I had diarrhea that bugged me on and off for days...I reckon the way to stop it, is to starve it...muah haha...it kinda worked eventually...
This Christmas...
I cooked spagetti for my clique...
Okie...I almost cooked all 3 packets of spagetti because I misread Sze's message...he said 3/4 of a packet of spagetti while I read it as 3 to 4 packet of spagetti...for 8 ppl what...you cannot fault me for the misinterpretation right...
Quite thankful that I'm pretty lazy when it comes to cooking...can you imagine if I didnt get tired and too lazy to cook the other 2 packets of spag??? I think my friends would have eaten until they puke the noodles through their noses...
This Christmas...
I had to endure the urge to LS while purchasing or should I say grabbing the ingredients from the shelves; smile and try to maintain my composure while waiting patiently to make payment; smile yet again and pray hard that I won't LS in my shorts while the cashier made small talk with me...I swear, I nearly wanna grab her collar, asked her to stop talking just so she could scan those bars quickly and let me go home to my beloved toilet bowl...
It's not funny to lup the bags of stuffs and made my way home in the half skip half run pace...any quicker or slower, I would have shittd in my shorts...
So...I did manage to whip up a meal enough for 8 of us...Please be assured that I DID wash my hands thoroughly after going to the toilet! But being paranoid, I still put a disclaimer after my dear friends were done with the meals that should they have diarrhea, I will provide bao ji wan...
I know I know...bad habit of mind...I should have warn you guys earlier...at least I didnt wait till one year later then tell you guys about it okie =p
This Christmas...
The cab driver tried to flirt with me while all I could think of was to deliver my food safely to gage's place...I know it's a flirt when he used stupid lines like "wah your IC photo looks very pretty..."
It was taken when I was Pri 6...Helloo...you're a peadophile or what...duh...
This Christmas
I am happy cos fen is back, finally...and to celebrate Christmas with her just makes it even more meaningful...
This Christmas...
I received the puzzles that I have been eyeing for ages...despite me knowing its presence...I am still happy that it was completed within such a short time...
Appreciate that you try to surprise me so early in the morning and fetching me to work...
Muack!
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Last night, I dreamt that banker called me over the phone to wish me Merry Christmas and to have a meet up. I pretty much got woken up and unable to sleep. I didn't sleep until much tossing and turning were done...
It sux...I rem telling myself 'nah bey, it's not even dawn yet! Fucking waste my sleeping hours!' And for me to use the NB word...I ish feeling very frustrated...
Lately, the hiccups within my current relationship have made what was pretty happy-and-bright-lovey-dovey-time to have a sudden turn and nose-dive into the black hole...What's going on? I thought we were going on pretty good...I want those lovey dovey time back...
It's sux to feel insecure, it sux to feel scared...
I used to avoid confrontations or avoid touching ANY issue that cropped up...Missy here is well known for running...running away for problems...
For me to want to talk about stuffs is a huge step, to come out of my comfort zone, to want to work things out instead of letting it snowball and eventually resulting in an ugly death...It is a huge step for me to confront the issues and face the possibilities of hearing things I dislike or fearful of knowing...
I am afraid that I will get into the mode of shutting things out just so I can protect myself better...I am afraid that I will turn and run the opposite way to reduce the possibility of getting hurt...I am afraid that I will be back to before where I have no one to protect me but myself...I am afraid that I am indeed too broken for anyone to be able to accept who I really am...
It sux...I rem telling myself 'nah bey, it's not even dawn yet! Fucking waste my sleeping hours!' And for me to use the NB word...I ish feeling very frustrated...
Lately, the hiccups within my current relationship have made what was pretty happy-and-bright-lovey-dovey-time to have a sudden turn and nose-dive into the black hole...What's going on? I thought we were going on pretty good...I want those lovey dovey time back...
It's sux to feel insecure, it sux to feel scared...
I used to avoid confrontations or avoid touching ANY issue that cropped up...Missy here is well known for running...running away for problems...
For me to want to talk about stuffs is a huge step, to come out of my comfort zone, to want to work things out instead of letting it snowball and eventually resulting in an ugly death...It is a huge step for me to confront the issues and face the possibilities of hearing things I dislike or fearful of knowing...
I am afraid that I will get into the mode of shutting things out just so I can protect myself better...I am afraid that I will turn and run the opposite way to reduce the possibility of getting hurt...I am afraid that I will be back to before where I have no one to protect me but myself...I am afraid that I am indeed too broken for anyone to be able to accept who I really am...
Monday, December 14, 2009
I do have to admit, I have not been home much lately.
Had to stay home to babysit today. It was good and it felt good too. Too bad Ben ben was away in Clementi. I have not seen him or spent much time with him lately.
Love it when I get to spend time with the kiddos. Kitty girl has been so cheeky and cute as always. Auggy has been so funny with his antics too.
Dinner with mama and papa was good. We took train to Hougang and had crab for dinner. Little ones were not too handful to deal with, hence dinner was rather enjoyable. Walked around abit after dinner and we came to this little playground on the 5th floor of Hougang mall. Had some fun putting Kitty on the swing, seeing Auggy screaming his heart out while papa turned him on the merry-go-round. My dear folks even tried the equipment themselve. Quite a hilarious scene to see them doing that and mama fell on her butt while attempting the super miniature swing with Auggy.
Santa Claus was around to give out candies too and the kiddos were so happy to see him. Kitty girl was not even scared of the fake santa.
Quite a few people gave me odd looks when I was carrying Kitty. Perhaps I dun look like a mom. Or am I too young to be one? Maybe.
Anyway, if I ever have kids of my own, I'll make sure I can handle them myself instead of relying on someone else.
Had to stay home to babysit today. It was good and it felt good too. Too bad Ben ben was away in Clementi. I have not seen him or spent much time with him lately.
Love it when I get to spend time with the kiddos. Kitty girl has been so cheeky and cute as always. Auggy has been so funny with his antics too.
Dinner with mama and papa was good. We took train to Hougang and had crab for dinner. Little ones were not too handful to deal with, hence dinner was rather enjoyable. Walked around abit after dinner and we came to this little playground on the 5th floor of Hougang mall. Had some fun putting Kitty on the swing, seeing Auggy screaming his heart out while papa turned him on the merry-go-round. My dear folks even tried the equipment themselve. Quite a hilarious scene to see them doing that and mama fell on her butt while attempting the super miniature swing with Auggy.
Santa Claus was around to give out candies too and the kiddos were so happy to see him. Kitty girl was not even scared of the fake santa.
Quite a few people gave me odd looks when I was carrying Kitty. Perhaps I dun look like a mom. Or am I too young to be one? Maybe.
Anyway, if I ever have kids of my own, I'll make sure I can handle them myself instead of relying on someone else.
Tuesday, December 01, 2009
Mr Fish and I
Random pics we took...
Take 1...trying to be funny...sticking half the tongue out...
Take 2...cant rem whether he was trying to say something or act surprise...
Take 3...finally...a proper photo...haha
Take 1...trying to be funny...sticking half the tongue out...
Take 2...cant rem whether he was trying to say something or act surprise...
Take 3...finally...a proper photo...haha
Thursday, November 26, 2009
I dun know why I cared in the first place. Now I look like a fool who wasted the time and effort, only to go hungry, exhausted and pissed, combination of all in just one night.
I am NOT angry that you changed your schedule with the sharing session. I would have loved to witness you launching your book and hearing your heartfelt speech, I am happy that you achieved that.
I am in fact pissed that when you had in mind to revert the schedule, you failed to inform me. Is it really that hard to even drop me a msg to tell me about it. Seriously I dun care about others' achievement. I do care about yours. The fact that you told me you might shift the session, showed me the effort of yours to involve me. Hence, I made the effort to fulfill my promise of reaching the venue before 9pm.
I had back to back sessions today. 7 kids in total, one toilet break. Sessions officially ended at 6pm but I had to stay in office to send emails, look up for exercises etc. I did not leave the office till 8pm. I had to take the bus, miss the bus stop, walked from bukit merah interchange to the venue...only to find out that I have missed it.
Perhaps to you, I have not made enough effort to go there on time. I tried but at 7, I was still printing out stuffs in the office.
I should have just dropped a msg to congratulate you and then tell you that I'm sorry I can't make it...
It would have saved all the trouble and save me from getting all worked up...
It's not the first time this happened...it's just like the time when you told me you would bring the boys over to the gym, only to tell me you guys couldnt make it...and I only gotten to know it when I msg you!
A simple msg, a notification...is it that hard...
I am NOT angry that you changed your schedule with the sharing session. I would have loved to witness you launching your book and hearing your heartfelt speech, I am happy that you achieved that.
I am in fact pissed that when you had in mind to revert the schedule, you failed to inform me. Is it really that hard to even drop me a msg to tell me about it. Seriously I dun care about others' achievement. I do care about yours. The fact that you told me you might shift the session, showed me the effort of yours to involve me. Hence, I made the effort to fulfill my promise of reaching the venue before 9pm.
I had back to back sessions today. 7 kids in total, one toilet break. Sessions officially ended at 6pm but I had to stay in office to send emails, look up for exercises etc. I did not leave the office till 8pm. I had to take the bus, miss the bus stop, walked from bukit merah interchange to the venue...only to find out that I have missed it.
Perhaps to you, I have not made enough effort to go there on time. I tried but at 7, I was still printing out stuffs in the office.
I should have just dropped a msg to congratulate you and then tell you that I'm sorry I can't make it...
It would have saved all the trouble and save me from getting all worked up...
It's not the first time this happened...it's just like the time when you told me you would bring the boys over to the gym, only to tell me you guys couldnt make it...and I only gotten to know it when I msg you!
A simple msg, a notification...is it that hard...
Sunday, November 22, 2009
snippets of life...
Time: After dinner
Venue: In the train
Moments:
Cant remember exactly what started it...we just laughed and laughed and laughed...
It could be me laughing at him and his 'muted' watch, it could be him whining about his 'muted' watch, it could be me constantly disrupting him in his reading, it could be me being just plain silly...
I love the time spent with Mr Fish...
Time: Every Sunday (almost)
Venue: Fitness First
Moments:
Aint consistent in going for bodypump but I am loving this time allocated for working out with my pals.
From nagging me to load up my weight to me bouncing around after a seemingly tough work out (cos I cheated by using the lightest weight)...
From me trying to get my coordination to me stamping my feet into yd's face...
From us sweating like pigs after a 2-hour work out to us nua~ing at the sofas...
It always warm my heart to have you guys around me...
Venue: In the train
Moments:
Cant remember exactly what started it...we just laughed and laughed and laughed...
It could be me laughing at him and his 'muted' watch, it could be him whining about his 'muted' watch, it could be me constantly disrupting him in his reading, it could be me being just plain silly...
I love the time spent with Mr Fish...
Time: Every Sunday (almost)
Venue: Fitness First
Moments:
Aint consistent in going for bodypump but I am loving this time allocated for working out with my pals.
From nagging me to load up my weight to me bouncing around after a seemingly tough work out (cos I cheated by using the lightest weight)...
From me trying to get my coordination to me stamping my feet into yd's face...
From us sweating like pigs after a 2-hour work out to us nua~ing at the sofas...
It always warm my heart to have you guys around me...
It still irks me intermittently...
That you attempted to add me on facebook...
That she attempted to add me on facebook too...
I do not have anything that I can offer you or her...
I know it may be karma that things in which you fear most will always find its way back to haunt you...
But I have come clean for months...
So why now?
That you attempted to add me on facebook...
That she attempted to add me on facebook too...
I do not have anything that I can offer you or her...
I know it may be karma that things in which you fear most will always find its way back to haunt you...
But I have come clean for months...
So why now?
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
=(
Sigh...lying on my tummy the whole day and still feeling like shit is no joke...
I hope it will go away soon with the meds in place...
I have been eating when I'm hungry and when necessary, so what is wrong...
Do I really have to go for scope and scan as what the doc mentioned...
Maybe my intestines are rotting away as I'm typing...
I hope it will go away soon with the meds in place...
I have been eating when I'm hungry and when necessary, so what is wrong...
Do I really have to go for scope and scan as what the doc mentioned...
Maybe my intestines are rotting away as I'm typing...
Friday, November 13, 2009
getting fatter
Been falling asleep without me knowing and waking up in the middle of the night to head for shower then sleep again...
Such disruption is so not good for my sleep-wake cycle...
Been having late dinners too as I get out of office late....by the time I am done with dinner, I would usually fall asleep in like an hour's time...
Such is so not good for my tummy! It is getting flabbier despite me eating lesser...I wonder is it my metabolism going slower...I used to be able to get flat tummy when my diet and appetite went down...not on purpose but in stress induced situation...
I dun think I have overworked but why do I still feel stress all the time...and I am constantly doubting my abilities in helping the kids nowadays...why?
time to go sleep first...I think I should plan for a short break in Dec...I really cannot take it already...sigh...
Such disruption is so not good for my sleep-wake cycle...
Been having late dinners too as I get out of office late....by the time I am done with dinner, I would usually fall asleep in like an hour's time...
Such is so not good for my tummy! It is getting flabbier despite me eating lesser...I wonder is it my metabolism going slower...I used to be able to get flat tummy when my diet and appetite went down...not on purpose but in stress induced situation...
I dun think I have overworked but why do I still feel stress all the time...and I am constantly doubting my abilities in helping the kids nowadays...why?
time to go sleep first...I think I should plan for a short break in Dec...I really cannot take it already...sigh...
Tuesday, November 03, 2009
I hate...
to cry...
I hate being weak...it just goes to show that after all these while...I'm still the weakling...
Cannot remember when was the last time I jogged at night...But I just had to do it tonight...even if it is in the middle of the night...even when I'm feeling so darn exhausted physically and mentally...the build-up frustration was too much...I need to feel better...I have to feel better...
to go Genting...
It is the one place which made me realize that my presence is no more important than the monetary pleasure that one might get out of gambling...
Technically, I am no more valuable than those stash of notes...seriously...
It's all about the money...
Even till now...I still have this feeling that money is more important than me...
to have gastric...
been plague with it since I was pri 2...the on and off affair seems to been off until recently...
I think my long lost fren just found me yet again...
I hate being weak...it just goes to show that after all these while...I'm still the weakling...
Cannot remember when was the last time I jogged at night...But I just had to do it tonight...even if it is in the middle of the night...even when I'm feeling so darn exhausted physically and mentally...the build-up frustration was too much...I need to feel better...I have to feel better...
to go Genting...
It is the one place which made me realize that my presence is no more important than the monetary pleasure that one might get out of gambling...
Technically, I am no more valuable than those stash of notes...seriously...
It's all about the money...
Even till now...I still have this feeling that money is more important than me...
to have gastric...
been plague with it since I was pri 2...the on and off affair seems to been off until recently...
I think my long lost fren just found me yet again...
Friday, October 30, 2009
My all time favourite...
Bro was sending me some japanese youtube on the lastest groupies...
Was telling him this is still my all time favourite apart from chage and aska...and he agreeed...
I think this is the only time that we agreed on something...music...
I missed those times when he share things with me...not that there was alot of such scenarios to begin with...
Was telling him this is still my all time favourite apart from chage and aska...and he agreeed...
I think this is the only time that we agreed on something...music...
I missed those times when he share things with me...not that there was alot of such scenarios to begin with...
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Monday, October 19, 2009
I love it when I get to chill with my pals, listen to music, chat about everything and anything under the stars...
I love it when Auggy says he likes me...
I love it when Ben ben comes running to me and gives me a hug...
I love it when Kitty girl smiles at me whenever I call her name...
I love it when I get to have my own time to do things alone...
I love it when I get to wake up next to you...
I love it when Auggy says he likes me...
I love it when Ben ben comes running to me and gives me a hug...
I love it when Kitty girl smiles at me whenever I call her name...
I love it when I get to have my own time to do things alone...
I love it when I get to wake up next to you...
Friday, October 09, 2009
not too good a week...
I kinda lost my appetite totally...
The only meal of the day is Macspicy meal for dinner...there goes my plan of dieting...
Suddenly I am asking myself - what am I doing now, why am I doing all these...
I wish I could have gone work and travel for 6 months...That would have been so darn exciting...
I wish I could have a baby, nurture the little one and see the little one grow...
I wish I could do what I do and be good at it...
I missed my chances, I dun feel I'm good enough...
sigh...
I'm tired...
The only meal of the day is Macspicy meal for dinner...there goes my plan of dieting...
Suddenly I am asking myself - what am I doing now, why am I doing all these...
I wish I could have gone work and travel for 6 months...That would have been so darn exciting...
I wish I could have a baby, nurture the little one and see the little one grow...
I wish I could do what I do and be good at it...
I missed my chances, I dun feel I'm good enough...
sigh...
I'm tired...
Monday, September 28, 2009
I wonder...
If you've sensed my agitation whenever you asked me if bro is online the moment I set foot in the house...
for god sake, I haven't even switched on my lappy to access the internet yet...
If you've sensed my frustrations when I tried to tell you something about me and you ended up interrupting me with your complaints...complaints about the past few months, complaints that revolve around you, complaints about dad...
did you realise I end up keeping my mouth shut, let you talk and not finishing whatever I wanna say cos I just feel that everything become pointless now...
Maybe I'm pms~ing...maybe i'm just being short fused...
Sometimes I wonder, if I am the one who gave birth and relocated to another country, would my parents do the same for me...
I know the answer somehow...
In the first place I dun think I'll want to rely on my parents knowing how tough and stress it'll be on them...but then again...who am I to make such statement right...
for god sake, I haven't even switched on my lappy to access the internet yet...
If you've sensed my frustrations when I tried to tell you something about me and you ended up interrupting me with your complaints...complaints about the past few months, complaints that revolve around you, complaints about dad...
did you realise I end up keeping my mouth shut, let you talk and not finishing whatever I wanna say cos I just feel that everything become pointless now...
Maybe I'm pms~ing...maybe i'm just being short fused...
Sometimes I wonder, if I am the one who gave birth and relocated to another country, would my parents do the same for me...
I know the answer somehow...
In the first place I dun think I'll want to rely on my parents knowing how tough and stress it'll be on them...but then again...who am I to make such statement right...
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Home Sweet Home...
I survived the LA trip!
Flight to LA was horrendous...colleague and I were alittle sick, hence the flight to Narita was not as enjoyable...the wait at Narita was worse! Remaining 11 hours flight to LA was tiring and alittle unbearable...
Reaching LA was a relieve...it was refreshing and reminds me so much of Melbourne....
The overall stay at Hilton was alright...not fantastic but the bed was good enough for me to wanna just stay in the hotel and not go out...
Seriously, Long Beach has nothing much for us to explore...we did little walking about in the area...pretty quiet and decent place...ppl are generally nice and friendly..
Two days of courses were great...we got lost on the way to the medical centre...thinking we could walk there...only to find out we forgot the differences btw miles and kilometres...we walked for like 5 km before giving up and tried taking a bus...was alittle late...but didnt miss out as much...really informative...learnt alot...and the speaker was so nice! He ended up chauffeuring us to and fro the medical centre for the next day...
Had alittle adventure on our own...due to the lack of transport and the build up frustration of our urge to shop...we decided to rent a car and drive to factory outlet on our own! As yours truly has no license...I can only rely on my colleague to drive us there....It was fun...and wasnt that difficult with the help of the GPS...I must say...my colleague was really brave...to try right-hand driving for the first time!
Anyhow, factory outlet did us harm! Burnt a huge hole in the pocket...still...it was fun...hehe...and before we know it...it's time to come back home...
Now is 3am...I used to say I dun think I will experience jetlag...but I guess not...I cant sleep!!! Luckily I only start work in the noon tomorrow...hungry...gonna grab some food!
Flight to LA was horrendous...colleague and I were alittle sick, hence the flight to Narita was not as enjoyable...the wait at Narita was worse! Remaining 11 hours flight to LA was tiring and alittle unbearable...
Reaching LA was a relieve...it was refreshing and reminds me so much of Melbourne....
The overall stay at Hilton was alright...not fantastic but the bed was good enough for me to wanna just stay in the hotel and not go out...
Seriously, Long Beach has nothing much for us to explore...we did little walking about in the area...pretty quiet and decent place...ppl are generally nice and friendly..
Two days of courses were great...we got lost on the way to the medical centre...thinking we could walk there...only to find out we forgot the differences btw miles and kilometres...we walked for like 5 km before giving up and tried taking a bus...was alittle late...but didnt miss out as much...really informative...learnt alot...and the speaker was so nice! He ended up chauffeuring us to and fro the medical centre for the next day...
Had alittle adventure on our own...due to the lack of transport and the build up frustration of our urge to shop...we decided to rent a car and drive to factory outlet on our own! As yours truly has no license...I can only rely on my colleague to drive us there....It was fun...and wasnt that difficult with the help of the GPS...I must say...my colleague was really brave...to try right-hand driving for the first time!
Anyhow, factory outlet did us harm! Burnt a huge hole in the pocket...still...it was fun...hehe...and before we know it...it's time to come back home...
Now is 3am...I used to say I dun think I will experience jetlag...but I guess not...I cant sleep!!! Luckily I only start work in the noon tomorrow...hungry...gonna grab some food!
Friday, September 11, 2009
Updates
Here I am, at Narita Airpot transiting to go LA!
Good thing about it, I get to fly and travel alittle...bad thing about it, I am alittle sick and extremetly tired from the flight and the long hours of waiting time to transit...6.50am to 5pm...If not for the free internet access, I would have gone mad...
I realise I am quite a pig...I can sleep anywhere and everywhere...waiting area chair I could also doze off and even have dreams...haha...
Heading to LA for a course...a 2.5 days course...cost me 4 days of travelling time...tonnes of rearrangement on my schedule...ask me if I am excited...I think I am more tired than anything else...nonetheless, the notion of being able to get out singapore still excites me alittle =p
I cant wait for the bali trip this coming Sat...it has been awhile since we all go on a trip together! The last one was Redang? or was it Koh Samui...ages ages ago....
So...what have I been up to this past month or so? I have been busy with work...been busy trying to upkeep my house since my parents were away from June till two days ago...mommy had great complaints of how I keep the house clean during their trip to HongKong...it is tiring to have to constantly think of when to sweep, mop, wash clothes etc...
And if you were guessing the reason I mia~ed for so long is because I have got into a relationship...
Bingo! hehe...kinda unexpected....anytime sooner or later...things would have been totally different...
It's funny...we went through a full circle and came back to meet one another...10 years...has it been that long? I found the photo we took during JC, we both looked hilariously toot...well..at least we look much better now ;p
You've matured over these years, I've been through lowest point of my life...right now, I am just thankful to have you by my side...
Actually last night, I was really happy...I'm surrounded by ppl who love me so much! Gage - who drove down after being a day of storeman, Sze - who came after losing a pack of blood, CK -who came with messy hair after his body pump, James - who came down despite his hectic work load and my crazy boyfriend - who went to and fro airport in the time span of a few hours...
okie...I cannot take it...need to go toilet brush teeth and wash up...perhaps I'll contiue later...
Good thing about it, I get to fly and travel alittle...bad thing about it, I am alittle sick and extremetly tired from the flight and the long hours of waiting time to transit...6.50am to 5pm...If not for the free internet access, I would have gone mad...
I realise I am quite a pig...I can sleep anywhere and everywhere...waiting area chair I could also doze off and even have dreams...haha...
Heading to LA for a course...a 2.5 days course...cost me 4 days of travelling time...tonnes of rearrangement on my schedule...ask me if I am excited...I think I am more tired than anything else...nonetheless, the notion of being able to get out singapore still excites me alittle =p
I cant wait for the bali trip this coming Sat...it has been awhile since we all go on a trip together! The last one was Redang? or was it Koh Samui...ages ages ago....
So...what have I been up to this past month or so? I have been busy with work...been busy trying to upkeep my house since my parents were away from June till two days ago...mommy had great complaints of how I keep the house clean during their trip to HongKong...it is tiring to have to constantly think of when to sweep, mop, wash clothes etc...
And if you were guessing the reason I mia~ed for so long is because I have got into a relationship...
Bingo! hehe...kinda unexpected....anytime sooner or later...things would have been totally different...
It's funny...we went through a full circle and came back to meet one another...10 years...has it been that long? I found the photo we took during JC, we both looked hilariously toot...well..at least we look much better now ;p
You've matured over these years, I've been through lowest point of my life...right now, I am just thankful to have you by my side...
Actually last night, I was really happy...I'm surrounded by ppl who love me so much! Gage - who drove down after being a day of storeman, Sze - who came after losing a pack of blood, CK -who came with messy hair after his body pump, James - who came down despite his hectic work load and my crazy boyfriend - who went to and fro airport in the time span of a few hours...
okie...I cannot take it...need to go toilet brush teeth and wash up...perhaps I'll contiue later...
Monday, July 27, 2009
Genuinely happy...
Things were so random lately...
My kid whom I have been working with, did the funniest thing ever. He was climbing through the obstacle course while I was behind him stretching to hang something up high. Suddnely he came down and ran towards me and poked my tummy as if tickling me...not sure is it my flabby tummy that attracted this attention, or he is slowly warming up to me...haha...
Farewell dinner for Sherbs was Muthu's Curry at Little India...Was suppose to go home after but fren of mine from aussie msged and said he's back in town! Been exactly one year since I last saw him! Totally excited that we finally get to meet up! It was great to chat and even mingle with his sibs...
Didn't sleep much on Sat night and woke up early on Sun to send Sherbs off...
It was an entourage of kids in sending her off! After sending her off it's a round of chasing after kids, talking to bosses and colleagues, eating and taking care of the the kiddos...
It was so tiring running after the kids but I had a really really fun time talking to them and hearing their remarks to everything they see...so innocently cute!
When was the last time I laugh from my heart...hmm....
My kid whom I have been working with, did the funniest thing ever. He was climbing through the obstacle course while I was behind him stretching to hang something up high. Suddnely he came down and ran towards me and poked my tummy as if tickling me...not sure is it my flabby tummy that attracted this attention, or he is slowly warming up to me...haha...
Farewell dinner for Sherbs was Muthu's Curry at Little India...Was suppose to go home after but fren of mine from aussie msged and said he's back in town! Been exactly one year since I last saw him! Totally excited that we finally get to meet up! It was great to chat and even mingle with his sibs...
Didn't sleep much on Sat night and woke up early on Sun to send Sherbs off...
It was an entourage of kids in sending her off! After sending her off it's a round of chasing after kids, talking to bosses and colleagues, eating and taking care of the the kiddos...
It was so tiring running after the kids but I had a really really fun time talking to them and hearing their remarks to everything they see...so innocently cute!
When was the last time I laugh from my heart...hmm....
Monday, July 20, 2009
I am so blessed...
to have friend who will still drive me home despite him being tired...on the many many many occasions...
to have friend's mom who will buy cooling tea for me so that I can get my voice back...
to have friend who will think of me when he has a complimentary pass for his gym so that I can get the work out that I very much need...
to have boss who is willing to boil another type of cooling tea for me...
to have someone who is willing to spend the whole of Monday, dropping by just so to keep me company while I nurse myself back to recovery...plus the ice cream, cooling tea and cake...
it's nice to just sit in front of the tv, laugh at those sitcoms and eat the tub of ice cream...
to have friend's mom who will buy cooling tea for me so that I can get my voice back...
to have friend who will think of me when he has a complimentary pass for his gym so that I can get the work out that I very much need...
to have boss who is willing to boil another type of cooling tea for me...
to have someone who is willing to spend the whole of Monday, dropping by just so to keep me company while I nurse myself back to recovery...plus the ice cream, cooling tea and cake...
it's nice to just sit in front of the tv, laugh at those sitcoms and eat the tub of ice cream...
FYI
In case you were worried that the pop-out that is asking for pin to view my posts...well it's not...you can still view my post even if you press 'cancel' button...
the pop-out is for my twitter msges that i've locked up under my account...so for ppl like fen, you can request and wait for my approval to follow the twits...then u'll know more of the latest updates...sensical, nonsensical updates included...and of cos...more vulgarities involved...haha...
miss you babe...wish you were here to crash my place and stay with me over the weekends...miss our prata time tooo...love love...
the pop-out is for my twitter msges that i've locked up under my account...so for ppl like fen, you can request and wait for my approval to follow the twits...then u'll know more of the latest updates...sensical, nonsensical updates included...and of cos...more vulgarities involved...haha...
miss you babe...wish you were here to crash my place and stay with me over the weekends...miss our prata time tooo...love love...
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Away Day 5-7 July 2009
Some pictures on our 'Away Day'
Second day, on tram. We were on our way to Palawan Beach. Peeps were on their way to get tortured by me. I, the game master, gotten ordered around and bullied, induced quite a number of injuries...haha...but overall it was fun...or at least I hope!
Trying to act funny while carrying those heavy water bombs...that's JR, Sheralyn and I!
Our team of fun loving peeps!
Another shot...minus the man behind...haha..
My beloved old housemate-now-colleague, Alison...second night was the most hilarious, fun time spent. We had company's dinner then KTV at St James. It was marked with lots of trashy-fun-sing-along songs and lotsa alcohol! O plus not to mention, funny drunkard moments...which I wasn't involved...haha how rare right...
Anyway, it was really a fun and memorable night!
Me and my unglam face...I was slightly tipsy high then I think...
This was me singing...didnt even know ally took this pic...haha...
Second day, on tram. We were on our way to Palawan Beach. Peeps were on their way to get tortured by me. I, the game master, gotten ordered around and bullied, induced quite a number of injuries...haha...but overall it was fun...or at least I hope!
Trying to act funny while carrying those heavy water bombs...that's JR, Sheralyn and I!
Our team of fun loving peeps!
Another shot...minus the man behind...haha..
My beloved old housemate-now-colleague, Alison...second night was the most hilarious, fun time spent. We had company's dinner then KTV at St James. It was marked with lots of trashy-fun-sing-along songs and lotsa alcohol! O plus not to mention, funny drunkard moments...which I wasn't involved...haha how rare right...
Anyway, it was really a fun and memorable night!
Me and my unglam face...I was slightly tipsy high then I think...
This was me singing...didnt even know ally took this pic...haha...
Friday, July 17, 2009
sick and alone...
Fever, cough, running nose...welcome to the sick zone baby!!!
I'm not only the green snog machine but also the master of the mime...
It's quite funny when yd hit me on my arm and I literally screamed to complain to his mom "Auntie!! Yidong beat me!!" BUT nothing came out...only my facial expressions...it's sooooooo funny can....I can play charades very well now...ha!
Very sweet of yd to drive me home after dinner, very sweet of auntie to buy me the liang cha...now I have two pseudo moms! hehe....thank you so much!
I'm not only the green snog machine but also the master of the mime...
It's quite funny when yd hit me on my arm and I literally screamed to complain to his mom "Auntie!! Yidong beat me!!" BUT nothing came out...only my facial expressions...it's sooooooo funny can....I can play charades very well now...ha!
Very sweet of yd to drive me home after dinner, very sweet of auntie to buy me the liang cha...now I have two pseudo moms! hehe....thank you so much!
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Disclaimer...
I'm overloaded with junk food. Feel fat and lack of exercise. Because of the junks I ate, the late nights I had for rushing reports, my throat is now protesting and my nose is starting to leak...
Cooked mushroom soup and eating salad now...I hope these are healthy enough...
being sick sux...
being sick and alone sux even MORE!!!
AGRH!!!
Cooked mushroom soup and eating salad now...I hope these are healthy enough...
being sick sux...
being sick and alone sux even MORE!!!
AGRH!!!
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Monday, July 13, 2009
cooking day!
Edible cooked food vs yucky cooked food - 1:1
My attempt for fried rice went well! Yippe! Fried rice trump macaroni soup. Slight boo boo though when I tripped on the stairs and broke the glass bottled of sweet soya sauce. I should count my lucky stars that I didn't cut myself. Time to buy new slippers...the front of the slippers probably is slightly too big and making me fall...not the first time...bruises on my arms can account for it...sigh...Anyway, I think I cooked too huge a portion...enough to feed 3 ppl equivalent to 3 meals for me...haha...die...
Anyway, company's Away Day was great fun. The stress in preparing the games and prizes were pretty much worth it...though I did give peeps more injuries =p sorry guys...
I think the highlight was the ktv...surprisingly I aint the drunk one...haha. To think that I was actually quick enough to shove the empty jug to my colleague when I saw that familiar wanna_puke_immediately kinda face, that was quite something. It was crazy tipsy fun! We drained the two bottles of hard liquor when I thought we might end up saving them for the next time. So fun to hang out like that...hehe...
Went for Da Vinci exhibition...it was interesting...though too much reading makes me feel whoozy and tired...signs of old age =( boohoo...
I miss hanging out with yd, ck and james...you bitches made my day...I hope our trip will go through! I so wanna chill by the pool!
Love you guys!
fen...I miss you terribly today...I so wanna go beach resort with you! Should have gone for the batam one!!! =p Hope you are feeling better and not down with flu...love ya!
In some kind of a shut down mode...just want to do things on my own and be alone for awhile...I think I may just pack and go on a trip alone...hmm....batam? bintan? sentosa? HK?
My attempt for fried rice went well! Yippe! Fried rice trump macaroni soup. Slight boo boo though when I tripped on the stairs and broke the glass bottled of sweet soya sauce. I should count my lucky stars that I didn't cut myself. Time to buy new slippers...the front of the slippers probably is slightly too big and making me fall...not the first time...bruises on my arms can account for it...sigh...Anyway, I think I cooked too huge a portion...enough to feed 3 ppl equivalent to 3 meals for me...haha...die...
Anyway, company's Away Day was great fun. The stress in preparing the games and prizes were pretty much worth it...though I did give peeps more injuries =p sorry guys...
I think the highlight was the ktv...surprisingly I aint the drunk one...haha. To think that I was actually quick enough to shove the empty jug to my colleague when I saw that familiar wanna_puke_immediately kinda face, that was quite something. It was crazy tipsy fun! We drained the two bottles of hard liquor when I thought we might end up saving them for the next time. So fun to hang out like that...hehe...
Went for Da Vinci exhibition...it was interesting...though too much reading makes me feel whoozy and tired...signs of old age =( boohoo...
I miss hanging out with yd, ck and james...you bitches made my day...I hope our trip will go through! I so wanna chill by the pool!
Love you guys!
fen...I miss you terribly today...I so wanna go beach resort with you! Should have gone for the batam one!!! =p Hope you are feeling better and not down with flu...love ya!
In some kind of a shut down mode...just want to do things on my own and be alone for awhile...I think I may just pack and go on a trip alone...hmm....batam? bintan? sentosa? HK?
Saturday, July 11, 2009
high high high....
i am so happily high on my own at home right now....i think i can so live by myself...
i think it's funny that i talk to myself...
i think i will be strong enough to depend on my own totally..
btw...ray is out of cave...drinking time!!!! yippe!!!
i think it's funny that i talk to myself...
i think i will be strong enough to depend on my own totally..
btw...ray is out of cave...drinking time!!!! yippe!!!
Thursday, July 09, 2009
Junk food vs cooked food by moi: lost count vs 1
and it sux big time...how come same ingredients yet it didnt taste as good as when I cooked it in aussie...hmm...
I cooked and mopped within the time span of 2 hours. Eh...considered fast enough okie...I still need to prepare food and mop entire house...
Feeling more at ease now..certain things are just not meant to be...so even if I have to be the bad person to cut people off, I have to do it...why should I always be the one to please others at the expense of my comfort and happiness, knowing that the other party may not quite worth the effort afterall, and despite knowing what I've been going through...
I'm usually quite a soft hearted person, to get me to this stage...you're the man...
and it sux big time...how come same ingredients yet it didnt taste as good as when I cooked it in aussie...hmm...
I cooked and mopped within the time span of 2 hours. Eh...considered fast enough okie...I still need to prepare food and mop entire house...
Feeling more at ease now..certain things are just not meant to be...so even if I have to be the bad person to cut people off, I have to do it...why should I always be the one to please others at the expense of my comfort and happiness, knowing that the other party may not quite worth the effort afterall, and despite knowing what I've been going through...
I'm usually quite a soft hearted person, to get me to this stage...you're the man...
Sunday, July 05, 2009
Mismatch
I'm sorry this has to happen, I just dun see the way you see this friendship...why cant we just be friends, as in normal buddy-pal kinda friends...
Appreciate you trying to be there for me during the hard times and I am grateful that I was important to you...
I can't condone your thinking and actions, especially at the expense of my emotions...
The only reaction I can conjure up is smile so that it can mask the disappointment I have out of this...
Appreciate you trying to be there for me during the hard times and I am grateful that I was important to you...
I can't condone your thinking and actions, especially at the expense of my emotions...
The only reaction I can conjure up is smile so that it can mask the disappointment I have out of this...
Thursday, July 02, 2009
I'm the pig...
My eating system and sleep routine have totally been fucked. I eat only when I'm hungry which means I am having dinner as late as 9 plus 10 because I usually feel tired more than hungry after work...
I was so beat today that I fell asleep on the sofa while Oprah was on the tv...Oprah leh...and I could still fall asleep...subconsciously I even heard myself snoring...o no...
It's either I'll get super fat or super thin due to this irregular eating...
junk food vs cooked food - 2:2
I love the rides with those songs played from the precious mp3...old school rock...or whatever genre they are in...never fail to remind me of the aussie time...good memories...I rem sitting in the car, being driven home down the dark quiet streets...I rem tapping to the beats and singing to those few songs that I know of...there wasnt a moment that was awkward or pretencious and I feel so at ease with myself, with the people I was with.
I want that feeling back...that simplicity...that contentment...
I was so beat today that I fell asleep on the sofa while Oprah was on the tv...Oprah leh...and I could still fall asleep...subconsciously I even heard myself snoring...o no...
It's either I'll get super fat or super thin due to this irregular eating...
junk food vs cooked food - 2:2
I love the rides with those songs played from the precious mp3...old school rock...or whatever genre they are in...never fail to remind me of the aussie time...good memories...I rem sitting in the car, being driven home down the dark quiet streets...I rem tapping to the beats and singing to those few songs that I know of...there wasnt a moment that was awkward or pretencious and I feel so at ease with myself, with the people I was with.
I want that feeling back...that simplicity...that contentment...
Wednesday, July 01, 2009
Seeing stars...
Today is not a good day for me. Sadness got snowballed towards end of the day.
But I will be better. I will get better.
Things at my end are getting better. I sincerely hope that yours will too.
I think I can get used to the idea of being alone and living on my own. Although I do whine about how pathetic it is to have dinner on my own =p, to some extend I do enjoy this peacefulness...no expectations, no disappointment, no tears...
On a side note, I wanna join the winter fest madi gras too!!! boo hoo...so envious...I have always wanted to be part of the madi gras celebration!!! so proud of you my dear girl! hehe
But I will be better. I will get better.
Things at my end are getting better. I sincerely hope that yours will too.
I think I can get used to the idea of being alone and living on my own. Although I do whine about how pathetic it is to have dinner on my own =p, to some extend I do enjoy this peacefulness...no expectations, no disappointment, no tears...
On a side note, I wanna join the winter fest madi gras too!!! boo hoo...so envious...I have always wanted to be part of the madi gras celebration!!! so proud of you my dear girl! hehe
Monday, June 29, 2009
How did I survive?
I read the email, I saw the timetable like many times but I still manage to get it mixed up! Ugrh...darn pissed with myself. First day of school and I already sorta screw up...peee weee...I'm the ultimate blur queen...
So I travelled from home to Clementi then Clementi back to clinic...all in the time span of 45 min...
I need to wake up! Wake up! Wake up!
So I travelled from home to Clementi then Clementi back to clinic...all in the time span of 45 min...
I need to wake up! Wake up! Wake up!
Sunday, June 28, 2009
And so...
Michael Jackson passed away...what a pity...his last concert would have been awesome...and now, he is free from the ridicule that others placed on him, free from the worry of his finances and free from the fear of not being perfect outside in...
This week...
Home alone 2 started on Wednesday...why 2? Cos I had Home alone 1 back in 2008 when I flew back from Melbourne for vacation before flying to HK to find my family.
So far I dun think I have spent more than 12 hours at home except today...morning I would be out for work, evening out for dinner with friends then home at night to bathe and sleep...
Headaches been my pretty close friend lately...perhaps not enough rest...stress and headache dun go well...I can forsee myself struggling alittle more in month of July...all the handover, adjustment to make before getting the breather in August...sigh...die die DIE...
I took the longest nap ever...it was supposed to be good until I had the dream...
I rather dream about fen...miss her...and her sms always cheer me up!
This week...
Home alone 2 started on Wednesday...why 2? Cos I had Home alone 1 back in 2008 when I flew back from Melbourne for vacation before flying to HK to find my family.
So far I dun think I have spent more than 12 hours at home except today...morning I would be out for work, evening out for dinner with friends then home at night to bathe and sleep...
Headaches been my pretty close friend lately...perhaps not enough rest...stress and headache dun go well...I can forsee myself struggling alittle more in month of July...all the handover, adjustment to make before getting the breather in August...sigh...die die DIE...
I took the longest nap ever...it was supposed to be good until I had the dream...
I rather dream about fen...miss her...and her sms always cheer me up!
Monday, June 22, 2009
I quit...
You are always free during weekdays after work and you work in the city...
I work in Jurong...go city very troublesome...so next time you come Jurong to meet okie...
Pissed.to.the.max.
I did try to arrange to meet up in the past...when I was free, you weren't...when you are free, I ain't...so what you want me to do? I aint complaining about it...why should you?
Just becos I used to be nice...just becos I work in city...just becos my work involves dealing with kids...
Everything is deemed easy for me...
I have been feeling stressed...being awake way before alarm time is bad enough, sleeping/waking up with the feeling of stress regarding work is bad enough...dreaming about banker and having to push those thoughts away to focus on work is bad enough...facing my mistakes and not to feel guilty on the daily basis is bad enough...
what more do you want from me?!
I work in Jurong...go city very troublesome...so next time you come Jurong to meet okie...
Pissed.to.the.max.
I did try to arrange to meet up in the past...when I was free, you weren't...when you are free, I ain't...so what you want me to do? I aint complaining about it...why should you?
Just becos I used to be nice...just becos I work in city...just becos my work involves dealing with kids...
Everything is deemed easy for me...
I have been feeling stressed...being awake way before alarm time is bad enough, sleeping/waking up with the feeling of stress regarding work is bad enough...dreaming about banker and having to push those thoughts away to focus on work is bad enough...facing my mistakes and not to feel guilty on the daily basis is bad enough...
what more do you want from me?!
I have always thought it was pretty hard to find a teardrop shape pendent BUT....hey...I have just found this lovely teardrop shape pendent from the Tiffany & Co website! Not crystal nor diamond but just a simple silver one which I can wear it with me all the time.
It is so pretty looking...
And then it hit me, how much bullshit it was when I was told it aint easy to locate one...hmm....
It is so pretty looking...
And then it hit me, how much bullshit it was when I was told it aint easy to locate one...hmm....
Sunday, June 21, 2009
snippets of life...
Deforestation happened last Friday...finally I got down to make the appointment and do something about it...
I realised I can be distracted so easily. I think it would have hurt so much more, should I not used the handphone to bring myself away from the task. The count-down and anticipation would have brought on so much more pain! Not to mention the slight bleeding due to dryness of the skin. Anyway, deed was done and I am a happy customer.
Went to seletar airbase for the baffalo wings and other food. It was a nice place to hang out and great fun that yd's mom could join us. We got back to our guitar hero last night! Hilarious night with new people joining us in the chase of beats. Not to mention we have found a new female drummer who has much better rhythm than most of us!
Watching 'Frida' now. Have always wanted to catch it. I think quite a number of scenes were cut. So dampening to the mood. Her drawings were...interestingly weird. And so were her relationships.
Mizuno run was pretty much done...so what's next? POSB run? Army run? Stand Chart run?
I realised I can be distracted so easily. I think it would have hurt so much more, should I not used the handphone to bring myself away from the task. The count-down and anticipation would have brought on so much more pain! Not to mention the slight bleeding due to dryness of the skin. Anyway, deed was done and I am a happy customer.
Went to seletar airbase for the baffalo wings and other food. It was a nice place to hang out and great fun that yd's mom could join us. We got back to our guitar hero last night! Hilarious night with new people joining us in the chase of beats. Not to mention we have found a new female drummer who has much better rhythm than most of us!
Watching 'Frida' now. Have always wanted to catch it. I think quite a number of scenes were cut. So dampening to the mood. Her drawings were...interestingly weird. And so were her relationships.
Mizuno run was pretty much done...so what's next? POSB run? Army run? Stand Chart run?
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Long way to happy
One night to you
Lasted six weeks for me
Just a bitter little pill now
Just to try to go to sleep
No more waking up to innocence
Say hello to hesitance
To everyone I meet
Thanks to you years ago
I guess I'll never know
What love means to me but oh
I'll keep on rolling down this road
But I've got a bad, bad feeling
It's gonna take a long time to love
It's gonna take a lot to hold on
It's gonna be a long way to happy, yeah
Left in the pieces that you broke me into
Torn apart but now I've got to
Keep on rolling like a stone
Cause it's gonna be a long long way to happy
Left my childhood behind
In a roll away bed
Everything was so damn simple
Now I'm losing my head
Trying to cover up the damage
And pad out all the bruises
Do you know I had it
So it didn't hurt to lose it
Didn't hurt to lose it
No but oh
I'll keep on rolling down this road
But I've got a bad, bad feeling
It's gonna take a long time to love
It's gonna take a lot to hold on
It's gonna be a long way to happy, yeah
Left in the pieces that you broke me into
Torn apart but now I've got to
Keep on rolling like a stone
Cause it's gonna be a long long way
Now I'm numb as hell and I can't feel a thing
But don't worry about regret or guilt cause I never knew your name
I just want to thank you
Thank you
From the bottem of my heart
For all the sleepless nights
And for tearing me apart yeah yeah
It's gonna take a long time to love
It's gonna take a lot to hold on
It's gonna be a long way to happy, yeah
Left in the pieces that you broke me into
Torn apart but now I've got to
Keep on rolling like a stone
Cause it's gonna be a long long way
It's gonna take a long time to love
It's gonna take a lot to hold on
It's gonna be a long, long, long, long way to happy, yeah
Left in the pieces that you broke me into
Torn apart but now I've got to
Keep on rolling like a stone
Cause it's gonna be a long long way to happy
Cause it's gonna be a long long way to happy
I seriously dun mind being home alone for the next half a year. Eventually I will live on my own. Just afraid that I will some how spiral downwards again and plunge into that black hole once more, unable to get up.
Perhaps then I should get into the regime of running every night...at least I guess the dreams that happened ever so often will cease completely...
Monday, June 15, 2009
Out..
I met the two of you about the same time 3 years ago...
Little did I know, you have such common grounds with him...
Haven't we always been friends? There wasn't much contact in between cos of the things that happened and eventually you were with someone else while I was with him. Now, you are with another person while I'm on my own.
Like him, you appeared intermittently in my life. Like him, you tried to put me in the exact same position. Haven't you heard, Jayna is still under construction...healing in progress...
I'm human, I have feelings. I'm the youngest child and one thing for sure, I really hate to share.
Let me do the nasty job here. I'll draw the line. Just because I'm nice to you, doesn't mean you can use me as a tool.
You want company, go look for your girlfriend. You want company, go look for your wife.
Like him, I'm striking your name out. Both of you.
Little did I know, you have such common grounds with him...
Haven't we always been friends? There wasn't much contact in between cos of the things that happened and eventually you were with someone else while I was with him. Now, you are with another person while I'm on my own.
Like him, you appeared intermittently in my life. Like him, you tried to put me in the exact same position. Haven't you heard, Jayna is still under construction...healing in progress...
I'm human, I have feelings. I'm the youngest child and one thing for sure, I really hate to share.
Let me do the nasty job here. I'll draw the line. Just because I'm nice to you, doesn't mean you can use me as a tool.
You want company, go look for your girlfriend. You want company, go look for your wife.
Like him, I'm striking your name out. Both of you.
Tuesday, June 09, 2009
Monday, June 08, 2009
sigh....
First day of using a replacement phone. Felt like an idiot but getting the hang of it now. What can I say, I think Samsung phone is still as user friendly as it used to be.
Funny thing was, some msges and phone no. popped out. I've long deleted them, non-existence in my Nokie phone. Looking at the dates, I think they came through while I was still using my Soul phone. I can't say I aint affected by them.
O well, just another round of deletion to make...
Funny thing was, some msges and phone no. popped out. I've long deleted them, non-existence in my Nokie phone. Looking at the dates, I think they came through while I was still using my Soul phone. I can't say I aint affected by them.
O well, just another round of deletion to make...
Fen's advanture + my rantings
Totally excited for you! Now you should be either watching those in-flight movies or simply dozing off from the lack of sleep...
Am so excited for you...envious at the same time that you're exploring New Zealand on your own...without me...boo hoo...
I guess as we grow older, it becomes harder for us to wanna choose going on this kind of work and travel trip. So I'm really glad that you get to do it! I shall wait patiently for six months for you to come back home and tell me all the interesting encounters that you'll have...
O wait...you can tell me when we are in Melbourne end of this year!! woo hoo! Totally looking forward to that!
On second note, I love not having to work on Mondays...dun be envious okie...missy here works full day on Saturday, so this is my deserved rest day!
Just when I'm falling in love with E71...it's having this overheating problem...bringing it for service tomorrow...yd darling...thank you so much for lending me your phone...will return you once i gotten back mine...will send it back to ur house too so that your mama can get to see me more often...haha...perhaps I should rekindle my craze for guitar hero...
Mizuno run pack sux...paid 35 bucks and all it has to offer is this fulgy green singlet for running (man sizes somemore cos they ran out of 's' for female!), some vouchers, a dull waist pouch and an old SHAPE magazine that was dated March 09...I wonder if the organization bit will be as fucked up as I read from the posts by others regarding last yr's event...hope not...better not deposite bag...
I think talking and letting it out helps...although there are still days in which I felt like shit...but at least the loss that used to be so intense is slightly more manageable...
Am so excited for you...envious at the same time that you're exploring New Zealand on your own...without me...boo hoo...
I guess as we grow older, it becomes harder for us to wanna choose going on this kind of work and travel trip. So I'm really glad that you get to do it! I shall wait patiently for six months for you to come back home and tell me all the interesting encounters that you'll have...
O wait...you can tell me when we are in Melbourne end of this year!! woo hoo! Totally looking forward to that!
On second note, I love not having to work on Mondays...dun be envious okie...missy here works full day on Saturday, so this is my deserved rest day!
Just when I'm falling in love with E71...it's having this overheating problem...bringing it for service tomorrow...yd darling...thank you so much for lending me your phone...will return you once i gotten back mine...will send it back to ur house too so that your mama can get to see me more often...haha...perhaps I should rekindle my craze for guitar hero...
Mizuno run pack sux...paid 35 bucks and all it has to offer is this fulgy green singlet for running (man sizes somemore cos they ran out of 's' for female!), some vouchers, a dull waist pouch and an old SHAPE magazine that was dated March 09...I wonder if the organization bit will be as fucked up as I read from the posts by others regarding last yr's event...hope not...better not deposite bag...
I think talking and letting it out helps...although there are still days in which I felt like shit...but at least the loss that used to be so intense is slightly more manageable...
Friday, June 05, 2009
Boiling...
Can go for follow up, fly to HK and fly back here for follow up...as if...
What the fuck is wrong with everyone...I told you the consultation date. Can't you book the flights after the consultation has been done?
After putting in effort to push off the fear for the checks...now I have to deal with some more shit! Just because you are having difficulty handling the situation, your call for help has caused such dilemma...
You just want to get the flight settled aside from your work...yes...you're just following what you were told to do...yes...
But not at the expense of health...
What the fuck is wrong with everyone...I told you the consultation date. Can't you book the flights after the consultation has been done?
After putting in effort to push off the fear for the checks...now I have to deal with some more shit! Just because you are having difficulty handling the situation, your call for help has caused such dilemma...
You just want to get the flight settled aside from your work...yes...you're just following what you were told to do...yes...
But not at the expense of health...
Tuesday, June 02, 2009
Sundown 2009
The overnight movie marathon was awesome! No doubt I have caught those movies before, it was still pretty fun to lie down in the open field and just relax while watching the show.
I was quite amazed that despite having a hectic schedule in the day, I was able to stay awake through the night! Yd snoozed alittle here and there (lousssssyyy =p) while I was busy munching, catching the movie and sms~ing yk mean msges to ask him to run faster...haha...
It was fun. Even with just the two of us. Even with little bit of ant bites here and there. Even with the short drizzling going on.
It amazed me how those people completed 84km ultra marathon and still could walk up the stage to receive their prizes...I mean...they ran non stop for 7-9 hours and still could walk after that...I think I would just be in total paralysis...cos I might just reach the finishing line in the Sadako method plus with massive mental breakdown due to the delusions that I have ran half of the distance but in actual fact I had just completed 4km and still have 80 km more to go!!!GASP!
I think I'll stick to half marathon for the time being. Dealing with the fact of having 17 km more to go is still more bearable...ha ha ha ha...
Btw, pretty proud of yk for completing his sundown full marathon...and watching him grimaced whenever he sat in the car, walked down flight of stairs and struggled to get out of his seat...was all...quite funny...hehe...
Photos up...when I'm not as lazy...
I was quite amazed that despite having a hectic schedule in the day, I was able to stay awake through the night! Yd snoozed alittle here and there (lousssssyyy =p) while I was busy munching, catching the movie and sms~ing yk mean msges to ask him to run faster...haha...
It was fun. Even with just the two of us. Even with little bit of ant bites here and there. Even with the short drizzling going on.
It amazed me how those people completed 84km ultra marathon and still could walk up the stage to receive their prizes...I mean...they ran non stop for 7-9 hours and still could walk after that...I think I would just be in total paralysis...cos I might just reach the finishing line in the Sadako method plus with massive mental breakdown due to the delusions that I have ran half of the distance but in actual fact I had just completed 4km and still have 80 km more to go!!!GASP!
I think I'll stick to half marathon for the time being. Dealing with the fact of having 17 km more to go is still more bearable...ha ha ha ha...
Btw, pretty proud of yk for completing his sundown full marathon...and watching him grimaced whenever he sat in the car, walked down flight of stairs and struggled to get out of his seat...was all...quite funny...hehe...
Photos up...when I'm not as lazy...
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
missing...
I know I haven't been around much for you, I know I haven't been meeting up with you much either...
But I will still miss you and I will definitely miss talking to you...especially dozing off while msning with you...
I'll wait for you to be back for the Cambodia trip...to conquer Asia one by one...
Thanx for listening...I think it's like the time when I failed my A level...you dun have to hear me out but you did...
That's all I need...really...
But I will still miss you and I will definitely miss talking to you...especially dozing off while msning with you...
I'll wait for you to be back for the Cambodia trip...to conquer Asia one by one...
Thanx for listening...I think it's like the time when I failed my A level...you dun have to hear me out but you did...
That's all I need...really...
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Mishap..
Wanted to be vain and put on my contact lenses, only to get my right eyeball be fucking fucking FUCKING painful! The burning sensation that I felt was so excruciating that I literally wanna dig my eyeball out for a good wash under the running water! This has never happened before! Fucking solution...argh!
Thursday, May 21, 2009
He cheered me up...
The sun arises and make happy the skies,
jealous clouds bring rain and dampen spring but have no fret,
all is not lost yet,
for the clouds will clear,
and the sun will reappear,
the birds that hid away shall come out to play and sing louder than the receding rain...
~happy bday piggy~
Thanx oki buta...thanx =)
jealous clouds bring rain and dampen spring but have no fret,
all is not lost yet,
for the clouds will clear,
and the sun will reappear,
the birds that hid away shall come out to play and sing louder than the receding rain...
~happy bday piggy~
Thanx oki buta...thanx =)
Monday, May 18, 2009
Argh!
It may be wrong but my fear of being written off someone's life is greater than fear of going to hell.
But then again, it's part and parcel of life. I should be able to get used to it. I have to get used to it.
I wish I can be vindictive enough to hate him...
But then again, it's part and parcel of life. I should be able to get used to it. I have to get used to it.
I wish I can be vindictive enough to hate him...
Birthday celebration part 7
~Martime House date~
Nice dinner with my pals...steak, escargots, calamari, salad, soup...
Wine at wine boss...
then kena dragged to 'Play' to dance...
It was a wild night...nice wild night...with crazy peeps...hehe...
What a way to wrap up my celebrations!
Nice dinner with my pals...steak, escargots, calamari, salad, soup...
Wine at wine boss...
then kena dragged to 'Play' to dance...
It was a wild night...nice wild night...with crazy peeps...hehe...
What a way to wrap up my celebrations!
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Birthday celebration part 5 & 6
Part 5
Met yd in the noon to make new specs. Took awhile for me to choose and I finally decided upon these puma specs...trying to look sporty so that I'll be sporty enough to wanna exercise regularly....hahaha ~roll eyes~ who am I kidding right =p
What I love about this trip...to see yd bargain the price of my specs and his shades...see how he tehhhhhhhhh and allowed me to get that extra discount despite his own shades...hehe...thank you so much!
Following the specs making...went for rojak....coffee...chatted...met up with ck and james for dinner...they got me purple rose! teehee....
Thank you yd for the pressie...bringing me to specs shop...tehhhing for me....helping me buy t-shirt and necklace from thailand...and the purple nano!
Thank you ck and james for the rose and the purple nano!
Thank you sze, fen, choon yew, yingkai for the purple nano!
Thank you so much! I'll see you guys this sat!
Part 6
Suppose to meet Gladys and Alison for dinner...but Gladys aint feeling too up to it so I ended up having dinner with ally and her sisters...hehe...fun...
Babes...Thank you for watch and the CD! the 27 sweets and the nice nice paper bag! hehe...thank you!
Meet up soon pls!
Met yd in the noon to make new specs. Took awhile for me to choose and I finally decided upon these puma specs...trying to look sporty so that I'll be sporty enough to wanna exercise regularly....hahaha ~roll eyes~ who am I kidding right =p
What I love about this trip...to see yd bargain the price of my specs and his shades...see how he tehhhhhhhhh and allowed me to get that extra discount despite his own shades...hehe...thank you so much!
Following the specs making...went for rojak....coffee...chatted...met up with ck and james for dinner...they got me purple rose! teehee....
Thank you yd for the pressie...bringing me to specs shop...tehhhing for me....helping me buy t-shirt and necklace from thailand...and the purple nano!
Thank you ck and james for the rose and the purple nano!
Thank you sze, fen, choon yew, yingkai for the purple nano!
Thank you so much! I'll see you guys this sat!
Part 6
Suppose to meet Gladys and Alison for dinner...but Gladys aint feeling too up to it so I ended up having dinner with ally and her sisters...hehe...fun...
Babes...Thank you for watch and the CD! the 27 sweets and the nice nice paper bag! hehe...thank you!
Meet up soon pls!
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Birthday celebration part 4
I promised myself not to cry starting from this month onwards but...
darn...almost teared when fen gave me the present over dinner just now...
Collection of photos of us, of ppl around me, ranging from pri schl to sec schl to jc to poly to melbourne, of my family, of my baby boys...of the love that I always have and those that has never faded a single bit...
Like what fen said, I think it's a brilliant idea to flip through it whenever I'm feeling down, to remind myself how fortunate I really and already am...
I know it's not cheap to print those photos out, to use that lau pok pen knife of yours to cut the pictures to the right size for the album, to sacrifice your sleeping time while you fight your engineer war the next day...
Thank you so much babe...
darn...almost teared when fen gave me the present over dinner just now...
Collection of photos of us, of ppl around me, ranging from pri schl to sec schl to jc to poly to melbourne, of my family, of my baby boys...of the love that I always have and those that has never faded a single bit...
Like what fen said, I think it's a brilliant idea to flip through it whenever I'm feeling down, to remind myself how fortunate I really and already am...
I know it's not cheap to print those photos out, to use that lau pok pen knife of yours to cut the pictures to the right size for the album, to sacrifice your sleeping time while you fight your engineer war the next day...
Thank you so much babe...
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Birthday celebration part 3 - The hotel stay...
It was fun...the girls did make it all so fun by trying to blindfold me and leading me to the dinner place. Too bad, my excuse of 'dun wanna spoil my eye makeup' gave it away that we were heading to majestic bar for dinner!
It was cosy. Food, wine were good and the company was even better.
Back to the hotel room, the girls actually decorated the room with birthday banners and the little lightings! The room was alittle smaller than what we have imagined it to be. Nonetheless, it was so comforty that I was called forth to the bed almost immediately...hehe...
Hitting the purplish Barney pinata was fun and it did take quite awhile and abit more of my energy to 'break' his legs in order to release the goodies! Not to forget, the girlies were playing the famous Barney song at the background while I was waving the wooden wand like a light sabre. Darn funny moment.
Following that were drinks and yummy champange cake! Photos are with ray. I wonder when she will send them to me..hehe...
It was such a funloving, creative night and I truly feel blessed to have my squashies with me all these while.
~jessie babe...we missed you! Hope you're having fun in Africa =)
It was cosy. Food, wine were good and the company was even better.
Back to the hotel room, the girls actually decorated the room with birthday banners and the little lightings! The room was alittle smaller than what we have imagined it to be. Nonetheless, it was so comforty that I was called forth to the bed almost immediately...hehe...
Hitting the purplish Barney pinata was fun and it did take quite awhile and abit more of my energy to 'break' his legs in order to release the goodies! Not to forget, the girlies were playing the famous Barney song at the background while I was waving the wooden wand like a light sabre. Darn funny moment.
Following that were drinks and yummy champange cake! Photos are with ray. I wonder when she will send them to me..hehe...
It was such a funloving, creative night and I truly feel blessed to have my squashies with me all these while.
~jessie babe...we missed you! Hope you're having fun in Africa =)
Saturday, May 09, 2009
Birthday celebration part 2
Sunday
Dinner at East Coast Tong Lok with mom, dad, aunt, uncle, my cousins, their partners and baby Emma.
Chilly crabs were yummy and having baby Emma around made it all so fun. Pictures are not up yet, they were with my cousin.
Tuesday
Met up with Ally and Gladys for dinner. We bitched, we whined, we laughed quite abit. Mainly updating each other on what have been going on in our lives.
I still miss our days in Melbourne. Just the 3 of us, doing our fyp, shopping at Bridge Rd, buying, buying and buying. I still miss potluck and our drinking session with the guys...
Wednesday
Met up with Audrey for dinner. Pretty chic bought me OPI purple nail polish. Thank you so much!
Was alittle too tired by the time I had dinner so we went home straight away after eating.
Did I mention I kena hit by the red round swing on my lips? My forever so funny kid, stepped on it and it swung towards my direction. My LIPS! Wah lau...it bled can. Never liked the taste of blood and my smart angel asked me 'Why you don't like your blood' -_-
Anyway my only answer to her was, you gonna pay for my 'lup chiong lips' and we burst into laughters...sigh...kids....dunno to laugh or cry man...
Friday
Met up with min and apple for dinner. They lovingly treated me to Soup Spoon and Starbucks...hehe....I miss them man...Can't wait to see baby no. 2 in July!
Went to watch 'Woverine' with SQ and then went for a drink. Movie was great. Company was great too...have not stayed out late for a long long time.
Thank you for the lovely coasters that you've bought...hehe...you know which one I like out of the 6 of them...hoho...
Saturday
No need to work today! Gonna go for hotel stay today!!! Yippeee!!!!
Dinner at East Coast Tong Lok with mom, dad, aunt, uncle, my cousins, their partners and baby Emma.
Chilly crabs were yummy and having baby Emma around made it all so fun. Pictures are not up yet, they were with my cousin.
Tuesday
Met up with Ally and Gladys for dinner. We bitched, we whined, we laughed quite abit. Mainly updating each other on what have been going on in our lives.
I still miss our days in Melbourne. Just the 3 of us, doing our fyp, shopping at Bridge Rd, buying, buying and buying. I still miss potluck and our drinking session with the guys...
Wednesday
Met up with Audrey for dinner. Pretty chic bought me OPI purple nail polish. Thank you so much!
Was alittle too tired by the time I had dinner so we went home straight away after eating.
Did I mention I kena hit by the red round swing on my lips? My forever so funny kid, stepped on it and it swung towards my direction. My LIPS! Wah lau...it bled can. Never liked the taste of blood and my smart angel asked me 'Why you don't like your blood' -_-
Anyway my only answer to her was, you gonna pay for my 'lup chiong lips' and we burst into laughters...sigh...kids....dunno to laugh or cry man...
Friday
Met up with min and apple for dinner. They lovingly treated me to Soup Spoon and Starbucks...hehe....I miss them man...Can't wait to see baby no. 2 in July!
Went to watch 'Woverine' with SQ and then went for a drink. Movie was great. Company was great too...have not stayed out late for a long long time.
Thank you for the lovely coasters that you've bought...hehe...you know which one I like out of the 6 of them...hoho...
Saturday
No need to work today! Gonna go for hotel stay today!!! Yippeee!!!!
Wednesday, May 06, 2009
Have I always been such a person to you?
I felt like a good-for-nothing after reading those words. Even till now.
Choices that I've made are always the easy way out? All these years I have been stalling time, waiting to take the easiest paths?
To a certain extend it's true, if not I won't be in this state. That was the easiest way out I took. Another one would have been jumping off the ledge that very night when I felt that I could no longer handle my emotions on my own.
I haven't quite redeemed myself despite having to face kids every single day of my wake time. I haven't quite taken the advice from the professional who suggested that I should perhaps consider changing my job.
I didn't go for it. I am not ready to say good-bye.
I felt like a good-for-nothing after reading those words. Even till now.
Choices that I've made are always the easy way out? All these years I have been stalling time, waiting to take the easiest paths?
To a certain extend it's true, if not I won't be in this state. That was the easiest way out I took. Another one would have been jumping off the ledge that very night when I felt that I could no longer handle my emotions on my own.
I haven't quite redeemed myself despite having to face kids every single day of my wake time. I haven't quite taken the advice from the professional who suggested that I should perhaps consider changing my job.
I didn't go for it. I am not ready to say good-bye.
Monday, May 04, 2009
Birthday celebration part 1
Saturday:
Had dinner with my pri school frens in the evening after work. My dear min cooked me dinner with peifen being the assistant chief.
It was fun sitting by the kitchen watching the two of them walking to and fro, whipping up a meal for me...tee hee...I'm da queen! haha...
Dinner was simple but yummlicious one...and yes woman, it's so worth it and thank you so much for the effort! Appreciate the time and tasty food you've cooked...
Fen, thank you for travelling to amk for the lychee martini cake! hehe...
Sunday:
Had a mothers' day cum my birthday gathering with my aunt, cousins and my parents at East Coast Tong Lok restaurant...Seadfood! haha got to have my chilly crabs...yeah!
Cake and pressie! Photos will be up soon...waiting for my cousin to upload them...hehe...
dodo, thanx for the bag!
kiddo, thanx for the cute piggy pen cum note holder...very nice!
Can't wait for the weekend to come! Yippee!!
Had dinner with my pri school frens in the evening after work. My dear min cooked me dinner with peifen being the assistant chief.
It was fun sitting by the kitchen watching the two of them walking to and fro, whipping up a meal for me...tee hee...I'm da queen! haha...
Dinner was simple but yummlicious one...and yes woman, it's so worth it and thank you so much for the effort! Appreciate the time and tasty food you've cooked...
Fen, thank you for travelling to amk for the lychee martini cake! hehe...
Sunday:
Had a mothers' day cum my birthday gathering with my aunt, cousins and my parents at East Coast Tong Lok restaurant...Seadfood! haha got to have my chilly crabs...yeah!
Cake and pressie! Photos will be up soon...waiting for my cousin to upload them...hehe...
dodo, thanx for the bag!
kiddo, thanx for the cute piggy pen cum note holder...very nice!
Can't wait for the weekend to come! Yippee!!
Friday, May 01, 2009
happiness...
I had a GREAT time last night. Thanx to peifen, she was willing to be my faithful driver and drove me around to the places I told her so as to entertain ourselves...
First stop was prata at thomson...after eating the cripsy korsong prata there...we have decided to ditch jalan kayu prata place and fix thomson prata house as our supper cum hang out place in future...seriously, their prata and teh tarik taste so much better....
Second stop was Geylang...I seriously have nothing in mind and since we have car, might as well go drive through those lanes and look at the brothels and prostitutes...hmm...I have to say...it was alittle disappointing as we saw more guys than girls on the streets...the only thing that surprised me was how the brothels actually look like...woo..very nice purplish neon lights...poor peifen had to concentrate on driving while I went 'wah...look at that...wah look at the girls!!' ...so she didn't really get the chance to have a good look...hehe...o and we found out that lorong 18 is the busiest and most happening lanes out of the rest...haha....
Third stop was Changi village...yes...we went to see the she-males...sadly...not many of them too...not very pretty either...sigh so disappointing....hehe
Last stop...we went to T3 to have a hot drink...was just sitting there, talking, dazing, people watching...surprisingly I did find T3 super cold...unlike the first time when I just came back, complaining about it being so warm and stuffy...see...what has Singapore turned me into!
Anyway, we ended our driving trip at around 2 am...thank you peifen for being such a nice driver...I do look forward to you becoming my designated personal driver when you come back from nz...hehe..300 bucks okie?
As for today, had a fantastic time with my cousins and baby emma. We had a picnic at Botanical Garden. It was filled with food and laughters...very family feel kinda day for me...and it was extremely great that emma girl could join us...she's the queen of the day...all the attention was on her...like da jie said...ah yi and ah ping provided the food, I provided the snacks and she provided the entertainment ie. emma....haha...
Favourite picture of the day...
looking at this pic just melts my heart and it felt so real to me...if only...
First stop was prata at thomson...after eating the cripsy korsong prata there...we have decided to ditch jalan kayu prata place and fix thomson prata house as our supper cum hang out place in future...seriously, their prata and teh tarik taste so much better....
Second stop was Geylang...I seriously have nothing in mind and since we have car, might as well go drive through those lanes and look at the brothels and prostitutes...hmm...I have to say...it was alittle disappointing as we saw more guys than girls on the streets...the only thing that surprised me was how the brothels actually look like...woo..very nice purplish neon lights...poor peifen had to concentrate on driving while I went 'wah...look at that...wah look at the girls!!' ...so she didn't really get the chance to have a good look...hehe...o and we found out that lorong 18 is the busiest and most happening lanes out of the rest...haha....
Third stop was Changi village...yes...we went to see the she-males...sadly...not many of them too...not very pretty either...sigh so disappointing....hehe
Last stop...we went to T3 to have a hot drink...was just sitting there, talking, dazing, people watching...surprisingly I did find T3 super cold...unlike the first time when I just came back, complaining about it being so warm and stuffy...see...what has Singapore turned me into!
Anyway, we ended our driving trip at around 2 am...thank you peifen for being such a nice driver...I do look forward to you becoming my designated personal driver when you come back from nz...hehe..300 bucks okie?
As for today, had a fantastic time with my cousins and baby emma. We had a picnic at Botanical Garden. It was filled with food and laughters...very family feel kinda day for me...and it was extremely great that emma girl could join us...she's the queen of the day...all the attention was on her...like da jie said...ah yi and ah ping provided the food, I provided the snacks and she provided the entertainment ie. emma....haha...
Favourite picture of the day...
looking at this pic just melts my heart and it felt so real to me...if only...
Thursday, April 30, 2009
All I want for birthday is...
my love ones by my side...
I was in Melbourne last year and my birthday was spent far away from those I love and so close with those I am fond of...I had a great time last year - rushing assignments and heading for this japanese restaurant to celebrate my day...it was wonderful!
This year, I am back to my family and close friends...I am back to the numerous dates, in which I will meet up with different peeps for a meal (or two) to celebrate my bday! Yippee! And it's gonna start this Sunday! My aunt gonna celebrate mothers' day alongside with my birthday...haha...
Okie okie, I still can put down my wish list for fun right...
1. teardrop shape pendent (preferably diamond)
2. guinea pig (preferably with cage and water dispenser =p )
3. OPI nail polish
4. plenty of accessories
5. new specs
6. new jeans
7. decent go-out-shoes (flip-flops not allowed, if not someone will scream at me)
8. booze (NO hard liquor! Missy's liver cannot take it! Wine pls!)
9. Ipod nano (purple)
10. big hardy bag
till I can think of more, I'll add on...as for now...I'm heading out for supper...yeah!
I was in Melbourne last year and my birthday was spent far away from those I love and so close with those I am fond of...I had a great time last year - rushing assignments and heading for this japanese restaurant to celebrate my day...it was wonderful!
This year, I am back to my family and close friends...I am back to the numerous dates, in which I will meet up with different peeps for a meal (or two) to celebrate my bday! Yippee! And it's gonna start this Sunday! My aunt gonna celebrate mothers' day alongside with my birthday...haha...
Okie okie, I still can put down my wish list for fun right...
1. teardrop shape pendent (preferably diamond)
2. guinea pig (preferably with cage and water dispenser =p )
3. OPI nail polish
4. plenty of accessories
5. new specs
6. new jeans
7. decent go-out-shoes (flip-flops not allowed, if not someone will scream at me)
8. booze (NO hard liquor! Missy's liver cannot take it! Wine pls!)
9. Ipod nano (purple)
10. big hardy bag
till I can think of more, I'll add on...as for now...I'm heading out for supper...yeah!
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
New haircut!
Finally I get my bob hairstyle!
Not that I got influenced by 'Bob the Builder' mind you ( although the music still plays in my mind, thanx to ben ben and auggy ).
Anyway, I always change my hairstyle (esp to cheer myself up) and this time round, it's bob with lighter brown! Yippee!
Time for a change, since my birthday is coming! So peeps...booking of Jayna starts now. With a goldfish brain like mine, you need to book me and make sure I note it down in my organizer or my handphone.
Birthday wish list will be up soon. For the fun of it that is...I understand it's recession now...anyway I usually wont get what I want...like the teardrop shape diamond pendent I've been looking for ages...
Not that I got influenced by 'Bob the Builder' mind you ( although the music still plays in my mind, thanx to ben ben and auggy ).
Anyway, I always change my hairstyle (esp to cheer myself up) and this time round, it's bob with lighter brown! Yippee!
Time for a change, since my birthday is coming! So peeps...booking of Jayna starts now. With a goldfish brain like mine, you need to book me and make sure I note it down in my organizer or my handphone.
Birthday wish list will be up soon. For the fun of it that is...I understand it's recession now...anyway I usually wont get what I want...like the teardrop shape diamond pendent I've been looking for ages...
Monday, April 27, 2009
Wow...
I thought my life was drama enough, until I read this.
He reminded me of banker...I didn't know there are other guys like him...
Similar traits...two-timing or multiple timing, likes to play mind games and most importantly...one who lies ALOT to get his way through...
Perhaps my situation was not as bad, considering there is no kiddo in the picture to deal with...
While you took the convenient way to save yourself and lied your way through...
I have to learn to kill my own demons created while I was with you...
Pls protect your precious and make sure they dun end up with someone like yourself in future...
He reminded me of banker...I didn't know there are other guys like him...
Similar traits...two-timing or multiple timing, likes to play mind games and most importantly...one who lies ALOT to get his way through...
Perhaps my situation was not as bad, considering there is no kiddo in the picture to deal with...
While you took the convenient way to save yourself and lied your way through...
I have to learn to kill my own demons created while I was with you...
Pls protect your precious and make sure they dun end up with someone like yourself in future...
Friday, April 24, 2009
Out of the league...
Friendship...been thinking about it...
but I do have enough to sustain me for life...it's the kind that is with life time-warranty...so why toy with the thought...
I'm a wimp and I'm fragile...so better not touch this idea..
out of my league...definitely...
but I do have enough to sustain me for life...it's the kind that is with life time-warranty...so why toy with the thought...
I'm a wimp and I'm fragile...so better not touch this idea..
out of my league...definitely...
Thursday, April 23, 2009
4 of us...
I so miss this feeling...like since I gotten back from Melbourne...I haven't quite gotten this feeling until tonight...thanx jessie for luring me out by changing the venue...
I miss hanging out with just the 4 of us...chilling, talking...and drinking too...
Just when I'm being engulf by those sadness that suddenly crept up, just when I am starting to feel tinge of sadness on my way home...
I'm glad we met up...I'm glad we talked...I'm glad we spent time...
Honestly, I miss you girls so so much...
I miss hanging out with just the 4 of us...chilling, talking...and drinking too...
Just when I'm being engulf by those sadness that suddenly crept up, just when I am starting to feel tinge of sadness on my way home...
I'm glad we met up...I'm glad we talked...I'm glad we spent time...
Honestly, I miss you girls so so much...
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
I went to jog behind my house this evening...something rare...something I haven't quite done for a long long time...
The alone time was good...or so I thought I need it as I know I have to do something to pluck myself out of the mode...
But...it didn't seem good enough to stop them from flooding my system...
Should I establish the basis...maybe I'm just being afraid of letting it run loose...
Still picking up pieces when I thought I'm finally feeling better to move forward one baby step...
too many...too small...I am not sure how long will I need for this clean up...too many pieces to pick up...
The alone time was good...or so I thought I need it as I know I have to do something to pluck myself out of the mode...
But...it didn't seem good enough to stop them from flooding my system...
Should I establish the basis...maybe I'm just being afraid of letting it run loose...
Still picking up pieces when I thought I'm finally feeling better to move forward one baby step...
too many...too small...I am not sure how long will I need for this clean up...too many pieces to pick up...
Friday, April 17, 2009
Since feb...
My phone has been on silent mode for the longest time ever...since the night in which my mobile rang non-stop, I didn't dare to put the ringtone back...even till now...
I didn't want to talk to her, I won't know what to say except kept quiet...I don't have the right to say anything...that's the point...
Till today I wonder why I didn't tell her exactly what had happened...
I should have made you go through what I have gone through and still am going through...
Even then, you will never know the full extend...cos what you have will always be there, whereas mine will never be...
I didn't want to talk to her, I won't know what to say except kept quiet...I don't have the right to say anything...that's the point...
Till today I wonder why I didn't tell her exactly what had happened...
I should have made you go through what I have gone through and still am going through...
Even then, you will never know the full extend...cos what you have will always be there, whereas mine will never be...
Thursday, April 09, 2009
Crashing once again...
I'm not okie...
I said I am but I seriously am not...
You will never know the tears I've had since Sept...the very first time I called you while breaking down horribly in the bus was the very first of the many many episodes...did you feel my pain?
You will never know the fear I had everytime when you told me they have been read...did you know I was literally scared?
You will never know the torment I went through while I handled the aftermath on my own...did you know I thought of the many beautiful things that I actually have the abilities to become?
You will never know the guilt I had in covering up for you...did you know I hate to lie?
You will never know how not okie I am at this very moment...did you know I was pretty much getting better before you called?
You took me as an easy ride...I've let you taken me as the easy ride...did you know I was foolish enough to take your words for real?
Did you know?
I said I am but I seriously am not...
You will never know the tears I've had since Sept...the very first time I called you while breaking down horribly in the bus was the very first of the many many episodes...did you feel my pain?
You will never know the fear I had everytime when you told me they have been read...did you know I was literally scared?
You will never know the torment I went through while I handled the aftermath on my own...did you know I thought of the many beautiful things that I actually have the abilities to become?
You will never know the guilt I had in covering up for you...did you know I hate to lie?
You will never know how not okie I am at this very moment...did you know I was pretty much getting better before you called?
You took me as an easy ride...I've let you taken me as the easy ride...did you know I was foolish enough to take your words for real?
Did you know?
Monday, April 06, 2009
Seeing stars...
The last time I had dizzy spell was three years back.
I still panicked when I started to see stars. I did tell myself to breathe and stay calm though but the more I breathe, the more stars I saw...No one gave up seat and me being me, I didn't ask for a seat to be given up cos I was too panicky to even talk.
Nearly fell backwards, good thing was I stood leaning against the door so I had some support at least. I could only squat down to prevent myself from falling front or back.
Sigh...fainting and breaking into cold sweat is so not fun. Not able to move much becos of acute pain in the abdominal and then cramp....
So not fun at all...
I still panicked when I started to see stars. I did tell myself to breathe and stay calm though but the more I breathe, the more stars I saw...No one gave up seat and me being me, I didn't ask for a seat to be given up cos I was too panicky to even talk.
Nearly fell backwards, good thing was I stood leaning against the door so I had some support at least. I could only squat down to prevent myself from falling front or back.
Sigh...fainting and breaking into cold sweat is so not fun. Not able to move much becos of acute pain in the abdominal and then cramp....
So not fun at all...
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Baby blues...
I think I just found a new activity to do on Mondays that I'm off...playing with baby Emma...
Went to 2nd aunt's house today cos mom said baby Emma would be there as her mama and daddy pilot gotta fly around for the next day...
Got there at around noon time and there she was standing inside her playpen. Called her name at the gate and she smiled...such a cutie pie...
Spent the rest of the noon playing with her, cooing her to sleep...playing with her again when she woke up...being splattered with her saliva all over my face while she stuck out her tongue to blow her saliva out...
I miss having babies at home...I used to do those stuffs with auggy and ben ben...I miss spending time with them...I'm looking forward to doing that again with littly kitty...but that's only gonna happen when they come back for good next June...
I miss my baby boys...
Went to 2nd aunt's house today cos mom said baby Emma would be there as her mama and daddy pilot gotta fly around for the next day...
Got there at around noon time and there she was standing inside her playpen. Called her name at the gate and she smiled...such a cutie pie...
Spent the rest of the noon playing with her, cooing her to sleep...playing with her again when she woke up...being splattered with her saliva all over my face while she stuck out her tongue to blow her saliva out...
I miss having babies at home...I used to do those stuffs with auggy and ben ben...I miss spending time with them...I'm looking forward to doing that again with littly kitty...but that's only gonna happen when they come back for good next June...
I miss my baby boys...
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Track of my tears...
I am never quite a big fan of the American Idol, neither am I a fan of this Adam Lambert guy...
but version he sang...it's nice and soothing...and that tinge of sadness...woo...
Smoky Robinson
~What if a person had cried so much that til you get up close to them and look at their face, you could see the tears and the tracks on their face~
but version he sang...it's nice and soothing...and that tinge of sadness...woo...
Smoky Robinson
~What if a person had cried so much that til you get up close to them and look at their face, you could see the tears and the tracks on their face~
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Random....
Been having goldfish eyes for the past one week and this week started with me going to work with swollen eyes...
I literally had to try opening my eyes wide cos the upper eyelids just felt so swollen and heavy...
I'm glad little cutie pie wanted to work with me on Monday morning...he's really a smart boy who brightened up my day so so much...it's getting more fun to play and work with him nowadays...'Little elephant', thank you so much!
It's tiring...to try and stay sane...I'm perfectly fine in the day...but when I knock off...I just want to hide in my room...and often I would be bawling my eyes out cos things just keep flashing back and flooding my system...
Dreamt that I went out with him last night...when can I heal? When can I not cry anymore?
I literally had to try opening my eyes wide cos the upper eyelids just felt so swollen and heavy...
I'm glad little cutie pie wanted to work with me on Monday morning...he's really a smart boy who brightened up my day so so much...it's getting more fun to play and work with him nowadays...'Little elephant', thank you so much!
It's tiring...to try and stay sane...I'm perfectly fine in the day...but when I knock off...I just want to hide in my room...and often I would be bawling my eyes out cos things just keep flashing back and flooding my system...
Dreamt that I went out with him last night...when can I heal? When can I not cry anymore?
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Hurt beyond words...
Yes, I've cried tonnes...I think since last Sept...then again last Xmas, and again in Jan and then now...
Yes, I dun have the right to cry tonnes in the first place...
I am not proud of what I've done...
Yes, I should have known it coming and be able to leave unconditionally...but part of me couldn't bear to let go...
Yes, I shouldn't have followed my heart, thinking or rather hoping things will be different this time round...
It's back to July 2007...
The only difference is, I dun think I need closure this time round...
You've shown me enough to know what to hope for...only to be disappointed over and over again...
You said you're glad to have shared your life with me...I wanted to reply 'me too'...but some things were just not good enough...
It was never good enough...
I'm sorry it turned out this way...
Yes, I dun have the right to cry tonnes in the first place...
I am not proud of what I've done...
Yes, I should have known it coming and be able to leave unconditionally...but part of me couldn't bear to let go...
Yes, I shouldn't have followed my heart, thinking or rather hoping things will be different this time round...
It's back to July 2007...
The only difference is, I dun think I need closure this time round...
You've shown me enough to know what to hope for...only to be disappointed over and over again...
You said you're glad to have shared your life with me...I wanted to reply 'me too'...but some things were just not good enough...
It was never good enough...
I'm sorry it turned out this way...
Saturday, March 07, 2009
I miss...
you...
who once had such lovely smile and sunshine character,
who once so daring and opened to experience in life,
who once dared to really love and not afraid to hate those who did not deserve your love,
who once dipped into depression but emerged stronger,
who once was never as self centred as now,
who once was able to give so much more to friends around than ever,
where have you been all these while? when did I lose the sight of you and lost you completely?
how could I have allowed myself to lose you in the first place.
I think I lost you since last Sept...
I want you back...can you pls come back?
who once had such lovely smile and sunshine character,
who once so daring and opened to experience in life,
who once dared to really love and not afraid to hate those who did not deserve your love,
who once dipped into depression but emerged stronger,
who once was never as self centred as now,
who once was able to give so much more to friends around than ever,
where have you been all these while? when did I lose the sight of you and lost you completely?
how could I have allowed myself to lose you in the first place.
I think I lost you since last Sept...
I want you back...can you pls come back?
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
Mom asked...
'Why are your eyes swollen?'
'O, cos they've been quite itchy...'
I thought the shower would have do me good....I should have hid in my room longer...
'O, cos they've been quite itchy...'
I thought the shower would have do me good....I should have hid in my room longer...
Monday, March 02, 2009
why?
Tummy not feeling too good...
Had diarrhea last night...Now it's feeling weird again...on the right side somemore...wah lau...
Sigh, dun know what's wrong with me, I thought the break will do me good but I kept stepping the wrong foot out...it's either I overlooked or I was too blur and got things mixed up...got things worse...
Thought I'm less blur nowadays but I guess not...running around so many places makes me even more blur...is this signs of aging?
Sigh...
Had diarrhea last night...Now it's feeling weird again...on the right side somemore...wah lau...
Sigh, dun know what's wrong with me, I thought the break will do me good but I kept stepping the wrong foot out...it's either I overlooked or I was too blur and got things mixed up...got things worse...
Thought I'm less blur nowadays but I guess not...running around so many places makes me even more blur...is this signs of aging?
Sigh...
Thursday, February 12, 2009
record....
stepped out of office at 930pm...reached home 1045pm...
had dinner at 11.05pm...
molded into the couch 1130pm...
finished another report 1230am...
probably gonna sleep without bathing...
two words...
wah kaoz...I feel damn tired and fat...
had dinner at 11.05pm...
molded into the couch 1130pm...
finished another report 1230am...
probably gonna sleep without bathing...
two words...
wah kaoz...I feel damn tired and fat...
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Chasing pavements
Heard of this song while watching the Grammy award and typing reports. I like her voice...think she's british as well...too bad Duffy lost to her...
Funny how I'm always drawn to songs like 'chasing cars'...and then this 'chasing pavements'...
The mtv is rather interesting...though I dun quite understand but thought it's something new, making use of the shadows to piece a story...cant load the mtv here...go search in youtube and take a look alright...
I've made up my mind,
Don't need to think it over,
If I'm wrong I am right,
Don't need to look no further,
This ain't lust,
I know this is love but,
If I tell the world,
I'll never say enough,
Cause it was not said to you,
And that's exactly what I need to do,
If I'm in love with you,
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If I knew my place should I leave it there?
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere
I'd build myself up,
And fly around in circles,
Waiting as my heart drops,
And my back begins to tingle
Finally could this be it
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If I knew my place should I leave it there?
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If I knew my place should I leave it there?
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep on chasing pavements?
Should I just keep on chasing pavements?
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If I knew my place should I leave it there?
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere
Funny how I'm always drawn to songs like 'chasing cars'...and then this 'chasing pavements'...
The mtv is rather interesting...though I dun quite understand but thought it's something new, making use of the shadows to piece a story...cant load the mtv here...go search in youtube and take a look alright...
I've made up my mind,
Don't need to think it over,
If I'm wrong I am right,
Don't need to look no further,
This ain't lust,
I know this is love but,
If I tell the world,
I'll never say enough,
Cause it was not said to you,
And that's exactly what I need to do,
If I'm in love with you,
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If I knew my place should I leave it there?
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere
I'd build myself up,
And fly around in circles,
Waiting as my heart drops,
And my back begins to tingle
Finally could this be it
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If I knew my place should I leave it there?
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If I knew my place should I leave it there?
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep on chasing pavements?
Should I just keep on chasing pavements?
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If I knew my place should I leave it there?
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere
Monday, February 09, 2009
Help...
I can't sleep...tired but can't sleep. Every corner I turn to I see couples, I see babies...
I see everything that I cannot handle and incapable of handling...
Everything...
I see everything that I cannot handle and incapable of handling...
Everything...
Sunday, February 08, 2009
I think I need...
a long...good...break...
but before I can do that...need to clear all my reports...sigh...no more new cases pls...suddenly I seemed to have more than I can handle...o no...
I AM SO TIRED....
need to stock up on Brown Brothers...I need them....argh....damn sian...
but before I can do that...need to clear all my reports...sigh...no more new cases pls...suddenly I seemed to have more than I can handle...o no...
I AM SO TIRED....
need to stock up on Brown Brothers...I need them....argh....damn sian...
Sunday, February 01, 2009
My bundle of joy...
is going back to Hongkong tomorrow...so sad...no more 'naughty gu gu' , no more 'bu yao, bu yao...'
Time flies...auggy is so big and round now...ben ben is so articulate now...they grow up so fast...I havent even had the chance to catch up with them yet...
pics below are taken after much coaxing and hair pulling...mainly mine...little mr opposite will keep saying he doesn't wanna take pics with me despite my plea....
He still didnt wanna take a proper pic with me...so i bodyslammed him...hahaha...
This was the best attempt I had with auggy...
more of ben ben's photo in my nikon camera. This pic aint qutie just in proving his cuteness...cos both of us just woke up...hahaha...
Time flies...auggy is so big and round now...ben ben is so articulate now...they grow up so fast...I havent even had the chance to catch up with them yet...
pics below are taken after much coaxing and hair pulling...mainly mine...little mr opposite will keep saying he doesn't wanna take pics with me despite my plea....
He still didnt wanna take a proper pic with me...so i bodyslammed him...hahaha...
This was the best attempt I had with auggy...
more of ben ben's photo in my nikon camera. This pic aint qutie just in proving his cuteness...cos both of us just woke up...hahaha...
Such a fucktard...
Third day of new year...man...just my luck...
I hate my natural reflex...I smile at elderly, I smile at babies, I smile at doggies even...
Should I walk past and not smiled, I think he would have not recognised me at all...
Freaky weird dun-know-what-to-do-but-to-smile moment...such a fucktard...
So many years of not crossing paths...we actually bummed into one another near my work place...
I need to learn the British royal smile...
One that shows you-dun-deserve-my-smile kinda smile...
I hate my natural reflex...I smile at elderly, I smile at babies, I smile at doggies even...
Should I walk past and not smiled, I think he would have not recognised me at all...
Freaky weird dun-know-what-to-do-but-to-smile moment...such a fucktard...
So many years of not crossing paths...we actually bummed into one another near my work place...
I need to learn the British royal smile...
One that shows you-dun-deserve-my-smile kinda smile...
Monday, January 26, 2009
High high high...
New Year Eve
Had sore throat and ran a fever from morning till night. It was horrible...I slept through the whole day, feeling pathetic and missing out on the yearly Chinatown midnight shopping...sigh that's the usual highlight of my lunar new year man...
Dun think I ate more than 3 meals since last night...
No doc for me to see...this close to wanna go A & E...
Luckily I still have lovely frens who showered me with love, msges and calls...
Had sore throat and ran a fever from morning till night. It was horrible...I slept through the whole day, feeling pathetic and missing out on the yearly Chinatown midnight shopping...sigh that's the usual highlight of my lunar new year man...
Dun think I ate more than 3 meals since last night...
No doc for me to see...this close to wanna go A & E...
Luckily I still have lovely frens who showered me with love, msges and calls...
Monday, January 19, 2009
ARGH!!!!
I HATE IT!
HATE IT!
HATE IT!
HATE IT!
I hate this self loathing feeling. I'm this close to hitting the roof and kill myself while smacking my brain out on the ceiling.
This close!
HATE IT!
HATE IT!
HATE IT!
I hate this self loathing feeling. I'm this close to hitting the roof and kill myself while smacking my brain out on the ceiling.
This close!
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Facing Window...
Five years since I last caught this. I still love it. Almost forgotten the story line...
This time round, tinge of sadness was evoked rather than the previous just/unjust feeling...
In the end, it doesn't matter the choice you make. Just make sure you can live with it for the rest of your life...
This time round, tinge of sadness was evoked rather than the previous just/unjust feeling...
In the end, it doesn't matter the choice you make. Just make sure you can live with it for the rest of your life...
Friday, January 16, 2009
random thoughts...
He was so good today, didn't yank my hair, didn't hit me in the chest either.
Instead, he gave me a little peck on my cheek =)
That's enough to warm my heart. I wish he can stay that way all the time, I wish I can get through to him and into his world...
Instead, he gave me a little peck on my cheek =)
That's enough to warm my heart. I wish he can stay that way all the time, I wish I can get through to him and into his world...
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Goldfish eyes...again...
Behind my house
Alone in the middle of the night
Fireworks, I exploded like one...
Colourful night...
Alone in the middle of the night
Fireworks, I exploded like one...
Colourful night...
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
working late...
Worked in the office till late today. I had kids till 6.30...I typed reports till 8.45...
Am the last to lock up the office, the last to go home...
I kind of enjoy typing the stuffs alone in the office...freaky it might be (this time round there is no techno toy fish singing in the cupboard) but it's starting to feel like a second home to me...
Starting to learn not to let the loneliness and emptiness affect me...drowning myself in reports seems to work just fine for me...
No more crying...climbing out of the pit hole requires so much strength...no point wasting more energy on generating tears...I'm good on my own...at least for now I am...
Am the last to lock up the office, the last to go home...
I kind of enjoy typing the stuffs alone in the office...freaky it might be (this time round there is no techno toy fish singing in the cupboard) but it's starting to feel like a second home to me...
Starting to learn not to let the loneliness and emptiness affect me...drowning myself in reports seems to work just fine for me...
No more crying...climbing out of the pit hole requires so much strength...no point wasting more energy on generating tears...I'm good on my own...at least for now I am...
Sunday, January 04, 2009
Passing the parcel...
Our beloved Sze is finally 27 yo! As requested by the birthday boy, we went to bukeroo for western food. As usual, we were late and by the time we've reached, I was so exhausted that I felt like sleeping.
It was a good dinner =) Just 8 of us with a hearty meal. O well, we had a fair share of food and I had my beef-craving satisfied (although I did feel like puking beef cos was filled to the brim but it was good stuff!). It warmed my heart that we can just sit around, talk, joke, cut up the food and pass it to one another...the sharing part was fun and funny. The singing of birthday song and cake cutting was fun too. I realise being 27 means your cake will be covered with candles...damn...that make me feel so darn old...can I request to have only one candle on my cake for my birthday?
Went to sembawang beach after dinner, stood there for awhile and it felt good...Haven't stood by the beach with the breeze blowing at my face for a long long time...after that, it's guitar hero time at gage's house...
O forgot to mention, aside from food that we passed around...flu bug was another thing that was passed around during dinner...I ended up with my nose running like tap and being slightly feverish...
The night ended with 5 of us grooving in the car with Kylie's songs and 3 ppl sneezing all the way....fun eh...ho ho ho
It was a good dinner =) Just 8 of us with a hearty meal. O well, we had a fair share of food and I had my beef-craving satisfied (although I did feel like puking beef cos was filled to the brim but it was good stuff!). It warmed my heart that we can just sit around, talk, joke, cut up the food and pass it to one another...the sharing part was fun and funny. The singing of birthday song and cake cutting was fun too. I realise being 27 means your cake will be covered with candles...damn...that make me feel so darn old...can I request to have only one candle on my cake for my birthday?
Went to sembawang beach after dinner, stood there for awhile and it felt good...Haven't stood by the beach with the breeze blowing at my face for a long long time...after that, it's guitar hero time at gage's house...
O forgot to mention, aside from food that we passed around...flu bug was another thing that was passed around during dinner...I ended up with my nose running like tap and being slightly feverish...
The night ended with 5 of us grooving in the car with Kylie's songs and 3 ppl sneezing all the way....fun eh...ho ho ho
Thursday, January 01, 2009
time for new year resolution??
So fast....it's been a year since I last had the costume party, stink up Peifen's car with char kwey tiao, or rather all the oily food bought from chomp chomp and of cos, made my pals finish up the 2 weird bottles of wine that had residue in them (without telling them it's been kept for like ages...plus the fact that I only brought it out when most of us were half sober...)
This year, we spent our new year eve at ck's house with awesome shabu shabu and nicer wines to go with...although we still have to drink with residual of the cork in wine due to malfunction or the wine opener...haha...but at least it beats having to drink weird wines...
Time flies...last year this time I was alone in Singapore, on vacation and waiting to fly to HongKong to meet up with my family. Last year this time I think I was happier and more carefree...
This year, I gotta make sure I can...
~get rid of that flabby tummy of mine and perk up the body system so that I dun fall sick so often..
~earn more and save more money so that I can pay all my bills and my loan on time...
~pass basic theory, advance theory and eventually driving test (Think it will be a long process)
~be happier and more open with my emotions...
~be more hardworking and less procrastination...
~swear lesser...hahaha...
I will get better...definitely...and to all who love me...thank you so much for being there for me all these while...muack...love ya!
This year, we spent our new year eve at ck's house with awesome shabu shabu and nicer wines to go with...although we still have to drink with residual of the cork in wine due to malfunction or the wine opener...haha...but at least it beats having to drink weird wines...
Time flies...last year this time I was alone in Singapore, on vacation and waiting to fly to HongKong to meet up with my family. Last year this time I think I was happier and more carefree...
This year, I gotta make sure I can...
~get rid of that flabby tummy of mine and perk up the body system so that I dun fall sick so often..
~earn more and save more money so that I can pay all my bills and my loan on time...
~pass basic theory, advance theory and eventually driving test (Think it will be a long process)
~be happier and more open with my emotions...
~be more hardworking and less procrastination...
~swear lesser...hahaha...
I will get better...definitely...and to all who love me...thank you so much for being there for me all these while...muack...love ya!
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