiser for party....ARGH!!!!!

i think i need a drink to calm my nerve down...argh....freaked out....cindy and i both freaked out...why are arrangement made without even going thru us...we are the ones working here but we dun bloody know wat's going on...or we do but only know half...how come it turns out this way...is it juz becos we are junior therapist...AGRH!!!!

~deep breath~ hoo....~deep breath~ hoo.....

feel pek chek again...post mentural syndrome? dunno man...juz feel like slapping ppl or shaking them so hard that their necks fall off...like what u'll see in 'the simpsons'

nikki babe is back in s'pore! called her last nite...missed her voice leh...gonna meet her for dinner soon...hopefully she can make it...

miss my colleagues again...one of them called me yesterday...so funny...he called me to tell me that their loads are low and that they are decorating the activity room for x'mas...i wish i can join them...miss them so much suddenly...sigh...

i let auggy listen to that chipmunks x'mas song last nite...he was smiling so sweetly when he heard the voices...sooo cute...maybe should get the cd for him...

shall blog again later...

~thursday~
met up with yk and yd, my two big bullies...dinner was sorta suppose to be a belated birthday celebration with yk...didnt get him any pressie cos we dunno what he wants..so gave him red packet instead...

miss chatting with the two big bullies so much...talked about all sort of issues...which i dun get to talk about much lately...i did zone out quite a bit at times cos too tired...is that a sign of aging...

went to harry's before heading home...saw a bunch of kids in prom dresses and outfits celebrating someone's birthday...o man...18 yo and they are celebrating birthday in a pub...where was i when i was 18...yeah i do feel old somehow...

~fri~
went for squash from work...it's at a condo behind nyjc...the courts are so darn cool...it's air conditioned! only kallang has courts that are air conditioned and they charge at 10 bucks per hour! here in the condo it's free! next time if i were to purchase one i'll want it to come with squash courts too! that is if i get to purchase one...

played till 11 pm then...sigh my skills sux...think among all i'm the slowest and strokes are bad...time to focus on training man

after squash...went to daze with my girls...juz like good old days...so darn fun! reminds me of nyp days when we would go daze each sat without fail...we would juz go in our smelly attire and with our rackets...haha fun fun!

~sat~
went to work from 9-4...cos it's open house for JMC...suppose to have demonstrations on exercises with the use of gym balls and thera-bands...but our section ended up a huge playground for kids...with them swarming towards us to play with the gym balls...we became the unoffical nannies taking care of the kids while their parents are busy queuing up for free check ups or making purchases...our boss kept laughing whenever she walked pass our section...-_- tiring leh looking after so many kids...

after knocking off at 4...went for express pedicure with cindy...somewhat like a treat to ourselves...hehe...

met up with lionel and his frens for wala at nite...but sadly shirlyn wasnt performing then...so we head down to ms instead...went to a place called 'day bed bar'...appearently there was some private function going on...i think their theme was wig nite cos we saw lots of ppl with funny and colourful wigs...not to mention there's lots of ang mos, spgs, pretty babes...blah blah...

did i say the outside of this place was filled with huge couches for u to lie on...so i was practically lying down there looking at these ppl going in and out of the place...and of cos drinking at the same time...

after that...went to catch 'saw III'....i like the ending...cos there's a twist to it...other than that...the middle part was pretty boring...nearly dozed off...by the time movie ended...it was 4 am...

~sun~
nothing much except that i slept for most part of the day...suppose to meet gina,her hubby, bonnie and her bf for dinner...had headache so didnt go...anyway felt abit weird to join them too..cos i'll be like the odd one out...next time maybe...when i'm more up to it...

spent time with baby boy in the afternoon...
took him to ntuc to buy some stuff again...i quite enjoy bringing him out and spending time with him alone...although the carrying-him part always make my arms give way...

took him to the supermarket and let him sit in the trolley...quite fun...cos he'll help me put the items into the trolley and then go 'vroom vroom' as though he's riding a bike...haha...then let him walk back home from the void deck onwards...

he's so cute u know...he'll walk into the lift then attempt to press the lift buttons..but cos he's too short...he pressed the emergency bell instead...haha...

it's so fun to see him growing up bit by bit each day...i cant wait for the day when i can juz hold his hand and go out together...eh the carrying part is really too tough for me if we were to go beyond my house area..haha..

i closed my bedroom door so that i could use my computer in peace without baby boy disturbing me...

this little fellow protested by screaming and banging on the door...attempting to make me open it for him with his fake cries

so i told him 'call me gu gu first...then i'll open the door...'

no sound, nothing...

so i tot he went away since i aint reacting to any of his pleas nor can he call me...

i happily continue typing my stuff...

next moment i know...the door opened slowly and there came baby boy giving me that cheeky smile and walking those drunkard-like steps into my room...

bro was standing behind him at that moment...i stared at him and questioned him upon opening the door for auggy...he juz gave me that innocent look with two arms raise by his side and said ' i didnt do it...he opened it himself....'

who on earth will believe a 16-months toddler can reach the door hinge to open the door...

so i carried auggy out and closed my door to test him...

this little bugger happily tiptoed and stretched out his puny hand to reach for the hinge, pulled it down and pushed the door open -_-''

now i cant stop him from going into my room and i cant lock it either cos i cant rem where i put the keys to my door

and the best thing is...i wonder if i'm the one who drove him to attempt such act cos ultimately he rather open the door himself than call me 'gu gu'....dunno to cry or to laugh man...

first of all...'Happy Birthday Jessie!' many wishes to ya...MUACK!

went for squash this morning...so shiok! my stamina sux though....shall start training and get it back...
miss the old training days so much...glad that we can do it again! yippe...back to 3 training days a week? hopefully i wont be too dead...

went out for lunch with my squashies at amk mos...read sunday times,chatted and then head to bishan cos i'm looking for a book...thought i can find it at MPH...

i cant believe how blur i am...have gone to J8 so many times...i kept thinking that the old MPH was still around...completely ignorant bout it being replaced by Jean Yip Hub....sigh blur blur...

went back home after buying the book and was busy packing my room...it is simply too messy...i cant stand it...so manage to clear the rubbish that has been in my room for ages...

things i tot i've returned/lost but are actually sitting in my room include:
1. La Trobe acceptance letter for july 2007 which i told the IDP guy i didnt receive the hardcopy...i swear man...i really tot the one i have was for feb intake...

2. 'eat, shoots and leaves' - i know i know...ck, u're rolling ur eyes...i dunno how long i've borrowed it from u...

3. a necklace from yingkai years and years ago....

anyway spent the rest of the day shifting my stuff and making space in my room so that when baby boy comes in, he wont trip and fall...so in the end i've repositioned my bed to make space...

something funny to note...
i was shitting juz now and auggy keep coming to the toilet door...he will knock and go 'ahhhhh....' by the tiny gap of the door.... so i'll juz say ' i'm shitting, not done yet...call me gugu!!' then he'll walk away...he did this for like 3-4 times thru out my entire 'big business time'...it's so funny...it's like him checking on me while i shit...haha...someone does really care about moi shitting...muah haha...

worked till 8.30pm last nite...was giving some modular training...pretty fun and interactive...

pek chek...i juz feel so pek chek since yesterday...argh feel like screaming...

been having weird dreams again...now i'm darn tired...

ray is planning for us to form a team and join a club outside so that we can train up and compete with others to gain confidence..

i cant wait to get back to squash...seriously i missed those training days...make me feel so fit and healthy...not like now...darn flabby esp with me having things like curry puffs for breakfast....i miss trainings partly becos i miss the company of my fellow squash mates in the courts...doing drills and strokes together is always such a fun thing that you wont even feel tired...

lately i keep asking auggy to call me 'gu gu'....he'll always pat me on my chest when i ask him to call moi...then he will smile...but he juz wont pronouce the word 'gu gu'...hai yar dunno he purposely or that he still cant pronounce the word....but mom said he can voice ' kor kor' and he already can suck water from the straw...hmm...o well i shall be patient =p

did i mention i really like my phone...cos i can take photos and transfer them to my com...plus my ring tone can be any songs that i like...current song playing...tom diner....~cool~

i havent had enough courage to go for belly button piercing...still contemplating....hahaha...maybe that'll be my x'mas gift for myself...must start to psych myself...more....

he's such a cutie right?

he is scratching his tummy...haha

he's such a lucky chap...both my parents adore him so much!!! look at their smiles!

Followings are random pics that i took over the past one week with my phone...

here's some at my work place...

faulty splinting pan that nearly set my clinic on fire...


in the toilet....some funny note on the wall for the ladies

Next up....yixin's man yue...

proudly present to u...my god daughter...muah hahaha....

see...she slept soo soundly in my arms...actually she slept thru out the whole man yue...haha


first photo taken after apple has given birth...still looks good eh...hehe

Ck's birthday dinner last fri...

yd, me, papa ng, and the birthday boy...waiting for who??? yilong who is darn late!


the birthday boy...muack...u're one year older...HA!


the birthday cake!!! exactly like bentto!!!


me, ck, james and yd

ck and i...look how tired i am...i cant stand those eye bags

we've got nothing to do except taking photos...cos we're waiting for the bus to fetch us

the loooong corridor

singapore binnale

cindy and I at JMC

yes in my room again...

baby boy in room...

~monday~
went over NTU to join handsome and his friends in the core exercises...
da bao dinner over and ate in his room...started chatting about 'will and grace' and boy do i miss watching it...miss karen, jack, will and of cos grace!

the run within NIE was alright, much like a warmup...gym stations were THE killer esp those related to upper limbs...i had such a hard time doing them...even needed yd to help me lift the weight a bit...i think any more weight added my forearm will break man...

lower limbs exercises were alright for me...but not for yd...muah haha...he needs to moan in order to have THE energy to pull the machine up with his calves...it was hilarious and not to mention entertaining to see his facial expression through out the whole process...haha...good work out eh handsome...

till today...my arms dun seem mine...my hamstrings are tight...i'm aching all over...argh...but i do like the achy feeling...haha

~tuesday~
last min arrangement with my colleague to watch 'the guardian' cos he had free tics
went for dinner and shopped for a gift at tangs in vivo city before heading for the show...

movie was good except that we had to sit in the front row...strained my neck man...

~wednesday~
had to attend my colleague's wedding in the evening...
princess and i knocked off 15 min earlier and off we went to her place to bathe, change and doll ourselves up...

finally i get to see my fellow OT colleagues and my boss at the wedding...o man miss them so much...enjoyed myself during the dinner...chatting and updating them about on going events at jmc...

food was alright...perhaps i was hungry cos i ate quite alot..haha...the band at the wedding was good...jazz songs set the mood man...

got home at around 1130...and i concussed straight away....

tiring week!!! i need more sleep....

Yippee!!! gonna be an aunt again coming next june! soooo excited and happy!!! imagine another auggy walking around at home...muah haha...fun fun...

sis said maybe this time it's a girl...cos all the symptoms are different...she's been puking alot for this pregnancy...can only eat bland food....so poor thing...

meanwhile poor little chap has been sleeping in the living room with my dad cos sis is simply too tired to nurse him at nite...and my mom cant handle him thru the nite...cos she'll be lacked of sleep and will end up with headache...

went to see my god daugther yesterday...little yi xin....she's got alot of hair man....more than my auggy...haha...she slept thru the whole celebration of her man yue...rarely open her big eyes leh...very cute and chubby o...till i figure out how to transfer photos from my phone to com....i'll upload all the photos i've taken with my new phone =)

finally i get to see more than 1 pt today...the most challenging one...was not about her diagnosis...it was that i had to babysit her grandson and carry out treatment at the same time....

this little fellow is 1 year old++...juz like auggy...but he has more hair and walks more steadily than my baby boy....pretty cute too...

the moment he came into my treatment room...he started opening and closing drawers...imagine i had to lock and plug out the keys for every single drawer and cabinet...then half way thru the treatment session he started whining and asking for his granny to carry him...there was no way she could do that cos i gave her paraffin bath for one of her hands...in the end...i had to carry the baby and talk to the granny at the same time...

that's not all...the little boy started eating and spitting onto the floor...hai yo i have to go after him to clean him up and clean my room up...

in the end i had to cut short the treatment session cos the little boy started crying and wanting to get out the room....

the thing is...through out the whole session i didnt feel any tinge of frustration or anger at all leh...i can even try to explain to the granny all the exercises that she needs to do in the midst of the little boy crying....i wonder if the level of my patience has gone up a notch higher....or that auggy has trained me to be able to handle baby crisis thru and thru...hmm...seriously i didnt know i can tahan the whole thing...haha...

went sun tanning at sentosa on sat...it was fun!! weather was slightly gloomy at first but it turned out pretty nice a weather to be tanning in...

juz when we were baking ourselves, dozing off on the beach comfortably...this funny little dog came running...smearing his wet and sandy self on the 3 of us...and the best part was...he started rubbing his body on my tanning cloth as though trying to clean himself dry -_- luckily he didnt pee on us...if not i sure wack his tiny little butt to give him some toilet training...keke

done with tanning...went to to vivo to walk around...huge shopping place...tonnes of ppl...and becos it was crowded...my bag was often bummed and hit by others...and that pissed me off...yes i have big bag...but that doesnt mean u need to bum my bag when u walk pass....so irritating...

evening time...went to timbre again...this time round to see unxpected's performance in the open air...the food there is really good and so it the service and the alcohol...with the good band and good bunch of company...i had a real good time...

gals...thanx for sending me home last nite....as always drinking can never be as fun without the 3 of you...

was talking to aud last nite...she asked me how was i feeling...i guess subconsciously i've already had enough of the crap that he gave...so much so that it wasnt that hard this time round...i've really really really reached my limit of tolerance...i've tried so hard but now i juz feel exhausted....

and like what she said...i'm suppressing my emotions so that i dun have to feel anything at the moment...truth is i cant afford to let it out...i still need to work and face people every single day...

i wish i'm back at AH...i can at least push myself and take my mind off by seeing patients one after another...at least that was how i coped previously and that was why i lost so much weight during that period of time...stress, attachment in hands, being dumped...

i'm sorry if my blog sound boring lately...but juz for this period of time...at least let me get these things out of my system before i can safely say the old me is back...i'll bounce back...juz not at the moment...

this time round it's for real and it's starting to sink in...no msges no calls...not even an apology...which probably mean things got better after him not contacting me?

i didnt know i have such power to jinx ppl...whatever it is...i still hope that with me making the exit, things will perhaps turn better for him...

i know i've been very silly all these while...instead of learning to grow up...i'm going backward instead...

sux...I hate the feeling that i'm getting now...why do u keep blaming me for things that i have utterly no control of...i really have enough of these nonsense...

lost my phone in the cab on tuesday wee morning....damn...all my precious baby boy's photos are gone...gotten sim card replaced but using old faulty phone at the moment....still thinking if i should get a new phone...

went to sid's house for dinner on hari raya...nice food esp the chocolate cake...though i was the only friend there...didnt feel that awkward...maybe last life i was a malay...muah haha

ck, if u're reading this...u still owe me big big for flying my kite last min...do it again and i'll bite ur head off...

bored...thought first day will be hectic...but i only got to see one patient so far...

the good thing about my new work place is that i have a room and a computer all to myself...and i can decorate my work place...haha...i've placed the turtle on my pc...have decided to name it xiao bai (sorry chin han...didnt mean to use ur name...haha)...juz feel that the name suits the turtle =p very cute!

anyway i cant wait for weekends to come...will get to see little darrell! yeah yeah...perhaps this will be our jc gathering too...since most of the jc classmates are being invited...

suddenly i feel like doing mean things...argh...feel like screaming my lungs out...why do i always torment myself...why am i so weak emotionally...why why why....i think i do it deliberately so that i can feel the pain to stay alive...argh...wat am i doing....

i miss my colleagues in AH...one of them is sweet enough to buy me the 3-D turtle puzzle that i was looking for...i've gotten it fixed and it looked juz like the real one...so cute...shall have it placed in the office tomolo...

have to fight a war tomorrow....i hate it when i'm not in control of situation...feel so insecure...i hope the consultants will be merciful and not refer so many cases to me at one shot...

no matter how hard it is...i'll juz have to survive thru and thru...if i can get thru this jmc set up i'll be happy enough...

Little apple is out! 13/10/2006 11.40pm!

gonna go KKH to visit the mommy and baby later! so exciting! one baby after another! this time round is my goddaughter! woo hoo!

coming next sat is little darrell's one month...so fast right?! haha...

my little one at home juz starting to walk...he's so darn cute and cheeky...hehe...

anyway gotta go...

really tired...i should get back to my jogging soon...but with the haze going on...forget about it man...i'll choke on the haze...the air was darn smelly...eek...

btw took up fitness challenge last fri with my colleague...timing for my 2.4km was 12.14 min...and he got ahead of me by 1 s...wah haha....good to have someone to pace u when u jog...but i was aiming for 11 min plus...guess going up the slope twice was the killer for me...i would usually scream when i ran up slope...and my colleague will juz laugh at me cos he knows i really hated slopes....but by the second round...i was too darn tired to even complain...

placing my focus on work...been feeling tired again lately...dunno is it the weather or my body's condition...been eating quite abit too...o man i need to maintain my figure leh...cousin's wedding coming soon and i've bought a really nice dress for the occasion...cant afford to look pudgy...

met up to talk...watever it is...let it be...

he screamed his lungs out...hit the wall and pushed the fan onto floor...

i've grown up with him but i've never seen him behaved this way ever...it's as though he was crazy and couldnt stop himself...cracked under the pressure...he lost it completely for the moment...

i was so darn scared...nearly burst out crying...cos there was only two of us at home...i dunno know wat to do...i can only pick up the fallen fan...passed him water to calm him down...talk sense to him though i know nothing can get into his ears...

i still cant quite shake off the look on his face when he cracked that nite...i think she should see how he looked...perhaps she'll know how much stress he was under...

i know i shouldnt cry...but i still did...

latest update...

gotten back my life and freedom today...took me this long to get to this stage isnt it...chance was given but misused despite me deliberately asking him about it...since he has the cheek not to admit it...then no point going on from there...

i hope he goes busted one day...judging from the way it goes...he's not ready for anything...except being a child trapped in an adult suit...

anyway...gina gave birth to her baby boy today! so proud of her! went thru 12 hours of labour...she looked so exhausted when i went to visit her...hehe managed to carry her baby for a short while! so so cute! reminds me of the time when auggy was born....

gonna go sleep...i'm tired...

belly piercing here i come!

feeling blue...why?

am i being appreciated both at work and in relationship...somehow i always get this feeling that both can do with or without my presence...

anything can be replaced...ultimately one juz has to learn...to live and be alone somehow...

flipped thru the diary i've written years ago...the poem i wrote still stand...it was dark but so true...wrote it in chinese though...back then my chinese was so much better...ha

suddenly i miss someone...miss hanging out with her...i think it's been a year or so since we last meet up...how come things turn out this way? why is it that she finds it unbearable to talk to me...

last monday...we nearly rammed into the bus while on the way to collect my screen...half the time during the ride i was trying to anchor myself so that i wont fly off the bike...i'm not that light am i...hmm....

we were close...so close...rammed my head into bro's helmet when he e-brake...thankfully the bike didnt skid or fell side way...the engine juz went dead after that...

i can't help but think wat would have happened if bro didnt e-brake fast enough...i can't bear the thought of him being injured...he juz started his fatherhood...so much more awaiting him to explore and experience with auggy...

if i were injured...i think i'll suffer from multiple fractures...looking at how small my bone structure...and with that maybe i'll die on the spot...cos all the factures may be juz poking into my organs and making me bleed to death...at least be dead on the spot will be good...i dun wanna be a burden to anyone...

i havent quite been able to fall sleep lately..

i'm a happy girl now...cos i've juz gotten my lcd screen from adrian! muah haha...no more fuzzy screen!!! thanx adrian!

now i''m stuck to my com...trying to type my reports...haha...although it's work...i dun mind at all cos i no longer need to strain my eyes!!!

i havent been saving up much since i start working...this is bad...i've got to start a new acc with no card and start saving up with my next salary...if not i'm never gonna be able to afford a lappy which i need when i go oversea...

gtg liao...will blog more tomolo!

was feeling sooo tired today...perhaps the 2 days course broke my momentum for work...juz feeling plain drained and lousy mood today...esp after the meeting...sigh...

wonder if my tiredness is due to my low blood pressure or that i'm juz not getting enough rest...

went for health screening the previous week....and my BP was 90/53! Never knew that my BP was that low...o well...my weight is still the same...43 kg...will have to wait for the blood test results to be out...hopefully nothing is wrong with my body system...

been having weird dreams lately...disrrupt my sleep...makes me feel even more tired despite me sleeping alot....i miss last friday nite so so much...cos i get to watch movie and sleep in till 1.30pm the next day...feels so good to laze around with no burden from work...

did i mention...i zonked out on sat nite...with ray, jessie and peifen....i puked so much that i was still puking the very next day...that was how bad my hangover was...damn...no more death drop or drop dead...i think i've come to the stage where my body juz cant take so much alcohol like i used to 2 years back....the fact that i need one whole day to recover tells me that i can only take 2-3 beers next time...shots will juz kill me man....

as sian as i felt at the end of the day...as low as i felt when i knocked off....i'm pretty glad that i get to meet up with ck and james to catch the cosmetic-surgeon-directed-typical-singaporean-with-no-climax-hokkien-local film...

and also to hear from someone trying to cheer me up and making sure that i'm feeling alright...

gtg...i need to sleep....

so sorry for not updating my blog religiously...been feeling lazy to update esp after work and with my fuzzy screen...i have no choice but to shut down my computer before i blind myself...

soon...i'm getting my lcd screen fixed...getting a sceond hand screen...cos it's cheaper and i wont be around next year so no point getting a new one...letting it get dusty and spoilt all over again...

adrian, if u're reading my blog...thanx for helping me ask ur fren...i know i keep changing my mind...thanx for being patient with me...

updates in my life...

1 september...i've become former AH staff...but HR havent drafted out the new contract yet...in the process of creating it i think...

and by oct 18 i'll have to go JMC....after all the changes...i'm still going to boon lay to work afterall...excited and scared at the same time...cos i'll be all alone...o man...

i finally went back schl for squash...it felt so good to be back...and my skills dropped like nobody's business...sigh...o recently there's safra novice open competition...my mates participated and i've been down to support them...so happy to see them play and compete...think i need to brush up my skills before entering any competition...=p

i've juz helped nikki changed her flight...wah biang...the operator's aussie accent so strong...think i'll die there leh...how how how....

My baby auggy...he's already one year old now...will soon be promoted from being a baby to an annoying toddler...hehe...but i still love him...very very much...

Ah ping...dun mind i take the pic from ur blog lah hor...hehe...hope u guys had fun with auggy during that yum cha session!

Yd...you havent seen auggy in person yet hor?!

click click click....that's wat i caught yesterday with my dear squashies...been a while since we went for a movie...man i so proud of myself for resisting the temptation of going out to drink with them after the movie...if not for work...i would have gone for it...full force...haha...

did car transfer with my pt today...so cool...mpv leh...haha...bit high though...luckily the pt doesnt require maximum assistance...if not i sure pengz...actually my initial plan was to practise with him via the cab that was donated by tibs which is permanently parked in AH...but then the son suggested practising using his car...so i was like 'oo...all the better...let's do it...' heng i didnt scratch his car or create a new dent...

lately there's cute looking docs and nurses around...keke...makes the whole hospital scenary a little more bearable....

Happy National Day!

becos it's the country's bday today...i shall blog in red =p

yesterday was the first time i handle weight management...pretty weird and overwhelming to talk to a group of ppl as well as individuals regarding their problems...still have so much to learn when i'm conversing with different ppl...

ended work late...thought i would have to go home to have dinner alone...hehe luckily ck called up and ask if i wanna meet for dinner...so me, yd,him, james and fen met up in town to go makan...

indeed, the malay food is pretty nice...thanxing for the recommendation james...i missed sitting at round table to eat...like a big family...the eating and chatting makes the food even nicer...hehe

after dinner...it's chill out time! have always wanted to go the irish pub at somerset...finally i get to go last nite...o well...beer is the same...juz that the crowd consist of more ang mos and louder clients...anyway i quite like the wooden high table and chairs...so fun to sit there...drink and chat...laugh and be mocked at for fen's and my plan to go malacca over the weekend...

hehe...i'm planning for a trip afterall...juz not that far off yet...haha

low...feeling bloody low...

how come i feel redundant in all aspects of my life...

i'm here dangling in the air not knowing if my contract is going to end or not...why cant they give me an ans...

and so i'm gonna be replaced and will be handing over my load...maybe i should juz leave...

i wonder if i can go for those work as you travel thingy...do i need to pay alot?

and so my boss told me she's thinking of ways to tell the HR department to extend my contract...as what she told me today...she and her boss (who is my boss' boss) want to keep me at AH but trying to find ways and valid reason cos by mid august...their scholar will be back and there may be more than enough therapists around...but problem now is that they will be shorthanded again come next year january as my colleague is going overseas to pursue her PhD...by then it will be a hassel to hire someone new again...

nothing is confirm...so i'll just wait and see how things go...appreciate that my bosses are willing to keep me...but anyhow i'm prepared to end the contract and take a break...afterall i dun wanna pin my hope then end up getting disappointed...i do need a break afterall...

mananged to pull thru my inservice presentation today =p keke we ended up discussing about other OT related stuffs...pretty good sharing session among the therapists...

slept for 3 hours last nite...gonna sleep soon man...

anyway caught movies with fen and ck lately...sat went to watch 'the lake house' ....wah nice leh...storyline actually aint too bad..plus it features my hunk-keanu reeves!!!~melt~

went to watch 'thank you for smoking' with fen yesterday....really good and witty show...moral of the story...everyone is good in something...it juz depends on how u use ur talent...go watch it...the scriptwriter is really witty with the conversations written out...and guess wat...they mention 'will and grace' in the movie too...that's how popular this sitcom is...muah haha....

very sian now...i cant watch my scv...cos no tv to watch...looking at my fuzzling computer screen...i'm not far from feeling nauseas....help...i'm so bored....

went for ward round today...i stood there...10 mins into it...i started seeing stars...not a good sign man...so i excused myself to go toilet...pee~ed and went back to stand there and listened to the house men report about the progress of each pt...

15 min into it...i started to break into cold sweat...then saw more stars this time round...i excused myself again and went to sit on the toilet bowl to rest...my boss must be wondering why i kept going to the toilet...but then i didnt tell her cos we are already down to 2 therapist to take charge of the whole 13 wards...plus i've already had 2 days mc this month already...

actually i panicked alittle when i was feeling faint...cos i need to pull thru today no matter wat but i know physically i may not be up to it...

but then come to think of it...the worst case scenario will be that i faint among the medical offiecers, house men, registras and medical students...all 'pretty well trained' health professionals...and hopefully one of the handsome good looking docs will come save me and gimme CPR...ha ha ha

anyway managed to pull thru today...with the help of my beloved therapy assistant...cant thank her enough....

sigh....i'm sick again this week...this is like the second time this month...think my boss aint very happy with me cos i took mc and they have to cover for me...

eversince last attachment, i've been sick on and off...or should i say i fall sick very easily for the past few months...perhaps the lack of exercise...immune system getting a tad too low...

actually i kinda get attune to working life...i love my job...i dun mind interacting with elderly...i dun mind chatting with them either...cos some of them are really lovely and cute to talk to....but once i'm off work...i'm always in shut down mode...i wont wanna talk much to anyone when i reach home...and i snap pretty easily too...seems like my patience is used more on my patients than when i'm home....

went to return dvd to yk on wed...was so drained...and he saw me...he kept asking me wat happened to me...why am i getting skinner and skinner...where is the fat oldt me...i nearly wanted to cry...i miss talking to yk...but that ady i simply have no enegery to stay and catch up with him...i miss our time spent together reasoning about life...i miss that...

i wish i can sleep through the nite without having to wake up in the middle of it knowing that it's actually not time to get up yet...it's been like that for nearly a month...i dunno wat's wrong but it's making me freaking tired...

i juz wish that i can sleep and not wake up...

hey hey...i'm back...i know i MIA for a long time...

first thing first...i know i'm the stubborn cow...i know i reacted pretty hushly...my apologies...afterall i know u care about me...i dunno wat's wrong with me lately...very bitchy and sensitive...

will be out of job soon...actually...i was disappointed at first but lately i'm starting to feel glad...already i'm formulating get away trip at the back of my head...arh...i wanna have fun...like i told fen...perhaps one of the days i'll juz sms my friends to tell them 'hey, i'm flying to (insert asia country's name) now...seeya in few days time!'

it'll be fun le...grab passport and run away on my own...haha...

sigh...gotta prepare for my presentation tomolo...will update about my life again...

he's back!!! finally!!

he hasnt been around much lately...i didnt realise how much i've missed him until i saw him smiling at me when i called him and him, crawling towards me giggling and laughing...trying to follow my socks...

auggy is back...miss him so much...

this little angel is turning 1 yr old by end of the month! so fast! seemed like yesterday that my sis-in-law was crying and screaming in pain...

o yar...that's really fast...one year already...

i realise i'm slowly fading out of the picture...perhaps i didnt put in enough effort to try and mingle within them...perhaps it's my stupidity that's putting them off....perhaps it has come to a point where i'm no longer needed in their lives...

sent a batch of my classmates off at the airport on sat...they should be in sidney right now...unpacking their stuff...trying to grab some rest...

i didnt get to see them off by the departure gate...the goodbyes i said to them were rather light hearted and with laughters...but i'm sure there were bound to be some tears shed at the point where they had to board the flight...

i wonder how the scene will be like next year at this moment when i'm suppose to fly off to la trobe for my studies..will there be tears or will i be missed when i'm gone...

looking at how things are going around me...maybe it wouldnt be that hard to say goodbye to me afterall...

tonite...germany vs argentina...

hmm...why do i care about soccer...i dun actually...but i'm excited...

why?

becos the alcohol that comes along with it will make the whole soccer thingy more interesting...haha...drinking with squashies tonite!!! i cant wait! i miss those crazy drinking days!!! i miss the high feeling that i get...i miss giggling with the girls and stealing smooches from them juz cos i'm drunk...

yeah...i miss drinking...a hell lot...

at the reception table

some pics taken from apple's wedding!

sisters and the bride!

wu ren bang!

i fucking blew my top juz now...

i'm tired...i juz wanna watch tv...okie living room no tv...never mind...went to mama's room to watch...dunno wat happened scv channels cant be recevied despite me tunning it the other day...mom started to raise her voice...claiming i did something to the tv...

i did wat i'm told wat more do u want...the other time i tune it with my eyes half closed even...cos u wanted to the soccer channel to be up for dad to watch...i did that...wat more do u want...

already i'm freaking tired...from talking the whole day and being patient with ppl the whole day...i juz wanna laze and watch tv...why cant i do that...

now i cant even watch dvd cos freaking vcd player cant play dvd...i'm too lazy to move the dvd player to mom's room...cos already there's no space to put another player in her room...

watever...think i'll juz coop up in my room and look at my blur computer screen...everything is breaking down man...bloody hell...

bloody headache didnt qutie leave me since fri....it was so bad on fri that i nearly puked the food i ate during graduation dinner..i ended up having to leave early cos i still gotta work from 8-5pm on sat....

now it's aching lightly as though waiting for the full blown....

what's wrong arh...i have no freaking idea...

life at the moment pretty mundane...nothing much except work...sleep and occasionally meet up with frens for meals when i have the energy...

5 weeks into work...i havent quite able to meet the daily quota...cham...and my stamina getting worst...i havent been jogging for months...the last time i tried...my cough came back....and now by the time i reached home...i juz wanna sleep...

pretty much cooped up in my world...putting most of my time in work...i actually dreamt that my cheeky stroke pt talked to me while i was napping in the afternoon....-_-''

coming sept worst...have to travel all the way to jurong to work...wah liao...who's gonna pay for all those expenses man...i'll juz camp outisde the medical centre lar...

no time fr myself...i need a break...i wanna get out...i cant wait to go aust...meet ang mos and get hitched there...haha...wah cannot take it i go sleep liao...

a patient of mine passed away the other day...she kinda reminded me of my late grandma...

seen her a few times...but she was too weak to carry out any therapy sessions with me...it's sad to see her getting to the end stage...cos i literally saw her turn from bad to worse...the last time i've seen her...she was gasping for air....her edema was so bad that her hands were swollen and what we can do is to bandage her hands to ease the edema and to position her so that she can be more comfortable...

the next morning...other patients of the same ward told me she had passed away quietly in the morning... no one knows...

sigh...life is so fragile...

me and hwee lan

me and charmaine

Graduation!!! me and hua beng...