Resentment...

I wish I could believe you then I'll be alright
But now everything you told me really don't apply
To the way I feel inside
Loving you was easy once upon a time
But now my suspicions of you have multiplied
And it's all because you lied

[Chorus:]
I only give you a hard time
'Cause I can't go on and pretend like
I haven't tried to forget this
But I'm much too full of resentment

Just can't seem to get over the way you hurt me
Don't know how you gave another who didn't mean a thing, no
The very thing you gave to me
I thought I could forgive you and I know you've changed
As much as I wanna trust you I know it ain't the same
And it's all because you lied

[Chorus:]
I only give you a hard time
'Cause I can't go on and pretend like
I haven't tried to forget this
But I'm much too full of resentment

I may never understand why
I'm doing the best that I can and I
I tried and I tried to forget this
I'm much too full of resentment

I'll always remember feeling like I was no good
Like I couldn't do it for you like your mistress could
And it's all because you lied

[Bridge:]
Loved you more than ever
More than my own life
The best part of me I gave you
It was sacrificed
And it's all because you lied

[Chorus:]
I only give you a hard time
'Cause I can't go on and pretend like
I tried and I tried to forget this
But I'm too damn full of resentment

I know she was attractive but I was here first
Been ridin' with you for six years why did I deserve
To be treated this way by you, you
I know your probably thinking what's up with Bee
I been crying for too long what did you do to me
I used to be so strong but now you took my soul
I'm crying cant stop crying cant stop crying
You could of told me that you wasn't happy
I know you didn't wanna hurt me
But look what you done-done to me now
I gotta look at her in her eyes and see she's had half of me
How could you lie

If I were a boy...

I miss my baby boys...

Just received the Xmas card made by Auggy...so pretty...I can just picture him sitting there and patiently pasting the sequins on the snowman...I miss Auggy and ben ben so much...

Was walking around children section trying to look for a gift for Emma...baby clothing are all so cute...esp the type that I like...it's amazing how those little stuffs can make me feel happy at times...yet give me that tinge of sadness too...I wonder when it'll be my turn to buy those stuffs for my own baby...hmm....

18 grams of love...

爱情到底有多重？

一张信纸八克，

一张信封十克，

加起来，

一封情书，

十八克...

Goldfish eyes...

I want to stop this nightmare now...

Pissed...

I freaking blew my top at strangers...adults strangers....

Went to Amk to run some errands, freaking north-south line was packed...I've been moving in and out of the doorway cos I was near it and I wanted ppl to be able to go in as well as come out.

Before I reached Amk, I had the space to move in so I moved in. When I reached Amk, I was stuck. I was fucking stuck.

NO one moved or gave space for anyone of us who needed to alight... NO ONE! So what did I do? I said ' Excuse me! Excuse me!' nicely....No one moved....the freaking china man right at the doorway DID NOT move...until I pushed and screamed " MOVE PPL!"

Fucking pissed! Adults...they are freaking functional adults! Normal adults! Cant you just move your assess a little so that others can move too...come on, where's the considerations?!!!

Singapore is overcrowded...filled with selfish ppl around!!! agrh!!!!!

Half marathon

I can't feel my legs anymore...as much as I love muscle aches, this time round the experience is wayyyyyyyyyy out of my league...ask fen and gage...they'll know how much I whined and gave that grimace- of- pain look with every slightest movement I try to execute.

Yeah...conquered half marathon without training...haha...ran 8 km, walked 13km...halfway thru the running I was so darn hungry...very tempted to run into Kallang Mac when we ran past it...and then came free bananas...which drove the walking me into running pace just so I could get one...never in my life have I been so happy to see bananas...yes...very funny...

Started the race with Angie, then ran off alone eventually...so the rest of the journey I was pretty much alone...okie...Kylie did keep me company quite a bit...

I thought to myself if I manage to conquer this run, I should be able to conquer anything else in life...still I find myself being the same old me...nothing changed or am I being naive to think one run can give me the strength that I'm looking for...

Anyway some pics from bkk trip...

So happy!

Am I lucky or what...

To catch Kylie's concert, danced throughout the night and see her so up close!! She's really a gorgeous chick I tell you...

To shop, tour and bargain with the best guide ever...

To be able to come back Singapore before the airport is shut down due to demonstrations...

Dearest gage...thank you for bringing us around and helping us bargain with the locals...we girls cannot get best price for bras without your help! haha...

thank you fen for looking after me...during the you-know-what!

thank you taufiq for letting us stay over and make a mess out of his place!

thank you Bing shen for looking after my bag and bringing it back the next day!

I heart Thailand...and Kylie....

I've never thought I could travel to Bangkok, catch an awesome concert and then be back to work the next day...

gagey thanx for making this happened!

Now I'm starting to think, perhaps I can do alot more with my life...my way, my say....

happy....and....sad??

I'm going Bangkok tonight...I'm going with a heavy heart...

I have 3 assessment reports and 7 summary reports to type, all by mid Dec...and another 10 something reports to type for update...to be done by Jan

I think I can officially camp in the office to type reports when I come back from Bangkok...So dead man...so dead...

Looking forward to watch Kylie...I hope she can cheer me up a little....

I'm a little lost...

Don't know where to start, don't know how to start...

I haven't been thinking about things around me as much as I used to...

I'm going with the flow, living day by day without much of a goal except to earn more money, to save up so that I can get by in case anything happen...

I'm at the neither happy nor sad zone...is this good or bad?

I think at times I just want to be like that wooden chair, to feel useful at some point of time, useful to someone or something at least...

I'm still a little loss...

Where exactly should I head to?

upset...

It's been a week...that I've been so tired after work and really really sleepy...but when I do have the chance to sleep, I can't sleep at all.

So many things happened this week, in fact it should be since I'm back...I feel like screaming...I feel like crying my heart out...but what's the point...

After all that have happened, I'm still deemed as a whiner, a bitch, someone who drove another up the wall and to the point of breaking down...

You need someone to blame all the fault upon, there's jayna...

You need someone to act as the punching bag, there's jayna...

You need someone to run errands and do shit work for you, there's jayna...

At the end of the day, I'm still dispensable...just words of 'I can't take it anymore' and I'm chucked aside like a toy which is no longer attractive or interesting to the child...

You are right...I'm that puzzle piece...only difference is...I dun fit in at all..

random thoughts...

I finally went to book a date for basic theory test. Seriously wanna get the license so that at least I can drive around abit. It'll be even better if I can own a car...or maybe not...

I tried to run all my errands today but only managed to get the basic theory date fixed cos the queue in the bloody driving centre was so long...planned to get my watch strap fixed but haven't gotten the time to do it. Always wanted to get it replace when I knock off but usually when I do, the shop is closed as well. It's been like what, 4 months since I bought it and actually wore a watch for real after so long. Maybe I never meant to wear a watch...haha...that's why I'm perpentually late...

At the moment I'm charging my camera. Battery was flat since the day of my graduation. I haven't uploaded graduation photos yet and I have yet to upload mt buller photos too...I am a true blue procrastinator...cannot stand it...can someone wake me up pls...

I was so tired yesterday that I slept in and bummed at home the entire day...caught the marathon series of heroes 2 and ordered macdelivery for dinner simply becos I didnt wanna miss any episode and that no one was home the whole day...I can foresee myself replaying such scene in the next 10 years...how pathetic can one be...

O anyway, I finally opened the box that I sent back from Melbourne. I guess by opening it, it kinda mean I've finally accepted the fact that I'm back...for good...In the midst of opening the badly taped up box, I accidentally cut my thumb with the rusty penknife...Then in the evening I attempted piecing and fixing the metal clothes hanger I bought from Ikea the other day...in the midst of screwing the nails in...I accidentally jabbed the screwdriver into my thigh...could the screwdriver be any sharper, I think my neighbours can see me hopping down the flat trying to flag for a cab with the screwdriver still embedded in my thigh...

Sigh...for fuck sake...if I cannot even get these simple tasks done, how am I gonna live on my own in future...who knows if I try fixing the bulb, I may get myself electorcuted or try to fix the pipe and ended up flooding my unit? Then the worst thing is...who is gonna discover that I'm injured or dead when there's no one else around me...

maybe my pet guinea pig will discover my body and eventually eat me up cos no one is feeding him and he is too hungry...

the boys...

Auggy has grown so much! His new hairstyle looks funny...and he doesnt look like a 3yo at all...















Little one just discovered the 'enjoyment' of nose digging....see how he explore his left and right nostrils...















See...ben ben's shiok face in digging his nose...hahaha

you are my sunshine...

Love those cheeky smiles! This is ben ben...not auggy...but they look so alike in these photos! Miss them so much!

Auggy and Ben ben...

Watching the videos that my brother has uploaded made me miss my boys even more...

Sometimes I wish I can be there to watch them grow up...

Miss having them around...

Why I love router and wireless connection...

Here I am...doing something I have been doing and kinda like doing...

It's a bad habit I never quite kick since I was in Melbourne...using my lappy while I'm in the toilet doing my no. 2...muah hahahahaha...

Back in Melbourne I'll always type my reports or chat with fen while I'm sitting on the toilet bowl...I didn't wanna interrupt my ideas or conversations nor do I wanna compromise my bowel system...so kill two birds with one stone lor! hahaha...I know...fen always gotten grossed out when I told her I'm shitting and chatting with her at the same time...

Of cos I still adhere to hygiene...so my lappy is not dirty or gross okie!

O well...yesterday was great...gage had free tix to watch Ah Mei concert...I aint a big fan but went ahead with the concert cos I haven't quite been to one except mariah carey's which was a thousand years ago...

I didn't know Ah Mei is still so popular and that almost all the seats were filled up...atmoshpere was good throughout and everyone was pretty high...but seriously, her costume sux lar...if not for her voice and showmanship, I really dun think it was that great...

O well, at least I still know 40% of her songs in the concert...haha...was great fun singing along...like in a huge ktv..haha..

Gonna go for squash later...yeah...miss it so much...am slowly getting back on life again...

I wanna get my driving done soon...but judging from how I reacted last night...I think I will swear alot!

Mama Mia

Gage and Taufiq asked me out of all the songs, which one do I fancy the most...initially I didnt know the answer cos I aint that familiar with ABBA's songs...

After watching the show...I think I prefer this one the most....Gimme Gimme Gimme....hee hee hee

I have never...

had such a great Saturday night despite working full day, having to rush from office to back home and then back to the same building to meet up with the boys for dinner at the restaurant beside my office...

The food at Okinawa restaurant was great! Portions were just right and enough to be shared among the 4 of us...

Went to crash someone's birthday party at a hotel...It was the fastest hi-bye birthday party I've ever been to...We all agreed that we've never wanted to make an exit as badly as this one...haha...

Decided to settle down in the cosy hotel room of mister t and we just sat there and chit chat through the night...nothing fanciful but I really did enjoy myself so much...really...it's the company that counts...

As for today, I woke up with the weirdest dream ever...very comical one so it aint that bad...

Met up with Audrey for lunch cum tea and to accompany her in getting her camera...caught up with yd and mister t again...ended up shopping and grabbing some cute boxers on top of my new shoes...then head down for drinks and snack...

Lately I've been missing Melbourne so much...I miss the places we used to hang out, I miss the cold cold weather...I miss my friends over there too...Come to think of it, I've only been home for close to 3 months...so many things had happened and it felt like the longest time ever...

Exactly, when can I go back there again?

Gotten it from yd's blog...

love her voice...been listening to her songs lately...esp this piece and 'stepping stone'...have always thought her voice to be simple and clear and so is her mtv...nothing fanciful but it depicts the song so well...

there's always a song that I can relate to at different phases...at the moment, I can so relate to these two...

Running out of steam...

Graduation on Friday...On course on Sat and Sun...

I am so freaking tired that I knocked out completely by 830pm while surfing the net lying on the floor just now...Planned to take a snooze and then go jogging at 9pm but woke up only at 1030pm...

Do I look like I have the word "entertainer" on my forehead? quit telling me you're bored...quit msging me on phone or msn to ask me out just becos you need someone to pass your time...When I say I'm not free, I mean it...quit making your problem mine...I am not your fucking nanny...

Tired woman = angry woman...I'm pissed, tired and depressed...things haven't been going well...I just need to deal with it my way and try to get over it...

Random updates...

Emma is here =)

She's so cute...reminds me of augustine and benedict when they were first born. She has much more hair than the boys though...hehe...

Cousins I'm close with are married and now one has just given birth...yippee...I'm a aunt once again...

Finally got down to signing up Standard Charter marathon. Time to start jogging regularly...Time to refine my mindset...

I think I have dragged it too long...far too long...

tired...

Something is not right...

I keep feeling tired lately...Sunday was spent concussing on and off...it's as though I'm on flu meds and I'm drowsy all the time...

Wed night I concussed at freaking 830pm! Who on earth sleeps at 830 unless you're sick! I'm alright when I'm at work but once I'm off work, my body goes into auto shut down mode....

maybe it's a sign to start exercising...I need my jogging mojo back!!!

What's wrong with me!

little ones flew back to hk...

I miss seeing my helper pulling ben ben around while he sat in the laundry basket...

I miss auggy calling me 'naughty gu gu'...

I miss ben ben's wailing loud cries in the middle of the night...

I miss auggy saying 'bye bye' to me every morning when i went to work...

Home is back to its quietness...with the little ones back in HK...

Sigh...

My beloved boys...

Taken with Auggy at the birthday party last sat...





























Guess what were thy doing? Watching cartoons...





























Ben ben's attempt to smile...he gave me a cheeky smile right after this pic was captured =p

Absolutely love my boys to bits...Ben ben dun quite allow me to carry though...I guess he aint familiar with me that's why...Auggy has been very sweet...He's at the stage where you tell him anything he will say ' Okie okie' in a very funny yet compliant way...still my cutie pie...

How I wish they are back for good =(

Falling sick...

Too many things happened for the past one week, too little time and too drained to deal with all...

Yes...excuses excuses excuses...

Seriously, I tired to handle the things as best as I can...Did a terrible job though...

Back to square one again...

Am falling sick...

Is that a sign that I should slow down?

Failure...

I think I failed terribly as a daughter...

Have I not emphasized enough on the importance of health and the follow-up of treatment?

Have my profession been a ridicule to them, such that whatever I said ain't important at all?

I'm pissed that they treat their health so lightly...esp when they ain't any younger...

Even more pissed that I haven't reinforced enough to them...esp during the time when I wasn't around physically...

But how to go about letting them know the importance when they don't treat my words seriously...

Someone get me out pls...

It's not a good sign when you can feel the heat the moment the plane touched down...let alone still feeling warm when you're at T3 with blasting air condition.

It's not a good sign when you rammed the cafe door on your already injured big toe first day in the morning before you headed off for work.

It's not a good sign when you kept snapping at your own mom who happened to ask the same qn over and over again for >5 times and you gave her the exact same answer all these while.

It's not a good sign when you have no internet access when you got home and realised that boss actually sent you an email to say that you can report slightly later for work the next day.

It's definitely not a good sign when you resented being home.

Right now I'm the biggest whiner in the world. Because I'm tired; I hate the weather; I don't like to report to my mom where I go or what I do; I don't feel appreciated for what I've done...

Sigh...I am Melbourne-sick...

Flight details...

2nd July

SQ 228, departs Melbourne 1550, arrive Singapore 2135

Not too sure is it T3 or T2...Kindly check the internet...

Expected peeps: Peifen, Gage, Ck, Sze...those who fail to appear will get special skin regenerative treatment from me personally...Skin you alive inch by inch!!!

Packing is a pain in the arse...

ARgh...

going home on 2nd July, starting work on the 3rd July...

Seriously...WTF!!!

It's time...

to pack, to take down the photos that I've put on the wall which I have been waking up to every morning...

It's time to start saying goodbye to all the lovely frens that I've made here...I hate to do goodbyes...I hate to leave this place...

I'm not ready to say goodbye to Melbourne, neither am I ready to say goodbye to him....and the rest of the peeps...

Yippee...

It was last week that Ally and I whipped up a meal for the entire house...We cooked hananiese chicken rice, french beans and dried shrimps with chilly, sweet sour pork and tonnes of dumplings!

There was so much food! I've never cooked this much before. Ally was the main chief, I helped her out with preparation and frying some of the stuffs. It was quite fun =)

After dinner, we actually went clubbing with our housemates. Got to this place called 'Love Machine'. It was gay night...hehe but it was darn darn fun! Love the aussie gays there....so warm and friendly...talked to this couple who were together for like 7 years! My god, they were so cute! It was fun just talking and hanging out with them. People there were just so open about their relationships, they won't hesitate to introduce their partners to us and I like that. O did I mention there were so many hot gay guys with hot hot hot bodies...alot of them took off their tops to dance! ~drool~ haha...

Had a great time with my housemates..crazy bunch of people but I love them!!!

Here are some of the picture of the food we cooked...

Crazy...

Been a while since I did crazy stuffs...not me exactly...o well...I just followed my housemates...

The girls and their fren saw this scarecrow in someone's front yard in the neighbourhood...So on Thursday night, whole bunch of us went quitely to that front yard and took the scarecrow home =p

It was freaking funny...cos I didnt know what was going on...just followed blindly..K and B just went up quietly to the front yard, grabbed the chair and ran back to the car...K actually managed to climb into the back of the car to hold on to the chair with the scarecrow and we drove back...

Decided to put the scarecrow in R's room to scare him...Darn darn funny! Couldn't stop laughing and giggling...even put a cat mask and torch light to shine on the scarecrow's face...

Only thing was...R didnt scream leh...wasted...but he did step back and said "WTH!!" haha...darn hilarious...

Crazy housemates...but it's all good fun...I think the girls have returned the scarecrow already...haha...

here's how it looked like...the actual face was more scary...o did I mention I absolutely love love love my housemates? haha...

Sanity on the verge...

I think it's gone...

~poof~ and it's gone...it just disappeared like that...I can no longer seek comfort in it...never should be in the first place...it had never belonged to me...never was, never will be...

When will I ever learn...

Potluck...

I've never attended as many potluck as this entire year with my stay in melbourne...and I must say...I'm starting to love it...

Helped Ally made yummy meatballs! Hee I dunno how to cook so I helped...hehe...

I cant take it anymore...evidence review is driving me nuts...can so make do with drinks...

Added alot of sherry into the meatballs...hahaha...

Will upload with photos soon...

Sigh...I dun wanna go home at all....

Updates...

First of all, need to thank Apple mommy and ah min for the parcel. Thanx for the Duffy CD (I have two of a kind now...hehe) and the teardrop shaped pendent! Thanx o...muack muack...

Thank you Nikki babe for the card! Yes yes, ai ni shen shen...haha...

Thank you Ally for the handmade photo collage and cross stitch...love it!

Anyway, been doing work and having fun at the same time. Went clubbing with frens last Fri. It was hell of a fun...

Went for paintball on Sat...Real fun...though now I'm suffering from muscle aches and all the orh chey....had a real bad one on my thigh can...geez...but it's one kind of experience...really fun to shoot other ppl...haha...

here are some pics...

Ally's pressie to me...


















Clubbing @ Eve

Whole bunch of wacky ppl! Awesome! hehe...














Gladys giving me a very passionate kiss...











Me smooch-attacking min...hehe...














Yuhan and me...











My birthday dinner...

Us at Jap restaurant...














Me tugging in...sashimi~ yummy!


















Rose for mothers' day


















Pressie from the peeps =)


















Sex and the City Dvd!!!



















Paintball 2008

Before














After















Ally, Manda and I














Gladys, Me, Marcel, Leonard...














Lastly...my dua orh chey on my left thigh...dun play paintball if u have delicate skin...freaking pain now can...

Nostalgia...

Gladys bought me a rose..

Ally made me a collage topped with a cross stitch as an add on pressie for me...

Amanda made another cross stitch with my 'J' on top of the pressie she gave me...

Leonard bought me Duffy CD and shared with Sel and Marcel in the 'Sex n the City' Dvds...

Marcel brought me out for dinner and gave me a book with CDs of shows he burnt for me...

Sweet sweet peeps who made my life in Melbourne so wonderful...I'm just so touched that they put in the effort to even get me pressie, let alone made me one when all were busy with assignment deadlines...

So thankful to have them with me all these while...

But at quiet time like this...I suddenly feel all alone again...I think I fear ppl back home have forgotten about me...Very thick skin~ly, I msged ppl I'm close to, reminding them of my birthday and to wish me so that I wont be disappointed...

Pathetic...maybe...but at least I'm happy when I receive msg from them after all the promptings...

Seriously, am I asking too much?

Happy Birthday!

To me!!!!


















One year older...Celebrated my birthday last night with good frens...dinner and laughters...I love it! Thanx Ally for arranging everything...Thank you all for showering me with lovely msges, well wishes and gifts!!! Thank you fen and min for the bday card...I got it today!! Thanx Cindy for the lovely entry dedicated to me with my favourite doggies!

Muack muack, thanx everyone!

Wish List

okie...since handsome say I anti-climax, I shall state some of the things I just thought of...

1. Miniature bull terrier (white with black patch on the eye)
2. Samsung G800 (Silver casing)
3. Purple metallic slippers (harviana slippers)
4. Navel ring
5. Wallet (Kate Spade...maybe?)
6. Duffy CD (Leonard bought me this! hehe)
7. Moloko CD
8. Air Ticket to Fiji Island or Maldive or NZ
9. Teardrop shape pendent (looked for it for ages...never found it...preferably diamond pls)
10. Good anti-aging cream
11. Ang mo bf

Dun get me alcohol...that will not be accepted...

alright that's about it...

Next addiction...

Another video that i'm addicted to...

I love chalk...

It didnt turn out exactly how I thought it will be...looked more like a stomach/onion than a teardrop...



















love this piece though.....

My wish list...

One more week of being 25...fuck...it's abit daunting to be one year older...seriously...

My wish list is simple this year...due to me being away...I'll be happy enough to receive sms or cards or calls...of cos I'll be happier if you guys choose to fly over and spend my birthday with me...hehe...I doubt so lar...too expensive...

Yup, that's about it =)

I think I fell in love with Duffy

I love her voice...this mtv is awesome too...such a simple one yet it shows so much...enjoy...

Nemo nemo nemo nemo...

OMG!!! Today's road trip is so fun!

First we went Vineyard, horse ridding then hot spring!

I'm still bouncing up and down like a kid now can...still pretty excited about the horse ridding that we did today! It's a 2 hour ride from the stable to the seaside...walked along the shore for abit then head back to the stable...

Nemo is my horse's name...really cheeky fellow...not to mention big and tall...no idea why I've gotten such a big horse cos most of the peeps had horses suitable for their height and size...I had to lean down close to him everytime we walked through forest cos he's too tall and my head will hit the brunches...then he would purposely walk close to the bushes and let me bua the trees #$@$

We walked along the beach too! so freaking fun lar...like having a date with the horse...haha
He's soo cute! And becos all of us walked in one single file, the horse in front of us pee~ed and farted...Nemo actually went cranky and put his nose up...I thought what happened...then realise...he actually thought it smelly and needed to breathe...haha...

After horse ridding is hot spring! Super shiok cos I've never had it before and it's kinda fun just that I cant stay in for too long...will start to get dizzy...

Overall it's a fun trip! So love my horsey! love it love it love it!!!!!

okie I'm really tired and smell like the hot spring...gonna bathe then sleep...will upload pics soon...after I cop from my frenz...hehe...

Depress...

Lady boss asked me to go back before 4th July cos of company gathering...Sigh...probably will have to change my flight again...Reluctant...VERY...

I'm starting to find it a chore to keep repeating myself to people of what's going on...getting sick of people not listening to what I said...if you're not gonna listen dun ask me about it...dun even ask me things about myself when it's not gonna register in your head...if I'm not worth being heard then dun bother talking to me...I can take it...what I cant take is that I've spent time talking you and nothing was registered...nothing...

Yeah month of May is here peeps...MY month! hahaha...I'll think of my birthday list soon...very thick skin...but I dun care! hehe...

weeeeee.....

Had so much fun last night!

Hoped everyone enjoyed themselves =)

Btw, I've booked my flight back...instead of 31 July, I'll be heading home on the 4th...I havent even told mama yet...Very reluctant to go homeeeeeeeeeeee =(

Hives...

So that's the thing that I kena... now my eyelids are like slightly swollen...as though I have cried for 3 days 3 night kinda swollen...me no like it... like I'm constantly in sleepy mode and need the extra energy to keep my eyes open...

Felt like crying last night, dunno is it due to lack of sleep or the itchy~ness or the fact that the hives make me ugly...but kept telling myself cannot cry cos that will only make my eyes swell even more and at the end of the day, nothing will be resolved anyway...

so I decided to pop anti-itch pill and sleep...it's great that my flu meds has the anti-itch component and it makes me drowsy...really great to be able to sleep again...hahaha

Honey, I'm home!

Back to my comforty bed...I'm down with rashes atm...pretty irritating cos it itches...my skin becomes blotchy and red...feel like crying...cos atm feeling abit down...

Anyway, Sydney....

it's pretty much like Singapore...busy CBD, packed with ppl and shops...didn't meet nasty ppl thought which is good...hehe...

We were staying at Hilton hotel for the first two nights...all thanx to gladys' fren...it was great! the bed and pillows were so comforty that we're still having withdrawal symptoms from it...third and fourth nights were at another fellow OT's house...very nice place!

Went Blue mountains, bondi to coogee beach, fish market for fresh and cheap sashimi and osyters....

Am greatful for the company...despite us having to rush here and there...it's overall a fun trip!

met some freaking irritating china passengers onboard....all the more make me dislike them....will blog about it next time...

Sydney...

Heading to Sydney tomorrow!! yeah...pia my report and this is our reward!! sweet!!

Can I have a miniature bull terrier for my birthday? The real thing...I've been wanting one for as long as I rem...can I can I?

Ppl who are impt to me I've told them all...the rest is really up to me I guess....

sunflower...

fen offered to acc my mama for follow-up...ain't she a sweetie...muack...thanx for the thought babe =)

was chatting with Yk and here's our conversation...really sweet...

Yk: ok lets put it this way

Yk: ur like a sunflower

Yk: but

Yk: ur growing under a tree

Yk: so its hard for u to grow

Yk: cos u kena shaded by the tree

Yk: u cant receive much sunlight

Yk: but then

Yk: u strive to reach out towards the sun

Yk: and over the years

Yk: uve grown enough to stretch out

Yk: as u stretch out

Yk: u receive lots more sunligh

Yk: and ur growth expedites

Yk: and thats when u got notice by the bees

Yk: intially the bees found u by chance and those bees r outcast bees

Yk: exploring shady areas

Yk: then they r surprised they found a sunflower

Yk: so they take advantage!

Yk: cos ur not grown yet

Yk: but now ur more grown

Yk: n u received more sunlight

Yk: u got notice by the rest of the bees

Yk: there u go

Me: it's the best analogy i've ever heard...keke

Yk: yea im surpised i used such a nice analogy on u

Me: -___-

Yk: so sunflower whatever it is u do

Yk: to thine ownself be true

yes...i will rem this...thank you oki buta...

so sweet....

I think I'm the luckiest girl in town...I have friends who really love me and will stand by me through and through...

They accept my flaws and most importantly, they accept me...

Just simple things like sms on random stuffs, emails, sending of songs, letting me know that OT related articles in the recruitment section was cut out and saved for me are good enough to make my day =)

I really thank god/the higher being up there for that...

I miss you guys...can you all fly over for my birthday??? haha....

p/s: btw miss nikki....my fren said you very pretty in the papers...hehehe

Sedated...

'Karen Walker' is back...with bigger vengeance, bitchy~ness and slutty~ness...

Woo hoo~

Argh.....

It is time like this that I wish I can be split into two so that J1 can accompany my mom for her follow-up appointment at CGH and J2 can continue staying in Melbourne...

It is time like this I wish I actually have a boyfriend who will be kind enough to bring my mom for her follow-up and then report to me exactly what is going on...with her wrist....

No no no...I think I need doreamon...

Damn it...none exists...

Rambles...

Kinda like this pic. A little nutty of me but I like it...best thing is when I look at it, it cheers me up...

Did I mention how much I missed my baby boys...I dreamt about auggy giving me sweet kisses and me carrying ben ben who turned out to be new born...hmm weird but it's always sweet to dream of them...as you can see I really miss them alot...

Good thing is they'll be heading back Singapore for vacation during July...will be able to see them again...

eh actually I dun feel like going back Singapore...dun miss home so dun have the urge to go back...hehe...

Addicted....

I am downright addicted to this song...seriously addicted...it's either you like it or you dun...Very nice!

AFL

Went for the first Aussie Footy match last night. Freaking fun!

The stadium is awesome and last night's match was great! There were like 60,000 spectators...It's so hilarious to hear ppl shouting for their teams ' Come on Blue boys....' or ' Bombers....' or ' bullshit!!! those referees are fucking bullshit!!'

Kinda get the game after watching and it kinda get us girls hooked...now we're planning which game to go and watch next...hehe....

Pulling my hair...

Right now, I'm exhausted. Mentally drained from the readings and filtering of articles...tonnes of them...

Feel abit unloved lately...I think it's the autumn syndrome in which the weather and environment kinda gets you down...

And I fucking feel like crying now cos I really wanna sleep but cant...cos need to do work...

I shall seek solace in my warm quilt, my smelly pillow and smiley patrick later...

So what if I'm an OT...

Doink...I'm alittle worried...been almost a month and mom's wrist fracture ain't healing as well as it's suppose to be...

Worst thing is...I dun understand what she's trying to tell me about the site of her fracture...is it a colles fracture or what? is there presence of ulnar variance or what? I need to see her x ray but apparently she doesn't have them...I think they are all in soft copy now...

I think the doc in CGH has been pretty good and assuring...just hope she'll get a good OT when she goes for therapy...

So much for giving falls prevention talks for the past year while I worked...my reinforcement in falls prevention at home is indeed a failure...no one fucking listen till something happen...

I've been thinking...so what if I'm an OT...parents wont listen to the youngest child...sigh...when will they take my profession seriously? like Seriously....

Brisbane Trip

I am a lazy bum plus I've just tried searching for tonnes of journals so I'll just upload random pics taken from the Brisbane Trip.















Our tour guide of the day - Uncle Roland...telling us about the famous river and bridge...















Weather in Brisbane is less erratic. Slightly like Singapore. Either sunny or rainy, not overtly hot or overtly cold...















Took city cat which is the ferry transport in Brisbane...here is me with cutie pie Sarah...Gladys' cousin. She's really a sweet girl, very nice to talk to and play with =)















Gladys and I on the ferry...















the bronze reflective building...kinda cool hor...















Gladys with her aunt and family...little boy called Samuel...very funny and chatty boy...















Gladys' aunt's in-laws kindly invited us girls over for lunch during Easter. Here's the house by the seaside...superb view from the kitchen. Seriously dun mind washing dishes everyday while facing the sea!















The kids having fun climbing their favourite tree...I think if I were to climb, I would have broken the brunches and fell flat on my face...















Us having fun by the shore...tide was low...and the kids started chasing after us girls after this shot was taken...yes...catching by the sea...woo hoo















Kinda fun to see them tumbling onto each other...ang mo version of dao pok...haha...















Levicks and us...



















Next day, Movie World...I screamed like a wussy while taking the rides =p





























Funny shots with the girls...















So lousy, I was a tad too slow, hence the funny posture...so pai seh...















The scary ride that we conquered...



















Willy Wonkers....



















Yummy ginerbread man...















Went to Dreamworld...took even more thrilled rides...















hehe...spongebob square pants and partick!



















Yup, I've conquered that twice...I think I'm ready for skydiving...haha...





































































haha I blend into the background pretty well hor...















Let me out...















Surfer's Paradise! Last day...Gold Coast....















This ride was rather fun....not scary at all...just wet, salty and tanned...















Clear blue sky, soft silky sand and beautiful weather!

Then it was time to end the trip and go home...I'm so glad that I'm studying in Melbourne...I seriously love this place more than anywhere else...haha